Chapter 384 Destined Life

How many days has it been?

I looked at the marks on the wall and couldn't help but smile bitterly.

Twenty days.

I have been trapped here for twenty days!!

In these three weeks, I could only get a bottle of mineral water and a bag of bread every day.

Due to severe nutritional imbalance, my whole body began to lose strength.

In this midsummer season, I was locked in an extremely hot and stuffy hut. There was no suitable place for me to defecate, so the house was stinking.

Countless maggots and flies wandered in the house, and countless cockroaches crawled all over the walls.

It's so funny... The current situation really makes me want to laugh.

I, a person who can't even have dust in my house on weekdays, now live with cockroaches all day long.

In the first few days, I ran around to avoid them, but the area here was too small and I couldn't get around anyway.

I could only let them crawl all over my body.

Cockroaches feel soft and cold. When they crawl over your arms, you feel itchy, and you can't even feel their slight weight.

I'm really afraid of this kind of thing, but I can't avoid it. Every day I can feel goose bumps all over my body, but I know that when I sleep, they will lean against me and rub their forelimbs carefully.

They talk to me at night, use my body to keep warm, and I can easily take cockroaches out of my hair.

In this dark and small room, I don't have any hygiene products, only bugs... only countless bugs...

But who am I?

Am I Zhang Laidi, who had to cook for the whole family every day after school when I was seven years old, or Zhang Chenze, who was sent a car to pick me up when I went to and from major companies when I was thirty-three years old?

I have two completely opposite lives. Isn't this abnormal?

One of them must be a dream, right?

Yes, I must be hysterical.

If I were to choose now... I would like to be Zhang Laidi.

I don't want to die.

I lost, I really admit defeat.

These people have no law in their eyes. If I still don't agree to him, he will definitely let me starve to death here.

If I don't become Zhang Lai Di, then I can only be a corpse.

I am a human... I am not a pig. I shouldn't be locked up in a small room every day, eating, drinking, and defecating all mixed together.

I want to stand up, I want to shake off the bugs on my body, I want to change into cleaner clothes, I want to take a shower, and I also want to eat a juicy peach.

I want to be Zhang Lai Di.

What kind of unattainable dream was I touching before?

I wanted to get away from here and start another life.

The ten years in Chengdu were really the most ridiculous dream in my life.

I was wrong, I dare not do it again.

As long as I can leave this room, I can agree to anything.

I am willing to be Mrs. Ma, I am willing to stay in the village, and I am willing to give birth to his children.

My life has been destined to be like this since birth, but I have been struggling like a dream.

If you can completely get rid of these situations just by your own efforts, why are there so many miserable people in the world? It's not fair to them.

Now my dream is over, and I should return to my original life.

Cockroach friends... do you think I'm right?

But why didn't the butcher come to see me?

Didn't he say that he would starve me for only five days?

It's been twenty days now!

Fortunately, I can distinguish between night and day in the house, and I can also vaguely hear sounds in the distance, otherwise I would definitely go crazy.

What happened to the nearest village?

A few days ago, I could always hear the sound of police cars and vaguely hear quarrels, but these days it has become quiet.

But I don't even have the strength to speak, and I can't even ask for help.

Who can save me?

It wasn't until the evening that the door in the house was finally opened.

This door was opened for the second time in twenty days.

"Damn it..." Butcher Ma stood there angrily. He looked back and saw that there was no one around, so he turned around and closed the door.

I gasped and stretched out my hand, wanting to say something, but found that my arm was beginning to shrivel.

When did this happen...?

"What on earth are you doing in the city, you son of a bitch?!" He asked in a panic, "Why are there so many policemen? I didn't dare to come here for several weeks..."

"Let me go..." I finally said two words, almost using up all my strength, "Let me go..."

"Let you go?"

I saw that he had an oil lamp in his hand. He put the oil lamp aside and reached out to untie his belt.

I looked a little dazed, and for a moment I didn't know what he was doing.

"It's so troublesome to lock up your wife... It seems that I can't wait for you to give in, I have to deal with you first."

Wait... wait a minute...

I finally reacted, but my thinking was extremely slow now. All the words I wanted to say were like vehicles that collided in a car accident, stuck in my throat and I couldn't say a word.

He slapped me to the ground and started tearing my clothes.

I didn't have the strength to resist.

Can you let me say something?

I agree... I agree to everything, but don't touch me like this...

Please...

"Eh..." He took off my pants and looked at me with contempt, "You idiot... How come you are dirtier than a pig?"

I was going to collapse. The dignity I had accumulated and the persistence I had worked so hard for for so long all collapsed at this moment.

What serious sin had I committed to make my life so miserable?

What should I do?

At this moment, I was like a corpse. No matter what this smelly man did to me, I couldn't move at all.

"Idiot..." He saw that I didn't react at all, so he stretched out his hand and swung it at my face.

I was slapped many times, and my mouth was full of the taste of blood, but I didn't say a word.

I didn't cry until he stopped floating on me.

This is my life.

It was the life that was destined from the day I was born.

It is said that on the day I was born, there were a total of six babies in the delivery room, five of which were boys.

My old man and my mother happily asked the doctor: "Which boy is the one in our family?"

When they learned that the only girl was their child, they turned around and left with a gloomy face. If the doctor hadn't stopped them, I would have lost my parents now.

"It's really a melon..."

Ma the butcher stood up and put on his pants. When I thought everything was over, he hit me head-on.

He took out the mobile phone that he had used for who knows how long from his pocket and started to take pictures and videos of me from all angles.

Whether it was possible to take pictures or not.

It's illegal... He broke the law again...

But wait... Why should I care whether he broke the law or not?

This is my future life. I'm not a lawyer. I'm Zhang Lai Di.

When I was most helpless, desperate, and dirty, he took pictures of me carefully.

Now I can't even cover my face with my hands.

"You're a bitch, aren't you a complainer?" He turned his phone over and shook it in front of me. "If you dare to complain, I'll post these photos everywhere, understand?"

After saying this, he spat on the ground, muttered "stinking" and slammed the door and left, locking the chain again.

He left again...?

I really can't do this, don't leave me here anymore, I feel like I'm going to die.

I feel like I'm injured...sick...and I'm almost starving to death...

Don't leave me here...

I'm in pain all over, and I feel like a cockroach is crawling on my face.

Don't touch me anymore...really don't touch me anymore...

I stretched out my hand with all my strength and took the cockroach off my face.

I really want to crush it to death in my hand.

But this is not fair to it.

This cockroach did nothing wrong, it was just forced to die because of my emotions, this is not fair.

My experience is already tragic enough, there is no need to involve other lives.