Chapter 1118 What Is Despair?

But the partial birth mother cannot bleed. It is impossible for her to bleed. Her blood can transmit diseases. Her blood is sinful and dirty.

She shrank her body, trembling here and there, her whole body was twitching constantly, her clothes were soaked again, and even her hair was stuck to her face in strands.

Another drop of water rolled down her cheek, but she didn't know whether it was sweat or tears.

Until she woke up again, she didn't know what time it was. She woke up from the cold and hunger.

She touched her head, but it was extremely painful, and the clothes on her body were soaked again.

She lowered her head and looked at the blood on the floor, then got up from the ground, took a basin of water, knelt on the ground, and began to wipe the blood one by one. Her blood was poisonous. Don't let others touch it.

And her misty eyes were hazy at first, and then clear. She did not know how many times it happened, and a drop of water fell from the air again, and then spread on the floor.

She thought that she must have committed a major sin in her previous life, an irredeemable sin, so she had to suffer so much in this life, and was she living to atone for her sins in her previous life?

And what's ridiculous is that the fortune teller also said that she would have a lot of children and a happy life.

Will it, will it? She wiped her tears with her sleeves. How could she still live in a house full of children and grandchildren like this? She couldn't even save her own life, so what kind of happiness could she have?

She has no happiness, and everyone around her will be miserable because of her.

It would be Lu Yi, it would be Yi Ling, and it would also be her three children.

She picked up the basin and poured the water in the basin into the toilet, while the blood-streaked water flowed out along the sewer.

Will this still cause infection?

she does not know.

She touched her painful forehead. She couldn't let it bleed anymore, and she had to buy a rope to tie up her forehead. Otherwise, she didn't know what she would do without consciousness. .

She fetched another basin of water, knelt on the ground, and wiped the floor again and again, just like this, numb, expressionless, and feelingless. Her hands were frozen and choking, but she could no longer feel the pain.

Do you know what despair is?

You know, what is life worse than death?

Do you know what it means that life is more painful than death?

She knew that it was like this. In fact, it might be cleaner for her to die, but she was still living with such a broken body, living like this, living on the last breath.

She went out and bought a strong rope, and tied one end of the rope to the window. The windows were all made of steel rods. No matter what happened, she might have the strength to pull down the steel rods. She also I bought a cotton quilt for the wall, so that even if she really loses her mind, she knows she will hit her head, she knows she will bite herself, but now no matter what, she can't do it again. She was biting herself, she couldn't bear the injury, she couldn't bear any injury.

In the middle of the night, she suddenly opened her eyes, and her body began to tremble involuntarily.

She jumped off the wooden bed, and then tied her feet with ropes with trembling hands, and then her hands. She stopped the rope with her teeth, and tied her hands and feet tighter.

Until a while later, she felt the familiar feeling again. It was very painful. She bit the corner of the quilt hard, and her eyes turned red from suppressing it.

Only the clusters of small beads that kept gathering from the corners of her eyes began to fall downward from time to time. Her eyes were wide open, feeling no feeling, pain, and sadness. . Got it

"Huanhuan..." Suddenly, a man sat up. He turned on the lamp above the bed and put his hand on his forehead. At this time, cold sweat broke out on his forehead. Even the clothes on his body became soaked.

He turned the lights a little brighter, and then entered the bathroom. When the hot water was put down, no one saw that this man, who was always calm, was dripping with water from the corners of his eyes. Come tears.

Who said men can't cry? Who said men can't cry? Men are human beings too. Lu Yi is a human being. Why can't he cry?

The door outside was suddenly pushed open.

Lu Yi quickly took his clothes and put them on. When he came out, he saw Xunxun standing at the door with his bare feet and a big baby in his arms, looking at him with a pair of big eyes.

Lu Yi took the towel and wiped his hair clean randomly. Then he walked over and hugged Xunxun.

"What's wrong? Can't sleep?" Lu Yi carried his daughter to the big bed and touched her feet. He saw that the child's feet were a little cold and she wasn't wearing socks. Is she not feeling comfortable somewhere?

He put his hand on his daughter's forehead, but found that it seemed a little hot.

"Baby, sit down first and wait for daddy."

Lu Yi opened the drawer on one side, took out a medical kit, and then took out a thermometer.

"Let's take your temperature.

Lu Yi picked up his daughter, then clamped the thermometer for her, and then wrapped his daughter in a quilt.

"What's wrong? You're not talking again?" Lu Yi gently patted his daughter's little face. After the child recovered from the illness, he became the same as before. He was a pitiful little one. The bangs his mother cut had already grown. However, he refused to allow others to touch it. In the end, it was Lu Yi who cut it. However, Lu Yi’s technique was very poor. He cut Xunxun’s hair as if it had been chewed by a dog. Don't care.

It's just that this child doesn't seem to like talking to others anymore.

Xunxun rubbed his eyes. His long eyelashes were also extremely fragile. The fat baby face in the past was gone. Now it has become a small pointed chin, but it also made his eyes look bigger. No, it was the whole face. You can only see her eyes. If it continues like this, you may become an owl in the future.

"Bah..." Xunxun called out to Lu Yi, and then squeezed his father's fingers tightly.

"Xunxun has a headache. Mom said that if Xunxun has pain, he should tell his father, because Xunxun will infect his brother."

Lu Yi suddenly felt his eyes sore. He hugged his daughter tightly, almost as if the two fathers and daughters were relying on each other.

"Ba Ba, does Mommy not like Xunxun anymore?"

Xunxun asked, her tears falling down again, "Why didn't she come to Xunxun? Why didn't she hug Xunxun? Xunxun is very well-behaved. Xunxun will be very well-behaved. Xunxun will eat meat in the future." Rou, I can recite poems well and won’t talk back to Mom.”