It’s the First Anniversary of the Publication of This Book! Summary and Thanks

On January 19, 2022, a new writer named Yu Mu Shao Sheng opened the Qidian Writer Assistant and uploaded about 10,000 words.

As of January 19, 2023, this book has been published for one year! ! ! !

On the occasion of the Spring Festival, it is the first anniversary of this book. Everyone must want to know the details of the author's creation, so I will share with you what preparations I made before writing this book...

The answer is that I did not do any preparation at all.

I also know that everyone must want to know how the ideas of this book were constructed in the early stage of creation?

The answer is that there are no ideas at all.

I just want to try whether Qidian's writer assistant is easy to use! ! ! !

Why have I written nearly 4 million words? ! ! ! ! ! ! !

What am I doing now? ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

I don’t know if you have heard of a famous theory called "throw the hat over the wall first".

It roughly means that if you feel that you are not determined to do something, then throw your hat to the other side of the wall first. In this way, with the sunk cost, you have to climb over the wall to pick up the hat.

The author threw the hat to the other side of the Himalayas.

When I started writing a book, I was full of ideas. I finished writing 10,000 words in three hours. I was really cool. A year later, I was scratching my head to fill the gap. I didn’t finish writing 2,000 words in four hours. I was really embarrassed.

Digging a hole is fun for a while, but filling it is a crematorium! ! ! !

Every night at two o'clock in the middle of the night, I have to ask myself, who gave me the courage to write a long novel without writing an outline? ? ! !

I think you may have never seen any Qidian writer express regret as the main emotion in the anniversary summary of his first book.

Why did I add so many settings in the first place? ! ! ! ! Why why why why why why why? ! ! ! !

In order to give a reasonable explanation for the setting I added at the time, I have read through the books on psychology and behavior, especially the part on behavior motivation! ! !

Why did I write about the system? ! ! !

Why did I add the setting of umbrellas? ! ! ! ! ! !

Why did I write about the autism spectrum? ! ! ! ! ! !

Why is it more difficult to write an American comic fan fiction than to write a paper? ! ! !

Ah ah ... Due to the structure and setting problems in the early stage of the article, I had to spend too much time to fill in the gaps later, which made it impossible to realize the more sophisticated and fast-paced unit short drama that I had originally conceived.

If you want to write a unit short drama, you need to strengthen the details, weaken the main line, and enhance the sense of substitution in each small story, but because many of the previous settings were added casually when I wrote the main text, I had to spend a lot of time explaining what was going on.

When it came to this part, the author was like being in prison, with one side being anxious and the other side being filled with regret for his youthful frivolity.

Because the pressure of filling in the holes was really great, the author took too much into consideration when unfolding certain plots and could not create freely.

And because the author's emotional pressure would be reflected in the text, the content level of this part was not satisfactory, and the author knew all of this.

Many readers will find that their long suggestions have been deleted, some of which may have been swallowed by Qidian or deleted by assistants, but many of them were deleted by the author himself.

Or there are many reviews, which are not bad reviews, they just state a fact, such as a part of the plot is written like shit.

When the author sees this review, he does not feel angry, but just feels very ridiculous, as if someone finally knows the goods.

So why did I delete these reviews?

This returns to the first question, why do I want to open a book?

I just want to try whether the Qidian Writer Assistant client is easy to use.

The answer is that it is really not easy to use! ! ! !

I reply to these comments in the background of the Writer Assistant. I can't see the reply reminder when I reply to the person who posted this comment, and the same is true for my likes.

Unless I open Qidian's reading client, find your comment from the vast sea of ​​chapters, and then reply, you can see the reminder.

The problem is that some of the chapters where the comments appear are chapters from a long time ago. I look at the sentence you commented on and don't know where it appears.

However, you have worked so hard to write such a long article, and your comments are very pertinent. If I don't give you feedback, I will always feel guilty.

So, an idea came to my little head. As long as I delete the comment, you will see the prompt that your comment has been deleted, which means that you can know that I have read your comment.

Am I a genius?

Well, actually it is because there were some big pits before, which made the author feel very desperate. In the middle of writing this book, the author's anxiety disorder once reached the point where he needed to use medication.

During that period, my mental state was not very normal. I felt that all comments with more than three lines were scolding me, so I deleted them all. For a period of time, I even indiscriminately scanned all comments and mechanically deleted comments for three hours in the author's background.

I think the probability of accidentally damaging good reviews is 50-50. If you find that your long comment has been deleted, it may be the product of the author not taking medicine and going crazy in the middle of the night.

I was wrong. I will take medicine well in the future. I am very sorry to the readers whose comments were deleted or accidentally hurt. The author will try to reduce the number of crazy times in the future.

Of course, some of your comments that are too long may be swallowed by Qidian. That is beyond the author's control. If you really think that your suggestions are very pertinent and useful to the author, you can join the group and contact me through the small window.

On the Internet, the evaluation of this book is generally mixed.

But there is a very interesting phenomenon. Half of the people said that I wrote the first 30 chapters like a pile of dog shit, and the other half said that I wrote like a pile of dog shit after 30 chapters.

This is not a simple product of the binary of the Internet, but represents two groups of readers.

Although there is no outline in the first part, the overall plot is relatively thin, following the route of traditional linear online literature, and there is not much room for literary expression, but the pace is fast and refreshing, which is more suitable for readers who are accustomed to fast-paced reading.

In the second half, when the author began to reorganize the plot and turned to the unit drama writing method, this type of readers may feel that the rhythm has become dragged out, mixed with too many meaningless descriptions and lyrics that are not related to the advancement of the plot.

Readers who like to read the second half may appreciate the author's writing skills and writing style. At the same time, they are more receptive to unit drama narratives, so they feel that the protagonist frequently switches worlds in the front and becomes a tool for driving the plot without emotions, which is a bit thin.

If the author prefers which type, the types actually have their own pros and cons. If the whole book is unfolded in the first 30 chapters, the author will be very comfortable.

As someone who used to be proficient in some cool writing websites, writing a single-line narrative, fast-paced, and full of cool writing with a lot of cool points does not require any thought.

Those methods of constructing cool points are like engraved in my genes. I once took this knife and dominated some websites, breaking through the siege and achieving remarkable results.

If the second method is adopted, the time and energy required are completely incomparable. The author's outline and detailed outline are mostly the main plot and character settings.

All the call-backs, foreshadowings, and foreshadowings you see in the text, the use of certain repeated sentences, the repeated reactions of certain characters, and the progressive reactions are all recorded in the author's mind.

On the one hand, my brain has to bear very trivial record work, and on the other hand, it has to bear a lot of emotional pressure to improve the plot. Although the author has not left the house for the past year, he has lived a life of ups and downs and magnificent waves.

In some previous plots, the author said that he drank, and he really drank.

And the degree of drinking may be more serious than you think, especially in the part about Gotham, in many cases it is in the prelude of unconsciousness.

Many people may think that the transformation process of Batman in this book is very interesting, because it is actually the author's recovery process.

Most of the paranoia, stubbornness, and confusion in the first half were caused by the paralysis of alcohol, while the rationality, persistence, and sudden enlightenment in the later period were mostly written under the effect of sufficient drugs.

For a long time, I didn't know what I was doing.

Some people may think that I am forced to make money, but it is not true.

My family situation is OK, there is no family pressure, no brothers and sisters, no complicated interpersonal relationships, and the money I earned from work and writing before is enough for me to live a very chic life in a city with prices comparable to those in first-tier cities.

So, what am I doing? Why do I make myself so miserable? Why do I choose the most thankless path between simplicity and difficulty?

I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, and I got up and thought about it carefully, and found that the words were densely packed with two words-"passion".

You may feel a little corny, but in fact, all long-length authors, when they are creating, if they are not supported by passion and creative passion, the money they earn is not enough to buy medicine.

The premise is to create seriously, not to write shit like I used to.

In fact, I have also carefully analyzed that most of my anxiety comes from the fact that I know that this is a book that is destined to be imperfect, just like the protagonist of this book, Schiller, who was born with an almost incurable mental illness.

However, a very important manifestation of anxiety is perfectionism, commonly known as obsessive-compulsive disorder.

For a while, I sat at the table and looked at the wine bottle on the table, as if there was another me sitting opposite me.

That me was incomplete, and no matter what method was used, it would never be perfect again, like this book, and like the life experience of many people.

She kept telling me that if you continue, it will only add pain to everyone, just like those patients who are born with mental illness but come to this world.

Others are reluctant to let him die, but he can't live well.

There will be a voice in your heart urging you to make a decision that should have been extreme, but she tells you that this is a decisive and judgmental decision.

So why didn't I make this decision at that time?

Because I tossed and turned, thought about it, and still felt reluctant.

Many people may know that I stopped updating my practice work on a certain website for various reasons. When I made this decision, I felt a very strong sense of guilt, not for the readers, but for the characters in the book.

I spent a lot of effort to shape them so vividly. Every action they took in the plot was made by them in my mind, not by me controlling them.

Once I decided not to write this book, it meant that my children were dead and would never come back.

I don't want to experience this feeling again.

This is the most important reason why this book has been able to stumble to this day, no one else.

After all, when my mental state is not normal, it is difficult for me to think rationally about the gains and losses.

Only more extreme emotions can move me, including my love for every character in the book.

Recently, many people may not understand the portrayal of greed, but in fact, this is a portrayal of the author's heart.

In order to continue to shape these superheroes I love and give everyone the best ending, I have to write even if I can't write anymore, even if my mental state is uncontrollably declining, I still have to write.

And to ask, how did the author recover from this disease...

Do you think I will say that it is because of you?

Well, I know that saying this will definitely make some people feel moved. After all, the book review area of ​​this book is always full of little fools who are fooled by the plot.

However, as an author dedicated to popular science psychology and psychiatry, I must tell you that the main reason for my improvement is sufficient medication, there is no other answer.

I have also seen many comments in the comment area that share their inner trauma or want to seek psychological counseling from the author.

But first of all, the author does not have a license, so it is impossible to give you any treatment advice. All I can do is tell you not to be afraid of seeing a doctor.

Some people think that taking medicine for mental illness is drug abuse and outrageous. But in fact, the problems you think are only psychological and emotional have already affected the physiology. It's just that the low mood makes you ignore this point. Seeking medical treatment and taking medicine as soon as possible will open the door to a new world for you.

Of course, we have to admit that the development of psychology in China is still not perfect. The distinction between psychologists, psychological counselors, and psychiatrists is not clear enough, which leads to many people being deceived.

The author says again that most so-called psychological counselors do not have the right to prescribe. He is not a doctor and cannot treat diseases, but he can comfort you.

Psychologists have the right to prescribe and can also be responsible for comforting you.

Psychiatrists have the right to prescribe. They may comfort you or not. Some doctors are only responsible for diagnosing mental illnesses, not for "chatting" in the traditional sense.

So, don't expect psychological counselors to prescribe medicine for you, and don't go to the psychiatric department and grab a doctor at random to let him comfort you.

The correct procedure is to register with a regular hospital's psychiatry department and follow the procedure for examination and diagnosis.

If the doctor determines that you do not need medication, but you still feel uncomfortable, then go to a professional psychologist and listen to his advice.

If it is determined that you need to use medication, then you must follow the doctor's advice, instead of thinking that as long as you listen to the psychologist's chat, the disease will naturally disappear.

Moreover, most of the reactions to mental illnesses I describe in the book come from what I have seen with my own eyes.

The purpose of writing these contents is to hope that everyone will not demonize mental illness. It is the same as ordinary diseases. It has causes, symptoms, and pathology. It can be treated and cured.

At the same time, I also hope that everyone will have enough patience for patients with mental illness, especially those with long-term or congenital diseases. These people are really suffering.

The autism spectrum that Schiller, the protagonist of this book, suffers from is a very typical innate mental problem with an unclear cause, and there is currently no very scientific method to completely cure it.

Of course, not being able to be completely cured does not mean that it cannot be cured in stages. If you start to conduct online screening from people you know and people you know, you will find that the number of children with the spectrum is much more than you think.

But they are just like ordinary people. Living in this society, it’s just that some behaviors may cause some abnormalities.

If you notice some abnormalities in your life, or find reactions like some details described in this article, please don’t make a fuss or be overly concerned. It’s just an ordinary person.

Of course, I still have to thank the readers in the end. Although drugs are the main reason for my recovery, the biggest difference between psychological and mental problems and other diseases is that they require a better rehabilitation environment.

For a long time, the reason why I recovered quickly was that every time I opened the book review area, it was like entering a praise group. Many people praised me with a firmness that made me feel confused.

It made me a little confused.

I don’t know why they are so firm, why they can discover so many shining points in the destined incomplete works, and even deserve so many words to praise me.

This makes me feel like "Is this a normal person?"

Patients with anxiety disorders are like being in a sea of ​​nothingness all the time. On the one hand, they swim forward desperately and don’t want to drown, and on the other hand, they know that the ship will not come.

If the ocean where ordinary anxiety patients are located is a sea of ​​nothingness and confusion, then the author is lost in the ocean of praise.

You may think that at the moment the comment is sent out, the value of your emotions is released and disappears into the air, but it is not.

I can understand the psychology of each person who posts through every sentence and every word, and feel this emotion more deeply than you.

This ability once brought disaster to me. Although I had not suffered any major blows and my family was happy, I was always troubled by mental illness because of my strong empathy.

At this time, it became my boat.

If there is really a tower in my mind space, the drug just glued it back together, but you, all the readers of this book, all your subscriptions, comments and likes have painted its surface into the perfect appearance that I have always wanted but cannot get.

Although I know that nothing in this world is perfect, what anxiety patients originally pursue is illusion.

And the reason why they cannot be cured is that in the cruel reality of society, most of the time, they can't even get illusions.

I am very lucky. All readers have woven a utopia with every action they take.

Let me just click on the writer's assistant, and I can put aside all my worries and see many imperfect people in this world, and shake their hearts for every word in the imperfect works I created.

Therefore, on the occasion of the first anniversary, I would like to solemnly thank all the readers of this book, including those who may not have the money to read the genuine version, or those who have posted suggestions for this book on other social platforms.

Thank you, my good medicine.

In addition, I would like to emphasize my thanks to all the readers who have rewarded this book.

I really can't imagine what kind of mood you have in mind. After paying for the subscription of this book, you actually spend extra money to reward it? ! !

Your behavior has shocked me much more than the money you rewarded.

Of course. Some people have really brought me a little financial shock, such as the 45 alliance leaders of this book so far.

Alliance leaders! Friends! One alliance leader is 1,000 yuan! ! !

Whenever I think of this, I feel that my current life of worrying about food and clothing may just be because I have never seen the world.

What makes me feel even more unsophisticated is the current silver alliance Kratias and a silver alliance Chen Yi Sain in this book.

How come there are two silver allies in this book? ! ! !

I didn't even write an outline when I started the book! ! ! !

...Why didn't I write an outline when I started the book? ! !

In addition, when the first silver ally, Cratias, appeared, I had just finished a 20,000-day day. At that time, my mental state was not very good, so I didn't write a single chapter or a special thanks. I'm really sorry!

And that's it! ! ! Chen Yi is always the god! ! The first silver ally! ! ! The whole site is on the banner! ! ! Thank you so much! ! !

I said before that I would update more after the Silver Alliance appeared, but since the full release, the author has to commute three hours to work every day, and I really can't finish it.

So, you can wait for me to be free to update, or just point out the plot, I will write whatever you want.

The number of words is uncertain, it depends on the complexity of the plot. You can write CP, but basically there is no way to have marginal content, because it will not be approved by the review, and some sensitive topics are the same.

Of course, since I am a fan nail house, this kind of customized extra may not have much room for appreciation, but I will definitely write it seriously, and I will definitely write an outline in advance.

...So why didn't I write an outline in advance before? ! ! ! ! !

Well, on the occasion of the first anniversary, and the Spring Festival, I wish all readers and friends a happy Year of the Rabbit!

Happy Spring Festival!

...Why didn't I write an outline in advance? ! ! ! ! !

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