Chapter 1955: 1955 A Moment of Sunshine

Charlize couldn't control herself, she just felt the chaos in her brain, the darkness that emerged from the depths of her heart made her start to shiver, as if the whole person was floating on the ice of the Arctic Ocean, and the cold air swept her from all directions. Surrounded tightly, she was like a wooden boat with a leaky bottom, falling into the icy sea bit by bit, she tried to struggle, but found that she couldn't move at all, and could only watch the sea slowly engulfing herself , from the soles of the feet to the waist, and then to the chest, slowly rising along the lip line bit by bit.

The fear of gradually sliding into the dark abyss is even more painful than death, making Charlize feel that she has become fragmented, as if she will be completely wiped out in the next second. And she couldn't even yell "Help" - the sharp ice slag filled her throat with bright red blood.

The memory returned to that June again, which belonged to the June of 1991, which belonged to the autumn in the southern hemisphere. In the memory, it was covered by heavy rain, and the continuous cold made the whole world black and white, as if all the colors had completely disappeared. . That night, a gunshot completely changed her life, and rescued her and her mother from the dire straits, but it also became an indelible moment in life, and the blood that filled the sky was as cold as it was at that moment. Like sea water, it swallowed her completely, and the suffocation of drowning grabbed her throat severely. Even if she wanted to resist, she was restrained.

"No, don't...don't...I'm going to kill Charles...I'm going to get that gun...I'm going to get my revenge on Mommy...No, Mom, don't shoot...No, you can't do it for Hill Than killing people, when you start the first time, there is no turning back... Don't, you will be completely out of touch with warmth, and you will be imprisoned in that ice and snow forever... Don't, don't, don't... Go die, you guys These shameful men should all die, you are useless except to prove your strength by beating women...Die, you all deserve to die!"

All the boundaries have been blurred in her brain, sometimes she is herself, shivering in the room, trying to help her mother but can only wriggle like a sad moth, fear completely suppresses her in place; sometimes she is Jere Da Theron, she held the pistol tightly in both hands, closed her eyes and pulled the trigger directly, the noise stopped, the cursing stopped, but the blood on her hands could not be washed away, the ubiquitous smell of blood almost Drive her crazy; sometimes she is Irene Enos, living life is dying in her own hands, but she feels no fear, because she has no faith, her only belief is "can't Let Shelby go", that is the only light and warmth in her heart, so she will not give up, she has gone too far on this road, and there is no chance of turning back.

"Mom, mom...it's over, it's all over...damn, you all are damned...we're saved, we're saved..."

Countless chaotic thoughts caused her brain to split, and the pain that tore her soul made her open her mouth wide, but she couldn't even make a sound. Charlize's whole body escaped into the boundless blood-colored darkness, the sharp cold pierced her bones, and she could only open her mouth like a puppet, numbly stiff in place, with a drop of blood dripping from her dry eye sockets. Tears couldn't be squeezed out, but the whole body was trembling slightly uncontrollably.

Suddenly, a hot halo like the sun approached gently, the dazzling light made Charlize want to dodge involuntarily, as if exposed to the sun, she would quickly melt like ice and snow, and then just like the same Like a wisp of smoke, all traces in this world were wiped away.

Charlize raised her head, she couldn't see the scene in front of her clearly, the dazzling halo blurred all the edges and corners around her, leaving only a vague outline, but she could clearly feel that this halo had nothing Aggressive, it just waited quietly by the side, the lazy warmth made her stop her movements, she couldn't help but reached out and touched it lightly, the coldness of her fingertips dissipated little by little, allowing her to start again Feeling her own fingers, Charlize couldn't help but frowned at the comfortable feeling, and the corners of her mouth slightly curved.

Then, the halo embraced her, and the warm breath surrounded her tightly. The confusion and agitation were calmed down in this way. They were all annihilated, and the turbulent sea calmed down again. She slowly fell into the icy cold sea, but after landing, she came into a milky yellow halo, which was like the sense of security in a mother's embrace. Let the tense muscles begin to relax.

There was a steady and powerful heartbeat in her ears, "Plop... Puff..." This made her chaotic heartbeat gradually catch up with the rhythm, and the steady and comfortable rhythm slowly relaxed the tight strings; The familiar smell, the fresh scent of licorice mixed with a touch of sunshine, is like wandering in a warm sea of ​​clouds. The soft sunshine and soft cotton wool create a "home" atmosphere.

Charlize closed her eyes and let herself drift in this warm atmosphere. The memories in her mind traveled from 1991 to 1993. On the same night, that terrifying and gloomy man followed her to Sunset Square. In that dark and messy alley, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get rid of it. At the extreme of fear, a group of dazzling halos like the sun hit her, and then the darkness was dispelled, and the world was like this Quiet.

"It's me, it's me..." The warm voice echoed in his ears, and for the first time, Charlize really felt a sense of security.

Today, it seems to be the same halo, the same breath, and the same taste again.

Charlize fumbled for memory along the breath, then raised her head, and she saw the arc of Hugo's jaw tensed due to tension. Just like this, Hugo hugged her tightly and carefully embraced her shoulders. Those strong arms and broad and solid chest made the whole world quiet.

The Hugo in front of him is so familiar, he looks no different from usual; but the Hugo in front of him is so strange, an indescribable strangeness, as if... as if he is not only Hugo, but also a man.

The powerful shoulders surrounded him firmly, and the turbulent masculine breath swarmed in an instant, making the breathing quicken, and the beating of the heart in the chest became fast and chaotic, and almost before he realized it, he couldn't help it. Zhu Zhu swallowed a mouthful of saliva, only then realized that his throat was about to catch fire. His gaze fell on Hugo's soft lips involuntarily, and he just wanted to raise his head to explore the taste of red on those lips. The feeling was so strong that his heartbeat missed several beats in a row, and his whole body was shaking. became flustered.

This strange feeling startled Charlize, she hurriedly lowered her head, and closed her eyes tightly, lest her pupils reveal the true feelings in her heart. But the chaotic rhythm of the beating heart can't lie. The sound of the heartbeat violently hitting the chest dances wantonly on the eardrums, dancing Argentine tango, passionate and sexual. Feeling warm. Ambiguous but dangerous.

The strong impulse made Charlize almost unable to control, and the remaining rationality was telling Charlize that this was wrong, they were friends, they were best friends.

The brain that was so hot that it was almost fuzzy finally cooled down a little bit. Hugo is her friend, and they should be just friends. They have known each other... It has been six years, and it has been six years in a blink of an eye. Hugo has already become He is an indispensable part of her life, he is her best friend, and the only friend she is willing to trust in her heart. So, this feeling is really too dangerous. Once the line is crossed, maybe everything will be ruined.

Possession is the beginning of loss.

She doesn't want this. She still hopes to be by Hugo's side, even as a friend, just like today, if there is no Hugo, she is not sure whether she can persist. She is used to being alone, she is used to arming herself with strength, she is used to using her strength to open up the world, and Hugo is the only other existence in her lonely world, and the only one she can accept" Heterogeneous".

That night of being followed, that night of Mr. Perfect leaving without saying goodbye, that night of obsession because of studying acting, that night of sleepless nights studying scripts, that night of eating junk food and watching classic movies, that night of all Those nights when I lost myself in the game and forgot the passage of time, those nights when I moved away from Sunset Plaza and couldn't sleep at all...

She has become accustomed to the company of that figure beside her, she doesn't want to break this situation, and she can't break this situation, because she can't bear the possible "loss", even if she just thinks about it, let her breathe for a moment stop.

Therefore, this tango should end, it should end at this very moment, she should not continue to think about it, she should suppress the boiling turbulence in her mind. However, just closing the eyes, the surging jumping feeling made the whole chest seem to have a hundred butterflies fluttering at the same time, as if trying to break out of the cocoon all the time, which caused Charlize to suffer a lot.

"Just for a while... Just for a short while, just continue to enjoy it for a while. Don't worry, Hugo won't notice it. This... This is just a momentary sprouting in her life. Every moment in life It doesn't mean anything, and it doesn't have any practical significance, so... so it doesn't matter, after this moment is over, everything will return to normal. It is like this, it is indeed like this."

So, just let the tango go on a little longer.