Chapter 1409 The Distance of Destiny
Chen Wenwen actually thought many times why she could persist. She was just an ordinary person. As an ordinary person, she should act like an ordinary person. Protecting herself, being timid, hiding, and throwing away all burdens may be what ordinary people should do.
But in the end, she still chose to protect Xia Wang. Protecting this boy who was weaker than her was not something she should do, or it was not something "Chen Wenwen" would do. But she still did it, just like Lu Mingfei. The boy had done something that she thought "Lu Mingfei" should not do. Did this set an example for her? Did the persistence of giving up everything and the shining points of human nature touch her?
She didn't know why, and her mind was more or less confused.
So she naturally didn't understand that when people like another person very much, they will always inadvertently study some of his little personalities and observe his little habits, and then unconsciously imitate those actions and habits.
Some biologists believe that this phenomenon occurs because people want to become like the person they admire, and imitate the other person's behavior and character, which is mostly affected by the "mirror neurons" in the brain. (Mirror neurons play a core role in people learning or imitating the behavior of others).
Interestingly, Chen Wenwen never thought that Lu Mingfei was attractive. He was always around her, like a hardworking little bee, going in and out of the literature club, carrying everything the queen bee needed. The greatest reward for him was just casual praise and mentioning and defending him in front of others.
Few girls would hate such shy but timid boys, especially when such boys like themselves, they will not approach you too aggressively, but will only watch you from a distance, provide you with emotional value and self-worth, and will not interfere with you in life and do quite presumptuous things.
After you get used to his existence, you will involuntarily rely on the sense of value that he constantly provides to you, but you will never really like him. You will take the initiative to keep a distance from him that is neither too close nor too far, just like what she did to Lu Mingfei before.
Care, but not really get close. It is a kind of infinite distance from liking and loving, which often gives the other end the terrible illusion of infinite closeness and within reach. However, neither Chen Wenwen nor Lu Mingfei realized this at the time. They stood in their own perspectives ignorantly and naively, contacted and expected it without authorization.
But when did this relationship that may never be intertwined change? Was it when the rose petals in the sky of the cinema were rolled up by the propeller of the helicopter, or when he took her away from the Sophie Lade Pizza? Or when he called her name in the spiral spire?
Chen Wenwen didn't know.
But in the end, she found a somewhat absurd but particularly true truth from so many experiences and pasts.
It seemed that the further away she was from Lu Mingfei, the faster the boy would grow up.
She seemed to be a valve in Lu Mingfei's body. The closer she was to the boy, the tighter the valve would be. The treasures in the boy's body, the beautiful things with glittering colors would be locked inside, leaving only the shriveled boy who was staring blankly at the school playground with his head down on the chair.
But once she distanced herself from the boy, his original talents, those shining points that were so outstanding that people couldn't open their eyes, popped out one after another like a spring, raising him up at a very fast speed so that all those who looked down on him at the beginning could only look up to him completely, a brand new Lu Mingfei, a person who was so outstanding that she felt a little ashamed of herself.
Marx described a sentence in a letter to his wife Jenny: "Temporary separation is beneficial, because frequent contact will appear monotonous, thus eliminating the differences between things. Even the pagoda does not seem so high when it is close, and the trivialities of daily life will swell excessively if they are in close contact."
Distance creates beauty.
Chen Wenwen never thought that she could interpret this sentence from another perspective.
Jealousy?
That happened between people of the same sex and the same class. Chen Wenwen never felt jealous of Lu Mingfei. On the contrary, she had been harboring a strange hope for that boy since she didn't know when.
It was an indescribable feeling. She never admitted that it was love, or if it was really love, she would only feel that she was really despicable and shameless - for so long, you have drawn so much emotional value from him who never asked for anything in return, but never accepted him, and in the end you said that you liked him. This is definitely not the so-called wiping your eyes and turning back. She thinks this is outright speculation, and it is also the way she cannot tolerate herself.
You abandoned him, but when he became better, you said you wanted to love him. Even if he is willing to accept it, isn't this a despicable and ugly act?
So in the end, Chen Wenwen would rather choose to control the distance between them, just like she did before, but this time the purpose is no longer to steal the value provided by the boy in a despicable way. Instead, she relies on this distance to let the boy grow freely and become more shining and excellent, if distance can produce such dazzling beauty.
Perhaps she should have made it clear from the beginning that there was space between them, so that he could get better earlier, and not miss the person he should be waiting for.
After such a long nightmare, the call from the spiral tower, she never took the initiative to contact the boy, perhaps because of the self-blame in the past, which was a thorough atonement mentality, even if no one thought it would be her sin, like a self-indulgent self-touching.
In the process of continuous self-criticism, she kept moving away, but she was calling for something in her heart - probably something like fate, praying in her heart that the distance she took the initiative to pull away could be reset to zero again.
And fate seemed to have heard the feelings of this contradictory girl, and played a joke on her. It sent Lu Mingfei to her side, as if to punish this girl who had too many psychological dramas, complicated but so distinctive because of this complexity, so that she had no choice but to face it and find the end of this relationship.
Matsuura Yotaro explained love in his book. He said: "Love is to let the other person live out himself. Being loved is that the other person allows you to live out yourself."
Chen Wenwen dared not say that she loved him, or even admit that she liked him. But only now, only at this moment, she sincerely hoped that Lu Mingfei could continue to get better. At the same time, in the deepest part of her heart, she also hoped that the boy would reach out to her - she had no qualifications and courage to express that hope. The contradictory and sensitive girl had already put herself in a low position, and as a low position, she could only hope that the other person would take the initiative to hold her hand.
But is this also a contradictory and sensitive problem for Lu Mingfei? If he becomes a better self and takes the initiative to reach out to the person he liked in the past, would he be too proud and complacent? Would it hurt the girl's fragile heart?
(Lin Nian, who was a nominal member of the literature club, had already seen through the thoughts of Lu Mingfei and Chen Wenwen, so he never thought highly of them, because he understood one truth, that is, passive people can never hold each other's hands, because if they both reach out at the same time, they will be cowardly, and if they both keep silent at the same time, they will miss each other.)
Chen Wenwen lost her balance and fell forward. This time she did not fall by herself, but tripped over a rope. During the fall, she saw several figures hiding in the forks on both sides of the road. They were as thin as skeletons, with only skin and bones left on their bodies. The fat on their faces was no longer visible, and the supporting tissues around their cheekbones had inevitably shrunk. The muscles were so dry that the subcutaneous texture could be seen. They squatted on the ground, holding ropes and tripped Chen Wenwen, and pounced on her like wolves and tigers!
Xia Wang flew away. Chen Wenwen on the ground wanted to look up to find him, but one of the skinny men stepped on her head and prevented her from getting up. The other two skinny figures also pounced on Chen Wenwen and pressed her to the ground. A woman who looked like a skeleton came over, holding a sharp piece of iron in both hands, and looked at Chen Wenwen's abdomen with dull and gloomy eyes.
Chen Wenwen turned her head hard and saw the bloody scene deep in the fork in the road. There were several skeletons scattered on the ground, with a pale and bloody look. There was no flesh on them, and there were countless teeth marks on the blood-red bones, and even a lot of cracks. The inside was artificially sucked dry.
During this period of time, the ecology in the maze had already changed. The most cruel and disgusting things had happened. Chen Wenwen just ran into one of them, and it was also a slightly "simple" one.
Chen Wenwen realized what these people wanted to do and what they had done. Panic exploded in her mind. She was still an ordinary girl. She screamed in fear at the bloody word "cannibalism" without any literary rhetoric. Incredible power burst out from her tired body, and she lifted up those skinny figures who had already lost their strength.
The two or three skinny men who were overturned fell to the ground and couldn't even get up for a while. They had no strength left. They could only temporarily suppress Chen Wenwen because the girl fainted for a while. Compared with explosive power, how could these skeletons compare with Chen Wenwen who was still intact?
Chen Wenwen struggled to get up from the ground, but the woman with a knife behind her rushed over fiercely. Her body was the best among the group. As for the reason - the pair of faint golden eyes in her dry face was the only reason! Even if she is no different from a mummy now, the dragon gene in her bone marrow still allows her to burst out incredible power when she is desperate!
She grabbed Chen Wenwen's hair and used the iron sheet in her hand to cut Chen Wenwen's throat. However, Chen Wenwen shook her hair to the side, and the hair she was holding broke and slipped out. The iron sheet only left a tiny cut on Chen Wenwen's neck. Blood flowed out of it. The smell of blood further stimulated the woman's appetite and desire to survive. She howled and pounced on Chen Wenwen who wanted to escape.
A lean camel is bigger than a horse. Even if she was about to burn all her fat and energy and die here, in the last struggle, she was still a mixed-blood, and it was easy for her to kill Chen Wenwen——
The sudden impact occurred on the back of the withered woman holding the knife. She lost her balance and fell to the ground. The iron sheet in her hand was tightly grasped by a slender and weak hand. On her back, Xia Wang bit her throat, not giving her any chance to speak or beg for mercy, and tore her artery and trachea, but not much blood sprayed out from inside. The trachea and blood vessels that were torn out were as shriveled as tree roots.
Chen Wenwen heard the sound of the woman falling to the ground behind her, and turned her head to see this horrible scene. Xia Wang, with blood all over his mouth, climbed up from the woman who was breathing less and breathing more, and was constantly twitching. He stared at her on the ground blankly, with confusion and helplessness in his eyes.
She shivered quickly, reacted, and saw the three skinny men who gradually recovered their strength and climbed up on the ground behind her. She quickly got up and rushed to hug the weak Xia Wang, and quickly fled to the deeper part of the maze.
One of the three skinny men trembled and took out a pistol from his pocket. There was no magazine, and there was only one bullet left in the magazine. It was originally reserved for him to commit suicide, but now in the face of greed and appetite, he chose to use it to hunt.
He raised the pistol and aimed with difficulty. When he aimed at the figure of the fleeing girl in a straight line, he licked his dry and cracked lips and put his finger on the trigger.
The next moment, he pulled the trigger, but there was no gunshot.
He looked at the pistol in his hand in confusion, but he only saw his severed hand, and the chicken claw-like palm holding the pistol had fallen to the ground.
The three figures didn't have time to look back, and their heads disappeared on their necks together. They were not cut off, but were beaten into a meat paste by a brute force and stuck to the wall. The blood-red paste was mixed with fragments of brain tissue and bones, like a few clusters of less colorful flowers.
Several skinny headless bodies fell to the ground. From behind them, Shao Nanyin, with dazzling dragon eyes, walked out, holding a deadpool's head in her right hand, and looked at Chen Wenwen from a distance, who was fleeing towards the exit of the maze, without intervening or stopping her.
She lowered her dragon eyes and walked forward, squatted down, and checked the woman's body. A large piece of flesh and blood was missing from the neck of the body, and no corresponding tissue was found on the ground. As for where they went, it was naturally self-evident.
Shao Nanyin sighed deeply, threw the deadpool's head in her hand on the ground, turned around and left without looking back.
In the corner that Chen Wenwen could not see, most of the disasters she should have encountered when she came were blocked and killed, and what happened after she successfully escaped from the maze was no longer something Shao Nanyin would interfere with, nor was it a fate that anyone could interfere with.