Chapter 1894 Seeking Benevolence and Obtaining Benevolence

Lin Jingsheng has always been relatively rational. From childhood to adulthood, he has actually been a very rational person. Even if he is as steady as Lu Bai, he sometimes loses control. He thinks that everything in this life except loving Chu Lin is involved in his plans. He followed the plan. He knew very well what he wanted. When Chu Lin came close to him, he could see through Chu Lin's mind. Until he knew that he could not get rid of his royal identity, he knew that he and Chu Lin has come to an end, so he has been thinking of ways to find a balance and a way that both he and Chu Lin can accept to resolve the deadlock between them.

Chu Lin has a very serious desire for exclusivity and mental hysteria. He will never tolerate him having a pair of children. No matter how much he wants a child to inherit the throne, even if he is willing to sacrifice everything he has for a child to inherit the bloodline, Chu Lin cannot Tolerate this, he knew very well that no matter what he thought, he had to give up the thought. He forced himself to give up the thought, but thought of a way to get the best of both worlds. If the child is Chu Lin's, this matter will be solved perfectly. .

As for him, he thought, he was all right.

He can tolerate it. He can no longer make a promise to Chu Lin. He can't hold Chu Lin's hand and walk in the sunshine. He can't bring Chu Lin home and accept his parents' blessing. For this relationship, he will even do anything. There was so much he couldn't do when he lost his life, and he had so much helplessness, but at least, there was one thing he could do. He could endure for Chu Lin what ordinary people couldn't endure.

He could offer this country with both hands for Chu Lin.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Chu Lin roared, then became furious, "Why did you do this? Are you punishing me?"

Why does his heart hurt so much?

He has hated the past three years of indifference, hated his three years of childishness, hated why he gave up the three years with Ah Sheng just because of the inexplicable concern. He has already reflected and blamed himself, but unexpectedly, Because of Lin Jingsheng's words, he wished he could go back in time and beat himself up three years ago. Why was he so childish? What on earth had his eyes been fascinated by? He was possessed. This was originally a Why does a very simple thing become so complicated in his eyes? What on earth is he going to do? What was he going to do?

Ah Sheng, do you want me to be heartbroken to death?

He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

His Asheng.

In the past three years, he had endured so many grievances.

Why is he so stupid?

"I...can't say it." Lin Jingsheng looked at him with a smile. He was very calm when he mentioned that past event, without any sadness. He already felt that this sadness was nothing, because it had passed.

The children have grown up too.

"You can't fucking say it, but you can do it, you can't do this kind of thing, you actually..." Chu Lin was furious, but he knew that the person who had the least right to be angry was him, because the child They are all his, Ah Sheng would not lie to him about such a thing. No wonder he was so keen to be intimate with him during that time. It turned out to be for this matter, for the sake of the children. He was so stupid, so stupid that he didn't think of it. .

He never thought that Ah Sheng would sacrifice himself to this extent for him.

Chu Lin suddenly held him in her arms. He was so heartbroken.

He's such a jerk too.

"A Sheng, you..."

What do you want me to say?

When a man sheds tears, he doesn't shed them easily, but they are not sad yet.

It's really just that I haven't reached the sad point yet.

Lin Jingsheng gave him a hug in return. He thought that all the forbearance, admiration, and sadness could all be solved with a hug. In the past ten years, they had gone through too many things, but they had finally overcome them. Even in the cold winter, they had overcome the wind and sand, hugging each other and keeping each other warm. Lin Jingsheng thought that they would be able to go hand in hand in this life without any more setbacks, no more complaints, and no more blame.

"Actually, you don't have to blame yourself, I did it for myself." Lin Jingsheng said.

"Why are you doing it for yourself? It's obviously because of me..." It's obviously because he cares too much, he's too stupid, it's because he has a gap that he can't cross, it's because he has too many hesitations, and he's not firm enough, so Ah Sheng is tolerant. , or even connivance, he is in the midst of blessings and does not know the blessings, how can he make him sacrifice to such an extent, he clearly knows better than anyone else Lin Jingsheng's helplessness, but he has been forcing him, knowing clearly that if their feelings are destroyed It is known that he will kill Ah Sheng, but he is still so eager to walk with Ah Sheng in the sunshine. He is really too childish, childish to a certain level...

How will he face Ah Sheng?

If the person Ah Sheng fell in love with was not him, if he wasn't such a stupid person, maybe Ah Sheng wouldn't have to sacrifice like this.

"Why are you so stupid."

"I do it for myself." Lin Jingsheng said softly, "Alin, if I really have a child, you never know about it. In the past three years, although you have decided to come back and decide not to care about it, it is because of this After three years of asking, you think being with me is more important than your heart, so you ignore your heart, but it has always existed and has not disappeared, so you care about me. I'm thinking, if Jiang and Zhouzhou are my children, and we are together, one day in the future, we quarrel, I will not have the position and confidence to face you, and I will not be able to stand in the same position as you to love. You, I may even think that all of this is... painful. What if one day our quarrel hurts the child? This kind of life is definitely not what I want, so it is fair. I have many things that I cannot give. For you, my child, I can give it to you. This is fair to you and to me. I don’t mind. Trust me, I really don’t mind.”

Chu Lin thought, how could she not mind?

Lin Jingsheng didn't know how to explain his state of mind to Chu Lin, or maybe he never could.

But what he said was true.

He has already been so ashamed of Chu Lin. If he has another child, there will definitely be problems in the relationship between him and Chu Lin in the future, and the balance will definitely be lost. In this case, he will be very sad. If the child is Chu Lin's Solving future problems doesn't matter to him, it doesn't matter at all.

He loves Chu Lin and the children.

The children had been with him for three years and he loved them so much.

"In the past three years, I have wanted to tell you the truth countless times. I didn't know that your leg was healed. If I had known that your leg was healed a long time ago, I wouldn't have delayed it for so long. For me, delaying it for one day, I just waste a little time with you. The days are getting shorter and shorter, so why waste it?" Lin Jingsheng sighed, "Alin, this is my choice, you don't have to feel sorry for me, I ask for mercy."