Chapter 1251 1251 Vicious Circle

Joseph left, leaving Hugo a quiet space.

Although Hugo's first reaction was that Joseph was talking nonsense, he was instantly overwhelmed by fear, and that unknown fear made him uneasy. Because in his heart he knew clearly that the doctor's speculation was likely to be true.

The moment when the memory blank first appeared ten days ago was the moment when all this happened, right? Just like the most bloody plot in a dark TV series, the split personality grows little by little, and then gradually occupies more and more time, and even begins to control the initiative of the body. Does that mean that one day in the future his ego personality will disappear and be replaced by a split personality?

Hugo was caught off guard by this sudden change, and he didn't even know how to deal with such a situation. It was as if he had transmigrated back then, merging Lancaster's memories, and then he became who he is now. And now another personality has appeared, taking over the initiative step by step, waiting for the day he perishes. Is this his end? Just like the original crossing, the soul came to this world silently, and then the soul disappeared silently in this world in the end.

It was as if he had never appeared before.

This thought made Hugo panic. It seemed to be a situation he couldn't control, not something he could change with hard work or hard work. Everything was happening quietly, and he wasn't even the first to know. This powerless situation surrounded him in an instant, as if he would be suffocated in the next second.

Dazedly, Hugo fell asleep like this, although he kept reminding himself not to fall asleep, because it is very likely that after he fell asleep, he would never wake up, and instead he split his personality. But the heavy eyelids and tired brain still made him stumble to sleep.

Dreaming again.

Hugo opened his eyes. He looked down and saw his wet, sticky hands. The bright red blood on them was a bit abnormal. It looked like artificial blood plasma, but it felt delicate but not normal. so true. Wait, why does he think this blood is real enough? Did he really kill someone?

Hugo looked around hesitantly, but he didn't see Walter or Hope, nor Derek, but there was a halo flickering not far away.

Hugo didn't know if he should walk over, because he had bad memories of his previous experience of walking towards the light. But apart from the halo, there was darkness all around, without any reference or reference, and he could only move towards the halo.

Closer, closer. Then Hugo saw "his" mother curled up in the chair, sobbing sobbing, the sad tears falling drop by drop, clearly visible in the light, the sad face so desperate and sad, but... That's not his mother, but Matthew's.

Suddenly, Matthew's mother stood up and took a step towards Hugo. She was just crying, howling, like a ghost, and the cries swarmed from all directions. Hugo wanted to turn around and leave, but he couldn't move, he could only watch Matthew's mother rushing towards him, the tears on his face and the piercing cry firmly surrounded him, but just before Matthew When his mother was about to hug him...

He woke up.

Hugo sat up abruptly, gasping for breath, his whole body soaked in sweat, he looked around nervously, the surroundings were still bright, it was still afternoon, there was no bright light but It made Hugo feel at ease, and the beating heart became a little more stable.

Hugo raised his hands and looked carefully, but sadly, he didn't know if he was himself now.

"I'm Hugo...I'm Hugo-Lancaster..." He whispered in his mind, but this simple sentence made Hugo exhausted all his strength.

Finally, the boiling in the brain gradually calmed down, but Hugo sat in the same place but was a little dazed. Why did he show signs of split personality? Why?

Hugo's chaotic brain gradually clarified his thoughts little by little. According to Joseph's description, the second personality should be Matthew Poncelet. This shows that he has put too much attention on the role, and the role of substitution is too obvious, but why did this not happen when he played Amon Goss?

Hugo suddenly found a breaking point.

Is it not because he is too invested in the role that this situation occurs, but because of the change in his acting style? Does this mean that he is walking on a performance road at this time, the so-called split personality is just the image of Matthew constructed in the back of his mind, which directly "born" the second personality, this personality integrates performance into In the blood, every move does not need to be sculpted, it is a pure natural performance, but he has not completely mastered this performance method, so it will be out of control?

But how does he prove that his idea is correct? What is his way of acting?

Hugo couldn't help closing his eyes again. Although his brain was still in chaos at this time, he forced himself to concentrate, because this was not just a matter of performance. Seriously, it might become the key to maintaining his life, so He has to be highly focused.

This time Hugo changed his performance from the "Seven Deadly Sins". He tried to find a combination between method acting and expressive acting, so that each character could be presented in the most authentic, natural and delicate way. Hugo not only requires himself to have a deep enough understanding of the character, but also that he can construct the character, life and habits of the entire character; at the same time, he also requires to seek resonance between himself and the character, using his own life experience and his own ideological characteristics Build the small details of the character, use the most accurate expression method to present your own understanding, and achieve the perfect combination of the character and yourself.

It's like... as if he's playing Matthew!

Indeed, he is indeed performing Matthew, but at the same time he is also Matthew, and a part of him is also a part of Matthew, and finally the most real Matthew is shown on the camera, and it is also Hugo color. Matthew, who truly turns performance into a form of life.

Then people believe that Hugo is Matthew, and Matthew is Hugo; but Hugo is not Matthew, Hugo is just Hugo, Matthew is not Hugo, and Matthew is just Matthew. In short, looking at mountains is not mountains, and looking at water is not water.

Therefore, in the past month, Hugo has been trying to blur the line between himself and Matthew, and put himself into the "Matthew Life" he constructed as Matthew, and then lived in the Angolan prison as Matthew. For nearly a month, Hugo's mentality and thinking gradually approached Matthew's state, and even gradually evolved into Matthew.

When the line between life and drama, performance and reality was completely blurred, Hugo's performance reached a whole new level. He could really appreciate Matthew's mentality. When Matthew faced Susan With the contradictory and urgent mood at the time, and the entire psychological process of Matthew denying that he was a murderer, Hugo could really feel the emotional power in it.

As a result, Hugo's performance surprised the entire crew, even if it was just an ordinary play.

But there is a problem, Hugo doesn't know how he did it at all, he just feels that he is constantly becoming Matthew, and then... he really becomes Matthew, splitting out the personality that belongs to Matthew, And then really live on set as Matthew.

Hugo realized that he did not actually have a mental illness, but was just studying his acting skills. The so-called second personality was actually his understanding of the character, and in essence, it was his interpretation of the character, so there was some confusion in his mind. impression, but the memory is not clear enough. This is a split personality, but it is not a split personality. In the final analysis, this is just a process of Hugo's exploration of acting skills.

But Hugo's brain was so chaotic and heavy, he couldn't sort out his thoughts at all, and he had no clue as to how the whole process happened. Hugo forced himself to start recalling what had happened in the past month, but his brain seemed to be split open. The pain hit him in an instant, making him unable to calm down and think. The truth seemed to be hidden in a fog, he knew Clearing the fog would solve all problems, but he was now lost in the fog.

Is this really the truth? Or is it the "truth" that he has wished for in order to escape the so-called split personality? Hugo didn't know either, the unprecedented frustration left him with no time to think. Hugo only felt that his brain was very tired, endlessly tired, as if all the tiredness accumulated in the past few years came over in an instant, drowning him and letting him go. He couldn't breathe, and then he actually fell asleep again.

In his sleep, the same scene appeared again. In the endless darkness, only the halo was lit. This time, Hugo would not be fooled again. He took a step away from the halo, and then began to run wildly, running with all his strength. But it didn't take long for the lingering cry to sound again, Hugo turned around suddenly, and saw Matthew's mother chasing after her with tears streaming down her face, crying mournfully.

With a blink of an eye, all the tears on Matthew's mother's cheeks turned into blood tears, and the blood began to spread in the darkness.

Hugo could only run. Apart from running, he ran wildly like a lost dog, but his footsteps became heavier and slower, and the sharp cry was constantly draining his energy. Hugo had no time to think, no time to breathe, no time to even be afraid, so he just kept running.

But when will this nightmare wake up?