Chapter 459 Things Are Always Like This

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In the evening, Backlund.

When Audrey returned home, she happened to see her mother, Lady Caitlin, talking to her maid, Anne.

"Yes, Miss has been reading and resting in her room all afternoon."

Anne saluted the countess and was about to knock on the door to ask "Miss Audrey" to come out.

Thinking that it was Susie who occasionally said a word or two and asked for some snacks in that room, Audrey couldn't help but feel guilty. She lifted up her skirt, imposed psychological invisibility on herself, and gently bypassed her mother and Annie pushed the door open a crack wide enough for one person and stepped in.

As soon as she closed the door, Anne gently knocked on the door twice and called: "Miss, madam, please come over."

"Okay, I'll change my clothes and go."

Susie, who was lying on the ground and flipping through a book, raised her head. She used her front paws to move the book in front of her to Audrey's desk with great difficulty. A trace of human anxiety appeared on her face.

Seeing Susie's appearance, Audrey couldn't help but smile. She came back in time this time, but she really wanted to see if Susie would use the emergency plan - it's not like they hadn't discussed the situation when their parents suddenly came to talk to them, or when their friends suddenly came to talk to them without an appointment - But now that Audrey is back, Susie doesn't need to use emergency means to hypnotize everyone.

She lost her psychological invisibility and seemed to suddenly grow out of the ground.

Susie's front paws trembled. It was relieved after seeing the person clearly. It glanced at Audrey complainingly and straightened the book: "I was scared to death, Audrey. Fortunately, you are back. The Countess is looking for you."

"Yes, I heard that, thank you Susie."

Audrey took off the covering cloak and hid in her secret compartment. Then she quickly changed into home clothes and shoes, and used perfume to cover her scent, pretending that she had never left. .

Immediately afterwards, she gently opened the door of her room with her usual dignified posture, and showed a surprised expression to her mother standing outside the door:

"Mother?"

"Oh, Audrey." Mrs. Caitlin handed the feather fan in her hand to Anne, and she gently held her little daughter's shoulders with loving eyes, "Why have you been reading for so long? It's dinner time. Honey, your father and brother are already waiting for us in the restaurant."

Audrey blinked, and she could see clearly from the front than from the side. Although her mother's makeup was still perfect and her appearance was still beautiful, Audrey was keenly aware of the small abnormalities in her body language and emotions - her mother Have you cried? ——Thinking of this, Audrey seemed to be aware of it, a cold air ran up her back involuntarily, and a small goosebump appeared.

But she still had to pretend to be ignorant of what was about to happen and her mother's crying. She smiled and took her mother's arm and walked forward: "Then let's go quickly, Mom, there will be a meeting tonight." My favorite cake?”

Mrs. Caitlin seemed to be infected by her daughter's innocence and liveliness, and the corners of her mouth raised again: "Dear Audrey, if you want to eat that cake, you can ask the chef to make it for tomorrow's afternoon tea. We have to control our food intake at dinner. Maintain your weight."

"Well...of course, I know!"

"So for dessert after dinner I'd like a muffin with some cream and strawberries, is that okay, Mom?"

Audrey tried her best to make her smile look full of vitality and vitality. Even though her own mood was gradually sinking into the bottom, like an outsider, she still had to work hard to play the role of "Miss Hall" in the eyes of her family and provide them with Some jovial power.

"My baby, when did you become so greedy?"

Lady Catelyn finally smiled and patted her daughter's hair gently: "Of course, I will tell the chef."

Audrey showed the surprise smile that a girl should have at the right time, held her mother's hand affectionately, and walked to the restaurant downstairs.

When they entered the restaurant, Hibbert and Earl Hall were already waiting at their seats. Audrey greeted her father and brother with a smile. Seeing the subtle changes in expressions on their faces, Audrey's heart gradually sank.

You can't go wrong.

She sat down with a smile, but her thoughts were calmer than ever before, like an outsider watching indifferently, waiting for Earl Hall's verdict.

But my father was far more calm than the young psychiatrist. The servants served appetizers, soups, and aperitifs. It was only when the family began to eat the staple food that Earl Hall made a gesture to let the servants who had finished serving the dishes temporarily withdraw. , enter the family meeting session.

"Audrey." The count called softly.

Audrey, who had been waiting for this moment since she entered the restaurant, still seemed unaware. She smiled and raised her head and looked at her father: "What's the matter, Dad?"

"How is your work and life lately?" Earl Hall's love and care for his daughter came from the heart. "Since the situation started to be turbulent, you rarely have tea parties or salons with your friends. Stay home alone.”

If I don't stay at home alone, how can I go to work in the Southern Continent on time every afternoon? In the past two days, I have taken special leave for food... Audrey sighed in her heart, the charity fund and the daily life of the Southern Continent gradually She began to revise her aristocratic view of money. She still missed her friends and wanted to be with them, but she could no longer ignore the large amount of money that was wasted while talking and laughing.

"The foundation still has a lot of things to do, and there are still a lot of people who need help..." Audrey gave a standard answer in response to her father's question, "As a director, I deal with a lot of things every day, reading materials and sorting lists. , I think this is good.”

Seeing the pure and kind look of his sister and daughter, Hibbert hesitated to speak. Lady Caitlin sighed quietly, but Earl Hall did not show any change in his expression and still said in the same gentle tone as usual:

"Audrey, I have something that I need to discuss with you."

"What's the matter, Dad?"

"Perhaps you still remember that I once said this to you and to Hibbert."

Earl Hall put down the tableware in his hand, and everyone involuntarily straightened their backs: "Everyone has a different weight in their hearts, and in my heart, the Hall family is more important than me and more than your mother. , and more than yours.”

Only then did Audrey show an expression that "seemed to have noticed something", and her eyelashes trembled slightly.

Seeing that his daughter did not speak, Earl Hall continued: "I previously tried to let Hibbert go away from home and become a viscount in Intis to save part of the family's property. But the current political situation has changed. Changes, the believers of the God of Thunder are not friendly enough to us believers of the goddess, Hibbert simply cannot leave Loen..."

He didn't say any more and looked at his daughter, believing that she, who was simple but not stupid, would be able to guess what he was thinking.

At the same time, Earl Hall was uneasy about the enthusiasm in the distant relative's reply - the language style of the Intis nobles was more straightforward and not restrained enough, so the letter was considered "enthusiastic", and Earl Hall was not Knowing why the other party suddenly changed his previous cold and even arrogant attitude, he just wrote in the letter, "We welcome Miss Audrey Hall to be a guest at the Marquis de Montmartre."

The only reason he could think of was that the eldest son of the Marquis saw a photo or portrait of his daughter.

In this way, the other party's behavior is consistent with his impression of the Intis nobles.

More importantly, the other party's enthusiastic attitude put Earl Hall in a difficult position. He had already welcomed Miss Audrey in this way. Is it appropriate to send his eldest son there again? If the other party becomes angry by then, I'm afraid things will be even more troublesome.

Things have already been decided, but do you still want to ask me about my attitude first... Yes, after that, I never seemed to refuse my father's proposal, because I knew that refusal would not make a difference. I can’t explain the effect...

Audrey's eyes lowered slightly. This time she withdrew from the "audience" state and said calmly and slowly:

"I know, Dad."

After a pause, she looked up into her father's eyes.

"In my heart, my father, mother and brother are also more important than myself and my work..."

"Thank you for your understanding, dear Audrey."

Earl Hall closed his eyes and opened them again after a few seconds. His eyes were slightly red: "I have recorded all the real estate and shares of about 150,000 pounds that have been transferred to Intis to your name. Our A distant relative has a daughter who is a few years older than you, and your mother has been corresponding with her... Don't worry too much, Audrey, she will welcome you, and someone will go to greet you."

...that Ms. D from the Aurora Society? Audrey's originally sad mood suddenly became a little complicated, and she even wanted to smile bitterly.

She thought for a while and asked softly:

"Dad, I have grown up and am going to Intis alone. Who is my engagement partner in Intis?"

As a Loen lady, her question was quite bold.

But no one at the dinner table stopped him, because everyone knew that this was an exchange of interests and a sacrifice to preserve family property.

Earl Hall's expression became even more ugly:

"There is no engagement, Audrey. Our relatives invite you. The young lady wants to add a friend to herself."

He didn't believe this himself - he didn't expect to be engaged to the eldest son of the Marquis, but if the eldest son of the Marquis clearly set an engagement partner for Audrey, even if it was so casual that it could be broken at any time, Earl Hall would not act like that So worried now. The phrases "a newly grown up noble lady", "going abroad alone" and "beautiful appearance" are superimposed with "Intis", and the answer is ready to come out.

This only left the father with a deep uneasiness that no amount of transfer of property could erase.

Hibbert's expression turned angry for a moment, but he suppressed it, and Lady Catelyn had begun quietly wiping her tears.

No engagement?

Audrey herself was stunned. After all, in the current era, an engagement is one of the safety guarantees for a woman traveling alone abroad, but she didn't... This, the lady or gentleman who invited her over was too frivolous!

But then, she suddenly reacted.

"Ms. D of the Aurora Society is the daughter of an Intis noble family. I have corresponded with her several times. She knows that I am a mid-sequence of the 'audience' pathway. Judging from her hints, I basically guess that I am already a sequence five."

"The Aurora Society now believes in the Sun God, the Creator, and in the Church of the Creator, there are five paths..."

"One of them is 'audience'!"

Ms. D, Miss Irena is showing her kindness to me, she is inviting me over... She may provide me with a place to stay, and the price may be that I have to join the Church of the Creator, or serve her family. ? This, I can pretend to be the former, but it’s not that I can’t accept it…

In the eerily quiet atmosphere, Audrey quickly calmed down.

"I understand, dad, please don't worry too much about me." She said, "I will protect myself. I am also an extraordinary person."

Audrey's smile looked forced to others, so they also smiled reluctantly.

…

The worst thing that Klein expected - that Amon would parasitize everyone within two days and attack him all at once - did not happen.

This gave him some relief.

He quickly memorized the dozens of people who had abnormal expressions when the light appeared. For a person who is used to seeing human beings without abnormality, almost everyone in Yuecheng has a unique appearance, not to mention the bonus of "faceless men" in terms of identification.

"Taking out the cross is also a bad idea...according to that person, God is here, and He can notice my actions. I use God to deter Amon here and the danger of involving myself in it."

"However, compared to being parasitized by Amon, believing in God has become a better choice."

But it still doesn’t feel right no matter what I think about it. It’s as if people in the Eastern Continent have never had the right to choose. In other words, their right to choose is nothing more than “which god to believe in.” Even this right to choose is bound by kindness or fear. Forced to make changes. People today either choose to actively convert with gratitude and expectations, or they cannot let go of the ancient sun god but still choose to look forward.

When the True Creator gave them to me, did he experience more complicated emotions than I do now?

At that time, there should be no believers of "The Fool" in the Land Abandoned by God. They were all devout believers of the Creator, but He insisted on making the people in the Land Abandoned by God become my anchor in the future... Alas, I am not taking advantage of this. It’s an exchange of equal value – the “Fool” gives them help, and they pay me for their faith. This should be a win-win situation. Why do I always feel weird? Sure enough, is it because no one asked them if they wanted to change their faith at the beginning, so they just did it...

Although he knew it very well in his heart, after Klein thought about it clearly, he still felt helpless and powerless.

He was once unwilling to accept this fate, and now he accepts it; he was once unwilling to do anything other than help, and now he is here.

It seems that fate is like this, changing tricks to let you move forward.

No matter how much you resist, you finally find a reason to move forward.

It is this feeling that makes people annoyed, irritable, and even angry, while the angels of fate are either silent or pretending to be naive and unpredictable. Whenever Klein thinks about these things, he always feels the same as when he couldn't help but realize the true meaning of the "Joker" potion.

"Sigh... Fortunately, I still feel that this matter was not done well. Is this a reflection of me... Sigh..."

Klein sighed in his heart, and then sighed again:

"It's really unimaginable. If I have to use this method to confirm myself, I will probably start to lose myself in a few years. The gods have maintained this state for thousands of years. How on earth did they do this? "

"Or is it that after they live forever, the concept of time will disappear?"

It is difficult for him to describe this feeling of "I am still me", as if there is a box placed in his heart. When he encounters or does something that goes against his heart, the box starts to rotate, and the edges and corners are drawn in his heart. Some sharp pains. But as time goes by, the edges and corners will be smoothed away by his own flesh and blood, and by then he will be unable to feel anything - he can only play himself with his own impressions.

——Although he is already a Sequence 3 saint, he is too young in the mysterious world. Not only is he younger than anyone else in the same sequence, but he was considered a baby when he entered the mysterious world.

This also made it difficult for him to imagine the impact of the "anchor" on himself, and to accept the existence of divinity.

Klein considers himself to be a benevolent and great being, at least not to the extent of beating out or even executing heretics like the outside world. Therefore, people in the God-Forsaken Land still retain the freedom to believe in the ancient sun god, but such people will also become more and more corrupt. Come less and less.

He put aside these messy thoughts and focused on what was in front of him.

The warm purifying power fell on the people of Silver City, purifying the toxins in their bodies.

In the sunrise-like brightness, people saw illusory black energy constantly rising on themselves and the people around them, and then dissipating in the light. At the same time, they also feel that their physical condition is improving rapidly, better than ever before.

"Praise my Lord, praise the Fool."

Looking around, Klein felt that he was gradually immersed in the identity of a "missionary". When the believers below responded, this young man who was both a "fool" and an "angel of God" spoke solemnly but enough to make everyone laugh. The voice heard said:

"I followed God's guidance to come here and was invited to participate in your celebration."

"It is said that this was originally a sun festival dedicated to the sun god, but our Lord will also respond because this is what the gods want."

The crowd was silent.

"They have never forgotten you, they have never forgotten every person who survived in the darkness, they have never forgotten every brave warrior, and they have never forgotten the suffering and sorrow you have experienced."

Gehrman Sparrow's words echoed in the air in the square and were carried by the wind to every corner of the city. The residents of Moon City who participated in this ceremony were moved, sad, warm, and lost.

On the high platform, Klein felt a deep sense of illusory guilt, and the square in his heart rotated slightly, because he knew that 90% of what he said was false. The True Creator has gone crazy, not only to protect his own believers, but also to screen his own believers. The "Fool" was reborn. He just learned about a group of suffering people here a year ago, and he just made up his mind to come here a month ago.

Are lies and falsehood the basis for the development of faith? thought the young god.

The gods who preached in person, the quiet and expectant people, he didn't know that all of this coincided with the scene countless years ago.

It was also in this darkness that someone or a god raised a sun and illuminated the dark sky where there had always been only a red moon.

From then on, there was nothing new under the sun.

What you have has to be lost at the same time. If you want to move towards a new future, you must abandon the old things.

The preacher's voice was steady and contained real emotions:

"At the same time, they promise that it will all end and that happiness and peace will come, just as the sun will rise again."

TBC

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"The sun will rise again..." Someone in the crowd whispered in an inaudible voice. Then, he lowered his head and looked at his toes.

“If every sun that rises after that is not the one I want to see;”

"Then what do all the suns, including the entire world illuminated by the sun, have to do with me?"

"Sure enough, I still can't figure it out. My father wanted to teach me these things, but he never thought that I was willing to learn because of him. Or maybe, he knew, but never thought that he would one day fail. "

"This makes no sense at all..."

"The so-called human beings, the world, love, courage and sacrifice... I may never, ever understand these things."