Chapter 419 If You Can't Take a Step Forward

The other her in the body was laughing, secretly happy, and thankful.

This was a thought that Bai Lu could not accept and could not confide in others. It was an unkind, dark thought that lacked morality. It meant distortion and even moral corruption.

So she could not say it, but she could not get rid of this thought.

"Doctor Muchun?" Bai Lu suddenly turned her head and looked at Muchun.

"Eh? I'm here." Muchun replied.

"I think you are abnormal." Bai Lu said.

"Abnormal? I'm fine." Muchun looked at her left shoulder, then her right shoulder, and finally her shoes.

Bai Lu was amused by Muchun's cute and helpless look, "You were muddle-headed before, and often spoke strangely. Why don't you speak now and become elegant?"

Muchun touched his head embarrassedly, "Isn't this your husband back? Shouldn't I be more restrained?"

"Ah? What nonsense." Bai Lu didn't know whether to laugh or cry. She just thought that Doctor Muchun seemed to have become serious and reliable, but why did he suddenly become so frivolous and irrelevant.

While thinking secretly, Mu Chun seemed to have regressed on the road of elegance. Bai Lu only heard Mu Chun complaining, "Yes, how come Teacher Bai Lu got married? It's really too much, too uncomfortable. If you ask me, it would be great if Teacher Bai Lu didn't get married."

"Ah? Can a doctor say such a thing?" Bai Lu asked.

"Then don't treat me as a doctor. After all, we are not just doctors and patients, right? Besides, we are not in Huayuanqiao Community Health Center now. I still have to say my love. Otherwise, you will think that I am different from before, just suppressed. As for me, if I can express my true thoughts and will not be laughed at or looked down upon, I think my true thoughts are quite reasonable." Mu Chun became happier and happier, and patted his shoulder with his hand, talking nonsense seriously.

"So what is Dr. Mu's true thought?" Bai Lu didn't want to ruin Mu Chun's interest, so she asked in cooperation.

"Well, I won't say anything." Mu Chun suddenly retreated, shook his head and turned away, leaving only his back to Bai Lu.

After Mu Chun's fuss, Bai Lu suddenly didn't know what to do. After hesitating for a long time, Mu Chun looked up and sighed, and then shook his head dejectedly.

"Doctor Mu Chun, what's wrong with you? Then I won't ask you what you really think." Bai Lu said.

Mu Chun suddenly turned around, with countless (crying and laughing) expressions on his ordinary face, and he felt embarrassed that he was about to cry at any time. Bai Lu was a little confused, and hurriedly comforted, "Doctor Mu, if you want to say it, just say it. If you don't want to say it, don't say it. Don't scare me."

"Teacher Bai Lu is really a good person. Why did you get married? I think that the matter with He Ping is not necessarily a bad thing. If that's the case, then it's okay for Teacher Bai Lu to like someone else. Life also requires equal exchange and fairness, right? At most, it's even. Look at your husband doing such a thing, so you don't have to worry about your own affairs, right? Everyone is wrong, it's even." Mu Chun sighed.

Puff!

Bai Lu couldn't help laughing. Isn't this exactly what she thought? How could someone say it so easily? In Bai Lu's heart, such an idea is simply like a devil.

Obviously, she was greedy for drinking, afraid of loneliness, and always felt that her husband was not around, so she did those stupid things. When she knew that He Ping really cheated, she actually had those shameful thoughts in her heart. She did think of it-it's even.

This idea is so tempting, as if it erased her mistakes in an instant.

It was just like an eraser, erasing the past that I didn't want to recall little by little.

No longer had to worry about how to face He Ping, because he also made mistakes, he was wrong.

But can such words really be said? Can this mushroom growing in the corner really be taken out to the sun and said?

How could this Muchun, this doctor, just say it directly, and make people feel so relieved.

Bai Lu didn't know what to say for a moment after her own thoughts came out of Muchun's mouth.

"So now, let's look at He Ping's problem. Since everyone is even, what do you think? As a couple, do you believe him? Once you believe his words, it means that he didn't cheat or commit those stupid things?" Muchun kindly reminded.

Bai Lu fell into deep thought. Five minutes later, Bai Lu spoke up, "Did he find a lawyer? What did he say to you that day?"

Mu Chun told Bai Lu that He Ping denied having an intimate relationship with Xu Dan, and Bai Lu looked a little disappointed.

"Life always moves forward, Teacher Bai Lu, go see him, maybe he has something he's willing to tell you."

Mu Chun waited for Bai Lu to nod before leaving the ward. Five minutes later, Mu Chun saw Fang Ming, who looked ashen.

"Mu Chun, can you drive?" Fang Ming asked as he took off his white coat.

"Ah? I can." Mu Chun replied.

"Okay." Fang Ming said as he took out the key of the Ford from his trouser pocket and handed it to Mu Chun.

Although it was winter, the heating in the surgical inpatient department was not cold at all, and it was considered a temperature like spring all year round. But Fang Ming's hands were as cold as a bowl taken out of the refrigerator.

When Mu Chun touched Fang Ming's fingers, he thought he had touched the key.

"Doctor Fang, what's wrong with you?" There were still nurses and patients walking in the corridor, and Mu Chun's voice was very low.

Fang Ming shook his head, "Let's talk in the car."

He looked extremely tired, so tired that Mu Chun felt that he was forcing himself to speak.

Mu Chun started the Ford car, Fang Ming checked the seat belt, and then looked out the window.

The car was extremely cold, and Mu Chun hoped that the heating would be faster and warmer, but it was not that easy. Unlike air conditioning, the heat in the heating system of car air conditioning is not generated by the air conditioning system, but by the engine coolant. After the engine is started, it keeps running and working, generating a lot of heat during the operation. This part of the heat is quickly absorbed by the engine coolant to achieve the purpose of cooling the engine, and the air in the car keeps flowing through the heat exchanger under the action of the blower, so as to exchange heat with the coolant flowing through the heat exchanger, so as to achieve the purpose of heating.

This process cannot be rushed.

Mu Chun knew that Fang Ming would feel better if the car was warmer. No matter what happened to him, it would be better if it was warmer.

"I didn't expect you could drive." Fang Ming suddenly said.

What kind of logic is this? Do I look like someone who can't drive?

"Ah, I learned it in college." Mu Chun replied.

"I also learned it in college. I was still taking his class that year." Fang Ming looked at the sycamore trees that were retreating quickly outside the car window.

After the last batch of dead leaves fell, the sycamore trees around the sea in winter were like giant dry old men, tired and lonely. The uneven branches stubbornly rushed upwards, but they were so quiet that even the wind blew and there was no shaking.

"He? Is he the patient you just received?" Mu Chun asked.

Fang Ming didn't speak, closed his eyes, put his hand on the air-conditioning outlet, warmed his fingers, and stared at the windshield in a daze.

"Doctor welfare time. Psychiatrists and psychosomatic doctors will help you solve your problems for free. Is your friend sick?" Mu Chun asked mischievously.

Fang Ming took a deep breath and closed his eyes. Seeing Mu Chun acting so cute, he had to nod.

"It's too difficult, it's really difficult. He just divorced two years ago and married his beloved girl. The girl is two times younger than him and can be his daughter. After marriage, they had a child. The little daughter is less than two years old now.

Two years ago, everyone envied him for retiring soon. He was really a big winner in life. He went abroad with a full scholarship. After returning to China, he first worked as a teacher in a medical school and focused on scientific research. Later, he joined an overseas pharmaceutical company. You know, the year-end bonuses of biopharmaceutical companies over the years can be piled up into a small hill on the bed. Although I haven't seen many special achievements, there is really a lot of hot money.

Colorful life, talented people, when I divorced two years ago, I was already He is an executive of a pharmaceutical company. He has lived several lifetimes. Two years ago, I went to Los Angeles to attend his wedding. The bride was as beautiful as Lin Chiling. The wedding was very fashionable. Many business celebrities and people from the entertainment industry attended. At that time, he looked very healthy and still smart and capable. He was also elegant and charming when he talked and laughed. He was both enviable and respectful.

Speaking of which, when I was studying, the pharmacology course was a headache and I had no interest in it at all. If the original professor had not been pregnant and waiting to give birth, he would have come back to take over the pharmacology course. I might have had to retake it. "

When Fang Ming talked about his time in college, his gloomy mood seemed to be slightly better, and his face was a little more energetic.

After driving two streets, there was finally some heat in the car.

Mu Chun listened carefully and drove seriously at the same time. He drove very slowly and had almost no temper, but he could not tolerate any distraction.

Fang Ming shook his head and sighed, "You drive more steadily than I do. It's a pity not to be a surgeon."

Mu Chun smiled and said, "Isn't life full of regrets? I'm used to it. Surgeons will also encounter many confusions, such as the patient's family members don't understand the treatment plan, the patient thinks that the doctor doesn't give him a good enough treatment plan, or the patient thinks that his ideas are different from the doctor's, and the doctor doesn't know as much as the patient. I don't know. Speaking of general practice, I also interned in the surgical ward for more than half a year. It seems that many things are happening every day, but not all things can have a perfect ending. Some disappear naturally with time, and some disappear with the replacement of new sheets."

"This is true. Hospitals are like this. Time is in a hurry. Every doctor can tell many stories, but many We didn't have enough time to stay in the story. We were rushing to the next operation. We were going to admit the patient. OK, admit the patient. Bed No. 15. The operation will be in the afternoon. Remember not to eat anything in the morning. Have you eaten anything? Very good.

Discharge summary, admission record, discharge summary Time in the hospital passed very quickly. Actually, I like Huayuanqiao Community Health Center very much. Although the outpatient clinic is also very hard, there are always many patients, many elderly people who can't speak clearly, and family members who always bother you, but after leaving the ward, it is indeed a little further away from the birth, aging, illness and death of human beings.

Sometimes I envy you, Muchun, really envy you, a department without blood, a department without scalpels, no ICU, no ventilator, no rescue, no entanglement in life and death. "Fang Ming rolled down the car window a little and let some cold air into the car.

"Why did he return to China for treatment?" Muchun asked.

Fang Ming seemed to have not thought about this question yet. He frowned and turned to look at Mu Chun. "I haven't thought about this question, and I haven't had time to ask the professor. I have been paying attention to his condition and I am very nervous. I don't think I can handle it."

"Really?"

"The tumor marker values ​​are all elevated, especially CA-199, which is more than ten times higher than the normal value. CT shows that there is a space-occupying lesion in the middle of the pancreatic body, and the mass compresses the pancreatic duct. The bile duct has not been involved in the CT, so the professor does not seem to have obvious jaundice reaction. He feels deep pain after meals. He studied medicine. Although he has been engaged in drug development, he is still sensitive to his body. He went for a check-up soon. Indeed, it does not look advanced. To be optimistic, it can even be considered mid-stage. The professor himself knows that there are indications for surgery, so after the examination, he booked a flight back to the sea. He arrived today and asked me to receive him by name. Fortunately, I am indeed in Zhinan Affiliated Hospital today."

Fang Ming tried to make a very serious disease sound easier, and it didn't sound so desperate.

Mu Chun heard it very clearly and understood why Fang Ming's hands were so cold in the hospital before.

"Pancreatic cancer?" Mu Chun said.

"Yes, pancreatic cancer. Even if you are not a medical student, you should know that pancreatic cancer is more likely to be fatal than fatal. The severity of this disease and our current treatment technology still do not have a particularly effective way.

Although partial resection and subsequent radiotherapy can be performed according to the specific condition, if you are lucky, it is possible to remove the tumor completely; if the patient considers not undergoing surgery but chemotherapy and radiotherapy first, and then undergoing surgery after reducing the complex, it is also a method. But. But"

Fang Ming, who was extremely calm, said several "buts" in a row, and finally choked up and couldn't speak.

After sniffing, Fang Ming said, "Please listen to me. This is my job. It must be very annoying for you to listen to it."

"Yes, it is very annoying. Anyone who hears it will be distressed. You are a doctor and a student of the professor. You have always had a good relationship. You must be more distressed." Mu Chun stepped on the brake and waited for the red light.

"But I guess the professor himself is more worried. He is a very strong and decisive person. This time he came to the sea alone. I am worried that he did not tell his newly married wife about this matter, for fear that his wife would worry." Fang Ming said.

"So he came to Zhinan Affiliated Hospital to find you, and he also hopes that you can keep it a secret for him, right? Don't tell your former colleagues or classmates, so that it will be easier for him. A very strong person will not give up hope easily. He will cooperate with the treatment, Doctor Fang." Mu Chun slowly drove the car into the parking lot, closed the window, pulled the handbrake, and opened the door after doing everything step by step.

Fang Ming smiled and got out of the car, and seemed to have regained his usual coldness and steadiness. "Our inpatient department will also be built. In the future, there will be more and more patients. Doctor Mu must work hard."

It was as if the worries just now were all put into his coat pocket. If you don't pay attention, you can't find them at all.

"Just tell me if you need me." After walking to the second floor, Mu Chun patted Fang Ming on the shoulder.

This scene happened to be seen by Liu Tiantian, who chased Mu Chun all the way to the fifth floor, "Eh? Teacher Mu Chun, Director Fang Ming is not a confused person like Dr. Zhang. Aren't you afraid of being so close to him?"

"Afraid? What to be afraid of? Fang Ming is a very good doctor. Besides, he now understands the work of the Department of Psychosomatic Medicine more and more. Why should I be afraid of him?" Mu Chun said, put on a white coat, and made himself another cup of coffee.

Liu Tiantian spread his hands, "Okay, okay, Teacher Mu Chun can handle anyone. Now even Director Fang Ming has become your good friend. By the way, lawyer Zhang Mei is here. It seems that she went to Dean Jia first, and is now in Dr. Chu's office. Don't say I didn't remind you. She is not in a good mood. I guess Shen Fan's matter is not going well."

After Liu Tiantian finished speaking, he took a bottle of yogurt from the refrigerator and tiptoed out of the clinic.

Mu Chun stretched and turned on the computer to print some documents. He thought again about whether he had missed anything about Zhou Ming's matter, and whether there was any important part that he had not thought of.

Well, I think I haven't missed any key points, but Mu Chun is not sure whether Zhou Ming will never have pica again.

This is the mood of a psychosomatic doctor. How much effect can be achieved by doing the best? Sometimes it is not visible at the moment.

Psychosomatic treatment is different from surgery and internal medicine. There are many parts that everyone can understand, but there are many times when psychosomatic doctors themselves may not be completely sure.

Just as neurologist Damasio explored the human mind, behavior and brain, consciousness, feelings and emotions in detail in the book "Feeling Everything Happening", curiosity and exploration of such issues are a gift to mankind. A person fully understands the relationship between emotions and the body, feels the occurrence of emotions and the problems being solved, and realizes that he feels emotions. Perhaps a person can really get better from the predicament.

Mu Chun closed his eyes and wanted to rest for a while, and then he seemed to hear a very soft voice.

The voice said, will there be no mental illness in the human world?