Chapter 147 So That's It

The emperor leaned on the couch, lowered his eyes and said calmly: "She is the woman I brought back from the battlefield. She has never had a position since returning to the palace. The concubines in the harem don't look down on her, so they call her a nameless maid."

Yan Donghuang was silent.

"For a while, I liked her very much. She was proud and passionate, different from those disciplined ladies." Emperor Wu Lie had a smile on his face. "Before I met her, my harem already had a queen and more than a dozen concubines of all sizes. I wanted to give her a concubine position, but she didn't want it."

Yan Donghuang listened quietly, with no emotional fluctuations on his face.

"I don't know why she didn't want a name. It wasn't until she gave birth to you and left quietly on the full moon day, that I knew she never intended to stay here."

Yan Donghuang frowned: "Such a big palace, she didn't alarm anyone, just left like that?"

"Yes." Emperor Wu Lie looked subtle, "At the beginning, I sent people to search the entire palace, and almost dug three feet in the capital to find her whereabouts, but she seemed to have disappeared out of thin air, and there was no trace of clues. Only a letter was found in her residence."

Speaking of this, the emperor's face was slightly restrained: "She said she didn't like the harem with a group of concubines, and asked me not to look for her. She had her responsibilities and would not be relegated to the harem of an emperor, let alone be a vassal of a man."

So that's it.

Yan Donghuang understood.

For some reason, she didn't have any resentment for being abandoned by her mother at this time, but a little admiration...or maybe it's not admiration, but she felt that her temperament should be inherited more from her mother.

But she was not as decisive and ruthless as her mother.

After leading troops on the battlefield for so many years, she still has some deep-rooted ideas in her bones. In the previous life, Yan Ming said that Sheng Jing'an had no military merits and was the only son of the Duke's Mansion. If he married into the Princess's Mansion, it would be unfair to the deceased Duke of Zhenguo.

After all, the Duke of Zhenguo had made merits when he was alive, and the royal family should treat him well. If he had no heir because his son married into the Princess's Mansion, he would be sad if he knew about it.

She softened her heart and agreed to marry him.

But such a compromise did not bring gratitude, but married his wife and concubines together and a cup of poisoned wine.

So feelings are often unreliable.

If her mother had stayed in the palace, she might have been just one of the many concubines, or she might have died in the palace fight.

Of course, she might have given birth to a prince and become the final winner.

All unknown results are possible.

But her choice to leave this path can only prove that leaving is better than staying - at least for her, it is definitely a better choice.

Emperor Wu Lie was silent for a long time before he spoke again: "I had deep feelings for her at that time, so I was particularly angry about her leaving. Perhaps with a little revenge in my heart, I left you in the harem and only let the nanny and the wet nurse take care of you, thinking that if she knew that you were not doing well, she might soften her heart and come back... Later, every time I think of this, I feel particularly guilty." He ignored Donghuang for nearly ten years. Although he tried his best to make up for it later, the mistakes and responsibilities of the past cannot be shirked. Yan Donghuang nodded slowly: "I see."

"Do you have anything to say?" The emperor looked at her, a trace of guilt flashed across his eyes, "Even if you resent me, it's right."

"There's nothing to blame." Yan Donghuang lowered his eyes, his voice calm and calm, "Everyone has their own choices, as long as they can be responsible for the results of their choices."

Wu Liedi was obviously a little surprised when he heard this: "I thought you would be somewhat dissatisfied."

Yan Donghuang shook his head slowly: "My son's heart is as hard as iron. Now I have no dependence on feelings. Even if I had regrets when I was young, those are all in the past."

Only weak people will be immersed in the obsession of not getting what they want. She will fight for what she wants and will not force it.

"That's good." The emperor breathed a sigh of relief, "I have been looking for your mother's news for a long time before, but there has been no clues. If you want to check, you can continue to send people to find clues."

Yan Donghuang nodded, stood up and said goodbye: "Father, take a rest first."

Leaving Linzhi Palace and returning to Chongming Hall

Yan Donghuang washed and changed clothes, then stood quietly in front of the window, with deep thoughts in her eyes.

Her mother left after giving birth to her.

The huge palace has many walls and strict defenses. If she was just an ordinary woman, she would not be able to leave the palace quietly.

Unless someone in the palace helped her.

But Yan Donghuang thought this possibility was unlikely.

After all, the father was not a father who had lost power. The disappearance of his daughter's mother from the palace was the negligence of the eunuchs and maids in the harem, and the negligence of the guards in the palace. Countless people were implicated.

Even if the entire imperial city was searched, the person would be found.

With such a large-scale royal guards dispatched, who could take the person away intact?

The second possibility is that her mother has unknown skills and unknown origins, and she left secretly because she had to leave - and this reason can be divided into two types.

The first is that she has her own difficulties, and the second is that she does not love her father at all, but is forced to possess him, so she hates her father and this daughter with the emperor's blood.

No matter what the real reason is, Yan Donghuang can understand it.

After all, she has never seen her mother since she was a child, so naturally she has no so-called love for her mother, let alone resentment.

She just...

"Your Majesty." Changlan stepped forward and put a robe on her, "The hot water is ready, Your Majesty, do you want to take a hot bath first?"

Yan Donghuang hummed: "Ziying hasn't come back yet?"

"Not yet." Changlan was silent for a moment, and asked softly, "Your Majesty, are you thinking about your mother?"

Yan Donghuang turned his head and glanced at her, smiling faintly: "Do you think I am sad?"

Changlan shook her head.

"I am not sad, but I want to find out the truth." Yan Donghuang turned and walked towards the bathing hall, "The situation in various countries changes at any time. After the Yong Dynasty changed its hands, other countries are paying attention. I don't want to see uncontrollable variables happen."

She can handle court affairs, and she has enough experience in border wars.

But variables often catch people off guard.

Since she knows that there is such a person, she must find out the truth and ensure that nothing beyond her control will happen at any time.

...

After bathing, Yan Donghuang wore a nightgown and leaned against the head of the bed to read the military book.

In the military book, there is a folded map of the world.

Yan Donghuang unfolded this simple map and his eyes fell on the names of several countries around Yong Dynasty. Yong Dynasty was adjacent to Beiliang in the north and Qi in the east. Qi was divided into Southern Qi and Northern Qi. There has been no peace in the past ten years, and the civil strife has never stopped.

Qi was originally very powerful, and its iron cavalry almost swept the world.

Even though it was later forcibly divided into Southern Qi and Northern Qi, their military strength is still not to be underestimated, and when there is a foreign war, they will work together and unite against the outside world.

So even if there have been years of civil war, no one in the neighboring countries will take the initiative to attack Qi.

The reason for their split is actually very similar to Yan Ming and Yan Donghuang.

Thirty years ago, the new emperor ascended the throne. The younger brother, who was two years younger, led the troops to fight on the battlefield for many years and made countless military achievements, which made the emperor jealous. So the emperor was afraid, and there were ministers in the court who advised to take back the military power of the younger brother.

But the prince was unruly and led his troops to station in the north in a rage, forcing him to share the country with his brother and divide and rule.

It was not until ten years ago that the prince who divided the country and ruled it passed away, and his eldest daughter inherited the throne and directly changed the throne to the throne of the emperor, and the Qi State was officially divided into Southern Qi and Northern Qi.

But precisely because she was a woman who ascended the throne, the orthodox emperor of Southern Qi did not take her seriously and was eager to take back the territory that was split off. However, he encountered a tough guy, which led to ten years of civil strife.