Chapter 2155 Doubts

The reason why Zhang Yan asked this was because Jin Ling behaved very differently on the way back than when she came.

She didn't work, and she asked for a glass of wine shortly after getting on the plane, but Zhang Yan had finished watching the more than two-hour "Kingdom of Heaven" on the computer, and the wine didn't go down at all.

She just shook it in her hand and turned it around, just like those old people treated the two fitness iron balls in their hands.

So Zhang Yan actually wanted to ask, "Sister, can you exercise while doing this? Or can you cultivate your mind and cultivate your character?"

But looking at Jin Ling's current appearance, it seems that it is not appropriate to make such a joke.

She seemed a little distracted.

She always looked out the window, as if Feng Yiping was outside the window.

However, Zhang Yan had also looked out the window many times, except for the magnificent but somewhat unchanging blue sky and sea of ​​clouds, where else was there.

When he just left the airport, he could still see other planes in the distance, but now he couldn't see any other planes.

"My song? What do you mean my song?" Jin Ling retracted her gaze from the window, "Oh, you said he wrote it for me, no,"

In fact, how could it be possible that he didn't? She even said such harsh words, and emphasized more than once that she would do what she said, how could Feng Yiping dare not do it?

The reason why she behaved like this along the way was actually related to the song Feng Yiping wrote for her.

The song she got was called "Passing".

Overall, it was excellent, especially the few lines at the left, Jin Ling liked it very much, "How lucky I am to have you accompany me through every setback\Even if I shed tears, what does it matter\I imagine\the future\and forever\is with you\together\I will never change\the past,"

She felt that this could be said to be the most affectionate confession to her by Feng Yiping, the cowardly guy, using lyrics.

Of course, the previous ones are also good, such as the sentence, "If this life is like a journey, it will be complete only after it is completed."

There are also some that puzzled her, or made her feel a little bad, such as the sentence "Who has never doubted, believed, waited, left, and it was worth it."

Although the sentence "it was worth it" is good for the two of them, I have always believed and waited, but I have never doubted, let alone left.

So, did he doubt and leave?

But, does he have reason to doubt?

I am always alone, but you are always surrounded by flowers.

So, do you still doubt me?

As for leaving, she felt that Feng Yiping had left more than once.

This leaving was not in space, but, how to say, in feeling.

Sometimes, she could feel Feng Yiping's feelings for her.

Even in a long-distance phone call, a "hi" can be heard - yes, they have such ability.

But sometimes, even if he was right in front of her and smiling brightly, Jin Ling could clearly feel the deliberate alienation behind that smile.

Feng Yiping was silently emphasizing to her that we were colleagues, we were just colleagues.

There was actually a pattern to this kind of thing.

For example, if he acted intimately the last time they met, he would definitely act distant the next time.

Or, when Jin Ling acted more straightforward, he would do the same.

In short, he couldn't help but take a risk, and then took a big step back in panic.

If it were someone else, they might think that Feng Yiping was worried that others would plot against his money, but Jin Ling knew that that didn't apply to her.

She also understood the reason why he acted that way, or rather, she subjectively believed that Feng Yiping acted that way because he really had feelings for her in his heart, but because he didn't handle his personal feelings well, he didn't want to let himself down.

But the problem is, I have clearly emphasized to you that it is just that when I am lonely, I want to have someone I like to accompany me, and find a decent father for my future child. When have I ever asked you to take responsibility?

Sister, have I ever been the kind of woman who sticks to men?

So, sometimes she really thinks that guy is a very contradictory villain.

Obviously, from the results, even if it is not promiscuous, it is definitely not loyal. Although he is not unable to walk when seeing a beautiful woman, at least he will look at a beautiful woman a few more times, and most of the time he is a villain with the idea of ​​not looking at her, but sometimes his actions are to show how pure and deeply in love he is.

She has never seen such a tangled person.

However, the song that Feng Yiping gave her, although she was most entangled, was still the beginning sentence, "If the way I love you is different from the beginning, why don't we change positions and see what it looks like before,"

This sentence, even if she connects it with the following text, is a bit difficult to understand.

It sounds like the way you loved me at the beginning, that is, the original way, seems very beautiful.

But speaking of it, have you ever said you love me once, whether in Chinese or English?

Or even said you like me?

Have you?

What is your current way, and what was your original way? Why can't I feel any difference?

The original way? What was that like?

To be honest, Jin Ling could only feel Feng Yiping's feelings more clearly when Ma Wenqi approached her again.

At other times, she really felt Feng Yiping's thoughts, sometimes like the clouds in the sky, unpredictable, and sometimes like a dream, always far and near.

Then, the meaning of this whole song is that even if we keep going on like this, it is also a kind of happiness.

But that is not the happiness I want.

I don't have so much time to guess your thoughts.

I don't have such good patience to play such childish games as children, and I will not be so detached that I will be satisfied with and enjoy a purely platonic love - the key is that you don't give a clear definition of whether this is love or not, and you still let people guess in the fog.

I don't care about forming a family, but I must be a mother.

If Feng Yiping knew that the song he "created" made Jin Ling so confused and made her complain about him again, he would definitely laugh and cry.

The reason why he gave Jin Ling this song was because it was the most suitable song for their current situation among all the songs he was familiar with, and it was also the one that could express his inner thoughts in a tactful way.

So his focus was actually mainly on the last few sentences in the song, or most of the meanings in the song.

He really didn't expect that Jin Ling would read the short lyrics over and over again, and savor them carefully again and again.

Please, sister, from ancient times to the present, how many people who rely on typing to seek fame, or leave a name, or make a living, don't pretend to be a little mysterious, or to put it bluntly, don't use too many words?

Even the regulated verse is like this, not to mention the lyrics now (not to mention online novels).

You understand the general meaning, why do you have to repeatedly ponder every word and every sentence?

Of course, in the final analysis, this matter is also Feng Yiping's own fault.

Although he is such a rich man and such a big boss, he usually speaks very straightforwardly in front of ordinary employees, and never quotes classics to say something.

I have never been like some people who, once they have a little status, can't wait to show off and wrap their words with various ineffective language. It's obvious that I'm asking you to go to the east to chop wood, but I have to start by asking you to go to the south to fish.

I'm afraid that I'm too clear, as if every word I say doesn't make people guess, it will make me look like a nobody.

In front of Jin Ling, it's even more so.

Besides, this is what he wrote down at Jin Ling's repeated request. It can be said that it is the words that express his true feelings in his heart. It can also be said that this is the programmatic document for his definition of the relationship between them. How can Jin Ling not repeatedly ponder and comprehend word by word?

So, from a higher dimension, all the pits encountered on the road, in the final analysis, are dug by ourselves.

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After listening to Jin Ling's words, Zhang Yan hurriedly comforted Jin Ling, "Ah, why is he like this?"

Jin Ling couldn't help hugging Zhang Yan, you girl, you are really generous.

Faced with this situation, he only wanted to comfort me.

Such innocence is really good and cute.

"You got the lyrics, do you like it?"

"Not bad," Zhang Yan bowed her head habitually.

She was not used to discussing such things with others.

She really liked the lyrics Feng Yiping gave her before leaving.

Unlike Jin Ling, she liked the first paragraph, "Give you a CD from the past\Listen to our love at that time\Sometimes I suddenly forget\I still love you,"

He not only gave her CDs, but also the CD player to play CDs.

Sometimes, he did act as if he had forgotten that he still loved her. They hadn't seen each other for a long time, and they didn't meet, and they didn't call each other often.

But Zhang Yan knew that it was not the case.

From every meeting and every phone call, she could feel the surging emotions that he tried to restrain behind his calm words and smile.

Just like some people, when talking about their wedding anniversary, they still look vague and very uncertain.

It's not that they really don't remember, nor do they care about that day from the bottom of their hearts.

But from the moment he saw you for the first time, he chose to be with you forever, for a lifetime, for lifetime after lifetime, until the end of time, so it doesn't matter if you deliberately choose a day to commemorate it.

Commemoration is to not forget, but sometimes, it is inevitable to miss the point.

When two people love each other, the focus is not a certain day, but the love and heart that have been walking together.

Why do we say "sometimes I suddenly forget that I still love you?"

It's like saying that we sometimes forget to breathe.

But how can that be forgetting? It's that it has become an instinct, so many times we don't even think about this problem.

But because she was facing Jin Ling, who had always taken good care of her and treated her like a younger sister, whether in business or in life, Zhang Yan instinctively felt that it was a bit inappropriate to say only three words, especially when Jin Ling did not get the song written by Yiping for her. It was obviously not appropriate to be so proud, so she added, "The song is also very good, and it is really nice to sing."

Jin Ling actually got the song, but she didn't understand those things at all. When she got it, she didn't let Feng Yiping hum a few lines in front of her. This time, she had the urge to take it out and let Zhang Yan try it.

However, when she thought that she hadn't completely understood the meaning of some of the lyrics, she still gave up this urge.

Alas, let's wait until we land and ask for clarification.

Seeing Jin Ling sigh, Zhang Yan hurriedly comforted her, "Jin Jie, it's definitely not that he doesn't want to write, but because he takes this matter very seriously, so he needs time to write the best song for you,"

"Don't worry, you will definitely see it when you get it,"

Her words just made Jin Ling have some other ideas.

He didn't take her request too seriously, so he just wrote a song casually.

Counting it up, it took only more than three days from the time she made the request to the time he finished writing.

But isn't it also because of the emotion that the inspiration comes out?

Besides, his attainments in writing are indeed good.

She shook her head. Why should I be so childish? Why not just ask him directly when the time comes?

"Zhang Yan, don't worry, your problem, I think, will be solved soon,"

"Ah?" Zhang Yan looked at her a little embarrassed.

Jin Ling patted her shoulder, "Just wait, he's already 25 years old,"

"25 years old, we can regard it as a hurdle, once it passes, even if he doesn't care, his parents will urge him,"

"So, just wait,"

"Sister Jin, I... I haven't thought about it that way," Zhang Yan's face was as red as the peach blossoms in early spring in February.

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