Chapter 790

The album "Never Mind" was originally released without lyrics, and Kurt was very vague when he sang. Most people couldn't understand the lyrics, and the song "Youth Mind" was even more difficult to understand. , many people simply do not understand what the song is about.

So, in the beginning, many stations refused to play the song, and even a professional rock station responded, "We can't play this, I don't understand what the fuck the guy is singing!" Even later the radio station I agreed to play the song "Youth Heart Qi", and it didn't cause much disturbance. It wasn't until the TV station started to play the music video on a loop that the song really became popular, probably because of this reason.

The lyrics created by Kurt have always been referential or profound meanings. Years later, when people study Nirvana's music, they always like to comprehend the profound rock spirit from Kurt's lyrics. The song "Youth Heart" is one of the best.

"Load the gun with ammunition, bring your friends, even if you lose, you have to pretend, it's fun." In fact, this is calling on the younger generation to gather and participate in the rebellion and revolution. If you hit it, even if you lose, don't be convinced. On the contrary, you should have fun with it, and use the non-mainstream entertainment spirit and game spirit to fight against the mainstream spirit of orthodoxy, rigidity and indifference. This is the typical juvenile mentality.

"She was terribly bored and utterly confident, oh no, I know a dirty word. Hello, hello, hello, hello? Hello, hello, hello, how nasty. Flow? Hello, hello Luo, how much. Flow, how much. Flow?"

Here is a metaphor for challenging the mainstream authority by picking up a conversation with a beautiful woman. The "extremely boring and extremely confident" arrogant beauty is the most difficult to strike up a conversation with, just like the mainstream thinking. Therefore, in the face of her indifference, young people should not care more and more, and deliberately tease her by saying swear words to her. This is the spirit of play and entertainment!

In fact, this is evident from an anecdote of Kurt and Courtney Love (Courtney. Love).

At the 1992 MTV Music Video Awards, Kurt met their nemesis, the Guns and Roses, and Courteney joked to Axl. Rose on purpose, " Would you like to be our daughter's godfather?"

Guns and Roses' rock-and-roll dynasty collapsed because of Nirvana's birth. The huge change from top star to tomorrow's day made the hot-tempered Axl directly infuriated, and he turned to Kurt. He scolded, "Why don't you let your bitch shut up?"

And Kurt didn't get angry at all, but instead said to Courteney with a deliberate smile, "Shut your stinky mouth, bitch!"

Kurt's cooperation let Axl know that he was being tricked. He raised his fist to use force, and cursed Kurt for being "gay", but he was backstage at the awards ceremony, so he was stopped by the people around him.

"I couldn't help laughing because I hadn't been in a situation like that since sixth grade," Kurt recalled with interest afterwards.

"Lights out, danger reduced. Here we are, entertain us! I feel stupid, but it's spreading. Here we are, entertain us!"

In fact, this is about the mentality of teenagers when they go to a party. In the mainstream view, it is a dangerous, stupid, boring party; but in Kurt's view, it is because of the eccentric stupidity. Infectious, let more people know the existence and efforts of non-mainstream. The point is not the way of expression, but the true meaning of behavior, which is the real juvenile spirit.

"A mulato! An Albino! A mosquito! My Libido! Yay! Hey! Yay!"

This section of the lyrics is also the most controversial, as several unrelated terms are listed here, but apparently not chosen at random.

Mutola is Spanish, meaning mulatto, the word has the color of the early Spanish colonization of the Americas, derived from the Spanish mule, which means mixed. pay.

People with albinism have completely white skin due to lack of melanin, and they cannot see the sun, otherwise they will be burned. But their greater pressure comes from society, because they are regarded as aliens, discriminated against and ostracized by mainstream society, and even killed in some African regions - because the bodies and organs of albinos are used in witchcraft. It has a wide range of uses and will sell for a good price.

Mosquitoes are considered to be the shady characters of vampires, and they are also spurned by people. Libido is sex. The meaning of impulsive, while in psychology also refers to the excitement and urge to other activities.

In fact, it is very simple. The first three words are consistent with the non-mainstream situation and are not accepted and recognized by the mainstream society, while the last libido seems to show that the non-mainstream is a new force, full of vitality and excitement. Impulsive, and release energy in the subsequent roar.

Of course, there is also a common saying that Kurt uses these words to refer to non-mainstream, mainly to rhyme and fill in the gaps of syllables, and has no deeper meaning. This statement was echoed by Nirvana drummer Dave, who wrote the lyrics in just five minutes after he figured it out.

"I forgot why I was going to taste it, oh yeah, I guess it made me smile, I found it hard, hard to find. Oh well, whatever, never mind."

This passage fits best with teenage psychology: we try something new just to taste it, not necessarily for some serious, noble, or great reason. If there must be a reason, it's because it's forbidden by the mainstream, so go for it. This is typical reverse psychology.

It is precisely because of this strong rebellious psychology that the rise and prosperity of non-mainstream underground culture is stimulated. But once the non-mainstream rises, it gradually occupies the territory and becomes the new mainstream. At this time, if we look back at the original non-mainstream movement, we will forget that our original intention is not to become the new mainstream, but to become the new mainstream. It's just an anti-psychological struggle.

That was the case with the hippie movement, so was the punk movement, and so was the rise of Nirvana.

Here's a very famous example, representing the famous "Simley. Face" pattern of Nirvana. There is no definite conclusion about the origin of this smiley face. The most widespread theory is that it comes from Axl Ross of Guns and Roses: when Nirvana was recording "Never Mind", Kurt just drew this smiley face pattern. , and said that he painted Axl-Roth. Someone told him at the time that it would be better to draw the eyes as crosses, which means that Aix is ​​drinking. Hi medicine. So Kurt did just that, put the smiley face on the table and left.

Later, a staff member discovered the graffiti and got it on a flyer for the "Never Mind" release party, so the smiley face gradually became a classic symbol of Nirvana - after Kurt passed away.

The reality is so ironic, those so-called die-hard Nirvana fans who wear this smiling face T-shirt and even have tattoos on their bodies, they think this smiley face represents Nirvana or Kurt, but in fact it is Nirvana Band's biggest pistol gun With Rose's vocalist Axl.

When Nirvana released the album "Never Mind", they didn't expect what happened later. When they had become an epoch-making classic rock band, Kurt was confused. He couldn't even remember his original intention of creating this album. : Not to be mainstream, but to rebel against the mainstream.

In the limelight of the mainstream media, Kurt lost himself, so he escaped to poison. in the world of goods. Today, Kurt chose to sing the song "Youth Mind", not only for the audience, but also for himself. He wants to find himself.

In an instant, Hugo's eyes were filled with hot tears. He understood the reason why Kurt tried to commit suicide in Rome, he understood the reason why Kurt escaped from the drug rehab center, he understood the reason why Kurt took the initiative to provoke, and he also I understand the reason why Kurt sang "Youth Mind"... All of these thoughts are hidden in Kurt's decadent, hoarse, vicissitudes, confusion, and despair. The difficult emotion is like a sharp The blade of the knife slowly inserted into the heart, and the pain overflowed little by little, but it made people unable to shout.

"Hello, hello, hello, hello? Hello, hello, hello, how much. Flow?... A rejection! A rejection! A rejection! A rejection! A rejection! A rejection! A rejection! One denial! One denial!"

Nine times, exactly nine times, repeated the lyric "One Rejection" over and over again. That kind of strong resistance and unruly resistance slowly permeated through Kurt's voice, as if it was against the whole world. vent dissatisfaction.

All the audience under the stage fell into madness. Everyone shook their heads wildly, shouting, jumping, and revelling, but no one noticed the despair and pain in Kurt's singing. The notes are dyed bright red, and the desperate gray is overwhelming.

How ironic this world is, the Nirvana band, which claims to be non-mainstream, has become a popular synonym for the mainstream society, and the "juvenile spirit" who shouts against the mainstream has become the spiritual leader that the whole society is crazy about. It's ironic that the derogatory label grunge has become the key to the revival of the rock dynasty, and Nirvana has also been labeled a "classic non-mainstream" performance.

Looking at Kurt standing on the stage and roaring to his heart's content, he was like a natural luminous body, attracting the attention of the whole world, but Hugo saw Kurt's soul drifting in the wind, lonely Kurt, proud Kurt, the narcissistic Kurt, the stubborn Kurt, the domineering Kurt... just like fragments released little by little in the music, disappearing into the wind.

Hugo stood there, motionless, as if he had witnessed the last moments of Kurt's life in full bloom, like a short-lived flower. But what about the epic ending?