Chapter 583 Xuxu, I'm Sorry

Yan Rusheng closed the diary, his eyes were red unconsciously, he covered his face with his hands, the smell of old paper from the diary remained on his hands.

This diary took him through their carefree youthful years that they could not go back to.

The years when he and she were inseparable.

He used the same method to open the small red wooden box, a purple plastic ring with many mildew spots on it.

Yan Rusheng couldn't hold back anymore, his eyes and eyelashes were wet.

He picked up the ring, and below it was a photo, the only photo of them standing together for a photo in all these years.

It was grandma's seventieth birthday, and grandma ordered him to stand with her at the birthday banquet to take the photo.

He picked up the photo, and on the back of the photo was a row of neat lowercase characters, which hurt his eyes.

'The farthest distance in the world is not parting from life to death, but that I am always by your side, but you don't know that I love you. '

He always thought that he was extremely smart, but it turned out that he was stupid from the beginning to the end.

In those five years, in this entire diary, every word she wrote was active, positive, and striving to make progress.

She said that this guy was the first in the exam, and I became the second. I am not happy, but seeing him pass by me, his proud face... is quite handsome.

She said that many girls like him and write love letters to him, which is really annoying to read, but luckily he never reads them.

She said, he has grown taller recently, why don't I grow taller? No matter how long it takes, he will be able to look down on me easily in the future.

She said, I must not work less than him, because I was born worse than him, work harder, and stay by his side for a few more years.

She said, what F4 is popular recently, everyone says it's so handsome, but I don't see how handsome A Sheng is.

She said that the arrogant Ah Sheng might not know in his life that Wen Xuxu, whom he hated, once liked him so much.

Yan Rusheng looked at the photo and recalled the words in Xuxu's diary that tugged at his heartstrings. He smiled, but his vision became more and more blurred.

Xuxu, why haven't I been influenced by you... Your whole life?

It was only at this moment that he realized that he had been blinded by pride all along, so that he mistook the extra attention to her as jealousy and hatred.

'You guys go, I don't really want to go. '

'Yan Rusheng, why do you have to call me every time you go on a date? '

'I was the first to know you...'

‘Ah Sheng was obviously the one who called me first. '

'Wen Xuxu, doesn't she listen to you very much? '

However, it was only at this moment that he realized that she was in pain at that time with his questioning eyes.

From the day he and Fang Jiayin held hands, to the time he pressed her down and called Fang Jiayin, the pain he brought to her in the past seven years, how much love will he need to heal her from now on?

Perhaps, he didn't even have the chance to give her love.

Yan Rusheng reached out, took out Xuxu's eyeliner, and used the eyeliner on the back of the photo, under the row of regular lowercase letters.

'Xuxu, I'm sorry. '

...

That night, Yan Rusheng drove the car around the city of Kyoto all night long.

He didn't know where Xuxu would go, without Xuxu, he didn't want to go home.

Just lying on the steering wheel and squinting, the phone rang suddenly, he woke up with a start, and looked at the caller ID, it was the number at home.