Chapter 756: Heaven and Hell

Many years later, when people mention the 66th Oscars, there are only a few things that can be remembered, one is the successful summit of Tom Hanks and Hugo Lancaster, the other is Jane Campy En's "Farewell to the Piano" made history, and another is "Schindler's List" that swept the army.

In fact, many people don't remember the confrontation between "Schindler's List" and "Farewell to the Lovers", even for the famous director James Ivory. People all remember the "Howard Manor" that amazed everyone, but few people remember the excellent reputation of "Farewell to Lovely Heaven".

The loser of "Farewell to the Sentient Heaven" was thus drowned in the long river of time.

The more embarrassing fact is that after the filming of "Farewell to the Love of Love", James seems to have exhausted all the talents in his body. After 15 years of tempering since 1979, It sank. Although after 1994, James still shot "Jefferson in Paris (Jefferson. In. Paris)", "The. Golden. Bowl (The. Golden. Bowl)" and other good works, but the word of mouth is declining, which amazes countless Human talent is wasted in time.

Later, some insiders studied it carefully. It seems that the decline of James began with "farewell to the sentient beings". People can't help but speculate that during the filming of this film, whether there was an unknown secret within the crew, and The Mochant-Avery Company, once known as the Iron Triangle, has thus disappeared into the long river of history.

Occasionally, someone will spot Tracy Jacobs' name in the producer column, ponder the direct and indirect connection between Tracy's career trajectory and James, and then sigh thoughtfully.

Tracy made a desperate gamble and lost, so she lost. Facing the powerful "Schindler's List", "Farewell to Youqingtian" has no strength to fight back, and even has no strength to survive. Tracy even wondered if it was from the beginning, "Farewell to Youqingtian" "There is no chance, all the so-called opportunities are just illusions.

It's just that who knew this illusion, whether the media deceived her, or her own hatred blinded her, it is unknown.

In fact, Tracy should have expected such a result, because she put all her bets on the table desperately.

Tracy's subconscious is clearer than anyone else. In fact, Hollywood never needs to gamble. "Leave the green hills without worrying about no firewood" is the truth. As long as they retain their strength, anyone has the capital to make a comeback. This is also the reason why Martin Baum always advised her not to be impulsive.

But Tracy was unwilling to do it slowly, hatred not only blinded her eyes, but also made her lose her mind, and made her go crazy, so she broke the rules of the industry, so she had to suffer such consequences.

"Farewell to Love" lost, not just a movie showdown, nor just an Oscar victory. Tracy bet too much on this work, and she no longer has the capital to start over. , all her strengths have sunk to the bottom of the sea with the failure of "farewell to the sentient beings", and finally vanished into ashes.

At this moment, all thoughts became clear, and they were extremely clear in Tracy's mind.

But Tracy doesn't regret it, she doesn't regret it at all, because Tracy knows that in the Hollywood circle, it is always the work that decides the outcome. In the end, it must be implemented on the work - or the benefits brought by the work. If the work wins, even an unnamed protagonist can become popular all over the world overnight; if the work fails, even the top superstars and even large production companies will fall into the dust.

The victory of "Schindler's List" is a fact that Tracy has no way to change, because the opponent is too strong, and both fame and fortune are gained. So, instead of being tied up and unable to fight and struggle with all your strength, and then facing a temporary failure and getting a chance to try your best, this is not what she wants, because she will regret it; it is better to put all the bets on it, bet wildly, and finally either Victory, or complete failure, this is her choice.

Therefore, Tracy has no regrets, her only regret is that she did not become the winner of this gamble.

Tracy left her seat and walked to the backstage. At this time, the whole Oscar has completely ended, everyone is busy, the winner is busy accepting congratulations and enjoying tonight; the loser is busy turning around and leaving, tasting the pain of failure alone ; the soy sauce people are busy expanding their contacts, or preparing for the orgy that is about to kick off... No one noticed Tracy, not even the "Farewell to the Sentimental" crew themselves. .

Tracy walked to the backstage like a ghost, shuttled through the crowd, no one noticed her, no one greeted her, no one stopped her, Tracy came to the backstage easily, and from a distance, she just Saw Hugo.

At this time, Hugo had just signed and confirmed, and received his own little golden man who had completed the engraving. He stood on the side and was interviewed by reporters. Leonardo, Joseph, Samora and others were standing not far away. It is said that Laughingly waiting for Hugo to be interviewed, but today I have to wait, because at this time at least six media are waiting to interview Hugo for the first time, and everyone is lined up neatly to wait for their order.

Tracy was standing about seven yards away, separated by a clump of people, where there was a lot of noise, people coming and going, a lot of activity, and the bright lights fell down, lighting up a circle of halos around, that Happy laughter, cheerful slapstick, noisy discussions, and brisk expressions fainted in the light, making the air relaxed, like heaven.

As for Tracy, it seems that there is a low pressure forming a small area. In fact, the most important thing is that Tracy is standing there. People passing by will avoid her subconsciously and move forward along their own established paths. , so this forms a small space. But this made the surroundings of Tracy seem more and more deserted, a shadow shrouded her, and all the noise seemed to be isolated from the outside. This is an independent world, quiet, dead, dark, gloomy... There is a kind of negativity of despair. Emotions slowly spread in the air, just like a virus, dancing with their teeth and claws in the oxygen factor, like hell.

One thought of heaven, another thought of hell, it was only a few steps apart, but it caused a huge gap, close at hand but far away, it seemed that this distance could never be crossed.

Looking at Hugo with a smile on his face, Tracy suddenly realized that she hadn't looked at Hugo seriously for a long, long time, but the gap of two years had drawn a gap between the two, waiting for her When it was discovered, it was already insurmountable.

Hugo seemed to be more calm than two years ago, and it seemed to be more sunny. The gentleness of that smile slowly rippled in the halo, as if a lotus flower had fallen in the lake of her heart, blooming proudly, There was also a lot of experience between the handsome eyebrows, and the traces that had settled down over the years were quietly blended into his temperament, and there was an indescribable taste in his gestures.

Suddenly, Tracy only felt a throbbing pain in her heart. The pain in this moment almost made her unable to react, and even her expression did not change. In an instant, it spread all over her body, penetrated deep into the bone marrow, and imprinted her soul. It was deeply etched in her mind and could not be erased. But just this moment of pain made Tracy clearly realize that she still loved Hugo deeply, it turned out that she really loved Hugo deeply.

How much she hated Hugo, how much she loved Hugo; how cruel and fierce her revenge was, how crazy and hot her love was; how firm her thoughts were, how profound her admiration was.

This thought was enough to burn her to pieces in an instant.

When the pain reached its peak, Tracy laughed instead. Does she regret it? No, she still doesn't regret it, because all this is her choice, she will not regret it, if she regrets it, it means she has denied herself. Therefore, even if her heart hurts, she will not regret it.

Tracy bit the tip of her tongue tightly, and the bloody smell slowly spread in her mouth. How regretful she is, regretting that she is not a winner, otherwise, she can look at Hugo a little at this moment. A little disintegrating picture, maybe she will be more painful than Hugo, but she can be painful and happy. It's a pity that she is a loser, she is watching Hugo, but Hugo can't notice her, how ridiculous.

But at this moment, Hugo seemed to have noticed Tracy's eyes, and suddenly raised his head, and then the eyes of the two were like fate, looking at each other across the crowd, colliding with infinite sparks.

Tracy's eyes are so mixed, crazy and cruel, cold and cruel, but there is a little light shining in the endless darkness, although separated by the crowd, although separated by seven yards, but Hugo can. Recognize the truth of that little light: it is deep love, it is deep reluctance.

It is said that hateful people must be pitiful, and it should be said that this is the moment. Hugo knew that Tracy was so in love with Lancaster, but the two of them fought to the point of never ending, so fragile and weak Tracy looked so tragic and so pitiful. But Hugo knew that the pity was in the back and the hate was in the front. This was an unchangeable fact.

Is there right and wrong in love? Maybe there is, maybe not, but what is certain is that every love will have an ending, the love between Tracy and Lancaster will come to an end today, but two people will come this far, maybe who is Neither was expected.

Hugo gave Tracy a deep look, and he knew that he had nothing to do with her, from this moment on. So, Hugo pursed his lips slightly, then withdrew his gaze, and continued to devote himself to the interview, not paying attention to Tracy's movements and signs. But Tracy still stood in the same place, staring at Hugo with hatred, nostalgia, cruelty, turbulence, and reluctance, and stood silently like this.

Tracy looked at Hugo, but Hugo didn't notice Tracy. One thought of heaven, another thought of hell, this is probably their ending.

On March 21, 1994, at 11:32 pm, the five-year story of entanglement and struggle between Hugo and Tracy came to an end.