Chapter 474: Eternal Happiness

Rebecca really needs the "Soothing Bracelet" to control the restless strange blood and violent instincts.

But the "Soothing Bracelet" is like a double-edged sword. While suppressing the awakening of the strange blood, it also ruthlessly deprives Rebecca of the freedom to fully express her emotions, and deprives her of the power to freely vent her emotions.

Even a fool or a lunatic will laugh out loud when he is happy and cry when he is sad.

Rebecca is neither crazy nor stupid, she has sound intelligence and emotions, but she is deprived of the freedom to cry, laugh, mourn, and joy, and even regards the person who deprived her of the above freedom as her best friend, How sad it is to try to follow him to a strange city thousands of miles away, to try to pin all your love and hope for the future on the other party.

Thinking of this, Joan's mood suddenly calmed down, and the guilt he felt for rejecting Rebecca just now disappeared.

This is not because he is too cruel, but because he finally realized that a person like himself is not worthy of Rebecca's true love. By leaving her, he is saving her and preventing her life from slipping into a doomed path. A track leading to a tragic end.

"Joan, I was too impulsive just now, please don't be angry with me?" Rebecca regained her composure, looking so gentle, virtuous and sensible.

But Joan felt that she had become very strange, becoming like an exquisite doll instead of a living, flesh and blood girl.

But who can blame all this?

Isn't it all caused by himself!

Joan couldn't answer her soft voice, lest she couldn't help crying when she spoke.

Rebecca noticed that he was biting his lips hard, and blood was oozing from the lips. She was obviously distressed, but she had to restrain her emotions so as not to awaken the strange blood, and said calmly:

"Joan, Midgard University's Advanced Law Research Institute only started recruiting students in early March. It's still early, and you don't need to start right away. Why don't you wait a little longer? After the new year, let's try to convince Mr. Vasa first, and then Then ask this prospective brother-in-law to persuade Martha to agree to our traveling together, do you think my method is better?"

Rebecca did come up with one of the most logical and feasible strategies.

But she didn't understand, the more Qiao An saw her well-behaved, sensible and organized, the more heartbroken she was.

If Rebecca lost her temper, scolded him and even beat him, he would feel better, but he didn't want to see her like this, as if she was hypnotized and brainwashed by magic to make allowances.

"I'm sorry, Rebecca, I can't wait any longer, I have to go." Joan forced himself to harden his heart, turned and walked towards the door.

"But, what is the reason why you have to leave?" Rebecca chased after him, asking with a suppressed cry.

"Because..." Joan opened the bedroom door and looked back at her for the last time, "I don't want to hurt you."

"Hit me? What stupid things are you talking about!"

Rebecca sneered, and then realized that her attitude might hurt Joan's self-esteem, so she quickly put away her smile and replaced it with a warm and persuasive expression, as if she had changed a mask.

"Joan, I know that the successive loss of relatives and teachers has caused you serious mental trauma, but people are always going to die, whether it is your grandfather or Master Rawls, everyone is destined to die, you have no reason I think that my existence will hurt the relatives and friends around me, let alone feel guilty or even inferior..."

Joan bowed his head in silence, irritability surging in his chest.

Rebecca didn't seem to notice his emotional changes, she took his hand and continued to comfort him softly.

"As a human being, you should be optimistic. You can't live in memories forever. You must know that there are still many people in this world who care about you and love you."

"I have also experienced many blows, so that I doubt that my life is a tragedy, but you see, don't I become positive and optimistic now?"

"It's all thanks to you, the 'sedative bracelet' you made for me..."

"That's enough, Rebecca! I don't want to listen to your preaching anymore, let alone your sympathy!"

Joan finally couldn't help interrupting Rebecca's words. Her self-righteous reassurance was actually a misunderstanding of him from beginning to end.

From the death of her grandfather to the assassination of Rawls' mentor, to Martin Smith's forced crime and absconding in fear of crime, the negative emotions accumulated in Qiao An's heart for a long time erupted like a volcanic eruption. Hot lava.

"Rebecca, do you think that you and I have similar strange bloodlines and similar unfortunate childhoods, so you think you can understand my thoughts?"

"But you are wrong! You and I are two completely different people. You just mentioned misfortune, but you don't know what misfortune is!"

"Rebecca, now I'll tell you what real misfortune is!"

"It's not unfortunate if everyone around you discriminates, loathes, and rejects you."

"Because you know that you have done nothing wrong, you are an innocent victim, you can imagine the person who bullies you as a villain, as the world's malice against you!"

"The real tragedy is that people around you care about you, take care of you in every possible way, and do everything they can to help you, but your heart is cold and dead, like a desolate cemetery, which can never inspire the same fiery love. Repay those who treat you well!"

"You will even hate them, hate those who care about you, the more they care and love you, the more cold-blooded and ruthless you will be reflected, the more you want to stay away from them, the farther away the better, just like Bingxue has to Flee from the flames of passion!"

"You don't know why this is, and you can't blame anyone. Are the people who care about you wrong?"

"Although their concern for you will always bring you more mental pressure than hostility, but they are all good people, they are beyond reproach, the only one who is wrong is yourself, you can only think that you are sick—— You are a monster devoid of normal human emotion!"

"I tell you, Rebecca, this is a real tragedy, this is the greatest misfortune in life!"

"This misfortune originates from your soul rather than from the outside world. In this tragedy, there is only one real villain from beginning to end, and that is yourself!"

...

Joan walked out of Rebecca's bedroom, closed the door silently, and went down the stairs.

Vasa and Martha stood arm in arm in the middle of the hall, looking at Joan anxiously with both eyes, wanting to know if he had quarreled with Rebecca, but they couldn't speak.

"Mr. Vassar, Miss Martha, I'm sorry I can't stay with you for dinner, I'll take my leave first."

"Joan, did Rebecca make you angry?"

Miss Martha ran after her apologetically.

"No, I made her angry."

Joan thought for a while, turned to look at Martha and Vasa, suppressed the urge to shed tears, and said to them as sincerely as possible:

"Miss Martha, Mr. Vassar, thank you for treating me like your own family this year and giving me meticulous care. Before I say goodbye, I hope you can seriously consider Rebecca's wish and let her pursue her own dreams." The life I want..."

"Goodbye, please forgive me for not being able to stay to attend your wedding, I wish you a happy life after marriage, forever."

(End of the second volume)

From the first chapter of this book, someone asked why the protagonist is set like this? What is the use?

Wouldn't this kind of weird protagonist drive away many readers?

I have thought about answering the above questions seriously, but I have a lot to say, but I don't know where to start.

In fact, what should be said has already been written in the story, and I don't need to explain anything.

The second volume is over, and I will start a new adventure tomorrow, thank you all book friends for your company all the way.

I wish you happiness forever.