Chapter 1953: 1953 Journey of Depression

The car was driving fast on the highway, and the suffocating continuous seascape gradually disappeared from sight, and the dense forest and wet swamp began to cover the colors in the pupils, which became deeper and more muddy, with a high-spirited and joyful look. The mood slowly settled down, and even the uneasy restlessness gradually dissipated, leaving only the heavier and heavier confusion, dragging the soul into the boundless and endless darkness bit by bit.

Charlize couldn't help but gently leaned her head on the back of the chair, rolled down the window, the oncoming wind blew her eyes so hard that she couldn't even breathe smoothly. So Charlize simply closed her eyes, raised her chin slightly, and let the strong wind rage even more, as if her whole body disappeared into the wind. This gave her a fragmented and short-lived relief, and her tensed shoulders were slightly loosened. a little.

Hugo looked at Charlize who was sitting in the passenger seat from the rearview mirror, the dark color between the brows was like the fog lingering on the top of the mountain, which could not dissipate all the year round, and it was always rolling up and down on the delicate eyebrows. This made Hugo let out a sigh of relief, although he had expected such a scene a long time ago - because it was the same when he went to the Angola prison to film "Death Row Walk", but seeing Charlize's heavy, He was still a little worried.

In the past three weeks, Charlize exchanged six or seven letters with Irene, and things went much smoother than expected, and Irene quickly agreed to Charlize's request for a meeting. In Erin's words, "I'm free now, death is the only thing I ask for, and I don't want to go to the grave with lies. So, I have nothing to hide."

The prison also quickly gave Hugo convenience—this is also a manifestation of Hugo's huge influence today. The review process is much faster than others, and the application for Hugo and Charlize's visit was approved shortly after.

So Hugo and Charlize drove to Florida to visit Irene.

Today is the third meeting between Charlize and Irene. Charlize's mood is also declining bit by bit. From the initial excitement, anticipation, and joy, the aura around the whole person is slowly suppressed. Like a dementor devouring happiness, it eats away all the sunlight around it, corroding the soul step by step, and making people completely escape into darkness.

Hugo had experienced such a situation before, and was lost in the endless coldness and darkness. The dark world made his hard work useless, and he even started to give up struggling in the end, letting his soul become Getting smaller and smaller.

That feeling is not just scary or fear, but more of a struggle and suffering. What's worse, he couldn't even call for help, as if he was screaming with all his strength, the heart-piercing cry had already caused his lungs to cough up blood, but still no one could hear him, only his own voice kept ringing in his mind reverberate. That's the real burnout—tired enough to give up.

Now, Charlize is also going through this process, and Hugo is watching Charlize slipping into the abyss step by step, but he has no way to reach out and grab Charlize. Because he knew that this was a process of Charlize's self-exploration and self-challenge, and he could not and could not ruin this opportunity, otherwise all of Charlize's previous efforts would be in vain.

Thinking of this, Hugo couldn't help but feel a little heavier. The indescribable depression made him a little nauseous, the feeling of vomiting was boiling in his chest, and the smell of corruption floated in the dry air, which was even more unbearable. Hugo knew that the prison was just ahead.

Seeing the ordinary face of the prison gradually appearing in front of his eyes, Hugo skillfully took out his pass, raised his hand to greet the security guard at the door, released the brake, and the car slowly entered the prison with layers of guards .

Hugo drove the car into the parking lot, and Charlize, who had kept his eyes closed, suddenly opened the car door, which made Hugo startled, stepped on a sudden brake in a hurry, and then saw that Charlize was not at all When the car stopped, he quickly got out of the car, then turned around and walked quickly towards the intersection.

Hugo quickly pulled the handbrake, and before he could even turn off the engine, he hurriedly got out of the car and shouted, "Hey, what are you in such a hurry for? Wait for me."

But Charlize didn't turn her head back, and shouted impatiently, "Leave me alone." Then she strode forward, the thin sunlight seemed to weigh a thousand catties, ruthlessly The ground pressed on the weak shoulders, making Charlize stagger in her steps. The faint figure of the back was looming in the bright light, and it seemed that it would be shattered by the sun at any time, completely dissipating in the dazzling halo in front of her eyes. , and then disappeared into a wisp of green smoke.

Hugo stood by the car door like this, looking at Charlize's back who was almost fleeing, his heart was still uncontrollably heavy. Even though he had experienced it himself, he still couldn't control the worry in his heart. He was afraid that Charlize would be completely crushed in the next moment, as if a tall building fell apart without warning. The impending annihilation crisis made Hugo tremble with fear.

In the three weeks before coming to prison, Charlize's state was actually up and down. Hugo has been accompanying Charlize to read the script. Most of the time, the two of them are reading the script as rival actors; occasionally Hugo will also play the role of Irene Enos, helping Charlize understand the context of the whole story, and to be a bystander. cut into the story from a different perspective.

Charlize gradually entered the world of Irene Enos, and at the same time gradually got lost in that chaotic world. Not just Charlize, but Hugo too.

Irene's world is always gloomy, it is a world without light, abandoned by her parents, grandparents, and men, even the only biological brother who is willing to hold hands with her, died early because of throat cancer. leave this world. Unbearable childhood, unbearable youth, unbearable present, in the process of growing up, she never gained love and trust, just like moss growing silently in the dark, living shamefully in a corner of the world that no one pays attention to. Even as a whore. Fuck, Irene isn't doing well either, guys just think of her as a cheap bitch. The child satisfies his desire. Hope—she's only worth twenty dollars.

Even she loathes herself.

In that dark world, she finally met someone she wanted to protect, someone she was willing to love and trust. For the first time, she really aroused her passion for life, so she tried her best to go Grab this straw, use all your strength to protect the faint light, and sincerely pray that this light will not be extinguished. Because of longing, fear, and eagerness, she was like a moth to a flame, chasing the ray of love at the cost of burning her own life, and became a bloody and cruel serial killer.

But the most ironic thing is that that ray of light that she was willing to give up her life to protect also left her in the end, leaving only her broken soul.

In the eyes of many people, Irene is dirty, disgusting, cold-blooded, ugly, terrifying, brutal, and worthless... like a piece of moss in the corner, The ugly scars in nature are not necessary at all. People see Irene as a beast, a monster, a devil.

But in fact, she is just a desperate lone traveler, trying to find someone who is really by her side in this cruel and bloody world, nothing more. It's a story that's scary because it's too real, and sad because it's too real.

What is really scary is, is it a serial killer like Irene, or is it the society that created such a terrible demon like Irene? Maybe both. "She is unprofessional, but terrible", Hugo still remembers such an insignificant sentence in the documentary about Irene Ainos filmed by the Discovery Channel, but it is the most direct proof of the darkness and corruption in Irene's heart.

It is an undoubted conclusion that Irene is heinous, she brutally strangled seven men; but Irene is also pitiful and pathetic, she has searched hard for love and trust all her life, but in the end it still came to nothing, she even Lost the ability to cry.

In fact, this is somewhat similar to "Death Row Walking". Should the murderer be forgiven? Can the murderer be redeemed? Can the death penalty really liberate the soul? When we simply and rudely equate a murderer with a monster, when we deceive ourselves and others to anesthetize ourselves with the truth that "society is indeed bad, but crime is still a personal choice, which is unforgivable", do we dare? Turn around and reflect on yourself: Does the indifference of society have its own "credit"?

Charlize was suffering, and so was Hugo. They watched the Irene Aenos documentary filmed by the Discovery Channel more than a dozen times. At first Leonardo watched it with them, but after five times he couldn't stand it anymore. The inner suffering almost made Leon Nadeau collapsed.

This also made Leonardo really realize that the road to acting is very long, and he is just beginning now. The effect of "Titanic" is only temporary. You can continue to take steps on the road of acting like Hugo.

Unintentionally, this untied Leonardo's knot. Later, the script of "Female Devil" was read aloud, and Leonardo also joined in.

While in Lanches, Charlize was under control even though she suffered a lot, but after she came to the prison and talked face-to-face with Irene, Charlize's situation went from bad to worse, and now it has become so serious that "Charlize" is dying one by one. point disappears. Hugo knew that this was a good thing—because Charlize really began to integrate into Irene's world, but he couldn't take it as a good thing, and his inner worries became heavier and heavier.