Chapter 1404 Half of the Truth

"Tianyi died to save me, so I promised him that I would pretend to be him until General Tianlang died." Lu Bai looked at Lu Xiaojiu, "He hoped that you could love him for the rest of your life, and I wanted to fulfill his last wish. For me, I changed my identity and I could love you as Tianyi. This is the best of both worlds. I... so I kept it a secret from you. I always thought that the person you loved was Tianyi."

It was not until Lu Xiaojiu pretended to be Louise and came to him that he suddenly realized that Xiaojiu had more than hatred for him after so many years of grudges.

"You fool, that's because..." Lu Xiaojiu looked at him with sore eyes, "Yes, of course the person I love is Tianyi, how could it be you. You could have told me that you really miss me, why did you hide it from me, do you know that I almost collapsed because of your death? You were by my side every day, watching, but you didn't tell me, how could you be so cruel, I..."

"The person you loved back then was Tianyi?" Lu Bai suddenly interrupted her.

Now when he thinks of his youth, he always feels that something is wrong. He has had a vague idea for a long time, but he dare not confirm it. He does not want to dwell on the past. He only knows that Xiaojiu loves him now, which is enough. He does not care much about the past, even if she once loved Tianyi deeply. Now, she loves him.

"Yes, of course the person I love is Tianyi, who do you think it is?"

Lu Bai shook his head, "I also thought it was Tianyi."

Lu Xiaojiu was angry.

"Who killed my father?"

"No matter who killed him, even if he is not dead, I will beat him to death." Lu Bai said, his eyes became sinister in an instant, and Lu Xiaojiu did not understand why, "Why? Why do you want to beat him to death, he is also your father."

"My father is Lu Jun, not Lu Yong, and never will be." Lu Bai said in a deep voice, "I have never regarded myself as Lu Yong's son, otherwise, I would not be with you..."

Lu Xiaojiu thought of those things that happened in love, and her ears blushed slightly.

"Why kill him? Just because he is your father?" Lu Xiaojiu didn't believe this reason at all. Although Lu Bai was unruly, he was a kind and upright boy. It was impossible for him to kill someone for such a reason. He knew that he had a father, shouldn't he be happy?

Unless...

"Who wanted to kill you back then? But Tianyi was injured by mistake?"

Lu Bai didn't know whether he should tell these things. He should have kept the matter between Aunt Ling and Lu Yong a secret for his whole life. He didn't want more people to know, especially Lu Xiaojiu. He shouldn't let Xiaojiu know that his father was such a vicious person.

"Lu Yong sent someone to kill me back then, but Tianyi was killed by mistake. After General Tianlang recognized me, he knew the truth and kidnapped you. You were poisoned and your liver failed. I donated my liver. Later, General Tianlang set up a trap to poison Lu Yong. I was there. General Tianlang was shot by Lu Yong, and I... was angry for a moment and beat him to death. If he hadn't been poisoned, I would have killed him too." Lu Bai said in a deep voice.

Although Lu Xiaojiu had already vaguely guessed the truth of the matter, hearing what Lu Bai said with her own ears was another matter. Why did her father want to kill Lu Bai? He obviously loved Lu Bai so much, why did he kill him?

"Why, why did my father want to kill you."

"You should ask him, I don't know." Lu Bai said in a deep voice, still unable to tell Xiaojiu the final truth, "Before his death, the special forces soldier admitted that it was Lu Yong who sent someone to kill me. Lu Yong also admitted this when he talked to General Tianlang. He did want to kill me because his political enemies would make a big fuss after suspecting my identity and affect his election. Only by getting rid of me and ending it all can the reputation of the Lu family be guaranteed. The reputation of your Lu family is more important than anything else. What is a life? Your uncle forced me to take all the charges, otherwise he would vent his anger on my mother, so I admitted everything. I have been reluctant to tell you all these years because I don't want you to know that it was Lu Yong who killed your beloved Tianyi. I don't want you to know that the great father in your mind is such a despicable villain. I think, anyway, we can't be together in this life, why should I let you know what your father is like? You don't have much left, and I don't want to destroy the image of your great father in your mind anymore."

"You..." Lu Xiaojiu's tears rolled down. Just for this reason, he has been hiding it until today? "Should you have told me earlier that I was the kind of person who was made of clay? My father is a politician. I have long known that he is ruthless and hypocritical. What can you do if you tell me? Why did you hide it until today? We have been completely changed in the past eleven years. Isn't this price less than the position my father holds in my heart?"

"How do you want me to tell you? Tianyi died to save me, I fell in love with the woman he liked, and didn't fulfill my promise to him, not a single one, and my mother... How do you want me to tell you?" Lu Bai growled, "Who will think about my feelings? Am I willing to live my whole life with this burden? When you keep saying you hate me, will I feel better? How can I talk about these past events? "

"Whose fault is it? Is it my fault?" Lu Xiaojiu wiped his tears, "You didn't say anything and acted like a taciturn person. Is it my fault that I misunderstood you? I should have the eyes of God, I should be understanding and believe you unconditionally, even if my relatives and loved ones died in front of me, I would still believe you, right? When you cried and shouted for an explanation, why didn't you say that I hated you? You felt wronged, but what about me? Do I deserve these eleven years?"

No one could sort out the misunderstandings and complicated relationship between them, let alone explain it. Lu Xiaojiu felt really painful, just like kneeling in the muddy woods and calling for his baby. The bloody eleven years between them were actually because of Lu Bai's promise to Tianyi. Lu Bai wanted to protect the image of her father in her mind. Who would protect them?

"What you think about is the promise to the dead. Where do you put me, a living person?" Lu Xiaojiu looked at him with tears in his eyes, "Lu Bai, where do you put me, a living person?"

Lu Bai fell on the sofa, closed his eyes slightly, his eyelids were hot, tears almost burst out, but he endured it alive.

Suddenly, the coldness of the whole body was embraced by a warm embrace. Lu Xiaojiu's warm body seemed to fill his emptiness in the past ten years. The hot body temperature drove away the coldness in the darkness. Lu Bai hugged her with both hands and only felt the soreness of the tip of his nose.

He waited for this hug for eleven years.

Lu Xiaojiu hugged his neck and cried loudly. The silent cry when she first learned the truth in the hospital that day turned into sad tears at this moment. She had been loved by a man for almost twenty years, from secret love to deep love. For her, he made himself half-human and half-ghost. No matter how much grievance and confusion she had in her heart, it became insignificant and could not match the heartache for him.

Why did they become what they are now.

She wanted a healthy Xiaobai.

Who would give her a healthy Xiaobai.

Lu Xiaojiu cried very sadly, and wiped her tears and snot on his shirt, "I'm sorry, Xiaobai, I'm sorry."

Lu Bai patted her shoulder silently, "You have never been sorry for me."

The more he said this, the more uncomfortable Lu Xiaojiu felt. She couldn't imagine what he had experienced all these years. That time in the desert, he almost died, and she shot him personally. He still thought she wanted to kill him.

Harry pushed the door open and Liao Mengying made a helpless gesture behind him.

"Daddy, what happened to sister Xiaojiu?"

"She fell asleep." Lu Bai said softly, "Be good."

"Okay."

Lu Bai picked up Lu Xiaojiu and walked into the bedroom. He gently took off her coat and shoes, covered her with a quilt, and wiped away the tears on her face with a hot towel. Harry followed him like a caring little cotton-padded jacket, and pulled the quilt to cover the little feet exposed outside. Lu Bai touched his head as a reward, "So good."

"Daddy, why is sister crying?"

"Because Daddy did something to let sister down." Lu Bai smiled and said, "Sister is in a bad mood today and yelled at you in the afternoon. Don't blame her, okay?"

"Okay." Harry smiled sweetly, "I don't blame sister."

"So good." Lu Bai smiled, "Go out and play."

"Okay."

Harry went out obediently, and Lu Bai chuckled. This son is really a little cotton-padded jacket. The most rare thing is that he is obedient, smart and generous. He likes Harry more and more and has been training him as his own son.

Lu Xiaojiu didn't know what she was thinking in her sleep, her eyebrows were twisted, Lu Bai sat by the bed and looked at her, for the first time thinking that his decision over the years might be wrong, Xiaojiu has been unhappy for so many years, how many things have made her happy in the past eleven years, in the past eleven years, every time he saw her, she looked calm, like the surface of the water without waves.

He knew that the real Xiaojiu was not like this.

He missed the happy and cheerful Xiaojiu.

"Xiaojiu, did I do something wrong?" Lu Bai regretted for the first time that he took on all these things alone, not only making his eleven years like purgatory, but also making Xiaojiu a walking corpse.

He was not sure if he was too selfish.

He took the pain alone, did he ask Xiaojiu?

Lu Bai leaned over and kissed her forehead gently.

Baby, I'm sorry.

Lu Bai took Harry to the supermarket downstairs to buy vegetables. The big supermarket downstairs was very lively with people coming and going. Harry was sitting in the cart and was very happy. He liked his daddy to take him to the supermarket the most. He could choose what he liked.

"Daddy, I bought a lot of things today." Harry said.

"Yes, sister wants to stay for dinner."

"That's great, that's great."

"Are you happy?"

"Yes, I am very happy, Daddy, I want to eat mountain peaches."