Chapter 134 Word ↑ Kirei Mine ↓

"Roland..."

Casually throwing Irisviel, who was already in a coma, aside, the tall priest read Roland's name, and some kind of fanatical emotion flickered in his empty eyes.

Kotomine Kirei strode towards Roland, the fiery light ignited in his pupils, he and Roland looked at each other, with surging emotions in his heart, but he asked a question calmly.

"Those who are not born to be expected by the world, things that should not be born, but survive alone in this world, is this a crime?"

"Of course not." Facing Kotomine Kirei's anxious questioning, Roland just said gently, "Crime is the shackles of a gangster. A lonely patrolling guy like you only has desire and love, so why not?" Talk about a crime?"

The eagerness in Kotomine Kirei's eyes became more obvious.

"I have already met Irisviel, he told me, Emiya Kiritsugu, that man who is as empty as me, his emptiness does not come from the bottom of his heart, but a side effect of chasing dreams, is this true?"

"You should be very clear in your heart."

Having personally obtained the confirmation from Roland, the last hope in Kotomine Kirei's heart was also killed.

His eyes gradually turned cold, and he returned to his usual cold posture.

"In other words, my whole life is a sad person who has no value and does not understand happiness?"

Irisviel's previous heart-breaking words successfully dealt a heavy blow to Kotomine Kirei. Since childhood, Kotomine Kirei has realized that he is different from ordinary people and cannot obtain happiness.

But even so, he still worked hard.

Work hard to love others, accept God's instruction, and be a good person.

This is not an impulsive enthusiasm, but a persistent persistence. He has been the image of this good man for more than 30 years.

No matter how many evil deeds Kotomine Kirei has committed and how disgusting he is, everyone must admit that he was too shining before, against his own nature, and lived with a completely opposite image for more than thirty years. Until the end, Kotomine Kirei himself accepted the fact that he cannot obtain happiness.

The nature given to him by God is evil, but he worked hard to approach the right direction. After he realized that he could not obtain the happiness of ordinary people, he still worked hard and spent his whole life to find his own answer.

- the way to be happy like a normal person.

until now,

After even this most humble desire was completely rejected by Iris Viel, Kotomine Kirei collapsed.

He looked at Roland dully with mechanical eyes, and asked: "That is to say, I will never be happy, so should I end my sad life like scum?"

"Maybe, but I won't allow it."

Roland looked at Kotomine Kirei, "If you want to obtain happiness as a normal person, then you are always spinning in circles, but the world is ingenious because it is a spiral of contradictions."

"I prefer people like you to the happiness of the masses."

"Prefer poisonous weeds instead of flowers, moths instead of colorful butterflies, such colors are weird, but very interesting."

Roland stretched out his hand towards Kotomine Kirei, "Since I was very young, I have had the same thoughts as you. At that time, I only acted according to instinct and never considered other things. Fortunately, I got guide."

"So, mind if I'm your guide? My friend?"

Kotomine Kirei took a small step, moved a small step, did not hold Roland's hand, but walked in front of him, and said in an indifferent voice: "I am all ears."

"You are a pleasure-seeker, and you can only derive your own happiness from the suffering of others."

Roland expressed the essence of Kotomine Kirei in a firm tone.

"You should feel it, right? Although it was just an accident, seeing Kenneth die tragically made him angry because of his own style. When he was in pain, what did you feel?"

Roland was persuasive, and Kirei Mine, like a student answering a teacher's question, obediently spoke up.

"It's like standing on a cloud, sweet, happy, and satisfying, a wonderful feeling that I've never experienced before."

"That's happiness."

"That is to say, my father, did he give birth to a dog? Did he give birth to a dog that can only be happy with distortion and filth!"

Kotomine Kirei yelled fiercely, it was really because his own nature was too contrary to the three views he had acquired.

During his asceticism as a teenager, he even fasted because he could not obtain the happiness of ordinary people. Before participating in the Holy Grail War, after the last pursuit of happiness failed, he also prepared to commit suicide and died together with his wife.

Because the education he has received since he was a child is like this, if he is born with sin, then he cannot be worthy of the world without being punished.

"Hahahahahahahaha——!"

He laughed crazily, even though he could have a bout of anger, he didn't stop.

Is this kind of laughter mocking his useless efforts over the years, or is he pitying his father who is a pious believer but gave birth to a defective product?

Looking at Kotomine Kirei who was laughing wildly, Roland only responded with a sincere smile.

Kotomine Kirei has collapsed, but he has not completely died. The three views he has upheld for many years will make a final struggle. After smashing that, his new, reliable, and trustworthy friend will be born .

"Huh, Huh" Kotomine Kirei panted loudly, relieving the discomfort in his lungs, this belated trial was only short of the last bullet.

It was his last hope to kill him, possibly the only one of his kind in this war.

"So, what about the evidence?"

"Since you said that I'm not emotionally deficient, it's just that I can't feel other people's feelings in a normal way, that is to say, I should have had redundant feelings too, right?"

"I should have loved someone else too!"

This was the knife that Irisviel stabbed directly into Kotomine Kirei's heart. Now, licking the wound, he threw the question to Roland intact.

If it's someone who doesn't know much about it, Roland may not be able to answer it. After all, normal people know enough about the story and its essence. If they understand it in detail, they may be a character chef.

Roland's love for Kotomine Kirei is just the customer's love for the exquisite vases in the window, not idol worship, not to the point of a character chef who can tell the source of every detail.

However, he did have a deep understanding of Kotomine Kirei's problem.

Roland looked vaguely. After all, the personality and Lihui of this priest's daughter were quite to Roland's appetite, so he took some time to read the story and experience of the other party. Mine Kirei's experience is also finished.

Therefore, there was no wavering in his eyes.

"↑Kotomine Kirei↓, you did love someone. Although it was difficult and incredible, you did love her,"

"Shouldn't you know that person's name very well?"

"Stop talking!"

Kotomine Kirei shook his head in pain, and spit out the name of the woman who should have been an insignificant part of his life and was almost forgotten by him.

"Claudia Ordesia..."

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