Chapter 1140 Love Spoken Out 3

"I'm sorry, I have to wait until you die before I dare to express my love to you. But besides saying it to your tombstone, who else can I say to, brother, I still like you, I still love you, It’s a dead end between us. I can never tell you that I love you while I’m alive. I’ve already been trapped in the abyss of eternal destruction and it’s been torture enough. I don’t want you to stay in the abyss with me. Isn’t it a pity that you didn’t hear my thoughts? I’m sorry.”

She gently touched the young face of Lu Bai on the tombstone, "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you... Our God said that after death, if the wishes are not fulfilled, they will always linger. By the side of his beloved, if God really exists, can you hear my voice? It turns out that I can only say I love you to your soul."

Lu Xiaojiu burst into tears, "You look so handsome wearing a military cap."

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Lu Xiaojiu raised his head and looked at the blue sky, as if he could see Lu Bai's face through the empty air.

"After you died, I was in a very bad mood. I was immersed in a world with only you. I closed myself off and almost got sick. Thanks to Tianyi, I was brought out of my sadness. Everyone said that I was sick. I You also know that I am sick, but I am willing to be sick. I see you every day. No matter what I do, you are always by my side to accompany me. I know that you are nothingness, you are the soul, and you are in my heart. fantasy, but I am still greedy for this fantasy. I don’t want to go to treatment. I just want to be with you. My parents have given up, but Tianyi has not given up on me. You should see how badly he was beaten by me. The nose was bruised and the face was swollen. It was so miserable, because I was very angry, why did he bother us, why did he want to pull me away from your world, so I did it on purpose. I beat him on purpose, very hard, but he actually I didn’t fight back, so I was beaten in vain for more than a month. Every day I went to school with a bruised nose and face and was laughed at. Uncle Tianlang was still undergoing chemotherapy. Tianyi felt so uncomfortable, but he was willing to accompany me who was making trouble without reason. Gradually, I found that I was very I don’t see you much anymore.”

"You didn't sit opposite me when eating, you didn't sit beside me when sleeping, and you didn't accompany me on the way to school. I was panicked, scared, and even more angry, so I vented my anger on Tianyi , beat him more seriously, I know that my disease is slowly getting better, which means that I will never see you except in dreams, but when will you be willing to come to my dreams? "

"Xiaobai, I don't want to offend the innocent Tianyi because of your death, so I'm sorry, I can only leave the world with only you. Maybe, as time goes by, I will gradually forget this pain. I will learn to bury this sadness. Maybe, I will marry Tianyi, like Tianyi, and be with Tianyi in the future, but I will always remember that I fell in love with someone when I was young, very much, very much. Although we can't be together with him, he will always be in my heart. I love him more than myself. I am willing to live well for him. "

"Xiaobai, Tianyi and you are so similar." Lu Xiaojiu said softly, "I know Tianyi has always liked me, but my heart is with you and I have never taken a good look at him. He You know I like you. Recently, I don’t know if I am imitating you or if I am trying to imitate you to coax me out of this period of sadness. He is becoming more and more like you, in his speech, in his demeanor, in the sense of closeness with him... ...I care about him very much and am obsessed with him. I am afraid that I will really fall in love with him. If I fall in love with you, will you bless me? "