Chapter 229 Odinson (Part 2)

"I have always believed that a person's acquired education plays the most important role in the formation of his personality. In other words, if another person is put in your situation, he may not do better than you."

"Thor may be born with a big heart, but it is limited. People think he is more generous than you, just because he gets more in the process of growing up. He can get the attention, love, and status that you often worry about without thinking, so of course he will be very generous, because he is a vested interest."

"And you doubt why you always think so much, why you always have these negative emotions, just because you get less, or less than Thor."

"Now, let's change the angle, assuming that you are Odin's only son, that is, Odin has only you as a son, from the beginning Thor didn't exist in the end, but Odin still treated you the same way, just like what you got before..."

Loki fell into thought again, and Schiller's words rang in his ears: "Without Thor as a reference, do you still feel that you have gained very little?"

"Or rather, you should tell me what you have gained as a prince of Asgard. After all, I am just an ordinary person and can't imagine your royal life."

"I..." Loki paused and said: "I have many privileges in Asgard, such as I live in the most magnificent building in Asgard, there are many Asgardian guards waiting for dispatch all day, there are exclusive carriages for travel, and the Rainbow Bridge is always on standby. We have exclusive royal clothes and helmets that symbolize the honor of Asgardians..."

"In addition to the God King and God Queen, and Thor, , everyone has to salute me when they see me, no matter how high their priesthood is. I have my own guards, a special sword teacher, etiquette officer, coachman, more than 30 streets of property under my name, and two independent fiefdoms in dimensions..."

"Okay, stop talking." Schiller put the cup on the table again, and this time the sound was louder. Loki was stunned for a moment and looked at him. Schiller said: "I will definitely send your brother a bill to surprise him."

"Okay, I know you must be thinking that Thor has more, but I must tell you that whether it is you or Thor, the lives of both of you are ridiculously superior, not only for ordinary people on Earth, but also for ordinary Asgardians. "

"If there is no Thor for comparison, I think you should be more accepting. After having Thor, You seem less satisfied. "

"When people feel that their lives are not satisfactory, they often feel that they are not close enough to their goals. What is your goal?"

"This question may be a bit broad, but I can give you a detailed example. Do you think that this kind of life is not good enough, and you still want more land and property, and want to have endless wealth and status, or is it just because you don't get more than Thor, as long as you get more than him, it's fine?"

Before Loki answered, Schiller said: "Logically, everyone should pursue the former. After all, who in this world doesn't love money?"

"But from your current state, you seem to be the latter, because when Thor was down and out, you were stronger than him, and you suddenly became satisfied with life."

"How do you know I am satisfied with life?"

Schiller spread his hands and said: "In short, people need to have a driving force to do something. The inner driving force is very complex. It can be because of some specific things, such as the pursuit of enjoyment and revenge, or it can be because of some abstract things, such as the embodiment of self-worth. ”

“When you don’t do something, or you have the opportunity to do it but give up, and just want to fish in the same place, it proves that this driving force is no longer so strong. ”

“This is mostly because the goal has been achieved, for example, you have more money than you can spend, revenge has been successful, or you have realized your life value in some way. ”

“Don’t you find that you are fishing now?” Schiller looked at Loki and said, “Don’t tell me that you are born to love serving those difficult customers and exploring the lower limit of human understanding and communication ability. "

Loki opened his mouth and took a breath. He found that he seemed unable to refute. He covered his forehead and began to reflect.

What is he doing now? Why doesn't he engage in some conspiracy that can shake the nine kingdoms, but instead works from 9 am to 9 pm here?

"Although I don't want to make rash inferences, based on my understanding of you, normally you should have been planning a bigger conspiracy, such as finding something to kill your brother..."

"But you didn't do it. The reason may be the change in your living conditions. Suddenly, you surpassed Thor, not only surpassing him in quality of life, but also surpassing him in the field he values ​​most, that is, honor, and you have plenty of time to laugh at him. "

"Although you didn't admit it yourself, you should be very satisfied with this kind of life, so you stay here, not doing business, just thinking about killing time. "

Loki pinched his fingers together and said, "Am I very satisfied? Why do I feel..."

"What? Do you feel like you have no future? Do you feel like your goals and ideals are not ambitious enough? Then what do you want to do? Kill Thor first, then kill Odin, and then unify the nine kingdoms?"

"This is indeed a good goal, and you can do it with your ability, but if you really want to make this your goal, you wouldn't be sitting here now, right?"

"The moment you learned that you are not Odin's biological child, that is an important turning point in your life. You have two choices, either follow the rainbow bridge back to Asgard and pretend that you know nothing, or..."

When Schiller looked at Loki, Loki also looked at him. Loki continued Schiller's words: "Or... go find Thor."

"You want to see him, right?"

"This is very strange." Schiller raised the pen in his hand and said: "Generally speaking, when people feel pain, they like to Shout for mom. "

Loki turned his head away, not wanting to pay attention to the teasing in Schiller's tone. Schiller continued, "The first half is over, we can review it."

"The conclusion drawn from the assumption of exchanging identities is that all the emotions you have now are normal, and it will be the same if someone else comes. Then we found that Thor is more generous, not because he is better than you, but because of the different growth environment."

"Then we discussed that the change of circumstances led to the weakening of inner driving force, and reversely deduced that your goal is just to be stronger than Thor."

"I think you have some new understanding of your relationship with Thor, so next, it's another question you want to know more, that is, your relationship with Odin."

When Odin's name was mentioned, Loki's expression was still very complicated, and he himself did not realize the changes in his facial muscles.

"Perhaps you are expecting me to give you a long set of theoretical analysis, but in fact, this is difficult." Schiller sighed and said, "Because the values ​​you provided are not enough and there are too many variables, I can't provide you with psychological counseling based on such uncertain factors, which may cause very large deviations."

"What uncertain...values?"

"For example, what is your relationship with Odin? Are you his biological child? If you are not his biological child, why did you become his son? What is his purpose in raising you? And so on..."

"Your relationship with Odin is more complicated. In this case, some logic is invalid. There are many possibilities for the options at the end. If you must explore the deepest, it will only make yourself More chaotic."

"So I can only give you two suggestions about this part. The first is to figure out what's going on. The second is..."

Schiller dragged out a long tone. Loki looked at him, but he didn't get an answer. He asked, "What is it?"

Schiller changed his posture. He put his forearms on the table, raised his shoulders and looked at Loki, and asked, "Have you ever been in trouble since you were a child?"

"Of course not." Loki said very confidently, "I'm not Thor. I have completed every task assigned to me by the Father of the Gods perfectly."

"Since you haven't been in trouble, how do you know that Odin won't clean up the mess for you?"

Loki pursed his lips, and his tone was a little unbelievable: You don't want to suggest me... to get into trouble?"

"Although I'm not sure what kind of person Odin is, from some stories brought back by Strange, I heard that Odin was also very impulsive when he was young, and Thor is very similar to him. "

"Generally speaking, parents will be more tolerant of children who are more like themselves, because they have also been through that time and know that certain mistakes are inevitable for people with certain personalities."

"Your main insecurity now comes from the fact that you originally thought that Odin would not tolerate your mistakes, and now you find out that you are not his biological child, so you think he will be even less tolerant of you."

"But I think you can actually try. If you don't try, he will never know where the bottom line is. Try it out, maybe you will get a surprise."

It is difficult for Loki to describe his current mood. He said: "Are you instigating me... to get into trouble?"

"I didn't say that. I'm just doing a normal psychological counseling." Schiller still lowered his head and fiddled with the pen in his hand, saying: "When people meet their goals and fall into a state of complacency and idleness, they will instinctively start to want to have some fun, and you are the same. "

When Loki returned to the apartment, it was not yet dark, so Thor had not gone out to work yet. He was holding a takeaway, opening the package and taking out the fried chicken from it.

Thor still had long hair, but his beard was trimmed shorter. He was wearing a cheap sweatshirt from nowhere, and his hands were full of oil. Looking at this scene, Loki held back a lot of words in his heart. He felt that sometimes, it might be a good thing not to get to the bottom of it.

"In fact, I have never really understood why you regard such a person as an opponent." Venom said in Loki's mind: "Why don't we go downstairs to play on the seesaw... Oh, we are alone, and we can't play on the seesaw, what a pity."

"...This is the relationship between you and your brother. "

Loki ignored him and sat on the sofa opposite Thor, fiddling with the takeaway paper box in front of Thor. Thor was a little surprised by his action, looked up at him and asked, "Don't you dislike fried chicken being greasy?"

Then he took the initiative to open the lid facing Loki, pressed it down, revealing the fried chicken inside, and pushed the box to the center of the coffee table and said, "I only have enough money to order a small portion, but if you want to eat it, I can give you a few pieces."

Loki took his hand back, propped it on his knees, and propped his chin with his hand. He saw that there were only about five or six pieces of fried chicken in the box, which was too little even for a small portion.

Thor shrugged and said, "It tastes really good, but it's a little expensive and the quantity is small, but it doesn't matter, we still have this..."

He dragged out a plastic bag containing a can of beer from under the coffee table. After picking it up, he found that there was only one can of beer left. He said, "Well, it's better than nothing."

He took out the can of beer, opened the opening on the can, and put it on the table. He saw Loki sitting there without moving. Thor said in confusion, "What are you doing? Go get a cup."

Then he paused and said, " Okay, I won't laugh at you for drinking from a cup, but only this time. "

"Do you need me to tell you? Actually, you really want to..."

Venom's voice sounded, but Loki interrupted him and said, "Yes, I really want to punch him."

"Well, it seems that not only humans, but also gods do this..."

When Venom's voice disappeared, the sound of beer foaming into the cup sounded. At this time, the sky outside the window darkened, and the breeze blew the curtains gently up and down. After the temperature dropped, the autumn evening breeze began to become colder, but the insects disappeared, and everything seemed more quiet.