Chapter 777 Diary Written for One Person (7)

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"February 6, 2017, smog. After returning from Hainan, I recognized my biological father. She called me brother. At that moment, I knew that my life was not the darkest, only darker. It has been a long time. I haven’t written a diary anymore. I don’t know where to start. Let’s start with sorry. Tingting, that night in Hainan, we made an agreement that you would go back to get married, I would meet a new girl, and we would all start a new life. If we meet again, we will be brothers and sisters. But I'm sorry, I lied to you again. The reason why I promised you is because I want you to stay in heaven. I have been in the dark hell for many years. It is impossible to return to the human world. If I give up loving you, it is better to let me die. You will never know that the day I met you in 1996, I was destined to live my life alone without you. . If someone can really replace you, I would have given up on you when I knew you were my biological sister. Maybe I am really too stubborn, but there is no way, when I knew I liked you At that moment, I had locked up my heart. I made a prison for myself, and then threw away the key with all my strength. My heart could not be opened, and no one could come in again. You can’t get out either.”

"On February 10, 2017, Song Menghua selected many marriage partners for me, and also called Song Qingchun to come over and help me find a girl. I could see that she was a little sad, but she still helped me find a girl very seriously. From It was already eleven o'clock when the Song family got home. After taking a shower, I lay on the bed and couldn't fall asleep. I thought about the story between her and me from beginning to end, but I still didn't feel sleepy. After Hainan came back, I couldn't sleep all night for the fourth time. I knew that she had to marry Qin Yinan. I also knew that no matter how much pain I had, I had to let her see that I was not in pain, but I I also know that I may not be able to hold on. I am not that strong. I am strong enough to watch the love of my life marry another man and feel calm. I am strong enough to toast her calmly and naturally at her wedding. A sentence that lasts forever."

"Her marriage was set on February 14, 2017. On March 14, White Valentine's Day, I had a headache for nearly three hours during the day. I stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window and watched the sunset. Suddenly I walked up, but fortunately the floor-to-ceiling windows blocked me. At that moment, I realized that I might be sick, because I had the intention of committing suicide without realizing it. I knew that I should I went to see a doctor, but instead of going to see a doctor, I bought some tranquilizers myself. The reason why I didn’t want to see a psychiatrist was very simple. I fell in love with my biological sister, and was spurned, looked down upon, disgusted, and disgusted by. It doesn't matter, after all, I have experienced all this when I was very young, but I don't want people to know that she is my biological sister. I don't want her to be spurned and hated by others because of me. She is the best thing in my life, and I will fight to the death. We must protect the best."

"On February 16, 2017, missing her has another name: stabbing yourself in a thousand knives. I miss her very much and stab myself in a thousand knives every day."