Chapter 1054 A Different Kind of Love (Two in One, Please Subscribe)
Chapter 1054 A Different Kind of Love (Two-in-one, please subscribe!!!)
Chu Zihang's eyes stayed on those photos for a long time, and his expression was dazed.
"Those photos..." Chu Zihang spoke slowly.
Lu Mingfei had noticed Chu Zihang's expression a long time ago, and of course he understood Chu Zihang's thoughts, so he didn't say anything, but stood up without saying a word, walked quickly to the side of the table, picked out one of the photos, picked it up, and walked quickly back to Chu Zihang.
"Take a look, senior brother." Lu Mingfei raised the photos and put them in front of Chu Zihang, showing him one by one very slowly.
Because Chu Zihang's eyes would stay on each photo for a long time, Chu Zihang's eyes looked at the photos, and Lu Mingfei looked at Chu Zihang... He had never seen such a complex and rich expression on the face of his senior brother who was criticized for his "facial paralysis".
This was probably the biggest emotional fluctuation in Chu Zihang's life, apart from the dramatic changes of his parents' divorce and losing his man on that rainy night.
Lu Mingfei selected the photos very carefully, and he arranged them in chronological order, so when Chu Zihang looked at those photos, his memory started to go back from a long time ago.
In the first photos, there were only men and women. The man was handsome and well-dressed, and the woman was stunningly beautiful and had an excellent temperament. They looked like a match made in heaven. Some of those photos were taken on a busy bridge, and some were taken in a magnificent theater. In every photo, the man and the woman were smiling. They smiled so happily and heartily, so harmoniously and freely, and it seemed that they really loved each other.
So their acquaintance and love were like this. In the past, no one understood why Chu Zihang's mother, such a beautiful woman with superior conditions, would look down on Chu Zihang's father. The man was just a little handsome and could speak some nice words, but he had no savings, no house, and even no decent job. There were many men better than this man on the street.
Even Chu Zihang himself did not understand why his mother was with his father, because since Chu Zihang could remember, his mother had always been endlessly complaining about his father... But when Chu Zihang saw the photo of them when they were young, he immediately understood that it was reasonable for them to be together. The man in the photo was so handsome, so decent, and so confident. No woman would not be moved by such a man.
No one would not be obsessed with such a woman. She was so beautiful that she stood out from the crowd and was independent, like a precious jade thrown into the dust. You would notice her at first sight... Even the world's top killers and agents would be unable to extricate themselves from her heart, and Chu Tianjiao was no exception.
So they were together naturally and gave birth to a son. At first glance, this was a happy family. Their combination was natural and reasonable. Chu Zihang should have had a happy and perfect childhood... In fact, Chu Zihang's childhood was quite happy. Although he was not rich, he never lived frugally, although such time was quite short.
In the next photo, you can see three people, with a child between the man and the woman. Some of them are in the playground, some in the community park, and some in the slightly cramped home of dozens of square meters... In each photo, the man is smiling, the woman is smiling, and the child is smiling. Their smiles are from the heart and as bright as the sun.
Chu Zihang looked at these photos and was absent-minded for a long time... There are also many such photos in the new home. They are all placed in the most conspicuous place in the home, as if to tell all the guests how happy and loving this family is, but the man in the photo has become another man with glasses and a middle-parted hair. Everyone in the photo is also smiling, but their smiles are so shallow, so soulless, and so superficial.
How long has it been since I really laughed from the heart? Chu Zihang looked at those photos and asked himself silently in his heart.
Since the man disappeared? No, maybe it was a long time ago. It seemed that after the man and the woman separated, Chu Zihang rarely smiled. Some of his smiles were because the "new father" asked him not to have a stern face, so the family photos would not look good. So Chu Zihang smiled with his mouth pulled, but that kind of smile was actually quite ugly, as if he was about to cry at any time.
It turned out that he could smile, and he had shown such a childish smile before, but it had been so long that he had forgotten it.
There were also some photos... Chu Zihang looked at the remaining photos silently. In those photos, some were of a beautiful woman, some were of a handsome boy, and occasionally in a few photos of the woman and the boy together, a blurry figure could be vaguely seen beside them, but it was washed into a blurry light and shadow with a special technique.
If it was the previous group photos, Chu Zihang still had some impression, but these photos were what Chu Zihang really did not expect.
These photos were taken after the separation of men and women. When Chu Zihang was a child, he really thought that his parents just no longer lived together, but his father was still his father and his mother was still his mother. They were still Love him, he can see them when he wants to see them, but as the number of meetings with that man becomes less and less, Chu Zihang gradually understands that divorce is a separation, a family is separated, you Your parents are still your parents, but their love no longer belongs to you alone.
For a long time, Chu Zihang has always had deep complaints against men in his heart, because he felt that men were irresponsible and did not keep their promises. He said that he would accompany him when he grew up and wanted to see him. He could see her, but he broke his promise. Sometimes he would disappear for half a month or ten days, and he could not be contacted at all. His love for his mother was gone, and his love for himself was slowly disappearing.
Once Chu Zihang was rated as one of the three best students at the municipal level. In order to set an example, the school decided to praise him in front of all the teachers and students of the school on the open day. Parents of all students could come. If Chu Zihang's parents could be present, It was the best. At that time, the "new father" happened to be on a business trip to discuss a very important business. He brought his mother with him, saying that after the business was over, he could play outside for a few days and treat it as a trip, so Chu Zihang I called the man, and he promised that he would attend Chu Zihang's award ceremony. He said he could call himself Chu Zihang's uncle or something.
Chu Zihang originally wanted to say no, but the man hung up the phone angrily... Later, Chu Zihang remembered that the man didn't even ask him the date of the award ceremony.
"Of course" he was not present.
A father promised to attend his son's award ceremony but did not show up, but Chu Zihang took it for granted. How ironic this was!
That day, he stood at the front of the teachers and students in the school. He wore a red painting on his chest and held a certificate in his hand. He was at the center of all the outstanding students. The teachers applauded him and the classmates applauded him. Even the school leaders applauded him, but Chu Zihang's eyes swept through the crowd for a long time, and he never saw the man's shadow. He stood on the podium full of applause and flowers, so sad and lonely that day. This should have been Chu Zihang's most glorious day, but he felt like a fool. When everyone was applauding him, he didn't know where to look.
After that day, Chu Zihang labeled the man a "liar" in his heart. He also knew what his mother often meant when he said "that man only talks about things" because he was a complete liar. None of the things he said or promised could be fulfilled. Chu Zihang felt that he could not feel love from men, and was even ashamed that his biological father was such a person.
But Chu Zihang knew that he was wrong seven years ago. Only today does Chu Zihang realize that he was so wrong... It's not that a man doesn't love his mother, or that he doesn't love him, it's just that the way he loves is different from others. There are some differences. A man does tell a lot of lies, but all his lies are to fulfill a bigger lie. He must stay away from his woman and his son. Only in this way can he ensure their safety and happiness.
Every one of those photos captured the beauty of women. Although they were all taken secretly, the person who took the photos seemed to be a senior professional photographer. He naturally knew where and from which direction to capture the most perfect and vivid parts of a woman. In an instant, some photos are very careful at first glance and have taken a lot of time and effort, just like some scientific researchers hide themselves in the bushes or sand around them in order to capture the precious moments of certain animals and spend a few days. He stayed there for ten hours just to take a picture of the most perfect side of the other person in his heart.
There are also photos of myself, which record almost every period of my growth, from kindergarten to junior high school. This time spans from my childhood to the ten years I am about to become an adult. I have not missed every memorable moment... Even men At the city-level three-outstanding student award ceremony that he was absent from, Chu Zihang was among the photos standing on the podium, wearing a red flower and holding a certificate.
Chu Zihang didn't even know where the man got this photo. He obviously broke his promise. He was not there that day, but he still wanted to see his son's proud moment. Maybe he paid someone to hire someone, maybe he was I bought it from someone else, maybe after looking for it on the forum of Shilan Middle School for a long time... No matter what method he used, the man finally got this photo and kept it forever.
Isn't this called love? Love does not have to be constant companionship, love can also be a silent watch. He has always loved you deeply and has not missed any of your moments worthy of being seen. It is just that he hid in the dark and did not let you know.
At this moment, Chu Zihang finally understood why the world said that father's love is like a mountain, because it is really as heavy and high as a mountain, where it has been watching you silently, without making a sound or asking for anything in return.
When Lu Mingfei showed all the photos to Chu Zihang, he took a deep breath and leaned against the wall behind him. He wanted to raise his head, but he couldn't bend his neck, so he could only use a slightly funny expression. pose looking at the ceiling.
No one in the room smiled, and Chu Zihang's eyes were slightly red.
Chu Zihang felt a little sad... It turned out that the misunderstanding was so deep. He had wrongly blamed the man, and his mother had wrongly blamed him. Over the years, the most difficult thing has never been the mother and son who have no worries about food and clothing, but the love they have Silently, ruthlessly, and firmly suppressing the man deep in his heart.
How lonely must he be alone?
"Desperado, why aren't you sober... You better let someone love you before it's too late."
Chu Zihang suddenly remembered this lyrics.
"Senior brother." Lu Mingfei suddenly called Chu Zihang to wake him up from his thoughts.
"Well..." Chu Zihang came back to his senses and looked at Lu Mingfei.
"Actually, it's not too late now." Lu Mingfei looked at Chu Zihang's face and said seriously, "Every one of us has done something wrong sometimes, whether it is because of misunderstanding or incompetence, we all have regrets and regrets Things, if you lose something, you will lose it, but if you try your best to catch something back, you will have a chance to make up for it.”
"It's been seven years. The regrets of the past have passed. At least you don't need to be so sad at this moment." Lu Mingfei said in a very soft voice, "Senior brother, you are a naughty person. In fact, I am too, but if I know my parents love me so much, and I feel more happy and happy than sad.”
After Chu Zihang was silent for a while, he whispered: "I understand, thank you."
"I remember seeing a sentence in a book, but I don't remember which book I saw it in." Lu Mingfei said, "That book said that everything in this world has value and Chips, only love cannot be measured, especially the love of parents for their children, which cannot be explained at all. He is born with it but does not care about gains and losses. "
"Ahem, son... your friend is really a philosopher." A slightly unfamiliar and abrupt voice came, attracting everyone's attention.
Chu Tianjiao, who was lying on the other bed, slowly opened his eyes. He looked at the ceiling and suddenly sighed.
Chu Zihang looked at the man's face, and he suddenly realized that he didn't know when the man's snoring had stopped a long time ago, but he was so absorbed in looking at those photos that he didn't notice.
"Dad..." Chu Zihang opened his lips and subconsciously called the man.
"Hey!" The man responded happily.
"Your body..." Chu Zihang paused at this point.
"It's okay, it's okay. I'm in great shape and delicious." The man was not shy at all, grinning, "Don't worry, your father and I can't do anything else. My body is very good, even if it's for your son's sake." Say 'Dad', I will live a few more years."
Chu Zihang opened his mouth and was a little speechless for a moment.