Chapter 1212 Extra: I Can Live without You

In fact, Su Xiaoyan's heart was already in chaos when she saw him. No matter how much she had experienced, no matter how she tried to hide it, she still loved him in her heart.

Many times, the words he said made her want to nod and continue to be with him, but when she thought of her child, she just couldn't nod her head.

Let it go, Su Xiaoyan sighed in her heart. It may not have been long enough for the incident to pass. She still couldn't forget these things. What happened in the future still depended on fate. It was not that simple for two people to be together. After going through so much, she also felt this deeply.

"Do you feel tired? The bars in Chengdu are quite unique. Do you want to go and have fun together? If you are tired, you don't have to go." Bu Lingfeng said to her when they were eating hot pot together.

"Go, anyway, I'm free when I go back. I didn't drive, so I didn't feel very tired. But you have to leave tomorrow. Can you toss and turn?" Su Xiaoyan raised her eyebrows and looked at Bu Lingfeng and asked, thinking that she didn't know if this man's physical strength could do it after all the tossing and turning. After all, he is also an older man, isn't he? Of course, she knew in her heart that she couldn't say anything questioning a man's physical strength.

"Of course I'm fine. Let's go after we're full. Actually, I don't know much about the bars here. We'll just go to whichever one we like." Bu Lingfeng smiled freely and looked very sexy. Su Xiaoyan couldn't help but feel a little dazed, but soon came to her senses. Men's looks are a disaster.

After dinner, they drove to Jinli. The environment here was really good at night, at least she thought so. After finding a random place to sit down, they ordered a few bottles of beer and sat there listening to songs.

"The environment here is really good. If there is nothing to do, it must be very relaxing to sit here." Bu Lingfeng chuckled and sighed.

"Yes, it is indeed very relaxing. I used to work here, but I never came here again because of that scumbag. I still like it here. I can indulge my emotions and see the truest side of many people. The elite white-collar workers who are decent during the day become beasts in human clothing here. It's quite interesting, isn't it?" Su Xiaoyan said with a chuckle while taking a sip of beer. When you come here, you can't help but relax, and even become a little unrestrained.

"You have indeed changed a lot for him. When I first saw you, I couldn't recognize you." Bu Lingfeng said with emotion.

"Right, actually, now that I think about it, I feel that I wasn't myself at that time. I was muddleheaded and I don't know what I was thinking. I actually delayed so many things for such a man. At that time, I was probably blinded by love. I learned a lesson. I probably won't make such a mistake again in the future." After saying that, Su Xiaoyan drank the beer in front of her in one gulp. Maybe she drank too much. Now she actually felt that she was full of heroic spirit. I don't know what she was thinking. She actually ran upstairs and snatched the microphone from the singer and stood on it herself.

This was a very familiar angle to her, but now she feels a little strange standing here. Looking at Bu Lingfeng sitting in the crowd, she smiled at him, "Good evening, everyone. This is my first time to come to Chengdu, and the person I love, or should I say, the person I love but cannot get. I am 26 years old this year, and I have loved two men, one is a scumbag, and the other is a scumbag, but I don't regret it. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be who I am today. Although I am no longer young, I have the courage to make money and support myself. I can stand here and say to them that although I love you, I can live without you." As she said that, she stretched out her hand and made a contemptuous gesture.

"I used to be a resident singer in a bar. For so many years, for a man, I gave up my dream and became unrecognizable. Today, I may have drunk too much, or the atmosphere here in Chengdu is too good. Now I finally have the courage to stand here. I want to sing another song for myself and for you, the travelers I met by chance." After she finished speaking, she bowed deeply to the people below, respecting them and her past.

Ignoring the applause from the audience, Su Xiaoyan communicated with the band on the side and then stood in front of the stage with her eyes closed. The familiar melody sounded, and the embarrassment she thought she would feel did not appear. She swayed her body gently with the rhythm, singing the lyrics she had engraved in her heart, and felt relaxed from the bottom of her heart. All the entanglements she had been struggling with seemed to be far away from her.

"If life is really impermanent, I would like to face it calmly without panic. You are by my side, you give me strength, hold you, hold you, I hold you." As she sang, her tears could not help but flow.

Su Xiaoyan didn't know what kind of mood Zhang Zhenyue was in when he sang this song. She just felt that she was singing about herself, holding herself, giving herself strength, constantly struggling, and experiencing ups and downs. She always believed that she would still have hope and a good life.

When she finished singing and walked down, there was a burst of applause from the audience, but Su Xiaoyan was hugged and taken out by Bu Lingfeng before she had time to enjoy this feeling. When he stuffed her into the car, she had not yet reacted. What happened?

It was not until they arrived at the hotel and he pushed her into the room that Su Xiaoyan realized and wanted to ask him what he was going to do. However, before she could open her mouth, he pressed her against the wall and sealed her lips.

Perhaps it was the effect of alcohol, Su Xiaoyan did not refuse directly, anyway, she closed her eyes and indulged in the deep kiss with him.

I don’t know who took the initiative, but before they knew it, the two of them rolled into the bed. When they were honest with each other, she couldn’t help but trembled a little, and then she felt a little sober. Unexpectedly, he went in at this time...

The long-lost joy came to her heart. After sighing, Su Xiaoyan no longer thought about those things, and simply enjoyed this storm to her heart’s content...

I don’t know how many rounds of tossing and turning that night, Su Xiaoyan was finally hugged tightly in Bu Lingfeng’s arms and fell asleep.

When she woke up the next day, Su Xiaoyan was still a little confused. Seeing the man in front of her, she blinked in disbelief. What is this? What is going on after drinking? I didn’t expect her to do such a thing.

"Morning." Bu Lingfeng, who didn’t know whether he had woken up a long time ago or was awakened by her actions, kissed her on the forehead and said hoarsely.