Chapter 227 Loki (Part 2)

Loki admitted that he had always resented Odin's partiality, but when he became the subject of the partiality, he felt a sense of guilt, and now, this fear turned into deep confusion, because an alien physical examination machine told him that he was not even from the Aesir.

Odin's great reputation was not earned by sitting on the throne. He conquered the universe, razed the nine realms, and stepped on every branch of the world tree. All enemies trembled under his thunder. From the perspective of those conquered tribes, Odin was definitely a tyrant.

Odin could also be called a racist. He treated people outside the Aesir without mercy, at least in Loki's cognition.

Then the question came. He was not Odin's biological son, nor even from the Aesir. Why did Odin suddenly treat him so well?

Loki leaned on the head of the bed with one arm on his forehead. He felt that his question was ridiculous. He would actually question why Odin treated him so well one day.

In the living room of the apartment, Thor finally figured out the electric lifting clothes hanger, and then successfully hung his work clothes on it. At this time, he heard the door of Loki's bedroom open, and turned back to see Loki standing under the door frame of his bedroom door.

"What happened to you?" Thor asked very puzzled.

"I want to ask you a question." Loki looked at Thor and said, "I got the priesthood of the true god before you, and I can enter and leave Asgard freely. I have not been deprived of my divine power, nor have my weapons been taken away. I even have the energy to laugh at you..."

"When you learned this fact, did you feel that Odin was biased?"

"Of course!" Thor stared at Loki and said, "I really can't figure it out. How can you be the first to get the priesthood of the true god? Do you have any military exploits?"

He grabbed the collar of his work clothes in his hand and shook it hard, as if he was venting his anger, and said angrily, "Whether it is divine power or military exploits, I am better than you. How could the father of the gods..."

He He blew out a strong breath through his nose, paused for a while, and suddenly said as if he was deflated, "Okay, I actually figured it out. I got into trouble, right? He was very angry, so he exiled me here, and then gave you the position of the righteous god, so that you can come and laugh at me..."

Thor raised his arm and said, "Very good, he succeeded. Now the question I think about every day is whether I can buy an extra box of beer with my salary next week? I am no different from these ordinary mortals, and even more destitute than them. I only dare to order a small portion of fried chicken..."

"You won, okay?"

Loki stood by the door, looking at Thor's expression, speechless.

"Why hasn't your rather intelligent brain successfully convinced you in all these years that he is really a stubborn idiot?" Venom asked him.

"The physical examination report shows that there are some problems with your brain." Venom's tone suddenly became a little cheerful. He said, "Coincidentally, I know a very good psychologist who may be able to solve the entanglements and questions in your mind. Anyway, I have nothing to do..."

"Psychologist?" Loki's tone was a little puzzled. "There is no such profession in Asgard."

"Believe me, it must be very effective."

Half an hour later, Schiller took a new medical record from the shelf next to him and asked, "Name?"

Loki was a little distracted. Schiller asked again, and he answered, "Loki."

"What's your last name?"

Loki hesitated and said, "Odinson."

"Your pronunciation of this surname is a bit strange. According to your current English level, this should not be a pronunciation error. Do you have any opinion on this surname?"

"So what you humans call a psychologist is to keep asking me questions to answer?"

"If you feel that you need treatment, then try to cooperate with me instead of trying to take the initiative." Schiller wrote and drew on the medical record, and said without raising his head: "This is not a business negotiation. You don't need to strive for any initiative. I am not your enemy. You don't have to use rhetoric to interfere with me."

"This is very novel." Loki put his hands on the table, leaned forward slightly, and made a confident gesture.

"You seem to have gotten used to this way of speaking. No matter who you are talking to, you want to strive for the initiative. This is beneficial in most cases, but there may be exceptions."

Loki opened his mouth and said: "No, not all, at least when facing..."

He shook his head, as if he didn't want to say the name.

"Why don't you tell me your father's name?"

Schiller saw that when Loki heard the word "father", his fingertips moved slightly, and then he heard Loki say: "Because it may not be..."

"Not what?"

"He may not be my father." Loki's tone was casual, but the muscles on his neck trembled, and his entire shoulders became stiff. Schiller raised his head and glanced at him.

"What did you feel when you said this?" Schiller looked at him: "Maybe there is the answer you want."

The trembling of Loki's fingertips began to spread to the back of his hand, followed by his wrist and forearm, but disappeared in an instant.

"You seem unwilling to admit this fact, but you feel that you have no reason not to admit it, but you just don't want to admit it, why?"

"I don't know." Loki's voice seemed a little hoarse.

"Although I don't need you to tell all your secrets, you can't say nothing, especially at this moment, you should have a lot to say and a lot of questions to ask."

"Why, are you still fantasizing about a better listener than me? Then maybe I can call Strange and ask him to ask if Odin is awake..."

"No, no..." Loki denied instinctively.

"Every time you mention Odin, you seem to be a little afraid, why?" Schiller tilted his head and looked at him.

"No one is not afraid of the father of the gods."

"Listen, this is not a test. I'm not asking you to find a perfect answer to my question." Schiller said helplessly.

"When I ask you a question, you can ask yourself this question and then give yourself the answer in your heart. If you are willing to tell me the real answer, the treatment will be more effective. If you don't want to, that's okay."

Loki was silent for a long time, but he still lowered his shoulders, exhaled, and said, "I am indeed afraid of him because of his majesty and power. More importantly, I am not Thor."

"Thor can certainly not be afraid of him. No matter what he does, the father of the gods will clean up his mess, and this time is the same."

"...but I can't." Loki's fingertips rested on the table, leaving a shallow reflection. He looked at his fingers and said, "I can't make mistakes like Thor, especially, I can't make such stupid mistakes."

His lips moved, and then he said, "He won't tolerate me."

"I must remain in awe." Loki's voice began to break free from that complex emotion, his thinking seemed to be back on track, and he began to become more involved.

"I am not special to the Father of the Gods. I am not even sure if I am as important as those brave Asgardian warriors in his eyes."

Schiller took the pen in his hand, changed his posture, and said: "Because the relatives you value are unwilling to give you real feedback, you can only keep lowering your expectations and convince yourself that as long as he is not obviously hostile to you, you can get by."

"But this is not a solution, especially when there is a contrasting example, self-deception cannot last long,"

Loki supported the edge of his brow with one hand and said in a trance: "But the problem now is that during this period of time, I became the object of favoritism, and then I just found out that maybe he was right to do it originally, because I am not his biological child..."

Schiller shook his head and said: "There is a concept that has caused some confusion. Whether there is a blood relationship and whether he is biased may not be directly related."

Schiller explained: "The superficial logic is that if you are not his biological child, then it is natural for him to treat you badly, but the problem is, if you are not his biological child, you are How did you become his son? "

"The background story may be complicated, but one thing must be constant, that is, your father should have picked you up from somewhere. We don't know what kind of mood he picked you up with, but one fact is that he raised you to this age even though he knew you were not his biological child. "

"If his purpose of raising you up is to favor your brother and ignore you, then why did he pick you up? "

"Okay, I assume there is a certain interest relationship, such as what benefits will come after raising you, which drives him to pick you up and raise you, and he doesn't want to have another son, so he deliberately favors you and ignores you. "

"If this is the case, then you don't need to worry about it. You just need to find out what conspiracy is behind it and find a way to retaliate against them. "

Schiller supported his cheekbone with one hand, then looked at Loki and said, "You should have thought of this possibility the moment you learned this fact, so ask yourself, what are you still struggling with?"

Loki was silent.

His eyes began to calm down, and he said: "I tried to convince myself that he was just being nice to me during this period. I guessed many possible conspiracies and even had several plans to investigate my true life experience. Now, I should be on the Rainbow Bridge..."

Loki's eyes moved downward, as if he was thinking about something. He said: "But the reason why I am here is that when I was about to put these plans into practice, when I wanted to take that step in the opposite direction, I found that..."

His voice was extremely low, like a stone blown to the edge of a cliff by the wind. He clenched his fists slowly, and then said in disbelief: "...I don't think I want to do that."

"Why do you think this is?"

Loki shook his head and looked at Schiller and said, "You are the doctor, aren't you?"

Schiller turned the pen in his hand and said, "This is the misunderstanding of most people about psychiatrists. Most of the time, we are just listeners, not responsible for giving answers."

"Or, in fact, many people already have the answer in their hearts, but they are unwilling to admit it, so they come to ask the doctor, hoping to get a different result. Sometimes, we see this, but we don't expose it, just because not everyone can withstand this kind of stimulation."

"Do you think you can?"

"I..." Loki tilted his head and murmured, "I think, of course I can..."

"Well, maybe you should have discovered it." Schiller looked at Loki and said, "Your resentment for Odin's injustice and your jealousy of Thor cannot cover up your desire for family affection."

"Whether family affection really exists or not, you have deceived yourself. You have been deceiving people for so many years, and blood relationship is precisely the important pillar of this self-deception. "

"Today, after this pillar was broken, you found that your instinctive action was not to uncover the truth and retaliate against these people in a justifiable manner, but to panic and look for another pillar..."

"You suddenly found that you are weaker and more likely to compromise than you thought, and you are addicted to some illusions you have woven for yourself and are unwilling to wake up. You are not as smart, decisive, and vicious as you think. Even the possible shocking conspiracy and hatred have not made you determined. "

"As long as those relatives in your name give you a little sweetness, you are willing to desperately find some reasons to deceive yourself and muddle through..."

"You find that compared to the gods who never make mistakes, you are more like the ordinary people you have always looked down on."

"Or, compared to ordinary people, you are more like a dog chasing a little bit of minced meat..."

"Enough."

The protagonist finally went to work.

I wish I could go to work at this frequency.