Chapter 135: Be Happy

Because of his father's piety and his own excellence, Kotomine Kirei's first half of his life was almost smooth. He entered the seminary all the way and became a representative. Ability, and will soon sit on the priesthood that the Holy Church focuses on training.

This was the position his father held in his old age, having dedicated his life to the Church.

And this is just his starting point. It is not difficult to see that there is a bright future ahead of him. However, during this period, Kotomine Kirei's pursuit has also reached its peak. He tried all the ordinary methods in the world, but he couldn't get happiness.

So, he decided to try one last time.

Forming a family like an ordinary person, he chose Claudia as his marriage partner. It was a woman who was eroded by the disease and had only a few years of life left. Up to now, he does not remember that he is the only woman who can choose , I chose her because of this characteristic of hers.

Kotomine Kirei is a very serious person when a premise statement is required, so, as always, he treats the matter of marriage with the most sincere attitude.

He gave up the idea of ​​becoming a priest, resigned from the position of substitute, and became a good husband with peace of mind, taking care of his frail wife meticulously, and devoted all the love that ordinary people could think of to her.

They lived like this for two years, giving birth to the crystallization of love. During that period, Kotomine Kirei once thought that he was in love with that woman, but later discovered that it was just an illusion.

Despite everything he has done, Kirei still cannot experience happiness from his wife, even if the other party understands his essence and works hard to heal him.

But the more his wife was like this, the more he wanted to see her sighing expression.

Even a woman who understood him in this way couldn't heal him, Kotomine Kirei finally decided to give up, he planned to kill himself, before that, he met his wife for the last time and confessed.

"In the end, I still can't love you,"

In the pale ward, facing the depressed Kirei, the woman who was eroded by terminal illness and might die at any time smiled.

"No, you love me."

Claudia smiled, and swung the cold knife towards herself. In the shocking pool of blood, the woman showed a bright smile like a hydrangea.

"Look, you're crying."

Kirei confirmed at that time that it was a woman's imagination, and this woman tried to use her own death to prove that Kotomine Kirei loved her and was a valuable person.

But at that time, Kirei just left the red-stained ward without saying a word,

There is only one thought in my mind.

"Since death is inevitable, I hope to do it myself."

"Do you remember it?"

Roland squatted down, held Kotomine Kirei's drooping head, and forced the priest to look him in the eye.

"You are a distorted person who can only get pleasure from the pain of others, so the way you express love is also distorted. If you really love someone, you will want to see her in pain. This is contrary to common sense love, so you might mistakenly think you don't love her."

"This is a nature that you cannot correct and cannot escape. However, the difference in the way of expression does not affect the sincerity of this relationship."

"Tell me, Kotomine Kirei, have you ever loved someone?"

Kotomine Kirei stared blankly at Roland as if he had lost his skeleton, and then, in the reflection of the red pupils, he saw the light in the corner of his eyes, and then his vision blurred.

"Are you crying?"

Hearing these words, Kotomine Kirei seemed to have been forgiven, touched the teardrops that were falling down his face, with a dazed and helpless expression, as if because he made a mistake, he dared not go home and could only wander outside same as children.

At that time, what I felt in my heart was the unwillingness of not being able to enjoy the death of my wife, or the sadness of wanting to kill him because I loved her?

Because it was a suicide, Claudia's death was secretly hidden and sealed as a worthless file, but Kotomine Kirei couldn't admit that it was worthless.

But one thing should be true, Kotomine Kirei, deeply in love with Claudia.

Now, under Roland's guidance, all the answers have been revealed. This stern man looked at Roland.

"I have a question, and I'll only ask it once."

"A world where a sinner like me can obtain happiness must exist."

"It must exist. If it doesn't exist, let's create it," Roland laughed, with the corners of his mouth raised, quite defiantly, as if the previous gentleness was an illusion.

"Since fate has given us this natural quality, it can't dictate that we have to lead a life of pain and sorrow. Why should the evil party be crucified, and why should the villain have to endure more suffering than anyone else."

"I don't agree with such a truth. The villain should have a happy ending. Even if it is an indescribable fate that decides all of this, I will resist."

"I will be more evil than all men, more noble than all villains, and I will never stop moving until I have surpassed fate."

Roland's pupils have been completely alienated, and the color of the iris is no longer as bright red as blood. It seems to be composed of countless layers of gem fragments. It flows dark red like magma from hell. Just looking at it makes people feel Burning, afraid.

He held out his hand again.

"So, do you want to come to my side? My friend, even if you entrust your life to each other, will you follow this principle and do everything you can to complete him?"

"Of course," Kotomine Kirei lowered his head aggressively again, but this time, his eyes were filled with pale frenzy, and he half knelt down, kissing Roland's outstretched hand.

"The revelation is right in front of my eyes. As a believer, I have to obey."

"From now on until the end of the world, I will love you as I love God."

"Welcome, my everlasting friend, and now, rejoice, your wish is here manifested."

"Yes, Lord Roland."

The priest uttered new prayers and hearty laughter towards his god.

Just as Roland was about to plan his next move, the magnificent bell rang again in his ears.

"The Ark of the Dead."

He silently recited the almost non-existent golden finger, and came to the stone tablet again, and there were already a few lines of new text on it.

【Milestones - have trustworthy friends】

[Every savior should have a close friend who inherits the will, they are necessary and indispensable to the destiny of his own creation. 】

[If it's a priest, then your taste is even better. ——]

【Achieved】

(I was driving today, a little late, tomorrow will be four more.)