Chapter 228 Odinson (Part 1)

The bright sunshine at noon has gradually dimmed and become less dazzling. The curtains of the sanatorium office have only a small gap, and the light from the gap shines on the desk.

After the temperature began to drop, the air conditioner was turned on in the office. At this time, the heating was sufficient, but Loki felt the feeling that he had never experienced before, which was unique to ordinary humans - cold.

The corners of his mouth drooped down, and his mouth did not open. He just squeezed out a few words from his teeth: "...Don't say it."

"People always like to overestimate their psychological endurance and think that they can be calm and composed when facing a certain answer, but in fact it is difficult."

Loki stared at him and didn't speak. The appearance of Asgardians always has some classical beauty. Loki's brows are deep and the edges are sharp, like a knife. When the shadow cast completely covers his eyes, he looks both indifferent and deep.

"I have many angles to analyze this problem, to tell you where your mentality comes from and how to solve it..."

Schiller took a detour: "...but it will cost you."

Loki's expression was very cold. He stood up, but felt a resistance in his body. Venom said in his heart: "I advise you to think about it again. This may be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity."

"Don't try to influence me, monster."

"If you want to vent your anger on me..." Venom's voice was unexpectedly calm for Loki: "Then I will tell you that even if you leave here now, you have nowhere to go. You are alone. "

"Are you going to face Thor with this mentality? Ask him those stupid questions that you already know the answers to, or are you really going to be like a dog wagging its tail and asking him directly whether he loves you or not?"

"...I say, enough!"

"Calm down." Schiller's words brought Loki back to reality. He said, "My fees are very expensive, but they must be more effective than you think."

"More importantly, I don't think you have the ability to pay the bill now, so I will put the bill on your brother because he is the heir to Asgard."

"...Then let's get started." Loki sat back down.

"Let's look at this problem from another angle." Schiller made a gesture of putting things aside, and said: "You should know in your heart that you are jealous of Thor, but we can analyze this emotion carefully."

"Now, please imagine, what would happen if you were Thor?"

"What would happen?" Loki asked: "...what else can it be?"

"Don't be impatient, listen to me. Suppose, now you are Odin's eldest son, the heir of Asgard, and you have been paid attention to by Odin since childhood. No matter what trouble you have caused, he will not blame you too much..."

"He..." Loki tried his best to calm himself down, and then entered this hypothetical scene.

"You can imagine, put yourself in Thor's position, you have been the focus of everyone since childhood, Odin values ​​you, Frigga loves you, and your peers respect you..."

Accompanying Schiller's words, Loki began to sink into his imagination.

When the bonfire was burning, the shouting in the duel field became very noisy. He stood in the front row, then jumped down from his seat and stood in the center of the duel field, accepting everyone's cheers and shouts. The audience looked at him with hope, believing that he would definitely win.

Then, he crossed the long Asgard Bridge and walked into the gate of Asgard with joy and excitement. He stood straight, bathed in the light. Odin praised him and Frigga smiled with satisfaction.

He galloped on the battlefield of the Nine Realms. No one could match him. He galloped freely and won the honor of victory effortlessly, and then brought them back to the father of the gods to accept the admiration of the people of Asgard.

"So where is Thor now?"

Siller's words did not interrupt Loki's fantasy, but only changed his perspective. He saw that Thor was standing behind the crowd cheering for him, watching him. When he walked back to the camp, Thor looked at him from afar. After their identities and perspectives were completely switched, Loki suddenly had a strange feeling.

"Okay, then, bring what you did into Thor's mind. He played many pranks on you, and then this behavior started to get worse and worse. Later, it was no longer limited to pranks, and he began to really frame you..."

"No..." Loki frowned deeply, "I didn't..."

"Don't deny it all, but think about it further. See how you would view it from Thor's perspective?"

In an instant, the dream full of honor and glory was shattered. Loki's arms began to tremble, his teeth pressed tightly together, and then a few words came out of it: "I didn't see it."

"Didn't see what?"

Suddenly, his shoulders relaxed, his lower jaw began to tremble slightly, and then slowly calmed down, "I didn't see those things."

"Really? Do you want to watch it again?"

"No." Loki refused immediately.

"Then are you sure you didn't see it?"

Loki was silent.

He was silent for a long time, until he was completely out of that emotion, he said: "Maybe... I saw it."

He paused for a long time, the whole sentence was filled with a bit of hysteria, and then turned into trembling, "But I... didn't care."

"He knew, but didn't care, right?" Loki looked up at Schiller, Schiller fiddled with the pen in his hand, and said: "In fact, you should also think that although your brother is reckless, impulsive, and stubborn, he is not really a fool. His intelligence is normal, and it can even be said that he is quite talented in some aspects..."

"You have spent so many years together, and you have been together day and night for a long time. You think you know him very well, but he also knows you. Maybe he sees a lot of things you do, but he doesn't care..."

"You just thought You want to avoid this answer, because you feel that his indifference makes you feel more uncomfortable than exposing you in person or complaining to Odin. "

"Now, ask yourself, all these things you did, are you really trying to hurt Thor, want to kill him, replace him, or just want to gain more attention?"

"I..." Loki subconsciously wanted to deny this answer, "Don't be ridiculous, how could I want to gain his attention? He has no brains at all, and he has been just a reckless man from beginning to end..."

"Really? Then when I asked you, as Thor, how do you view Loki, why are you unwilling to give that answer?"

Loki fell silent again, but he was not trembling like that, just pausing there in the same posture.

"He may not care." Loki's voice became more breathy, and this sentence was integrated into the sigh. He showed a self-deprecating smile and said, "At least when I was a child, my pranks were not careful at all. I was just playing tricks on him."

"I remember that there were several times when Thor's companions saw that it was me who did it, so they hated me even more, but Thor didn't say anything."

"I know he didn't see it..." Loki's tone became a little puzzled: "But why did I believe that he didn't see it at that time?"

"Maybe it's because you can't accept that he saw it, but he didn't care." Schiller said.

Loki was silent.

"Okay, now let's add some extra conditions to this situation. You are still you, that is, your current appearance, physique, strength, and ability, but you are still Odin's favorite eldest son, the heir of Asgard..."

Before Schiller finished speaking, Loki said: No, this is impossible, I..."

"Asgard will not have such an heir, my physical strength is too weak..."

"I am not Odin, and this is not the coronation ceremony of the throne, so what I say does not count."

"This is just a hypothesis. Anyway, it's all a hypothesis, so what logic is there? "

Loki was speechless and could only nod.

"Well, as you said, you have many shortcomings, some of which are even fatal, such as not having the physique that the Asgardians are proud of. These shortcomings can be seen by Odin and the people of Asgard, but you still became the heir of Asgard. Odin took good care of you. No matter what trouble you got into, he was willing to settle it for you..."

"So, in this case, how would Thor see you?"

"He..." Loki seemed to have a complete sentence to say directly, but he was choked after the first word came out.

"Don't doubt what you are thinking now. Thor will definitely be jealous of you. No matter how much, this emotion must exist."

Schiller made another gesture and said: "You may often think that Thor has so many shortcomings. He does things without thinking, just rushing forward, and does not consider the consequences. He is simply an unreasonable fool. "

"But if the identities were reversed, Thor would probably think that you are so weak that you can't even lift a divine weapon, you can't charge in battle, you can't set an example as a general, and you don't have the heroic qualities of the Asgardians..."

"You see, this is how the world is. When you can't be the other person, can't be in his position, and do what he does, you will always feel that the other person is unworthy of the position."

"Some of his shortcomings will be infinitely magnified in your eyes, and then you will use these shortcomings to fantasize that if you sit in that position, you will do better than him."

"But when you really get to that position, your shortcomings will also be magnified, and whether the advantages you are proud of can handle the troubles caused by the shortcomings is still unknown."

"So what?" Loki looked at Schiller and said, "Are you saying that even if I sit in Thor's position, I won't do better than him? "

Schiller shook his head and said, "No, I'm just telling you that it's normal for you to feel jealous of your brother, resent your father for being unfair, and think that the Asgardians have no vision."

"If you and Thor were to switch positions, these emotions would still exist. Thor may not be as sensitive as you, but he is definitely not immune to these emotions."

"If you don't believe it, then think about him now. In a sense, the current situation is that the positions of the two of you have been switched. Do you think Thor is really not jealous of your sudden promotion? Do you think he is really generous and doesn't care that Odin gave you the glory that belongs to him?"

"Since he is also jealous and resentful, then there is actually no difference between the two of you. It is not because you are narrow-minded or mentally ill that you have these negative emotions. It is just human nature."

"I make this assumption... ..." Schiller paused, took a sip of water from the water cup, and then continued: "... just to tell you that the mess of emotions in your heart now, including jealousy, resentment, shock, confusion, bewilderment, and helplessness, are actually very common. "

"So you don't have to make some self-destructive inferences, for example, Thor and Odin are both glorious and righteous good people, and you are a dark and despicable villain who can only hide in the corner to release negative emotions, or have some more extreme ideas, wanting to bring these pains to others..."

Siller put down the water cup, looked into Loki's eyes and said: "I just said that you are like a dog chasing minced meat, but the conclusion is that if Thor is given a collar, he may chase it more happily than you. "