Chapter 213 Second Watch

"I don't like it." Xia Fanxing said, "I wish I could get fatter, but since I came here, I'm much better than before."

"It's true that you got fatter." Ning Youguang said, "Do you know what kind of emotions these nodules on your stomach come from?"

"What emotion?" Xia Fanxing asked curiously.

"Anger." Ning Youguang said.

"Angry?" Xia Fanxing was puzzled, "I haven't been angry for a long time, I'm not an angry person."

"You are indeed a person who seems easy to talk to." Ning Youguang said, "But there is a conflict between your inside and the outside. There is a very rigid part of your character, and your anger does not come from the outside. It comes from the inner self-attack, you have a lot of dissatisfaction with yourself." Xia Fanxing thought for a while and said, "Actually, I don't want to be like this now, but I seem to enjoy it a little bit."

Ning Youguang said, "What was your school experience like?"

"Go to school?" Xia Fanxing said, "Have you ever gone to school since childhood?"

"right."

"I don't remember many things in kindergarten, but I remember them very clearly after elementary school."

"As much as you remember, as much as you say."

"I have been in a private boarding school since I was in primary school. The school is actually pretty good. The teachers and principal are very good. They know my family and take good care of me."

Xia Fanxing said, "The problem is, on Sunday afternoons and Monday mornings, I'm depressed. I don't want to go to school. My father and mother just put me in the car and put me in the car. I didn't cry even in the car. Yes, a few times, I cried very hard, my dad even picked up the ruler, made me kneel in the study room, and beat me hard. I went to school for several days later, and I couldn’t even hold the chopsticks steadily when I ate. This kind of memory It's so profound."

He compared the length of the ruler with his hand, it was about one meter.

"It's the same in middle school. Every Friday afternoon after school, the students around me are very happy. I look forward to returning home, and I will follow suit. But every time I go home, I am very disappointed. I happily tell my parents that I am back." , they were very indifferent, making me think that I am not going home, I am here to collect debts..."

"And my dad, seeing me is either indifferent, or asks me about my homework, and criticizes me, saying that I can't do well here, and I can't do it there either!" Xia Fanxing took a deep breath, "Mr. Ning, you know that kind of Do you feel it?"

He had a look of disgust all over his face.

"wipe!"

"I'm really sick, why come back?!"

"I shouldn't have come back."

"When I was in high school, my grades were not satisfactory, and my dad said I owed a lesson..." Xia Fanxing said through gritted teeth, "Send me to the military academy, which is completely closed, and the instructors are very strict. There are no mobile phones, no Computers, no entertainment, every day is not studying, it is training. In the first semester, I tried to find a way with other students to escape by jumping over the wall. After escaping, my father scolded me and beat me up. Slap me back and send me back to school, the instructor looked at me like a prisoner, I couldn't escape at all, and I didn't want to escape, and then I became numb."

Xia Fanxing's eyes were red.

The expression on his face was one of strong sarcasm and self-deprecation, as well as deep hatred.

"I think even if I die there, they will think I deserve it."

"I don't know where I owe a lesson. Did I kill someone or set it on fire?"

"What the hell do I owe them to treat me like this?!"

"After a year in high school in the military, I came out..."

"Mr. Ning, do you know why I came out?"

"Why?" Ning Youguang asked softly.

"There are two reasons." Xia Fanxing said, "The first reason is that I have to study hard and take the college entrance examination. The second reason is that the teachers at the military academy said that I have a mental illness."

"Psychopathy?" Ning Youguang was puzzled.

"Yes, it's ridiculous, isn't it?" Xia Fanxing sneered, "What's even more ridiculous is that after I left school, my dad really sent me to a mental hospital and prescribed a bunch of drugs for me, what antipsychotics? Divisive pills, antidepressants, a whole bunch of shit."

"Have you eaten?" Ning Youguang thought that Xia Fanxing's question still had many parts that had not been dug out, but he did not expect this to be the case.

"Eat it, why don't you eat it?" Xia Fanxing said, "They all say I'm sick, so I'll eat it."

"Is there any sequelae?" Ning Youguang felt a chill down his spine.

"Yes." Xia Fanxing folded his hands around his chest, in a state of self-protection. "I used to be very smart. Although my father always told me that I was not good enough, I thought I had good grades. I often took the first place in the class and remembered everything quickly. However, since I took the medicine for mental illness, My brain is not working well, I can’t remember anything, and I go back to high school to go to class, and I often take the bottom few exams.”

A sense of pleasure after revenge appeared on Xia Fanxing's face, "Are you saying it's funny? Hahaha..."

"My dad said why I became stupid, so I said, take medicine."

He took me to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor said, "Taking these medicines will indeed slow down the brain's reaction speed."

"Mr. Ning, do you know how ugly my dad's face was at that time?"

He burst into tears and laughed for a long time, "He wished he could blow up that hospital."

"It's so funny." He held his stomach, "Mr. Ning, let me laugh for a while."

Ning Youguang nodded, then looked at him quietly and smiled.

Smiling and laughing, Xia Fanxing started to cry, the facial features on his face were a little distorted, "I have never seen my dad so out of control in my life, when he got home, he threw away all my medicines, and there was no Let me keep eating those."

"I went back to high school to continue my studies, because my memory was bad and my brain was really not working well. During the college entrance examination, I didn't pass the undergraduate exam." The change on Xia Fanxing's face gradually calmed down. "My dad wants to save face so much. He is a proud person. Of course, he doesn't allow a son who can't pass the college entrance examination. After the college entrance examination, he packed me up and sent me to the UK."

"Although I didn't know anyone in the UK at the beginning, I had my own friends later on, and I was able to do some things I like, such as riding horses, traveling, playing games, doing handicrafts, etc. I feel that I have a good life. It’s okay, it’s far away, my dad doesn’t care about me, or he has given up on me, so I’m relatively free.” Xia Fanxing said, “By the way, I’m still going with my classmates. I do a part-time job, although I don’t earn much, but I’m very happy, I’m tired, and I sleep well. My college life is really good. It’s also in college, and I found that I don’t have to live a good life. Compared with these, being able to make my own decisions and decide my own life makes me happier." 1314