Chapter 498 Fear and Love

May 9th, 6pm.

While Russell was half asleep and half awake, he felt something light and airy tickling his face.

When he opened his eyes sleepily, he saw a pair of fluffy white dog ears moving.

That was the delphinium. She didn't get into the quilt, she just lay on her side outside the quilt, put her head on the same pillow as Russell, and looked at him with a smile.

When Russell sleeps, he doesn't take up much space.

Whether it was at his own home or Delphinium's house; whether he was in the school dormitory or sharing the same bed with Delphinium... he would only occupy a small space and curl up in a ball to sleep. . As if it would be unsettling if it wasn't the case.

At the beginning, Delphinium will feel uneasy and aggrieved. Because the way Russell cowered in the corner by himself looked so pitiful. It's like I'm bullying him...

Because of this, Delphinium once doubted... did he kick Russell a few times after falling asleep, or did he drive him away because he was not sleeping well and would press his body on him?

Delphinium specially installed a surveillance camera to take a look at what he looked like after falling asleep. The answer is that she didn't move at all. It was indeed Russell who slowly moved over.

But he doesn't necessarily have to stay away from Delphinium. It's okay if he leans on her side...but it becomes extremely intimate, as if he wants to rub himself into Delphinium's body. In short, he has to lean on "one side" to relax, and it is impossible to fall asleep in the "middle". If he sleeps in the middle, he will slowly squirm in one direction in his sleep, and will not stop until he hits something or is about to fall.

But every time Delphinium dragged Russell back from the bed, he would slowly squirm back on his own. Over time, Delphinium got used to it - if he wasn't sleeping with Russell in his arms, he would slowly shrink to the place furthest away from Delphinium alone.

It’s extra bed-saving.

This large bed, which originally belonged to Alice, is obviously a spacious double bed, but it looks like it can accommodate three people...

To save space, this double bed has one side against the wall. Russell was now at the angle between the bed and the wall, with his back against the wall and facing the room.

Delphinium was lying in the middle of the bed, picking up a strand of her hair and gently brushing Russell's eyelashes, eyebrows and the tip of his nose like a small brush. Like it wasn't hair but a makeup brush and she was applying makeup to Russell.

"Get up."

Delphinium came close to Russell's ear and whispered.

"Woo..."

Russell shrank his neck and put most of his head under the quilt.

"I can't move..."

He said angrily inside the quilt: "I was sealed by the quilt..."

"It's not winter now, can this quilt still eat cats?"

"Eat the cat. The quilt eats the cat..."

Russell responded dazedly.

When Delphinium heard this, she raised her eyebrows and got a taste of Russell's state: "Didn't you go to bed at ten in the morning? You haven't gotten enough sleep in eight hours?"

"I watched the news for a while..."

Russell's words were unclear, and his throat purred like a cat.

But Delphinium understood what he meant.

The implication is that the time you go to bed does not mean the time you go to bed.

"Didn't I let you sleep first...how long have you been playing?"

Delphinium was a little helpless.

Russell quietly opened his eyes and looked at the delphinium.

After confirming that Delphinium was not angry, he whispered: "I must have gone to bed after three o'clock..."

"...three o'clock?"

"Three-thirty. Three-forty...forty-five, almost."

"...That is to say, you just slept for more than two hours, right?"

Delphinium's face was full of helplessness: "How many times has this happened..."

Apparently she came back several times, and she saw Russell quietly huddled in the quilt with his eyes closed, looking like he was sleeping soundly. So she didn't dare to get close to disturb Russell... After all, with Russell's sensitivity, if she just gently called his name, he would wake up immediately even if he was sleeping.

Russell did not sleep well because he wanted to take care of himself. Delphinium knew this very well, so she didn't bother Russell, and didn't even dare to stay here for lunch. She was worried that the aroma of lunch would wake Russell up... so she secretly closed the door and went to the bar on the first floor to eat.

She came back several times to confirm whether Russell was awake or not - although Boss Langyin told her many times that she could go out for a walk and he could help keep an eye on Russell; he also said that Russell was already an adult. Don't be so nervous about him, just leave it alone and go out to play.

But Delphinium is still worried...

It's not an overly idealistic or self-regarding reason like "I think he needs me."

It was because, when Russell was chatting with Delphinium, she remembered that Alice died of illness. And after her death, Russell had no relatives on Sogo Island... so he immediately went to Happy Island.

When she realized that there was really only one bed in Alice and Russell's "home"... she was sensitively aware that this bed had not been occupied for a long time but was still taken care of by the boss Langyin. The neat bed was also the bed where Alice died.

Delphinium's spiritual energy is related to "love". She could clearly feel that Russell loved his mother deeply...and Alice, who raised him alone. Alice's death did have a great impact on Russell, and even changed Russell's personality in a certain sense.

So, when Russell returns to his old place and lies on this bed again, will he miss his childhood first, or will he think of Alice's death first?

The answer is self-evident.

How can the blurred memories buried deep in the brain compare to the despair of a year ago?

Delphinium was very worried whether Russell would fall in love with the scene. Alone in this bed, sobbing, recalling the loneliness, despair and helplessness of the past...

Others regard him as a predecessor, a leader, an idol, a hero, a savior... and even the devil who destroys the world.

But Delphinium only regarded him as her partner and lover.

She sees Russell as a person. A fragile mortal who can be happy or disappointed, angry or sad.

She came back several times, not to monitor whether Russell had slept or not. But I'm worried that he will have random thoughts and can't sleep, or that he will get emotional while lying here and lose control of his emotions.

If that were the case, she would be able to appear by Russell's side in time when he needed her comfort. Rather than leaving him "alone".

...As a result, she never expected that Russell didn't sleep at all.

With Russell's specialized hearing and the fact that he was leaning against the cement wall with poor sound insulation, he must have heard everything. As he approached the door, he should have heard his footsteps, and then immediately adjusted and relaxed his body, pretending that he had fallen asleep.

Russell's acting skills can deceive the world - he can really melt and adjust himself into any posture he needs.

No matter what, Delphinium couldn't recognize Russell's acting skills. No matter how you look at it, Russell is already asleep...and she is far from having the same level of wisdom and insight as Russell's acting skills.

She is merely human.

Delphinium adjusted her emotions - she said she was adjusting her emotions, but she was actually not that angry.

I just felt helpless and funny: "Let me tell you, brother... I'm not your mother, you don't need to pretend to be so good in front of me.

"Didn't I say it before? If you stay up all night again, just send me a message. I won't call you and let you sleep well."

"...You said you won't call me, but you will still call me when I wake up."

Russell's voice buried under the quilt was somewhat resentful: "That's actually about the same."

It was like the teacher had said "no homework" and he had already celebrated with an "Oh——", but the teacher quickly gave him a bunch of "holiday homework" that was actually similar in nature to homework.

"Isn't this for your health? Well, since you only slept for such a short time, it's my fault to disturb you."

Delphinium sighed: "But since we have reached this point, you might as well get up first.

"It's really difficult for you to be motionless for eight hours. But if you don't drink water for such a long time, your body will have problems... You'd better get up and eat some food first, and then drink some water."

Delphinium sighed softly, reached over and pinched Russell's ears. The smell of her orchid-scented mouthwash hit her face: "You sleep at random times every day... I remember you used to sleep for seventy-two hours. You didn't sleep, and then you slept like crazy all day, right? This made me scared. I'm really worried that something will happen to your body."

"Yeah. I know, this is your love."

The corners of Russell's eyes were slightly curved, and he murmured softly: "Because it is real love, it is so heavy that I will be cautious. That 'fear' is not based on fear, it is also a kind of love.

"You are very tolerant to me, even indulgent. But I dare not squander this tolerance.

"Because I love you too, Flotte."