Chapter 159: Awakening of Kotomine Kirei
Accompanied by a mocking and pitying sneer, the dazzling golden light of the disc player dispersed the darkness in the prison, and forced Kotomine Kirei, who was staring at the void, to turn his gaze to the outside of the cell.
Even if he was just standing, the heroic spirit still did not hide the amazing sense of oppression released from him. The awe and self-discipline of stepping into a modern violent institution had nothing to do with him.
"It has come to this point, what are you still thinking about? Even if you are slow, there must be a limit, Kirei."
"Did Mr. Tokiomi ask you to come, Archer."
"Tokiomi? This guy doesn't have time to deal with your affairs, or he doesn't know anything about your affairs at all?" The blood-red eyes looked at Kotomine Kirei unscrupulously, as if Archer was sure and expected his next reaction from the beginning.
"...What do you mean?"
"I'll tell you, Kirei-he is now dealing with the funeral of the priest Kotomine Risei."
Priest? Kotomine Risei? Kotomine... Risei...?
Father?
When he finally understood the information Archer said, the feeling of tears sliding down his cheeks made Kirei stunned for a moment, and he could not help but press his face.
Crying because of the death of a blood relative... For a person, this should be a natural reaction. But Kirei seemed to have stepped on empty air next to an abyss at this time, and fell into a chaotic emotion close to fear.
Absolutely cannot look directly at it - the voice in his heart sternly warned himself.
Kotomine Kirei, you absolutely cannot understand or agree with the emotion that is surging in your heart now. Because that is -
"Regret?" The Golden Heroic Spirit admired Kirei's empty and struggling expression, and a sadistic smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, "It's not because of the sadness of the death of a relative, but because of the regret of not being there. Oh, this is not accurate enough.
"To be precise, it is regret that - the person who killed your biological father was not you, right? "
A voice pierced Kirei's heart like a steel needle, breaking through the blockade and confinement he had three years ago. Kotomine Kirei stared blankly at the wetness in his hands, at his own tears.
Tears, when was the last time he cried.
Yes, it was three unforgettable years ago. That woman, his wife Claudia, reached out and scooped up Kirei's tears, saying "You love me very much."
This separation was completely different from the ending he expected - he thought so at that time. By the side of the terminally ill woman, Kirei had already realized that he What is the thing you are looking for?
I hope to make this woman more ■■——
I want to see her more ■■——
At that moment, just like this moment, Kotomine Kirei once again felt the frantic and helpless mood three years ago.
At least let him experience the most extreme ■■■■ before his father died...
"The soul will pursue pleasure, just like a beast will follow the smell of blood--"
The ruby-like eyes lingered in his heart, and he said softly to him with an evil smile.
"Now, you should be able to give an answer, right? About that matter? "
Kotomine Kirei knew what Archer was talking about. It was the "entertainment activity" Archer asked him to participate in on the night when he lost Assassin, which was to satisfy his bored curiosity about each Master's motivation for pursuing the Holy Grail. For this, the Hero King generously handed over his treasured treasures to him.
One of them was placed in the church by Kotomine Kirei, revealing the fact that Shuoyue stole the spiritual energy disk, and the rest were indeed released by Kirei for surveillance, and achieved certain results.
But what's the point of talking about this now?
With a mood that was almost escaping, Kirei finally opened his mouth and slowly told the story behind the iron window.
He talked about Master Lancer who pursued victory for the honor of a magician, and Master Rider who used to be like his teacher but now seemed to have a new awakening. The story begins with Caster's Master, the mysterious young man who harbors murderous intentions towards him. Because he failed to grasp the whereabouts of Saber's Master, Emiya Kiritsugu, Archer lied to him, and then continued to talk about Berserker's Master, Matou Kariya.
"A half-trained magician is responsible for a crazy Servant. He originally showed signs of an alliance with Caster, but recently he seems to have drawn a line. In addition, he seems to have had a connection with Tokiomi's wife Aoi in the past. Both of Tosaka's daughters are now taken in by him..."
Suddenly, Archer spoke up, interrupting Kirei's narration.
"Then Kirei, let's assume a situation next - suppose a miracle happens and by luck, if Berserker's Master really survives to the end. Can you imagine what will happen then? "
Suppose. If it is just a fiction...
Suppose the Master of Berserker defeated everyone and even obtained the Holy Grail, what would Kariya have to face then?
Needless to say, he would have to face his own dark side. Under the banner of justice to get Aoi's daughter back, he would have to take her husband away from her. Kariya did not find this contradiction in his heart... No, he ignored it on purpose. This also means that he deceived himself and concealed the jealousy and low desire in his heart.
Standing on the blood-stained peak of victory, Matou Kariya will be forced to face the ugliest side of his heart.
Archer looked at Kirei's thoughtful face and smiled knowingly.
"Kirei, you should have noticed it by now, right? What is the true essence of this question?"
"……What did you say?"
"If you ask other Masters the same question, you will soon realize that the question is meaningless and that your efforts are in vain. But regarding Kariya, you did not notice it. You gave up your usual precise thinking and immersed yourself in the meaningless In your delusion, you forget how meaningless this thing is, and you don’t feel miserable even if it’s in vain. This is what is called ‘interest’.”
Archer spread his arms, and there was still no trace of warmth on his face. Instead, he was like a child observing an ant nest, blooming with pure joy.
"Celebrate well, Kirei. Your never-ending tour is finally coming to your destination - you finally understand what 'entertainment' is."
In the midst of the thunderous trembling, Kotomine Kirei's mind fell into a blank, but in the empty sea of soul, something seemed to float up.
I want to see my wife in even more pain——
I want my father to experience the most extreme way of death——
I am looking forward to the ugly ending after Kariya’s wish comes true——
God's admonitions could no longer stop Kirei, and finally he understood that benevolence, justice and morality could not bring him any answer.
Finally, the man took a long breath and let out a sigh that was slightly lonely but full of joy after reaching his goal:
"What is this...what am I?"
At the end, the hypocritical sighs stopped, and the man dressed as a priest simply held his stomach and burst into laughter, even if he was out of breath from laughing:
"So twisted? So dirty? Is this really the child of Kotomine Rimasa? Hahahaha, impossible, no way! What is this? Did my father actually give birth to a four-legged beast?"
"Are you satisfied? Kirei." Gilgamesh asked with a pleasant smile.
"No, not yet. That's not enough."
Kirei wiped away his tears, shook his head and replied:
"I did find the answer in this period of life that was only about exploration. This is a great progress. However, this did not solve the problem at all. The answer was just thrown in front of me suddenly, and the process or method of answering was omitted. It is called How can I accept this?"
The refreshed priest raised his right hand with a smile on his face.
Was it because of his excessive joy that he ignored the pain on the back of his hand? At some point, the Command Seal symbolizing the Master reappeared on his hand.
"The equation that leads to my weird existence should be some kind of clear truth that exists somewhere. No, it must exist. I must pursue and explore what it is... and in this Holy Grail War , obviously there will be the answer I want.”
Faced with Kotomine Kirei's declaration to rejoin the war, Archer laughed out loud:
"Hahaha, you are so annoying... It seems that my efforts to encourage others are worth it. But Kirei, you will soon encounter a big trouble."
After Archer laughed for a while, a cunning yet evil and dangerous look appeared in his blood-red eyes.
"If you want to participate in the Holy Grail War with your own will, Tokiomi Tohsaka will become your enemy. In other words, you are now unarmed and living in the same room with the enemy's servants with your bare hands. Don't you think this is the case? Is it dangerous?"
"That's not necessarily true. I have already planned how to ask for mercy."
"oh?"
Archer narrowed his eyes with interest, while Kirei continued calmly.
"Since I am going to be an enemy of Tokiomi-sensei, I no longer need to cover up his lies - Gilgamesh, I will tell you the truth behind the Holy Grail War that you don't know yet."