I Want to Say Thank You

Time flies. It has been almost three years since I uploaded the book in April 2015.

Many book friends may not have noticed that in early November 2017, I got another honor and joined the boutique channel.

It is relatively easy to join the boutique channel for a novel with hundreds of thousands of words or one million words, because it is only a few hundred chapters.

But when you have nearly 2,000 chapters and 6 million words, it is really not easy to join the boutique channel.

For me, a middle-aged man who is getting greasy day by day, that was one of the rare times I felt very emotional recently.

Without the support of my second editor Winnie and the recommendations she fought for me, this would not have happened.

Without the support of all book friends, this would not have happened either.

I wanted to say something to everyone at that time, but as a middle-aged person, I am more restrained in expression than before. The main reason is that I feel that it is a bit too utilitarian to express gratitude to everyone at that time.

Yes, I am a guy who has no ability in writing, but I am a bit out of place and noble.

Admittedly, I also want to increase my income through these words I write. Who doesn’t like money?

But if you think about it, you may remember that I have never asked for subscriptions, even though what I do in life is to find ways to shamelessly shout everywhere to get people to buy more of my goods.

But I have never thought of selling these words I write as goods, or treating these words as business.

Of course, I hope that the subscription rate can be higher, but I think that if everyone feels that they can read it and read it, they will naturally subscribe.

I am really embarrassed to ask for subscriptions.

As for asking for rewards, I can’t do such a thing.

I personally think that it is a bit like asking for money.

During the new book period, the book friend "Chang" who helped me a lot and popularized a lot of common sense to me changed his vest and rewarded 100 yuan. After becoming my first helmsman, I also told him through the station message that it is difficult to make money, 100 yuan is too much, really not necessary, and being able to subscribe is the greatest support for me.

Yes, I am a guy who sells materials and makes phone calls with business cards every day, just to make more money. The more money I make, the better. But when it comes to writing, I am very ashamed to talk about money.

Sometimes I feel that I am quite contradictory and split.

It is really difficult for new authors to stand out on Qidian.

Sometimes when I see some authors' comments, I even feel that Qidian is a bit like the Avenue of Stars.

Those contestants on the Avenue of Stars say how difficult their lives are, and many new authors on Qidian are the same, with low subscriptions and how difficult their lives are.

As one of them, I understand everyone's feelings very well.

When it was first launched, I asked the editor if the monthly income could buy a few cans of milk powder? He replied that it was still possible.

Then, it was really only possible to buy a few cans of milk powder.

For quite a long time, I insisted on updating twice a day, but the new subscriptions were always only more than 400 and less than 500... How could this not be difficult?

But I want to say, in this society, who doesn't have a hard time?

There is a very annoying saying, in the adult world, there is no such thing as easy.

But unfortunately, this is the reality.

So no matter how difficult it was, I never said it, because if I said it was difficult, it would be difficult for everyone.

Fortunately, I later met the editor Winnie, and the recommendations finally increased, allowing more book friends to have the opportunity to see the words I wrote. Fortunately, more book friends also paid to subscribe.

With everyone's help, the average subscription has finally increased from just over a thousand to more than three thousand now.

With an average subscription of three thousand, many authors may have easily completed it in the first month of listing, but it took me more than a year and a half.

It's not that I haven't thought about giving up, but after all, at the least, there are still hundreds of people who spend money to support every day, and I always feel bad about letting them down.

Here I want to specially mention a book friend, "Autumn God Light", as long as I update, he will definitely reward, every day, one update is 100 starting coins, rain or shine, up to now, he has become the leader with the highest fan value for me.

For many days, it was his support that allowed me to achieve a breakthrough in the reward column - this is mainly a matter of face. If the number of people who rewarded there this week was "0", I would feel a little ashamed.

When I reach middle age, I will be stronger, but if my persistence can be responded to, I will naturally be more motivated.

Your subscription is the best response to my persistence and the biggest motivation for me to write.

Time can always be squeezed out. In the past two years, I have almost cancelled all entertainment besides work. The most difficult thing to overcome is lack of sleep.

I am a clumsy person. I can't write a thousand words in an hour. Some nights, I often fall asleep while writing. Later, sometimes I just set an alarm and take a 15-minute nap in the middle. If it doesn't work anymore, I will take a few more minutes.

Many times, the first question after waking up is whether the chapter in the morning is finished?

It should be because of lack of sleep that I am sometimes confused in life now.

Many times, after brushing my teeth in the morning, I suddenly felt a bad and bitter taste in my mouth. I looked and realized that I had mistaken facial cleanser for toothpaste.

One morning, my son, who was brushing his teeth, watched me wash my hair very seriously. After watching for a long time, he suddenly asked, "Dad, can facial cleanser be used to wash hair?"

I thought for a while, "It should also have a cleaning effect. Why are you asking this?"

He pointed at my head.

No wonder I felt something was wrong. There was no foam after so long.

If it weren't for the fact that it would be disadvantageous to me from a genetic point of view, I really wanted to call him a little bastard. Why didn't he remind me at the beginning?

Another common confusion is that after getting out of the elevator, I can't figure out the direction. After going downstairs several times, I went to the back door instead of the front door.

Or when going home, I can't figure out whether to go left or right. Several times, I walked to the other side and found that I was wrong...

But I don't want to say it's hard. I want to say that with everyone's response, I am happy to overcome these hardships.

I also want to say that I actually feel a little proud.

What is it like to be middle-aged? When I went to get a haircut before, the hairdresser asked me whether I wanted it shorter or longer, and I would say "shorter" without hesitation.

Now I dare not say such things, I always say that I just need to trim it, because I am always worried, what if it suddenly stops growing?

And I will pay special attention to my forehead, because I am worried that my hairline will recede more and more.

The most important thing is that at this time, it is really difficult to have perseverance to do one thing.

So today, looking at me from the Spring Festival last year to now, except for one day in the middle when I was on a business trip, I was too sleepy and went to bed as soon as I entered the hotel. As a result, it was useless to set the alarm clock. When I woke up, it was already the next day, and I didn’t update that evening. In the other 364 days, I updated at least twice a day, more than 5,000 words.

This really makes me feel a little proud.

You know, I have never been a very persistent person.

Being able to achieve this level is really worth comforting for a middle-aged greasy man like me.

So why did I do it? It’s mainly because of everyone’s support.

It is every recommendation that dear editor Winnie has fought for me, and it is the subscriptions, recommendation tickets, monthly tickets, rewards, comments, etc. from dear book friends that have allowed me to do this.

And now more and more book friends like the words I write, which makes me proud.

I don’t have many friends, and there is nothing surprising in my life. Everyone can express their approval of the words I write, which is really a rare highlight in my life.

There is another characteristic of middle-aged people, that is, sometimes they become emotional. I remember one night, when I was writing, I needed to look up an old song, and then I suddenly got interested. That night, after writing, I watched the MTV of those old songs on TV, and almost saw the dawn.

Today, now it should be said that it was yesterday. I couldn’t watch the Spring Festival Gala. I originally said that I would write the chapter in the morning first, but suddenly I couldn’t help but want to say something from my heart to everyone, so I wrote these with the fireworks outside the window.

It’s rare to open my heart once, and on the first day of the new year, I want to say a few more words.

Thanks to my dear editor Winnie, thanks to all the book friends who have supported me in the past and have always supported me, thanks to all those in the group who have never abandoned me from the beginning to now, thanks to the book friend "Pianpianhuangye" who has been helping to manage the group and cares more about some things than I do...

Thank you for your support and help, care and encouragement, companionship and protection over the past few years.

I sincerely wish you all a happy New Year, happiness for your family, and all the best in the new year!