Chapter 525: Defective Self (Original)

Then the EVA mass-produced machine released its own A.T. force field, forming a simple yet mysterious pattern behind the No. 1 machine and the giant Ayanami Rei.

"The A.T force field of the EVA mass production machine resonates!"

"Continuing to increase!"

"Have you started to assimilate with Li?"

…

The remaining personnel from NERV headquarters acted as commentators and explained the current situation.

Then Shinji Ikari, who was still in Unit 1, saw...

The body of the EVA mass production machine began to distort, changing into faces...

They are all Rei Ayanami’s faces!

And they were so densely packed, and they were still smiling with unclear meanings, it really made people’s scalp numb!

Intensive phobia, horror effect, blood phobia and unknown phobia, the things that most people are afraid of at the moment are concentrated on them!

The audience felt as if their hearts were about to stop when they saw it at this moment, let alone Shinji Ikari who faced these strange phenomena in the series!

Shinji Ikari's face seemed to be smiling and twitching, and his whole expression was extremely weird.

At this moment, he saw Ayanami Rei's half-weird, half-bloody face that seemed to be close at hand. She focused her eyes on him and gave him a smile of unknown meaning.

Then……

“Ahhhhhhh——!!!!”

He screamed in terror again.

As he screamed, Unit 1, which had stopped moving, suddenly woke up, opened its mouth and shouted! !

The chest of Unit-00 also opened suddenly, which seemed to indicate that at this moment, Shinji Ikari was completely let go of the barriers of his mind by fear.

He tried hard to brake the control device of Unit 1, trying to get rid of all this fear, but it was all in vain.

The audience also denounced Lin Qingshan's inhumanity at this moment. This is... so crazy!

"I feel so bad for Shinji! It's so numb. I feel like my heart is getting wet just watching it. I can't imagine how scared Shinji is when he sees all this directly."

"This kind of picture... is too familiar. Old thief Qingshan, you used the expression method you used to draw "Whirlpool" to draw "EVA", right?"

"As a claustrophobic person, I can't even imagine Shinji's current situation... being directly locked in the insertion bolt of Unit 1, and then seeing these scenes, I would have died of fear on the spot."

"That's so right, that's so right! Old thief Qingshan is so crazy, how can I say that he can watch "EVA" so normally?"

"No...brother, do you think the previous episodes of Bird Angel, Womb Angel War, and Terror Angel are normal? And the episode of Kaoru Nagisa... I have a psychological shadow."

"Really, the front of "EVA" was so normal, I thought the old thief Qingshan was really going to change his ways!"

"It's this kind of madness that's just right! Hahaha, it's better to be crazy! It's better to be crazy!"

"It's scary...there aren't many normal fans of Old Thief Qingshan!"

"Having seen the performances of "Edge Walker", "Fist of Fire", "Chainsaw Man", and "The Strange Fairy"... "EVA" has already restrained the old thief Qingshan!"

"That's right! Do you know what cyberpsychosis is? Do you know what 'Use Fire Fist on him'? Do you know what 'Cangshen Climbs' is? I feel that "Chainsaw Man" has been relatively restrained!"

"Old thief Qingshan: What do you mean by the freest cartoonist in the world!"

"Old thief Qingshan is too good at making animations. He is really insane when it comes to drawing comics. He dares to draw anything for you!"

"The finale of "EVA" is not too restrained. I'm already feeling numb when I see this."

"It's just to trick people into killing them! I once naively thought that "The Strange Immortal" was a story about a passionate young man who traveled to another world and embarked on the path of cultivating immortals..."

"Isn't it? (laughing) Look how hot-blooded Brother Huozi is!"

"Hot blood means using Daqianlu's magical power to bleed, right?!"

"I'm just asking you, Brother Huozi, if this blood is hot enough!"

"It's so hot! It's so hot that you can't help but climb up the stairs with a wave of grass!"

"This is already mental pollution! Watching this episode in bed at night makes my scalp numb!"

…

The audience was frightened, and Shinji Ikari was even more frightened.

“The psychological curve signal is down!”

"The destructive instinct gradually becomes more substantial!"

"If this continues, qualified people will lose themselves..."

…

Through the perspective and commentary of NERV headquarters staff and Fuyutsuki at this moment, it can be seen that the icon representing Shinji Ikari's psychological situation is a mess!

Shinji Ikari was completely collapsed in Unit 1 at this moment, and the cross necklace that belonged to Misato was hanging down in front of him.

It seems that he is praying for the salvation of the Holy Lord, but the salvation seems to be close at hand yet far away in the horizon.

"Hate...hate..."

Shinji Ikari hugged himself weakly and kept talking.

But at this moment...

"Are you ready?"

A familiar male voice appeared.

Shinji Ikari looked up, but found that the "Ayanami Rei" in front of him had turned into... "Nagisa Kaoru".

Lilith's physical appearance changed.

But the appearance of "Nagisa Kaoru" at this moment seemed to give Shinji Ikari a glimmer of redemption.

"So...you are there, Kaoru."

A smile appeared on Shinji Ikari's face, as if he saw salvation after going completely crazy and losing his mind, and said.

"Nagisa Kaoru" stretched out his hand as if to embrace him.

But Shinji Ikari seemed to be relieved, he smiled and shed tears, and slowly closed his eyes.

The cross behind the No. 1 fuselage disappeared the moment "Nagisa Kaoru" stretched out his hand, and then only the No. 1 fuselage and the Longinus gun hanging on the S2 mechanism on its chest were left.

"The spiral curve reverses!"

"Weakening of self-awareness!"

"A.T force field! The pattern is red!"

…

The commanders at NERV headquarters seemed to be explaining that Shinji Ikari and Unit-00 were gradually transforming into apostles.

"The fruit of life possessed by the apostles and the fruit of wisdom possessed by mankind..."

Dongyue looked at this scene and explained.

As he explained, the red center on the chest of Unit 1 was pierced by the Spear of Longinus in the picture...

No! It should be said that it was integrated into the Spear of Longinus.

"The EVA Unit 1 that obtained both..."

After being integrated into the Spear of Longinus, the body of Unit 1 gradually twisted and turned into blood red, spiraling into the shape of a root...

"Already equal to the existence of God..."

Then the root trunk spread out countless tiny roots, and finally turned into something like the roots of the tree of life.

"The tree of life, which represents the bud of life, has been restored again..."

The roots spread upward, but at the top, they turned into a blood-red cross.

“Will it be the ark that saves humanity from the void of the Third Impact?”

"Or will he become a demon that destroys mankind?"

Dongyue's expression was extremely solemn and she said, "The future... has been handed over to Ikari Wei's son..."

At this moment, the remaining personnel at NERV headquarters were full of tension, and they didn't even know if they were doing the right thing.

Then I saw countless eyes suddenly appearing on the cross that represented the tree of life, which was daunting.

In front of the tree of life, Lilith has changed from "Nagisa Kaoru" back to "Ayanami Rei".

"The current Li is your own heart."

However, the face of Shinji Ikari, who seemed to have fallen asleep in a sweet dream, appeared on the screen. Next to his face, his mother Yui Ikari, who had become one with Unit-1, appeared again.

It was she who was speaking to Shinji Ikari, "It's your own wish...what do you want to pray for?"

In the special effects of changing water ripples, the last ripple pauses all music and speech.

Then...the memory of Shinji Ikari appeared.

It's a memory of Shinji Ikari's childhood, but this scene has the feeling of playing images on video recorders and VCD machines from the old era, and the music in the background is a little weird.

He was playing on the sand with his childhood playmates, and the swing behind him seemed lonely against the setting sun.

It looks like a happy scene, but at the same time it's weird.

For example... the playmate who called Shinji Ikari to play with was actually a doll.

The mother called by the doll in the distance is actually... Misato.

Suddenly everything became silent.

The surrounding scene also became extremely desolate and quiet, except for the cries of ravens that continued.

The young Shinji Ikari seemed to be about to cry, but he still pretended to be fine and continued to build the sandcastle in front of him.

This is the flawed self of Shinji Ikari. He lost his parents and all attention when he was young. He is obviously lonely and unbearable, but he still wants to live alone.

Even if he has no one to accompany him, he still has to follow the "order" of starting a playmate and build this lonely "castle".

Seeing this, many viewers felt a little heavy in their hearts.

Shinji Ikari's past is undoubtedly tragic, but his past and his flawed self were actively created by people.

He lost his mother when he was young, and his father Ikari Yuantang ignored him.

Even... Ikari Wei actually abandoned him.

For her own ideals, to prevent mankind from completing the plan, and to let Shinji Ikari see "the bright future of mankind."

She chose to have her soul absorbed by Unit-00 so that Shinji Ikari could pilot Unit-00 in combat in the future.

But……

Ikari Wei never thought that Shinji Ikari never wanted to fly Unit-1 to fight, and he never wanted to lose his mother.

It's like adults who are always instilling their dreams in their children, but don't know how unfortunate the children will become.

That's why Shinji Ikari has such huge ego and spiritual flaws.

Just like this desolate memory, everything is desolate and lonely, the playmate is actually a doll, and the playmate’s mother in the distance is actually the Misato that Shinji Ikari is familiar with...

Unfortunate people spend their lives healing their childhood. All misfortunes have been foreshadowed as early as childhood.

Finally, the castle in front of Shinji Ikari was finally completed.

only……

"Uh-huh!"

Shinji Ikari suddenly kicked the castle he had finally built.

Then……

"Uh-huh!"

"Uh-huh!"

"Uh-huh!"

…

Kick after kick, in the lonely swing of the swing, Shinji Ikari destroyed the castle he had finally built.

Yet whether He builds or destroys.

It was still quiet around Shinji Ikari.

No one praised him, no one rebuked or educated him.

There has always been only Shinji Ikari.

For some reason, when Ke Xinjie saw this scene, she suddenly wanted to cry.

"Shinji...this is too tragic."

Although she didn't have such a past, she could imagine how sad it would be to be in such an environment where no one cared about her.

"Alas..."

Zhou Wenwei didn't know what to say, and said, "So for Shinji, there is no difference between protection and destruction, right? Anyway, he has been so lonely from beginning to end."

Then, the memories and voices of different people appeared.

There were Asuka's, Misato and Kaji Ryoji's, and even Ayanami Rei appeared again.

Those past memories, and the plots, scenes and pictures that appeared in the animation, all appeared.

Even those dirty, excessive, and unexpected plots appeared again.

Ikari Shinji's heart was suddenly in great pain. He begged and said, "Be gentle to me..."

"Always very gentle..."

The faces of Misato, Ayanami Rei and Asuka overlapped and said to him.

However...

"Liar!"

Shinji Ikari shouted angrily, "You are just using smiles to fool me, just hoping to keep the ambiguous relationship!"

"Because the truth will hurt everyone..."

Rei Ayanami's voice appeared, explaining, "This is very, very painful."

"Ambiguous relationship... will only push me to the brink of death."

The smiling faces of Rei Ayanami, Asuka and Misato kept appearing under Shinji Ikari's feet, but he said it in great pain.

For these empty things that did not belong to him at all, he sat in the plug of Unit-01 again and again, and suffered inhuman pain and mental blows again and again.

Has he ever gained anything?

Nothing, right?

He never had love, friendship, fame, or status.

But it made him so painful and accepted so many inhuman sufferings and blows.

Rei Ayanami's voice was still talking to him——

"You are just being perfunctory temporarily."

"I am afraid that if this continues, I don't know when I will be abandoned again..."

"I am very uneasy, I can't calm down! Come and accompany me! Come and care about me!"

Ikari Shinji shouted, but when he turned around...

He found that Misato, Asuka and Rei Ayanami were far away from him.

The audience's hearts seemed to fall at this moment, just like Ikari Shinji at this moment.

But the picture turned again.

Back to the day before Asuka was driven crazy by Ikari Shinji's telling the truth to make her sober because she didn't want to believe that Kaji Ryoji was dead.

This was a day that Ikari Shinji regretted very much. He blamed himself for saying such words that day.

As for the fact that Asuka went completely crazy and ran away from home and disappeared for several days.

So this time...he wanted to make up for something.

"Can I help you with something?"

Shinji Ikari looked at Asuka lying on the table and said enthusiastically, "I want to be with you forever."

But...

"Then don't do anything."

Asuka said with disgust, "Don't get close to me...you will only hurt me."