1736th How Can I...

The time is getting closer and closer, and the start time of the BoB competition is coming little by little.

And just when Luo Zhen comforted Asuna and the others, in a coffee shop in Tokyo, Sinon was also holding a cup of coffee, watching the pedestrians coming and going outside the window, unconsciously seeing .

"Asada-san... Asada-san... Asada-san...!"

After an unknown amount of time, such a voice reached Sinon's ears.

"ah!"

Only then did Sinon come back to her senses, and looked across from her.

There, Kyouji sat helplessly.

"What are you thinking, Asada-san?"

Kyouji looked at Shino, his eyes were full of worry.

"I...I'm not thinking about anything!"

Shino smiled reluctantly at Kyouji, and denied it like this, but it made the worry in Kyouji's eyes even more intense.

"Since I asked you out, along the way, you have lost your response and dazed like this several times, and it was the same just now, when you suddenly stared at the scenery outside the window in a daze, not at all like the usual you." Kung Er was very hesitant. Looking at Sinon, he finally said: "Did something happen? If you need my help, please feel free to tell me."

What Kyouji showed to Shino was as close and gentle as ever.

This made Shino secretly blame herself in her heart, for being so abnormal made Kyouji worry.

In fact, Sinon also knows that her current state is very wrong, she is not at all like her usual self, so straightforward, so unkind.

But Sinon just couldn't control it.

In my mind, yesterday's conversation resurfaced again.

"If you don't kill me, it will be my turn to be killed, and even the people around me will be killed."

That boy made such a declaration directly to himself.

"So, I have to kill, no matter what, I have to kill, even if it happens again, I will still choose this way.

"

These words set off a huge wave in Sinon's heart, and she couldn't calm down all the time.

Because, these words resonated in Sinon's heart.

Sinon thought so.

(At the beginning, why wasn't I like this...)

The result is the current self, a girl who must constantly struggle to overcome the biggest weakness in her heart.

However, Sinon and Luo Zhen are the same.

Even if she knew it would become like this, she would still choose that way if she asked Sinon to choose again.

the reason is simple.

(If not, it will be my turn to be killed, and even the people around me will be killed...)

So, besides being the same as Luo Zhen, Sinon must kill, no matter what, does Sinon have a second choice?

No.

Therefore, Sinon didn't regret the choice she made at the beginning.

Just, a little, really just a little...

(It would be nice if someone could understand...)

Sinon couldn't help but think about it a few times.

Although, over the years, many people have said to Sinon, "I understand, it must be very painful, it's really hard for you", but Sinon repeated it in her heart while listening.

"Then have you ever killed anyone?"

If not, then how can you say you understand?

This made it difficult for Sinon to trust a person, and that's why she was always so withdrawn.

And now...

(if it was him...)

If it was the boy who could say the words that resonated with him, then he must be able to understand, right?

Know how much pain I have.

It was precisely because of this thought that Sinon couldn't help but catch up with that boy and had a conversation with him.

No, even now, Shino really wanted to talk to that boy again.

I want to ask him, since he has never regretted it, and he will still choose that way again, then why is he able to maintain himself and not have such a shameful weakness like himself?

Is it because he is strong?

Must be, right?

It was because he was so strong that he was able to overcome such things, so that he was still so calm and calm even in the frenzy of killing in the land of death.

So, here comes the problem.

(How can I become as strong as him?)

Shino kept thinking about such questions, so that she lost her mind so many times today.

(Should...)

Shino couldn't help being so dazzled again, she didn't notice that Kyouji, who was sitting opposite her, was looking at her with more and more worried eyes.

Under such worry, Gong Er still had uncomfortable emotion in his eyes.

no way.

"...Is it because you met that person that Asada-san became so strange?"

Kyouji made such a question in a low voice.

"What... what?"

Shino was startled for a moment.

Seeing Sinon like this, Kyouji's eyes became even more uncomfortable.

"I'm actually a little worried." Kyouji said in a disappointed tone, "Because Asada-san is different from usual, it makes me feel like you might go far away at any time."

Such words made Shino feel a little uncomfortable.

Because, this is no longer a conversation between friends.

Shino felt that what Kyouji was craving now wasn't for himself as a friend, but for a relationship on a higher level.

This made Sinon feel somewhat uncomfortable.

At the moment, Sinon can only perfunctory.

"Where can I go? Isn't it still here?"

Sinon was already feeling a little confused.

But this instead made Gong Er look at her, his eyes began to become hot.

"I just hope that Asada-san is still the same person I used to be." Kyouji said with heat in his voice, "It's still the very strong self who is always cold and aloof, unshakable by anything."

"Is...is it?" Shino couldn't help but look away, and said, "Maybe it's just your mistake, I'm not strong at all."

Having said that, Sinon's tone also became low.

"You know that too, right?" Sinon whispered, "I have a fatal weakness that cannot be called strong. As long as that weakness is still there, I will always be just the me that lived in the past."

Sinon rarely reveals what is in her heart.

However, in exchange for this, Kyouji's reaction became more enthusiastic.

"However, Asada-san in the game is different." Kyouji said eagerly: "Asada-san in the game can freely manipulate powerful weapons, and is such a powerful sniper, obviously I will lead you to play GGO is a game, but you have completely surpassed me without knowing it. Even when I persuaded you to allocate your ability points to AGI (agility), Asada-san didn’t fully listen to my old player’s advice. On the contrary, based on my own actual situation, I improved my STR (strength) very presciently."

Such Sinon was already one of the strongest players in GGO.

At least, among snipers, there was no player stronger than Sinon.

"I think that's what Asada-san really looks like."

Kyouji's voice and sight became more and more hot.

"That ruthless sniper is the real Asada-san. I've always believed in that."

Hearing this, Sinon slowly lowered her eyes.