Chapter 1744 The Black Widow’s Fear

Alvin looked inside the "Cradle of Life" and poked out two pencil-thick probes.

This thing spits out some kind of nanomaterial like a 3D printer, quickly repairing the damage in Yelena's body.

It is not simply "printing" flesh and blood, but using some advanced technology to deceive human cells into treating nanomaterials as "same kind".

Although the body tissue is still replaced with some kind of plastic-like thing in the end, there will definitely be no rejection reaction.

Although this thing will completely destroy the skills of masters like Lin Shaoqing, for ordinary people, it is definitely a life-saving artifact.

The only flaw is that Dr. Zhou has not yet found a way to completely replace human internal organs, and can only perform simple flesh and blood repairs...

Seeing that the "Cradle of Life" was beginning to take effect, Alvin nodded with relief, then walked to the sink and washed his bloody hands.

Natasha's state was very strange. The super agent seemed to have been hit hard and completely lost her usual sense of ease.

Alvin washed his hands, then walked to Natasha's side, hesitated, and said: "This little girl survived..."

If she is my sister or something, you can rest assured! "

As he spoke, Alvin looked at Natasha who had recovered a little, and he frowned and said, "Tell me what's going on?

Even if she is your sister, you look too bad now! "

Natasha acted like a fragile woman at this time. She stared with red eyes and said a little absent-mindedly: "We came over to find me!"

As she spoke, Natasha, who was sitting on the chair, looked up at Alvin. She seemed to be lost in memories and said in a straight, numb tone: "I used to be a member of the 'Red House'.

We believed that by dedicating ourselves, we could bring peace to the country!

We voluntarily become ‘tools’ and dedicate ourselves completely…

I have killed many people, deceived many people, and hurt many more people...

Until I received a mission to go to Budapest...

It was then that I discovered that many of the things I had done in the past were just fighting for the rights of certain specific people.

What those want is not a clear-headed agent, but a killer who obeys orders.

I killed Doctors Without Borders because he was the enemy of the Soviet Union...

I detonated a bomb inside a building because there were enemies of the Soviet Union...

It wasn't until they ordered me to destroy an orphanage that I realized those people never wanted peace.

When I was about to be executed, it was Hawkeye who saved me...

She told me that I could do something right!

So I joined S.H.I.E.L.D., doing pretty much the same job as before.

I work hard, try hard to protect the world, and try hard to forget the dark past.

But the 'past' still comes to visit..."

As she spoke, Natasha looked at Alvin who had an incomprehensible expression, and she said with a wry smile: "I used to think that everything I did was right...

But as I fell deeper and deeper into it, I began to feel that life shouldn't be like this.

Isn’t it ironic that Black Widow wants to be a ‘good guy’?

Even now, I dare not face my past...

Because I’m not sure whether everything I did at that time was ‘right’ or ‘wrong’.

My professional instinct tells me that these are what I should do...

But I always wake up from nightmares...

So I betrayed my past self!

Just because my heart is no longer at peace!

It was Hawkeye who helped me find a new target, and SHIELD gave me a place to stay.

I feel like I have found my family..."

Alvin listened and shook his head in confusion. He couldn't understand Natasha's feelings.

From what she said, she seemed to have some strange feelings about the "red house".

This is not surprising, after all, she is a super agent who came out of that place.

But her conflicted and overwhelmed look made Alvin feel a little incredible.

It's obvious that Natasha doesn't need to be afraid of the "Red Room" now, but the fear she displays is very real.

This is not the emotion a super agent should have...

Natasha now made Alvin suddenly think of Lin Shaoqing, who single-handedly destroyed Kunlun.

However, although the man was struggling internally, he was not lazy at all when he was working.

Looking at Natasha with tears streaming down her face...

Alvin frowned and thought for a long time, and then he realized that the "red house" was actually "home" to Natasha...

It's the place where the dark, numb self lives.

She betrayed her "home" because of her little kindness!

And it was precisely because of the kindness in her heart that Natasha hated her past experience.

The way she didn't dare to face her past was in line with her behavior of escaping.

Betray your family, break away from your family, find a new job...

If this was a person with a cold personality, it would be impossible for him to feel pain for what he had done in the past.

Alvin suddenly realized that he seemed to have been wrong about Natasha...

Wrapped in a tyrannical and cunning coat, he is actually a kind soul.

It's just that she "disguised" so well that she even forgot her true appearance.

At this time, Alvin began to realize that Natasha was not just a cunning and changeable super agent as he thought.

She also values ​​her family...

After SHIELD was disbanded, Natasha had many other options.

But not only did she not give up on Nick Fury and the others who were like street rats, she also acted as a liaison officer.

Gave them the most important intelligence support...

She is dedicating all her strength to those who gave her warmth when she was confused.

This female agent, who looks strong and cunning, actually has a warm side that ordinary people can't understand.

She left the side of herself that she least wanted to face in the "past"...

Now her "past" comes to visit...

Alvin is not Natasha. He has not experienced it, so he cannot truly understand Natasha's current complex emotions.

Like a child from a family of thieves, he has made a living by stealing with his parents since he was a child. He doesn't think there is anything wrong with that.

But one day, the child stole a patient's medical expenses and caused the patient to die in pain.

A little bit of kindness is awakened in the kid, and then a well-meaning person talks him out of his past.

So the child cut off his connection with the "past" and forgot that he was once a disgusting thief.

Until the "past" comes to the door...

Face the "past" head on and admit that you were once a disgusting "thief"...

These are actually not easy, not for anyone.

And the most ironic thing is that only good people feel pain because of their "past".

Compared to the old executioner in "Church" who has no sense of guilt at all...

Black Widow is actually a good person?

Alvin suddenly shook his head in a funny way and said, "It's hard for me to imagine that Natasha Normanov would become like this!

I was originally going to ask you to help me carry out a mission in Moscow...

If you're really that scared of the 'Red Room', forget it! "

As he spoke, Alvin looked at Natasha who was covering her face and didn't know what she was thinking. He smiled and said: "If the 'past' makes you feel painful, you should smash it..."

Especially when your ‘past’ is actually Hydra!

Sometimes I have a hard time understanding you agents.

Because your sense of right and wrong is very vague, those trainings made you forget that you are actually a 'human being'. "

Natasha hugged her arms and said softly: "I'm not afraid of the 'Red Room', I'm not even afraid of death..."

What I'm afraid of is the past me!

Everyone will know who Natasha Nomanov was and how many disgusting things she did.

It made me feel like I had no clothes on and was on trial!

Have you ever killed an innocent person? "

After hearing this, Alvin frowned and said, "There shouldn't be any impression in my mind...

But what exactly do you want to say?

It's incredible to me that Black Widow is as fragile as you are.

There are so many bad guys in Hell's Kitchen, and some of them still insist on doing bad things. Why aren't they as vulnerable as you?

There are certainly not as many ‘innocent people’ who will die in your hands as there will be in the hands of the ‘church’.

I have found a girlfriend now...

I didn't see any psychological burden on him at all!

Guilt and pain are reserved for good people...

If you're a good person, I might want to apologize for my past bias against you. "

After hearing this, Natasha shook her head with a wry smile and said, "I'm not a good person, I just don't know how to face it.

The ‘Red House’ is the place where I was raised…

Luckily it was Hydra or I wouldn't have even been able to work up the courage to fight. "

Alvin looked at Natasha, whose face was full of tears, in a funny way, and said, "You don't act like you have courage now.

You are so distracted, otherwise I can't think of any reason why you can't solve those seemingly unsolvable assassinations?

Are those 'Red Room' agents really that powerful? "

After hearing this, Natasha nodded with a strange expression and said, "If I hadn't left, those people should have been my sisters.

After completing countless tasks and tests, they will be injected with a medicine.

The medicine will make their body functions stronger, and then they will completely lose their minds and become tools to perform tasks.

They are all who I used to be..."

Alvin frowned and said, "What about you?

Were you also injected with medicine?

Your physical condition is much better than that of ordinary women..."

After hearing this, Natasha shook her head and said, "No, originally Budapest was supposed to be my last stop for 'sobriety'.

It’s just that I realized something at the time, and I found that I didn’t seem to love the Soviet Union as much as I thought…

Yelena and Melina also realized the problem with the potion at that time, so we escaped from the 'Red Room'.

There were actually only six 'Red Room' agents who launched the attack today, and they almost succeeded. "

Alvin pursed his lips after hearing this, and said with some interest: "Six people?"

"It should be 7!"

Steve and Bucky led Melina and the "Red Guardian" into the waiting room outside the operating room...

Steve glanced at Natasha who was acting strangely. He looked at Alvin with a serious expression and said, "The sharpshooter on the periphery is also a woman. She had one of her arms broken by a sniper rifle, and she almost escaped from me. Hunt.

If I hadn't met Sparta, the ghost wolf patrolling the streets, I might not have been able to catch her. "