Chapter 1162 The Key to Insight

"What I want you to do is very simple. If a doctor or nurse comes to round the ward after I leave, you just need to pretend that you are sleeping." Zuo Han didn't have any hope for Chen Ge: "Don't say too much For any sentence, no matter what he asks you, just say that you don’t know.”

"It's that simple?"

"Well, remember to open the door for me when I come back." Zuo Han lay on the hospital bed and ignored Chen Ge.

Ten minutes later, Zuo Han glanced at Chen Ge, then got up and walked to the door of the ward.

He quietly opened the door a crack, and slipped out directly after seeing that there was no one in the corridor.

"This person is suspicious, and his symptoms are indeed very similar to persecution paranoia." Chen Ge sat up from the bed: "Should I help him?"

No need to think hard, Chen Ge already felt that Zuo Han's departure tonight was not as simple as going to check the hospital, it was also a kind of temptation for him.

He didn't trust Zuo Han, and Zuo Han didn't fully trust him either. In the eyes of the delusional victim, the whole world is dangerous and a potential enemy.

Maintaining the original posture, Chen Ge sat by the bed for more than ten minutes, but Zuo Han still didn't come back.

He looked at the door that was staggered by a crack, dragged his leg in plaster, and walked slowly to the door of the ward.

Opening the door, Chen Ge looked outside. The corridor of the hospital was not completely dark. There were lights on at the corner of the corridor and at the nurse's station.

"It's completely different from the hospital in my impression. Could it be that the gloomy and dark midnight hospital was really imagined by me?"

Chen Ge can now grasp a certain degree, he will not think about any problems, as long as the memory of the past is not stimulated, there will be no pain in the brain that seems to be torn apart.

"I don't get a headache when I think about what happened during the day, but when I try to think about what happened before I passed out, the pain comes on suddenly, which is weird in itself."

"What do the memories of the past mean to me? Why do I feel pain just thinking about it?"

taking large doses of drugs,

His body was extremely weak and he was suffering from pain, but in such a situation, Chen Ge still maintained the ability to think independently.

"To a certain extent, Zuo Han and I are quite similar. He feels that everyone in the world is hurting him, and I feel that everyone in the world is lying to me. Are we really sick?"

The symptoms are so similar to those of a mental patient, which indirectly means that he may also be a mental patient.

"Being aware that I may be ill means that I still have a sense of illness, and my self-awareness has not weakened... self-awareness?" The three words that popped up inexplicably in his mind made Chen Ge stunned: "I am self-aware. Why am I so familiar with these three words of knowledge? This thing seems to be extremely important to me, I need self-knowledge, I need something with self-knowledge!"

The pain hit like a tide, and Chen Ge seemed to have touched the previous memory again. Countless memory fragments collided together in his mind, and he was so painful that he almost fainted.

Chen Ge firmly grasped the bed rail with both hands, and clenched his teeth.

His teeth were already bleeding, but he still didn't make any sound.

"Why am I so impressed by the word self-awareness?!"

Consciousness began to blur. If Chen Ge continued to think, he would not only have a headache, but he might faint directly.

Taking a deep breath, Chen Ge tried his best to calm himself down. He tried several times according to the breathing method taught by Dr. Gao, and the pain in his brain finally eased.

In just a few minutes, Chen Ge's back was already wet with cold sweat, and his body became weaker.

"If I faint, will another me appear? Can I talk to him?"

When Chen Ge was about to return to his hospital bed, footsteps suddenly sounded in the corridor.

"Zuo Han made no sound when he walked, it should be the nurse who came over."

Chen Ge still remembered Zuo Han's words. He lay down on the hospital bed and began to pretend to be asleep. After about ten seconds, the footsteps stopped at the door of the ward.

Squinting his eyes, Chen Ge stared at the door. He was not nervous, nor did he feel any uneasiness. Only then did he realize that his mental quality was ridiculously good.

"Boom."

Someone knocked lightly on the door, followed by the sound of footsteps, and the people outside left.

"What do you mean? Came here at three or four in the morning and knocked on the door, and then left? Is this a prank by the nurse?"

The person outside the door did not come in, and this became the point that confuses Chen Ge the most: "Who is the person knocking on the door? Nursing worker? Zuo Han? Doctor? Or other patients in the hospital?"

After a while, the door of the ward was pushed open, and Zuo Leng walked in with a face.

"went well?"

"This hospital is very large, and it is a general hospital. The third ward where we are located is only a small part of it." Zuo Han walked to Chen Ge's bed, stretched out his hand and gestured: "If you compare the hospital to a pillow, we probably Right in this corner."

"Are you confident to escape?" Chen Ge is more concerned about this point. The inexplicable knock on the door just now gave him a sense of urgency. It seems that if he stays here for a long time, something worse will happen. .

"No." Zuo Han's answer was very straightforward: "There are surveillance cameras installed at the entrance of the corridor. We have three nurses and two nurses in our building to take care of us 24 hours a day. The door to the hospital is also locked, and we don't know where the key is. on the body."

"Key?" When mentioning the key, a flash of lightning seemed to flash across Chen Ge's mind, as if a drowning man suddenly grabbed a straw: "I need a key!"

"Yes, without the key, we can't run out at all." Zuo Han felt that Chen Ge's tone was very strange, so he didn't continue to communicate with Chen Ge, and returned to his hospital bed.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Chen Ge found that Zuo Han was still wearing clothes and shoes, lying sideways on the bed, not intending to sleep at all.

"I don't want to die in my sleep." Zuo Han closed his eyes, and he hid a hand in his bosom, and there seemed to be something hidden in his palm.

Knife? It doesn't look like it, it should be some kind of sharp thing, he got it from outside?

According to the doctor, Zuo Han is a patient suffering from severe paranoid delusions. Such a dangerous guy holding an unknown object in the same ward as himself is scary even thinking about it.

Reason told Chen Ge that he should be afraid, but to be honest, he didn't have any waves in his heart.

Changing to a comfortable position, Chen Ge closed his eyes and fell asleep.

...

When the door opened, Chen Ge slowly opened his eyes. The morning light outside the window shone on him, and he stretched comfortably.

"This kind of life is pretty good, as long as I don't recall those bad memories, I look like a normal person."

Chen Ge turned his head, Zuo Han was still lying on the bed, he didn't seem to fall asleep until dawn.

"It seems that you had a good rest last night." Dr. Gao stood at the door. He didn't go to see Zuo Han, but walked directly to Chen Ge's bedside: "Did you have a nightmare last night?"

"No." Chen Ge shook his head. The face of Dr. Gao in his mind overlapped with the face of Dr. Gao in reality. Perhaps because he had seen too much, the two contradictory memories had a tendency to merge.

There seemed to be a force in his mind that was slowly changing his perception, allowing him to see the reality clearly, and helping him to get rid of the pain.

"This shows that my treatment is still effective." Dr. Gao was very pleased: "I will not let Xu Wan continue to deliver meals to you today. You have been in the ward for a long time, and it is time to go out and walk around. Rehab helps a lot."

"Go out for a walk? Can I go to that paradise?" Chen Ge immediately regained his energy.

Dr. Gao couldn't help laughing: "Do you want to see the female owner of the haunted house? I'm afraid that's not possible. You can only work in the hospital for the time being."

"All right."

"I'll get you crutches, wait a minute."

After Dr. Gao went out, Zuo Han, who had been in a coma, suddenly woke up. He gestured to Chen Ge and whispered, "Don't believe his nonsense."

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

Zuo Han didn't speak any more, and remained motionless, as if he was still in a deep sleep.

A few minutes later, Dr. Gao returned to the ward with crutches. He helped Chen Ge up, and the two walked out together. During the whole process, Dr. Gao didn't say a word to Zuo Han.

I don't know if Dr. Gao is worried about disturbing Zuo Han's sleep, or if there are other reasons.

After breakfast, Chen Ge and Dr. Gao came to the garden outside the sick building.

There are not many flowers in the garden due to missing the flowering season, but it still feels very comfortable to stay here.

The wind blows on the face through the treetops, like a pair of gentle hands.

The sunlight fell on the ground through the gaps in the leaves, like swimming goldfish. The grass and trees on both sides of the road were trimmed neatly, like a calm and beautiful green lake.

"Have I not left the ward for a long time?" Chen Ge leaned on his armpit and moved his body a little bit.

"Why do you say that?"

"I haven't experienced this feeling of relaxation for a long time." Chen Ge touched the tree beside him, and sat down in a quiet place with few people.

"It's not that you haven't experienced it. You're just trapped in a dark room and forget that feeling." Dr. Gao sat beside Chen Ge, and he seemed to like chatting with Chen Ge very much.

"An opaque room?"

"This opaque room is your heart. You locked yourself in the bottom of your heart with the key. All I can do is to find a way to get you out of that room." Dr. Gao looked at the sky, wondering something.

"As long as I can get out of this room, will my illness be cured?" Chen Ge asked seriously.

Dr. Gao shook his head: "Mental illnesses are different from psychological problems. Mental illnesses cannot be corrected by themselves. They need to be treated with drugs. This is just the first step to get you out of the house in your heart."

"Then how can my illness be completely cured? In fact, I now feel that I am no different from normal people." Chen Ge leaned against a tree, his eyes were a little dazed.

"You don't realize that you are sick, which means that you are still a long way from recovery. Sickness and self-awareness are also the basis for us to judge the severity of a patient's condition." Dr. Gao chatted with Chen Ge.

"Self-knowledge? What is that?" Chen Ge's hand grabbed the edge of the wooden chair, and he lowered his head, as if to prevent others from seeing his expression at this time.

"Intelligence is the patient's ability to recognize his own mental state. It depends on whether he can judge whether his mental state is normal. You obviously don't have any self-awareness in your current situation."

"But I still feel that I am no different from a normal person, except that I occasionally get a headache." Chen Ge raised his head again, and he covered his head, as if he just had another headache for a while.

Doctor Gao did not refute Chen Ge, he pointed to a man talking to himself beside the gazebo in the distance.

The man was in his early thirties and was wearing a hospital gown. He stood under the sun by himself, talking to himself in the gazebo where the sun couldn't find it.

This person Chen Ge also felt a little familiar, but he couldn't remember the other person's name for a while.

"His name is Zhang Jingjiu. He used to live in the same ward with you, but later we found out that his condition continued to worsen after living with you, so we moved him to another ward."

"Zhang toast?"

"Well, he is the son of the owner of a winery in Xinhai. He is young and has a bright future, but unfortunately he has a mental problem."

"What's wrong with him?" Chen Ge's expression changed after hearing the name Zhang Jingjiu.

"Undifferentiated schizophrenia." Dr. Gao stared at Zhang Jingjiu, watching his every move: "This patient always feels that he can see ghosts."

"ghost?"

"How can there be ghosts in the world? In fact, we tested his senses and found that his five senses are completely different from ordinary people." Dr. Gao said casually: "He can't concentrate and always feels that someone is talking around him It is the same in a room where he is alone. And his brain has problems processing sound. Let me give you a simple example. After a normal person hears a sentence, his brain will think about the expression of the sentence meaning, while he heard word by word, and all the sentences were fragmented in his mind."

When Dr. Gao was talking with Chen Ge, the patient named Zhang Jingjiu turned his head and saw this place. His eyes widened suddenly and he rushed over quickly.

Before Dr. Gao and Chen Ge could react, Zhang Jingjiu grabbed Chen Ge's hand and wanted to pull him up from the seat, but he ignored Chen Ge's injured leg. In the end, Chen Ge was killed. He was dragged to the ground.

There was no sign, and Chen Ge didn't react.

"Nurse! Come here!"

Dr. Gao and a patrolling nurse dragged Zhang Jingjiu aside. When he was dragged away, he kept shouting at Chen Ge—ghost, ghost, ghost!

"Are you okay?" Doctor Gao helped Chen Ge up.

"It's okay, it's okay." Chen Ge sat down on the bench again. He felt a little strange. From Zhang Jingjiu's last tone, he could hear that he was very afraid of ghosts. Since he was very afraid of ghosts, why did he take the initiative to come up and drag himself ?

After pulling himself, he yelled ghost, ghost, ghost at himself...

Chen Ge lowered his head and beat the ashes on his clothes, and looked away from Dr. Gao.

"He should be reminding me that there are ghosts around me, and he thinks Dr. Gao is a ghost."