Chapter 770 99 Emails (20)

Song Qingchun felt a dull pain in her heart and continued to look down.

"October 3, 1996, sunny. I transferred to a new school. I had been released from the mental hospital for three days, but I felt that my world was still dark. Everything around me was clearly right in front of me, but But I feel very, very far away from me.”

"On October 5, 1996, at three o'clock in the morning, there was no moon or stars. I woke up from a nightmare again. The first thing I did when I threw off the quilt and jumped out of bed was to rush into the bathroom. There was no hot water in the dormitory. , I took a cold shower for a full hour in the late autumn night. The other roommates were all sleeping, and the dormitory was very quiet. I was shivering with cold, but I didn’t feel sleepy at all while lying on the bed. You’re dirty.”

dirty? Why does Su Zhinian feel dirty?

On the first page of the diary, three entries were written, but it gave Song Qingchun a lot of questions.

She gently turned the paper and looked at the second page.

"October 6, 1996, a cloudy day with light rain. I had another nightmare. It was the same scene in the mental hospital. It had obviously been so long, but the feeling of the old woman touching me was still there in the dream. It was extremely clear. I felt very sick. I hid in the toilet and vomited for half an hour. Then I took a cold shower for more than an hour. I had classes during the day and felt that everything in the classroom was dirty. Even my classmates were extremely dirty. , I started to have a fever in the afternoon. Today is Friday. I came home from school in the evening. My mother worked overtime and I was the only one at home. I felt uncomfortable with the high fever. I didn’t call my mother for support like before. I randomly found some medicine to take and lay down. Passed out on the bed."

"The feeling of an old woman touching my body." Song Qingchun read this sentence several times before realizing what it meant.

Was the young Su Zhinian ever bullied? No wonder she always felt that his mysophobia was terrifying. It turned out that it was because of this incident...

In front of her eyes, there seemed to be a looming scene, the scene of Su Zhinian, who was beautiful when he was young, being bullied; the scene of a person being sick and unconscious on the bed... Song Qingchun felt that her heart was like She was tightly bound by something and was contracting hard. The pain was so painful that it was difficult for her to breathe.

She never knew that he had such a dark experience as a child...

"On October 8, 1996, the sky was clear and windless. I was bored on the weekend. I went out for a walk with my headphones on. There were so many people on the street and it was noisy and lively, but I was out of tune with this world. At the entrance of Mingjing Hutong , I met a little girl, and a man in a peaked cap offered her candy, and she nodded stupidly and agreed. The man in a peaked cap was a trafficker. I didn’t want to pay attention to it at first, but at that time The girl picked up my wallet when she passed by me. Simply because I didn't want to owe her a favor, I told her that the uncle was a bad person. She blinked her eyes and looked at me without speaking. She looked really stupid. She was so stupid that she was hopelessly stupid, which made me feel that she didn’t understand what I was talking about at all. Just when I was regretting my talk and was about to turn around and leave, she actually said to the man, I If you leave alone, my brother will say you are a bad person."