Chapter 398 It’s All Fake (1/2)

Chapter 398 It's all fake

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan expressed all their opinions to Xiao Yan, and they argued about each other's speeches. Xun'er and others who were watching couldn't help but frown.

In order to win over Xiao Yan, the two of them actually sat here and argued for almost an hour. They were thirsty watching.

And Xiao Yan never said a word from beginning to end. He just listened silently from beginning to end. The notebook in his hand was filled with several pages, all of which were Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan's debate.

Finally, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan also felt dry in their mouths, and they stopped arguing at the same time, and all looked at Xiao Yan.

"Xiao Yan, have you made a decision in your heart?"

Xiao Yan frowned slightly, and after a long time, he slowly closed the notebook, closed his eyes and thought quietly.

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan knew that Xiao Yan was going to make a decision. They were very anxious, but they really suppressed it. They couldn't help but pray that Xiao Yan would choose their faction.

If Xiao Yan chose the other faction, it would not only give the other faction an additional strong supporter, but also greatly reduce the morale of their own faction, and the originally balanced forces between the two sides might be tilted.

Time passed by minute by minute.

After an unknown amount of time, Xiao Yan slowly opened his eyes, and in the hopeful eyes of Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan, he slowly spoke.

"It's incredible."

"Huh?"

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan were stunned by Xiao Yan's words, and then Xiao Yan looked at them and asked softly.

"Excuse me, did you come up with all these opinions by yourself?"

"No, not just me." Qiu Feng was the first to come back to his senses, pressed his neck and replied: "When I discussed with the members of our Mu Qiang faction on weekdays, I always kept in mind the reasons why they supported Mu Qiang. I couldn't think of so many by myself."

"It's the same for me. Many of the opinions I just said are the opinions of our Wei Qiang faction members. Their opinions are similar and different, but they are undoubtedly deeply recognized by me."

Ye Nuan also spread out one hand and said this very honestly.

"Ha, so that's it."

Hearing the answers of the two, Xiao Yan responded in a deep voice, and a ripple appeared in his heart.

After a while, Xiao Yan looked at the two and said.

"Qiu Feng, Ye Nuan, I'm sorry, I won't join anyone."

"What?!"

Hearing Xiao Yan's words, Qiu Feng exploded directly. We have been arguing with you for almost an hour. No matter who you choose, at least there will be a result? But you actually said that no one will join? Are you kidding us!

Although Ye Nuan also had resentment in his heart, he was calmer than Qiu Feng and asked in a deep voice.

"Is it because you don't agree with our views?"

"No, on the contrary." Xiao Yan shook his head lightly and said solemnly: "I think what you two said is very reasonable. I agree with both of you."

"But now I really can't determine which side is right. I'm really sorry."

Xiao Yan said, bowed his head deeply to the two of them to express his apology, and continued in Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan's stunned eyes.

"Please give me some time, I need to think about your remarks carefully. When I make a decision in my heart, I will report to you as soon as possible. During this period, I hope that both of you can temporarily stop the armed conflict. Please."

Hearing Xiao Yan's sincere speech, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan were both stunned for a long time, and they looked at each other and communicated with their eyes.

After a moment, they nodded lightly.

"Okay, since Mu Qiang has too many wounded soldiers during this period, let's stop fighting first."

"I second the motion."

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan said this. They both knew that it would be difficult to tell who was right and who was wrong if they continued to fight, and the result would only be a loss for both sides.

And they also vaguely realized that armed conflict could not change the other party's point of view at all. If it was really that easy, Xiao Yan would just take the Xiao family and crush them to death. Who would dare to say anything?

Since Xiao Yan did not do this, it proved that Xiao Yan himself had discovered that force alone could not solve the problem.

Now that Xiao Yan said this, it was a step for the two of them to step down, so let's stop fighting for the time being.

Afterwards, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan took their respective people away. Wu Hao looked at their leaving figures and approached Xiao Yan and asked in a low voice.

"Hey, the captain asked you to disband them, is that okay?"

"Don't worry, I'll go explain to Sister Xiao Yu later." Xiao Yan supported his knees and stood up, chuckling: "And Sister Xiao Yu's original intention was to let them stop causing disputes. As long as they don't cause trouble, Sister Xiao Yu doesn't care how long the Admiring the Strong and Fearing the Strong factions exist."

"Haha, that's true."

Wu Hao scratched his hair lightly, and then Xiao Ning suddenly came up and hugged Xiao Yan's neck and laughed.

"Finally, the work is done. Let's go~ Cousin will take you there."

Bang!

Before Xiao Ning finished speaking, he was pulled back by two pairs of hands, and then he let out a series of miserable howls in the eyes of the people around him.

After the howling ended, Xun'er and Xiao Mei threw Xiao Ning, who was covered with shoe prints and twitching all over, to the side with gloomy faces, not caring about his life or death, which made Xiao Yan tremble.

These two girls were still as cruel as ever to Xiao Ning's cousin.

Then Xun'er and Xiao Mei immediately put on a gentle smile and surrounded Xiao Yan. Xiao Yan couldn't help but sigh at the speed of their change of expression.

"Brother Xiao Yan, what do you have to do next?"

Xun'er asked with a smile, and Xiao Mei beside her also looked hopeful. Since Xiao Yan came, she has been busy with things, and she is also busy filming, so she has no time to spend alone. She has been thinking about it for a long time.

However, Xiao Yan's answer made her look disappointed.

"Sorry, I want to be alone for a while." Xiao Yan said softly, turning his head to look at the others, "Thank you for your hard work, everyone should go and do your own things."

Xiao Yan waved his hand and walked away slowly, which made Xun'er and Xiao Mei look a little disappointed.

Hu Jia, who was standing by, hugged his arms and raised his eyebrows in confusion at Xiao Yan's back.

"Why do I feel that guy's mood has suddenly become much lower?"

Although he usually speaks and acts very hotly, Hu Jia is surprisingly sensitive to the inner changes of others.

When Xiao Mei heard Hu Jia's words, her heart was instantly moved, and she immediately wanted to catch up with Xiao Yan, but was pulled by Xun'er.

"Xun'er?"

"Don't bother him yet, let Brother Xiao Yan be alone for a while."

Xun'er said softly, looking in the direction where Xiao Yan left, her eyes full of worry.

Xiao Yan, who had left, came to the back mountain of the outer courtyard, found a big rock to sit on, flipping through the series of speeches by Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan that he had just recorded, thinking about every sentence they said in his mind, and marking something with a pen from time to time.

At this time, Yao Chen showed up, looked at Xiao Yan's behavior, and said softly.

"Xiao Yanzi, you seem to be very irritable now."

"Ah, Senior Yao, do you feel it?"

Xiao Yan did not deny it, and Yao Chen smiled helplessly.

"I have been following you for such a long time, and I can almost grasp your mood changes." Yao Chen paused, and then said: "Do you have any merit in what the two students said just now?"

"Quite a lot, I have also discovered the huge flaw I had before." "Big flaw?"

Yao Chen raised her eyebrows in doubt. If someone asked her what Xiao Yan's huge flaw was, Yao Chen would definitely answer "too upright" without hesitation. Although Yao Chen benefited a lot from Xiao Yan's uprightness, she still felt that being too upright was not a good thing, especially for Xiao Yan.

But, this is just Yao Chen's own idea. Xiao Yan would never think that being too upright is a flaw.

Yao Chen really can't think of something that Xiao Yan himself thinks is a huge flaw.

At this time, Xiao Yan frowned and answered.

"I was too arrogant before."

"Arrogant?"

The doubts in Yao Chen's eyes deepened. How could you be arrogant when you underestimate your own abilities from beginning to end?

Xiao Yan nodded lightly and said affirmatively.

"Well, it's arrogance, arrogance in all aspects." Xiao Yan looked up at Yao Chen and said softly: "Senior Yao, you also know, right? I have always avoided accepting favors from others, including you, and I have tried not to ask for help as much as possible."

"Ah, that's right, because your integrity does not allow you to accept favors from others casually, then in your opinion, it is to trouble others because of your own affairs."

Yao Chen said, with a helpless expression on her face. Xiao Yan is just a stubborn person, and she has wanted to complain about this for a long time.

Hearing Yao Chen's words, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly in a low voice.

"Before, I always felt that way, and I felt that I just tried not to ask for help from others as much as possible for the righteousness in my heart." Xiao Yan paused, and then said: "But after the incident in the Black Horn Region, I found that the reason why I didn't ask for help from others, what I didn't want to owe favors to others, what I didn't want to trouble others, were just superficial reasons."

"The real reason is that I feel deep in my heart that I can solve the things in front of me by myself, and I don't need to ask for help from others at all."

Xiao Yan's words made Yao Chen stagnate suddenly, and then he immediately understood, and agreed in his heart.

Indeed, that is true.

Every time Xiao Yan encountered a dilemma before, he gritted his teeth and persisted. It was not just to stick to his beliefs, but actually because of his arrogance, which made him always feel that he could solve it by his own strength.

So far, Xiao Yan has only asked for help twice.

Once was when he first encountered Mobas in the Tagor Desert, and the other time was when the Black Horn Region avenged the children.

Only these two times did Xiao Yan clearly know that he could not handle it by his own strength, so he asked to borrow his strength.

"There is one more thing, Senior Yao." Xiao Yan looked at Yao Chen, his eyes dotted with a little light, "I have always been much stronger than people of the same level, right?"

Xiao Yan's question made Yao Chen stunned for a moment, and he couldn't help but reply.

"You know?"

Xiao Yan had fought so many opponents with a huge difference in level before, not to say that he won easily, but at least he had a back-and-forth. However, from beginning to end, Xiao Yan never expressed doubts about his strength, so Yao Chen gradually got used to it after complaining again and again, thinking that Xiao Yan was too slow to notice this matter.

But from what Xiao Yan said, it seems that he is not that slow?

Seeing the astonishment in Yao Chen's eyes, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly.

"It's just once or twice. After so many battles, no matter how slow the disciple is, he should have discovered it." Xiao Yan said slowly: "I will take the initiative to face powerful enemies that are far higher than myself again and again, because I understand in my heart , Although my level is not as good as theirs, I can deal with them with my strength. I actually know my strength deep down. "

Yao Chen was silent for a long time and asked slowly.

"Then why did you pretend not to know before?"

"Because I'm afraid." Xiao Yan smiled reluctantly, "I'm afraid that when I know that my strength far exceeds people of the same level, the pride in my heart will become stronger and stronger, and I will look down on others more and more. People, thus becoming the type of people I hate the most.”

"Once in Qingshan Town, after I killed the apparently most powerful Mu She, I had the idea in my heart to kill everyone in Qingshan Town who might pose a threat to the people around me, even innocent people. Because at that time I felt that I was above everyone else and no one would criticize me no matter what I did.”

"I really didn't dare to encounter that kind of mentality again, so even though I later realized that my strength far exceeded people of the same level, I buried it deep in my heart, subconsciously. Let yourself discover this."

"But the arrogance born of this incident has actually always affected my words and deeds."

"I am just a great fighting master. I dare to help children open a restaurant in a place like Black Corner Territory because I have the confidence deep down in my heart to do so."

"Including the revenge for the children later, it is not just because of my emotions, but because I feel that as long as I use your power, I can fight even the Douzong."

Speaking of this, Xiao Yan couldn't help but smile, looked at Yao Shen and asked again.

"Senior Yao, do you know why I have always been so humble?"

".It's because you have to strictly abide by your own right path."

Yao Shen hesitated for a while and then said this.

Before doing this, she would never have hesitated to say this, because in her opinion, Xiao Yan was such a person.

However, after Xiao Yan's previous speech, she felt a little unsure.

"I thought so before." Xiao Yan said, his eyes revealing his disgust, "But in fact, the real reason is that I feel deep down in my heart that if I am arrogant and arrogant, then I will be like other arrogant people. Like any arrogant person, I am looked down upon by myself.”

Look down upon. These words really don’t seem like something Xiao Yan can say, let alone something he can do.

Even when facing the people he killed with his own hands, Xiao Yan always just "hated" them and never said "disdained" them.

At this time, Xiao Yan was still explaining to himself.

"So far, I have always looked at my life from the perspective of [Zhengdao]. [Xiao Yan] is like a puppet controlled by Zhengdao, so I can restrain my desires again and again and control a completely It is much easier to control [others] than yourself.”

"Deep in my heart, I have always held the concept of using violence to combat violence and evil to destroy evil."

"But the [righteous way] in my heart tells me that this kind of method cannot fundamentally solve the problem, and the result will only be counterproductive."

"Whenever I encounter difficulties and dangers, I always want to escape, and I always want to give up when I promise others things."

"But [The Righteous Way] also told me that always thinking about escaping when encountering difficulties and dangers is definitely not the Righteous Way. People who practice the Righteous Way should never be so cowardly, and they must risk their lives to do what they promise others."

"That's why I have been trying my best to control myself in the name of [the right path], doing things that I don't want to do, and trying to endure the most instinctive thoughts in my heart as much as possible."

"Before, I had been deliberately ignoring these things. It was not until the incident in the Black Corner Domain that I finally saw clearly what kind of person I was."

"However, even so, [The Righteous Path] still persuades me to persist and not give up, but it does not tell me where to go next."

Xiao Yan slowly raised his head and looked at Yao Shen, who was shocked.

Two lines of clear tears fell from the side of Xiao Yan's face, his pupils trembled slightly as if they were on the verge of collapse, and a slightly broken smile appeared on his face.

"Senior Yao, the [Xiao Yan] you met before never existed from the beginning."

"All my words and deeds were never my intention."

"Those are all fake."

Xiao Yan's eyes were filled with confusion about the future, like a lost child who didn't know where to go.

The righteous path he had relied on before had big problems now.

What happened in the Black Corner Territory and the deaths of those children made Xiao Yan deny in his heart the right path that he had previously insisted on, and [Xiao Yan], the [person] who was built based on the right path, was also denied.

After listening to Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan's respective opinions today, Xiao Yan's heart became even more confused, and his previous beliefs were shattered.

Xiao Yan doesn't understand what the right path in the future and his future self should be like.