Six Hundred and Ninetieth Six Fish Tank Life

Jessica Ryder felt that she couldn't breathe, as if she was in a fish tank, clear and calm, but she couldn't breathe air.

She knew that she was the envy of the neighbors next door:

Wealthy middle-class families, although they are not rich, do not need to worry about livelihood issues. In the nearby neighborhoods, they are already well-fed and able to touch the upper-class people; the husband is in charge of making money, the wife is in charge of housekeeping. She grew up healthy and did not have a job outside; although the housework is heavy, it is not outrageous, and she can occasionally spare time to go shopping and spend time dressing herself up.

In the eyes of others, this is the dream life-and honestly, she has always dreamed of such a life before.

But now, she felt like a doll.

She was stuffed into a beautiful pink lace dress and displayed as a Barbie doll in a toy house. Her words and deeds were exactly the same as the rose-colored image in fairy tales. Sadness has no loneliness, no pain, and no negative emotions. Like the dodder grass in the greenhouse, it cannot withstand any wind and rain. It only has an ornamental function and has no self at all.

As she said, it was like living in a fishbowl.

Jessica knew that others would say that she was born in a state of blessings but did not know the blessings, that she was too well protected and did not know the sufferings of the world, and that her complaints were only because she had not experienced the twists and turns of reality. This is a fact, she will not deny it.

But what others don't know is that she is also a living person, she also has her own dreams, she also has her own curiosity, she also has her own pain, she also has her own life - or, she should have.

Like a canary, no matter how happy and beautiful the life in the birdcage is, very, very occasionally, she wants to experience the feeling of flying freely in the blue sky.

Maybe, she will encounter violent wind and rain, and then die like this; maybe, she will be hit by reality and hit her head bleeding, and she will be in a mess; maybe, she will come back in a daze without any life skills ;Maybe, nothing will happen, everything will be ordinary.

Maybe, she will witness the starry sky and the sea, and realize that life can have more possibilities; maybe, she will experience the ups and downs of adventure journey, and truly feel the luck of "living"; maybe, she will dig out a different self, and then use the Start a new life in a different way.

Maybe good, maybe not; maybe light, maybe dark. Anything is possible, but shouldn't that be the nature of life?

possibility.

Those uncertain futures are the joy of life; otherwise, at a glance, the end of everyone's life is actually just a handful of loess.

She just wants to have a little... herself, not a "wife" or a "mother", or an "image" in the mouth of others, but Jessica, an independent individual with her own name, who can cry and laugh , Will be happy and angry, have advantages and disadvantages, there is no such perfect real existence.

She wants this.

In fact, she was somewhat envious of Duncan, just as others envied her.

Thinking of this, Jessica couldn't help showing a self-deprecating smile——

Perhaps, everyone is like this, because their own life is full of feathers, because only they can understand the difficulties and depressions, so when they see others, they always see the glamorous, happy and happy side. Or seeing those sides that you yearn for and envy, you can't help but yearn for anticipation.

But I completely forget that everyone has their own troubles and troubles in their lives, and most of the time, they just "look beautiful".

But life is like this, the authorities are confused and the bystanders are clear, how many people can really see through it?

Just like today.

It's Sunday again.

According to the convention, it is another day of golf or tennis. In the eyes of outsiders, this is a day for the Ryder couple to communicate and have leisure and entertainment. Even the children are temporarily taken care of by the nanny, which also allows the parents to win a short-term The respite time is something that ordinary families can't even imagine.

But only Jessica knows that this is a day to help her husband curry favor with his boss and his family. On the surface, it’s an exercise, but in fact it’s an extension of work. How to flatter but not follow the truth.

"If you make a mistake, your promotion may be affected, and even your daily work will be affected." This is the original words from my husband, and it can even be said to be a warning.

Every time you "exercise", the consumption on the mental level is much higher than the fatigue on the physical level. After returning home, I sat blankly under the shower head and couldn't recover, because the brain was so tired that I didn't want to move at all, just wanted to To empty everything out and think of nothing during the brief time in the shower.

If she had a choice, Jessica would rather go out and work hard by herself. At least, her hard work can give her a sense of accomplishment, but now her hard work is just a display of "vase wife", and the final credit does not belong to her at all, just like Barbie's like house wine.

Today, the family members of the husband’s boss are not feeling well, so they changed their minds temporarily. The men went to the club to drink, and the wives all rested at home. There is no need to attend, because “the club is a man’s place and they will discuss some men’s topics there. ".

It is precisely because of this that Jessica was able to rest at home.

Standing in front of the sink, Jessica involuntarily began to lose consciousness, and the suffocating feeling of being unable to breathe firmly grasped her chest again.

In a trance, immersed in his own thoughts, he forgot the time, as if he had briefly traveled into space and lost the touch of the real timeline, so that when he was called by Duncan, he was shocked suddenly, and his eyes were obviously a little bit flustered.

However, Jessica concealed it very well, just like every day, she put on a mask and changed herself, and she became the envied Mrs. Ryder again.

After a brief greeting, she looked away and breathed out quietly, and Jessica returned to the work of clearing the dishes.

But, busy and busy, even Jessica didn't realize it, and stood in front of the sink and fell into a sluggish state again, her mind went blank.

She wasn't sure whether she had no thoughts or the strength to run her brain.

"ah!"

Shi Potian's shocking scream woke Jessica up again, and she was so terrified that she almost passed her breath. When she raised her head suddenly, she saw Duncan who was obsessed with madness. Jessica was completely dumbfounded. She couldn't believe her eyes. is a question mark:

What exactly is this doing?

But despite being stunned, he could clearly feel the surging enthusiasm, like a summer heat wave, bursting out vigorous vitality, and the gray world burst into gorgeous colors in an instant, firmly attracting Jessica's gaze.