Chapter 1044 I Have No Home (Third Update)

Ash walked along the East Lake for a while without finding anything. Just as he was about to return, he suddenly spotted three magicians in black guarding the entrance to the lawn in the small garden next to the library. Among these three magicians, two are gold and one is holy. As a guard, this configuration is too luxurious.

Ash's heart moved, and he jumped and landed on the tall lamppost nearby. From above, he saw two blond beauties sitting in the small pavilion in the garden, one of whom was Felix.

Sitting opposite her was one of the five most powerful nobles in the Starry Kingdom, a swordsman genius who could once rival Sonia, and Felix's only blood relative——

Dimitri Vosloda.

"...This time I can make the throne room ignore your presence, but if you continue to act with them, even I can't continue to help you cover it up." Di Mi's voice was full of exhaustion and helplessness, and he looked at his sister's eyes. With a hint of pleading.

He was wearing a blue robe and silver armor. Even though it was gorgeous, it could not hide the essence of combat weapons. It was unclear whether it was for safety reasons or because he wanted to show his behavior.

"Don't you claim to be the most just and kind noble?" Felix paid no attention to his good intentions and said coldly: "Now that you inherit the title, you will immediately learn the favoritism of nobles? The pollution effect of power is really beyond me. Imagine.”

Di Mi was silent for a moment, rubbed his temples and said, "If you were bewitched..."

"No, I did it completely out of my own heart and voluntarily followed Miss Lena to rebel against the starry sky." Felix said: "But you will definitely say that I was bewitched. In short, my will cannot be my wish. I must According to your thoughts... As expected of that man, he just likes to arrange the fate of others. Is it time to marry me off? "

"Within one month, the "Noble Charter" will take effect again." Di Mi ignored her provocation and said seriously: "This is my last chance to help you... When I accept the blessings of the stars and officially inherit the title of Casting Star, the country His will will prevail over all else, and the enemies of the stars will be the enemies of Vosloda.”

"Since the generation of ancestors, Vosloda has been the sharpest sword among the stars, and the most life-saving shield. The inheritance is unbroken, and it goes out with the stars." Di Mi picked up the steaming black tea and looked at his reflection in the cup. : "I will not be an exception."

"Congratulations." Felix clasped his hands on his chest and said coldly: "Next time we meet, you can try to use my head to show your loyalty. But I remind you, I am now a Holy Domain magician. It has always been my dream to kill a Duke of Vosloda with my own hands."

Di Mi put down the tea cup and took a deep breath: "What do you want when you follow them? Power? Dreams? Or friendship?"

"Why should I tell you?"

"Because I know you have no idea what you want!"

Di Mi suddenly slapped the marble table hard, causing cracks to appear on the tabletop. He could no longer suppress the anger on his face. Felix was stunned. This was the first time in so many years that she saw her brother losing his temper.

"You only joined the Four Pillars of God Anti-Star Sky because you hate Voslodar, hate the nobility, and are bewitched by people like Deida Rose. You don't believe in the teachings of the Four Pillars of God at all. You just want to vent your childhood feelings. With so much accumulated grievance and anger, you want to take revenge on this world and this country, and you hope that your father can ask for your forgiveness... It’s like a child running away from home, hoping that adults can reflect on themselves!”

"But my father is no longer here," Dimi covered his face with his right hand, suppressing a hint of crying in his voice: "You can't wait for his apology anymore... and I can't wait either."

"Felix, enough trouble, go home."

"I will not interfere in your life. You can do whatever you want. I will become the Duke of Vosloda and devote myself to the stars. You don't need to bear the responsibility of Vosloda, you only need to enjoy the glory of Vosloda... unless Even if the stars fall, I will keep you happy throughout your life.”

Felix looked at him blankly, as if he didn't expect his brother to say such a thing.

After a long time, she looked away, and the sharp paranoia on her face quietly dissipated. She held her cheek with her left hand and said softly: "It's only now that you act like a brother?"

"If you hate me—"

"No, I don't hate you." Felix shook his head slightly: "You are the most perfect brother I have ever seen...Although I haven't seen many...but I know you are very good and you always care. I, protect me, try to deal with Beverly. If it weren't for you, I might have died long ago, how could I hate you? "

"I just distanced myself from you," she said, "because you are the most perfect brother, but you are the only one who is not my brother."

Di Mi looked at her blankly, as if he didn't understand what she said.

"You strive to be a perfect heir, a perfect son, a perfect brother, a perfect student, and a perfect nobleman." Felix said: "You pursue perfection in everything, even in your relationships. Because you are perfect Son, so you can't use thunder to stop your mother, even if she sends people to assassinate me again and again; because you are the perfect brother, you can't directly kill my illegitimate son, you can only try your best to protect me. "

"Mother, she——"

"No, Dimi, believe me, I didn't mean to reprimand you." Felix shook his head: "Beverley dealt with me because of you. How could I be angry because my son didn't rebel against his mother's good intentions? I just I think you are so similar to...father."

Dimi was completely stunned. He didn't know whether it was because of Felix's comment, or because it was the first time in many years that Felix called him 'father' instead of 'that man'.

"You always think that this world has a perfect balance point, a perfect solution, where both parties with conflicting interests can coexist." Felix said: "Father, he was wrong, so Beverly became a selfish and vicious person. Mother, you and I have become victims."

"Now you think that I can coexist with Beverly because you are a duke, you have the power to suppress Beverly's power, and you also have the power to grant me freedom... Is that what you think?"

Di Mi was a little confused: "Isn't it possible?"

"My father also felt that becoming a duke should be able to have a wife and a lover at the same time." Felix said: "As a result, my mother never set foot in Vosloda's house in her life, because my father believed that the wife at home and the lover outside were the balance point. "

"At that time, my father no longer loved her. He was just escaping. He could not face the conflicts and quarrels that would break out when they were together."

"When love is mixed with escape, only the balance of interests remains."

Felix looked at his brother: "Dimi, you have never loved anyone else with all your heart, whether it is your mother or me... It does not mean that you want to deal with one party for the other, but what you pursue has never been We can all be content, but it is our balance "under certain grievances." "

Di Mi shook his head: "But there are grievances and conflicts of interest between you. You hate my mother to the core, and she hates you too... You want the other to disappear immediately. It is impossible for everyone to be satisfied... The only way is for both sides to give in." , is the best outcome for everyone.”

"You just assert that it's impossible without even trying, because your love is also mixed with escape and full of trade-offs." Felix said: "You just want to pay the minimum price to maintain the relationship, even if the cost is you The grievances of loved ones.”

"But just like my father, if our mothers are allowed to live together, they will definitely hate each other and fight, and the result will be pain and grievance for everyone for the rest of their lives." Di Mi couldn't help but stood up and retorted: "Isn't it better to separate? Choose?”

Felix looked at him quietly and said nothing. Di Mi also realized that he was being said to be impatient. He sat down and covered his forehead, and said bitterly: "So you are... not going home?"

"In my opinion, there are two types of scumbags."

Felix drank the black tea in one gulp, stood up and said, "One is like my father, with escape in love, and rationally conceiving a plan for everyone to reluctantly coexist."

"The other is to love whoever you love with all your heart, and to emotionally fantasize about finding the possibility of everyone being happy together."

"The former is wisdom and politics. The latter is likely to torture each other until they are destroyed, but it may also produce miracles."

"Although I don't know what I want." Felix turned and left, "But what I am looking for is definitely not the former kind of love."

"Di Mi, that is your home, not mine."

"Brother, goodbye."

She walked straight out of the garden. The guard at the door wanted to stop her, but when he saw Di Mi shaking his head, he let her go. After she had walked a certain distance, she heard a farewell message coming from the cold wind:

"Sister, goodbye."

*

Felix opened the miracle bracelet and saw the contact notification sent by Sonia just now. Although they were all using miracle bracelets belonging to other people, there was no guarantee that Dimi could monitor the communications in this area, and she did not dare to call back, so she quickened her pace and went back.

As soon as he turned a corner, he saw a can of carbonated drink thrown in front of him. Felix subconsciously caught it and saw a cult leader sitting on the steps by the roadside.

She subconsciously looked back. Ash pulled the tab and the drink made a slurping sound. He took a big sip and sighed with contentment before saying, "No one is following you."

Now that he said so, Felix naturally felt at ease. She thought about it and sat next to him, but she didn't drink or speak.

When Ash almost finished his drink, Felix finally couldn't help but ask, "Don't you have anything to say?"

"Huh?" Ya Xiu blinked, thought for a while and said, "I swam around the sword flower with Sword Girl today, skated on the ice of East Lake, met her roommate, and just held hands with her. Wow, what a wonderful day.”

Felix chuckled: "What kind of composition is this for a child? Even the emotions are so childlike."

"However," she said thoughtfully, "listening to you showing off your relationship with Sword Princess... makes me feel nostalgic."

Ya Xiu muttered: "I don't show off often..."

"Did you eavesdrop?" Felix asked bluntly.

"The wind carries some sounds, not eavesdropping."

"Then you have nothing to say?"

"No."

"Don't you think my reasons are...random?"

"I have three friends," Ash raised three fingers. "The first one wants to be the best hospice care provider and corpse art worker, the second one wants to kill all the evil people in the world, and the third one is looking for life like you. Meaning, but unlike you, he lies everywhere.”

"Compared to them, you can be considered a relatively docile type."

Felix glanced at him twice and snorted: "What about you? Do you want to open a harem where all members are demigods?"

Ash's face darkened: "I didn't say anything about you anymore, how could you repay kindness with hatred?"

"You only brought Sword Girl out on a date today, and Witch and the others are very angry." Felix raised his eyebrows and asked, "Have you thought about how to compensate them when you go back?"

"this……"

"Didn't you realize that they are very dissatisfied with Miss Lena? Miss Lena's beauty is not inferior to theirs, and she is willing to devote herself to you at any time. She looks exactly the same as the Fairy Lady of the Firefly, and she is also the Four Pillar Divine Touch. In every sense They are all full of danger. Even though you have repeatedly stressed that you have no other intentions, they still inevitably think that you have ulterior motives."

"I just haven't figured out how to deal with her yet." Ya Xiu was a little depressed: "I can't let her go. I don't want to kill her, so I can only keep her with me temporarily."

"The point is not Miss Lena, but you." Felix said: "They have no sense of security towards you. No one knows whether you will suddenly fall in love with someone else, and it's not just for fun... Who can bear to suddenly fall in love with another woman and have to fight for another woman? "

"They are secretly fighting against Sword Lady. Have you thought about how to solve them?"

"The witch keeps shouting that she wants to go to the Gospel. Have you thought about how to deal with it?"

"Everyone thinks you've been watching us take a shower. Is that true?"

"No!" Ya Xiu, who almost curled up after being scolded, immediately raised his head and said, "The demigod's vision sensor is very sensitive. If you peek, you will definitely be discovered!"

"What's the matter with this experience that you seem to have peeked into..."

Felix glanced at him with disdain, propped up his chin and said, "In short, mind your own business first, you scumbag."

"Am I remembering it wrong?" Ashi looked at her: "But I remember that you respectfully called us the Sword Seat and the Demon Seat before..."

"You're in a bad mood today, why don't you take a rest?"

"Ah?" Ash blinked, "You just angrily scolded Duke Vosloda, abandoned the surname Vosloda, and completely severed ties with the past. You shouldn't feel refreshed." Why are you still in a bad mood?"

Felix hugged his knees: "You are so annoying, how on earth did you deceive so many girls?"

Ash smiled softly and said: "Although Sword Girl made up her mind early on, she was still very reluctant to say goodbye. It's not that easy to say goodbye to the past. Whether you like it or hate it, it's all yours. In life, there would be no present without the past. How could it be so easy to just pack it all up and throw it away?”

"There are always people and things that you have to reconcile with, because without them your life would be impossible. But the way of reconciliation must be decided by ourselves. In the words of Jian Ji, "You have to be as sad as me to be considered an apology." "

Ash could tell that Felix didn't really hate her brother. Even though she said it so harshly, her willingness to talk to Di Mi was already an attitude. She knew clearly who was treating her well from the bottom of his heart.

She just doesn't want to accept Di Mi's arrangements, even well-intentioned arrangements... because she has accepted too many "I am for your own good" arrangements. She wanted to leave Voslodar and Kalashi. If her rebellion against Xingkong was out of rebellion, then this time she just wanted to control her life.

Felix was silent for a moment, slowly raised his head to look at him, and sighed helplessly.

"Has anyone ever told you that you're terrible at comforting people?"

"……have."

"And you quoted your lover, and you had to point out the source...Are you writing a paper? This will make me think you are showing off your affection."

"Yes, is that so?" Ya Xiu blinked: "I didn't expect such details at all!"

"So you are a scumbag..." Felix shook the drink in his hand: "If you want to comfort people and buy ice, you also buy carbonated drinks. You can always buy a bottle of wine, right?"

"But aren't you going to drive?"

Felix looked like a fool: "I'm going to be on the run with you guys, and you still care about me driving drunk?"

She curled her lips and said, "I am a Saint Magician and a Poison Magic Saint. As long as I don't want to get drunk, I can drink the strong liquor you give me as water."

"And... I've always had a good drinking capacity." Felix glanced at him, "Don't you know?"

"I didn't know..." Ash scratched his head and stood up, "Okay, I'll buy it for you, but I'll be the one to drive later -"

As soon as Ash turned around, he felt a gentle touch on his back. The thread of longing gently hooked his soul, like the little paw of a kitten pulling at the corner of his clothes.

"Don't turn around."

"Don't look back."

"I don't need comfort from someone like you."

"I don't have a home anymore..."

At the other corner, Sonia was leaning against the cold wall, holding a cup of milk tea that was no longer warm. The sky has darkened, but the street lights have not yet turned on. At the junction of darkness and darkness, the red-haired girl bites the straw, and the shadow around her is like a vicious beast.

PS: Sorry for the late update today, I can’t stop typing...