Chapter 135 That Bad Guy (3) (1/2)

Mother Lin rushed into the room again.

Her two children came towards her with knives in their hands, and Lin Shixing's face was covered with tears.

It looked like a rape scene.

She panicked all of a sudden, her mind went blank, and she rushed up to take the knife without caring about anything.

At this moment, at least Lin Shixing felt that she loved him.

Her heart was full of pain, mixed with confusion and despair.

If you love me, why don't you give me a chance?

If you love me, why do you want to push me to a dead end?

Is the love for your son so great that you have to sacrifice your daughter to make up for it?

Mother Lin was shaking all the time until she threw the knife on the ground.

She looked at her daughter with trembling lips and spoke with a trembling voice: "Lin Shixing, did I owe you in my last life? Do you have to make me angry to death?!"

In the past, when she showed her sadness, Lin Shixing would no longer say hurtful words, and she was even willing to admit her mistakes just to make her mother not feel sad for herself.

This may be her most desperate point.

Even if she was pushed to a dead end and stabbed in the heart, she still regarded these people as her closest and most unwilling to give up.

But this time, Lin Shixing didn't want to retreat again.

She couldn't control her tears from constantly pouring out of her eyes, and she was choking intermittently when she spoke, but she still said what she had been holding back for a long time in one breath.

"Don't I owe you? Did I, Lin Shixing, kill someone in my previous life and make mistakes, so I was reborn in your belly and became your daughter in this life?? I really don't ask for much, I don't want a lot, I don't want you to treat me like you treat my brother, I just want you to stop pushing me into the fire pit..."

"Mom, do you know what you have been doing? You let me give up my bright future and let me live a mediocre life. If, if our family is really in trouble and needs money, I won't say much, I will drop out of school immediately to make money. If you and my dad have any serious illnesses that need money, I will also give everything to make money to save you, but has our family come to this? Has it come to this??!"

Lin Shixing's crying is very distressing. She is a very beautiful girl and usually pays attention to her image. In the past, she would hide in the house and the quilt when she cried, without making any sound. After crying, she would wash her face and massage her eyes. If someone asked: Did you cry?

She would pretend to be relaxed and answer, no, I just yawned.

But now, she cried without caring about her image, as if she wanted to vent all the grievances that she had buried in her heart for these years.

"Last month, you and my dad bought a new phone for my brother, right? How many phones has he changed since he bought one? Every time, it was broken and couldn't be repaired. What about me? I only have an old phone that can only be used for making calls and sending text messages. My dad gave it to me because he didn't use it anymore. You give him living expenses every month. He spends 4,000 a month. Sometimes he calls you for more. I live in school and don't even spend 500 a month. You are always reluctant to give me money.

In the second year of junior high school, the teacher asked us to practice writing with fountain pens. Everyone said that the x series of fountain pens are easy to use. I went home and told you that you thought the fountain pen was too expensive. A fountain pen of more than ten yuan was quite expensive for me. I was obedient and didn't buy it. As a result, you bought my brother a basketball worth 50 yuan just because he said he wanted to play it during class. Mom... Ask yourself with your conscience, what have I asked of you since then?"

Lin Shixing's voice trembled. Looking at her mother who was shocked by her sudden outburst, she sniffed: "I always tell myself that you don't Easy, I was born by you, raised by you, so I have to understand you, if you don't give me money, I will earn it myself, if I don't have enough money, I will save it, I eat cheap meals, wear cheap clothes, I think in this way, you can save your worries, you can love me, at least compared with my brother, I am still sensible, right? "

"But what about you? ? Can you see? From childhood to adulthood! ! You only have my brother in your eyes! ! Only him! ! Where am I? Am I not the one who comes along every time? ? You always tell me that my family paid so much fines for me. Sometimes I really want to tell you that it was you who decided to give birth to me, not me. If I had a choice, if I knew before I went to your belly that you and your father didn't like me at all, in your eyes, I was not even as good as a finger of my brother, and I was only worthy of sacrificing myself, I would rather never have been born than become your daughter! ! "

Mother Lin stared blankly at her daughter who had always been well-behaved and quiet in front of her, opened her mouth, wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say.

Lin Shiheng, who was standing by, was still not affected: "Lin Shixing, you were talking to mom, why are you bringing me up?"

Lin Shixing had never spoken to her parents like this before. She sat on the bed powerlessly without her mother's teaching.

She was not afraid, but just felt ironic.

Ironic that after saying something she would never say before, she felt relieved.

Yes, relieved.

Lin Shixing lowered her head and hid her tears.

That's it. In this family, she is simply redundant. Her parents will always bring her up for not being cleared out.

Lin Shiheng and them are a family.

If Dad comes back at night and still thinks she should drop out of school, then she should drop out of school, go out to work and earn money, and move her household registration out when she turns 18.

She will calculate the amount of money she has spent since she was a child, and no matter how hard it is in the future, she must pay it all back.

That's it.

There is no need to hold on to hope anymore, give up this family, and give up being their daughter.

Lin's mother didn't know what Lin Shixing was thinking. She was still in shock because she never thought that her daughter would have so many grievances in her heart.

Why is she so angry?

Boys and girls are treated differently. Shiheng is the male in the family, so of course she should be treated well and taken good care of.

Boys spend a lot outside, and they are in college. Isn't it normal to give four or five thousand yuan? Shixing is in high school, and he eats and lives in school. How can five hundred yuan not be enough?

When she was working outside, she could spend five yuan a month and that was considered very generous.

As for Lin Shixing, she could say with a clear conscience that she loved her very much.

Like her nieces and nephews, who was as blessed as Lin Shixing? She was still in school at the age of seventeen. When she was young, if there was anything good at home, even if Shi Heng ate most of it, wouldn't the rest be given to Shixing?

And those toys, although they always taught her not to snatch them from her brother, couldn't she still play with them?

Like when she was a child, when she was still alive, her brother's slingshot and spinning top were not allowed to be touched by these girls. The delicious food at home was even more forbidden to them. They could only stand aside and watch their brother eat even if they drooled after tearing them apart. They also had to light the fire and cook, go up the mountain to cut grass for pigs, and come back to feed the pigs and chickens.

Because I always remember that I was so tired when I was a child that I didn't have the energy to play. Before Shixing went to junior high school, she did all the housework she could do, just to make her not as tired as she was when she was a child.

Isn't that enough?

Isn't this okay?

Lin's mother was confused and puzzled. She felt that Lin Shixing's anger was unreasonable because she thought she had been good enough to her daughter and let her enjoy life.

As for letting her drop out of school and get married, wasn't it because the family was rich? She had experienced how much less suffering she would suffer by marrying a rich man. Why didn't this child understand?

Lin's mother felt that she should take her daughter to teach her well.

She thought about what she was going to say in her head, "Shixing, listen to me..."

"Oh my mom!"

Lin Shiheng interrupted her, "What are you saying to her? She just wants to participate in the competition. Just let her go."

Mother Lin always listened to her son, but she was thinking about the gossip she had heard when she was shopping for groceries, such as "This star was sexually exploited, that star's x-photo was exposed", "The entertainment industry is all dark and you can't get out once you get in", and she still said to him, "You are a child and don't understand. Let me talk to your sister first."

"What are you talking about? If you don't agree today, my sister will bang her head against the wall and die. She looks soft at ordinary times, but she is tougher than anyone else when she encounters something. Have you forgotten that when she was a child, she had a fight and beat Wang Chao's head with blood. Lin Shixing is very cruel."

Lin Shixing, who was crying silently with his head down, raised his eyes and glared at his brother fiercely.

At that time, it was clearly this guy who was fighting with Wang Chao. She went to break up the fight, but Lin Shixing hit the guy's head and made him bleed. When the parents asked, they blamed everything on her.

She told the truth, but none of her parents believed her. They insisted that Lin Shiheng was well-behaved, sensible and obedient and would not fight.

If it weren't for the fact that Lin Shiheng had been pushed out to take the blame countless times since she was a child and her parents' partial treatment, she wouldn't have such a bad relationship with Lin Shiheng, who should be called her brother.

Lin Shixing recalled the past and became more and more angry, but Lin's mother was frightened at once.

She licked her dry lips and said dryly: "Shixing, it's not that mom doesn't want you to go. Those places are not clean. You are a good little girl. What's the matter with going there? What if something happens..."

Lin Shixing's eyes were still red. She tried to hold back her tears and looked at her mother stubbornly: "What if it's my brother? My brother wants to go? Will you not let him go?"

"Hey, I'm playing games at home. Why should I go there and compete with a group of people for a place? I'm not bored."

Lin Shixing just pretended not to hear Lin Shiheng's words, and still looked at her mother persistently: "Don't lie to me, I can see it, tell me the truth, if Lin Shiheng wants to go, will you let him go?"

Mother Lin hesitated for a while, still hesitantly said: "Shiheng is a boy, and he is so old, he won't be taken advantage of if he goes..."

Lin Shixing's tears fell in a flash.

It was obvious that she covered her mouth to block the sound of crying, but the intermittent sobbing and pitiful crying sound was still exposed from between her fingers. Lin Shixing turned around, lifted the quilt and hid her whole body including her head.

"You guys go out, I want to be alone."

Mother Lin looked at her daughter hesitantly. Facing her daughter who had just accused her of a lot of things, she was afraid that she would be stimulated and commit suicide again. She couldn't put on a strong posture, so she only said hesitantly: "Then you have a good rest. When you wake up and your father comes back, we will talk to you in detail."

As she said that, she squatted down and took the scissors in her hand. She looked around again and made sure that there was nothing that could be used for suicide. Then she pulled Lin Shiheng out of the door, looking back every few steps.

Hearing the sound of the door closing, Lin Shixing, who was hiding in the quilt, could no longer hold back her tears and sobbed.

At this moment, she even really wanted to end her life as Lin Shiheng said.

Outside the door, as soon as he walked into the living room, Lin Shiheng shook off his mother's hand: "Mom, you are too old-fashioned. What's the dirty place? It's just singing a song. No wonder Lin Shixing is unhappy. I wouldn't be happy if it were me."

Mother Lin can be tough with her daughter, but not with her son. After all, she has been educated since she was a child that men are the sky. No matter whether it is father, husband or son, as long as they are strong, she will be weak.

"You are still young, you don't know, your sister is only seventeen years old..."

"Yes."

Lin Shiheng interrupted his mother impatiently: "You want her to drop out of school and work when she is only seventeen years old."

Mother Lin paused, not knowing how to refute for a moment, and could only mutter: "I also went to work when I was a teenager, and so did your aunt. Didn't your father and I get along when we were working?"

"You went out to work because your family had no money and conditions to support you to study. Didn't my uncle also go to school? What era is it now? Doesn't our family need that little money? Mom, I'm not saying anything bad about you, but you and my dad are sometimes really feudal. Can you accept some new things? Then Lin Shixing's sister dropped out of school at the age of seventeen, what will happen to me, a nineteen-year-old brother who is still in school? Her grades are so good, you wait and see, if you do this, those gossipy women around you will not know what to say about our family behind our backs."

After speaking, Lin Shiheng turned around and strode into his room without looking at his mother who was mumbling to explain, and slammed the door shut.

Only Lin's mother was left standing in the living room.

She looked confused and puzzled. She was not angry with her son. After all, she had long been accustomed to his attitude.

She just didn't understand what she had done wrong.

Lin's mother sat on the sofa for a long time, and felt uneasy, so she had to stand up and lie down by the door of the guest room to listen to the noise inside, and then mop the floor.

After going back and forth several times, her daughter's words and her son's words kept appearing in her mind.

Finally, she hesitated and looked up at her daughter's door, then turned and went downstairs.

Lin Shixing had not slept all the time. Although she was a little sleepy because her eyes were swollen from crying, and her spirit was also very tired, but strangely, her brain was always clear.

The things that happened from childhood to adulthood kept turning over in her mind.

There were stories of her parents making peace with Lin Shixing when she was bullied, and there were stories of her wearing clothes for a year that were too short and tight and uncomfortable to change and she had to wear school uniforms, and there were stories of her parents picking her up and comforting her when she fell down while walking when she was a child.

There were good stories and bad stories, but there were more bad stories.

She quietly opened her eyes in the dark and felt that her tears had completely dried up.

In the quiet little room, the sound of the door opening was particularly obvious.

Feeling that someone opened the door, Lin Shixing subconsciously closed her eyes.

After a second, Lin's mother's voice sounded: "Shixing, are you asleep?"

Lin Shixing closed her eyes in the quilt and did not make a sound.

There was a rustling sound, and then the quilt covering her head was carefully pulled down. She closed her eyes and could not see it, so she could only judge by touch and hearing that Lin's mother tucked the corner of the quilt for her.

Then she stood up and walked to the direction of the door, as if she was going out, and then gently closed the door.

She didn't stay in this room for more than two minutes.

Lin Shixing opened her eyes and found a fountain pen in front of her.

x series, the one she wanted very much at the beginning.

She actually has the money to buy it now. The money from her part-time job is enough for her to buy a lot of pens, but because she wants to save money and it's not a necessity, she has been holding back from buying it even if she likes it.

Lin Shixing stared at the fountain pen steadily, and her eyes, which she thought were dry, were aching again, and she was brewing tears.

She stretched out her hand and wanted to take the fountain pen, but she paused a second before touching it.

After a while, Lin Shixing turned around, turned her back to the fountain pen, and closed her eyes.

In an instant, tears fell like rain.