Chapter 494 Mindless and Unhappy
When the bad guys and strangulation came, they really didn't have time to appreciate the unique style of Yongquan Island.
On the one hand, it was because their condition was really bad, and on the other hand, it was also because Tongshen Island and Sun Island had given them too much of a shock.
The magnificent perspective of sitting in an airship and overlooking the earth from top to bottom is enough to completely reshape a person's outlook on life.
——For example, strangulation. When he saw the solemn and sacred Sun Island, his whole mind seemed to be washed and reshaped.
Now every time he thinks of the island of the sun with thirteen large and small disks revolving around it, his mind becomes peaceful and he realizes how small and ordinary he is.
Regarding this, the godfather could not do it, and neither could Zhongxiang.
Even though Strangler has now left Xiacheng District, lives under the sun, and has a decent and serious job.
But he still didn't think that he would become ordinary and lose his spirit.
Even if he could understand that the "Godfather" had now become a big figure that was accepted by people, and even had many followers... However, he still did not show his loyalty by strangulating himself.
He is not a tamed lion who can endure the humiliation of the lion dancer. The tiger skin he always wears proves this point.
Of course, his unwillingness to obey his godfather was not because of his past as a singer and idol, "Xiao Liuli". Strangler also disdains looking down on others for stupid reasons such as appearance, gender, spiritual relatives, and occupation.
If you do not offer your loyalty as a subordinate just for this reason, it is as if you are willing to obey the other party if the godfather was not a woman or a singer or an idol. - Saying such uninteresting words will only devalue the value of your loyalty and your personality.
The reason why he has never been willing to be completely loyal to the Godfather is simple.
Because of his pride in strangulation, he was destined not to stay under others for long. And his wisdom and sobriety made him clearly aware of this.
His attitude towards his mentor Zhonggo is very respectful, which is based on a kind of "filial piety" and also because his mentor does not hold power and does not want to rule or control him - if he really wants to control himself If so, then Strangler will definitely rebel.
He will make himself king. Even if he is just a lonely king - even if he is trapped in a nut shell, he still wants to be the king.
——Not to rule others, but simply not to be ruled by others.
Therefore, Strangler also clearly understands that... his ability as a leader is far inferior to that of the "Godfather". But he doesn't have sudden, untimely tantrums, or get angry like a baby.
His clear will allowed him to understand what he "should" do.
Because of this, despite his reluctance, he had already obeyed the leadership of his godfather for more than half a year.
And when he was the "subordinate" of the godfather, no matter what dissatisfaction and rebellion he harbored in his heart, he would never let it go. He will always take every job that falls on him seriously - even if it may cost him his life, he will never back down.
He does not respect the leader and does not obey the rule...but at the same time, he will complete the task 100% seriously, even at the cost of his own life. Strangulation is exactly such a contradiction.
But in general, his core is "pride".
Of course, because of this... the furnace fire and strangulation, which was born based on "anger", can no longer be used.
When he saw a broader world, when he clearly realized more realities...the endless "anger" hidden in the flames began to be gradually contaminated by arrogance and jealousy, losing that purity. .
Specifically, it started in the winter half a year ago - when The Godfather appeared on the Emperor's talk show and the "Fuji Society" was completely cleansed and able to stand in the sun.
Strangulation finally let go of everything in the past.
He could truly confirm that the godfather did not tell any lies. He is the one who, after escaping from the swamp, is still willing to pull out the people struggling in the swamp one by one... rather than the kind of person who teases and bullies those who are still trapped in the mire because he is on the shore.
Because his perspective was different...he never paid attention to that little quagmire or took it to heart. From beginning to end, all he looked at was the sky.
These people cannot be his enemies, nor can they be his opponents.
It was this kind of natural kindness that asked for nothing, that made those uncoded people who did not understand what rules, promises, and disciplines were willing to respect him as their leader...or, in other words, "respect him as their king."
Realize that your time has indeed passed. The anger in Hangzhou's heart finally dissipated... replaced by confusion.
——In Zhongxiang’s words, he was originally not suitable for the way of the melting pot.
Because his vision is not broad enough.
He never lived for others, for the people.
It is precisely because of this that the eyes of the stranglers cannot see the pain that people are suffering, and they will not be angry about it. He does not have the decisive desire to "improve himself and sublime to gain great wisdom", so he cannot forge his soul in the painful suffering.
From beginning to end, he only had eyes for himself. What he seeks is freedom, transcendence and unrestrainedness.
For Strangler, anger is just anger, pain is just pain - anger will not be poured into it and become his strength, and pain will not sharpen his edge.
Like the Godfather, they were not suited to the ways of the Crucible. None of them had that burning anger in their hearts.
It is not blind devotion, nor burning out, but the determination to slowly and painfully ignite oneself and illuminate the world for others.
It is impossible for such a person to survive and grow up in this kind of world. There is no place for them in either the upper city or the lower city.
But precisely because of this, after letting go of his own burden and no longer needing to protect the younger brothers who once followed him, Strangler was finally able to pursue his own path.
So starting from mid-December, after saying goodbye to Zhongxiang, Strangler left "The Furnace of Pain" and entered the "Mountains of Crazy".
He was no longer in pain or angry. However, the flames condensed by the "pain" and "anger" of the past can also be transformed into adjacent roads.
And there are only three roads here...
He can choose to embark on the path of "frustration", heading to "Rage" or "Madness"; or to embark on the path of "Despair", heading to the area representing "Reflection" or "Depravity".
——Or rebuilding one's own pride after being tempered by "madness", or falling into the same "madness" as the end of the "road of frustration".
The destination that Strangler wants to go to is a place that symbolizes "pride" and can trade his arrogance for power.
After months of being confused day and night, he finally woke up from the endless madness.
He did not succumb to madness, but came to his senses - and successfully entered the "Quaisheng High Cliff" from the end of the "Crazy Mountains".
He completely burned out all his anger and turned it into a ruthless light that represented "arrogance".
He is much weaker today than he was at his peak... He is much, much weaker than he was then.
Because the emotion "arrogance" is not as suitable for fighting with others as "fury". The spells that emerge from this emotion will not be as dangerous, manic and deadly as "anger". And more importantly, he abandoned his own "school".
Before finding a new mentor, Hangsha is now Master Yeluzi.
However, a blessing in disguise is a blessing in disguise.
After losing the boundless anger that always lingered in his heart, Strangler's character became calmer. Although a mind full of arrogance is also unsuitable for thinking, at least it won't be like in the past when it comes to inexplicable fights with people because of passion.
On the contrary, that kind of pure pride without any inferiority complex breeds the light of compassion. Today, his temper is much better than that of the inferior person who possesses the spiritual power of "emptiness and silence".
It's the bad guy... After the irrational mania of the past faded away, the emptiness lingering in his heart made him even more irritable. However, the strong sense of emptiness that he didn't care about anything and that nothing could satisfy him made his perspective on things become extremely rational. Because he doesn't care about anything, this also makes his perspective wider and farther... Things that he could never see before can now be easily understood after he calms down and calms down.
The inferior also understood after that how naive and stupid he was before.
The person who was once a bad person is actually a cold-faced person with a kind heart. And now, although he seems to have a calm expression and no longer has a bad face, his heart has become indifferent... And because he cared too much about everything, he was almost deceived and teased by everyone. .
Now that he has become "silent", after losing his warmth, impatience, and short-sightedness, he has also gained the opposite ability.
If you want to say, the bad guy and strangulation have something in common...
That is, they are all in completely opposite situations to where they were a year ago.
If you told a bird in paradise, she would definitely not believe it - this tough guy lion with scars all over his body is actually only twenty-eight years old this year; but in the past, he always had a stinky face, as if he was the only one in the world. The inferior person "senior" is actually only twenty-six years old.
In the words of Russell's educational paradise bird, it is: "Young people in their twenties can easily reshape their past outlook on life. It's not that they are too fickle, it's just that they haven't been finalized yet."
Now, Russell still has a say about their combination.
-- called "brainless and unhappy."