Chapter 843 Sunny Bird

Second letter.

God, hello, it has been two years since I left your kingdom.

Now I have become a human, and I have replaced that girl and her identity to live in my favorite rainy kingdom, the city with tiled roofs and slate alleys.

Her name is Sunny Day, and it feels a little strange to be called Sunny Day in such a country where it always rains.

But I heard that there are more people named Lando, after all, Lando means bird, and many people on this land hope to grow wings like birds.

Compared to this, Sunny Day is still more special.

And God, you also like Sunny Day, I think you should like this name more.

By the way, let me tell you.

I live in the Fengshen Temple in Wacheng, where I serve you, but you don’t live here. Just as you said, there are a lot of your servants here in the human world, not just in Wacheng. I heard that you have more servants in other cities, and there are countless people serving you, calling your name, praising your greatness and bowing to you.

But please forgive my blasphemy and offense again. It is not a happy thing to be your servant here. I think it must be because there is only your statue here, and those people have never seen you. You probably haven't even heard of this place.

She used to be a member of Fengshenyuan. I thought this was her home and envied her for having such a big house.

Later I learned that the people living in Fengshenyuan were all orphans, and the widows of those big families, the children who lost their inheritance rights, and the abandoned people would all be stuffed here, saying that they were doing penance here and confessing to you at the same time.

They built a high wall here to make it like a big prison.

Oh my God, I really don't want to use such a word, but this place does give me this feeling.

When I first came here, I was worried and scared every day.

I was afraid that someone would find out that I was not a human, that I was not her, but recently it has not been like this. It seems that no one here cares who she is.

My daily job is to get up and pray to your stone statue, then fetch water, dry fruits, grind flour, chop wood, and then pray to your statue again, and finally rest.

Although the situation is somewhat different from what I imagined.

However, I am still very happy to be a human being and live in a human city.

I replaced her, I will play her, and try to live well in this world with expectation.

From a human perspective and identity.

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The third letter.

Written to the great god Helfas.

Maybe you will find me annoying, but I wrote to you again after a year.

I have no friends and don’t know who to tell.

Of course, I am not talking to the great you as a friend. This is not something I can do. Then you can regard this as a believer’s prayer!

Recently, I often think of the happy time when I just had human wisdom, and the picture of walking leisurely in your kingdom. At that time, I was eager to become a human being, and wanted to experience all kinds of things that only talents can experience like a human being, so I hurried to the world.

But for some reason, I will no longer be as leisurely as I was in the mansion of the gods, nor will I run wildly in the drizzle as happily as before. My expression is more and more like her.

I didn't understand why she was so unhappy as a person. She was a person born with wisdom. I was extremely eager and even jealous of her existence.

But recently I suddenly understood her a little. It seems that people are not only happy but also have many other things.

Today.

I stood at the foot of the wall with a bucket and looked at the sky outside the wall.

Suddenly, a voice came from behind.

"Fly!"

"You can fly, why don't you fly out?"

I turned around and saw her.

She stood under a fir tree, wearing a simple long skirt and a waterfall-like hair, looking at me quietly.

I was about to say something, and blood suddenly flowed out of her eyes and mouth, and then gradually stained her body, just like she fell on the stone road that day.

She seemed very angry and kept roaring at me.

"Why don't you fly? Fly far, fly high."

"Can't you fly?"

When I woke up, I found that everyone was looking at me in fear. It turned out that no one could see her just now. They only saw myself shouting continuously, as if I was crazy.

This is not the first time I have seen this illusion. Since I replaced her, I often feel this illusion.

Recently, this illusion has become more and more frequent. I often can't tell who I am.

I think maybe I hesitated on the day when the job transfer ceremony started. At that time, I came under the pillar, but I didn't know which name to engrave on it.

Lando is good, Qingtian is also good, I can choose to be them.

They all have names and identities, unlike me who is just a weird person without a name and presence.

I want to be Qingtian, because she is really the person I want to be, and her appearance is my favorite, but I remember that you told me to call me Lando, and I wonder if I should choose the name Lando.

I hesitated.

Just that moment of hesitation, I lost the opportunity to engrave my name.

The pillar must have sensed my greed and lack of determination. I wanted everything, but I didn't know what I really wanted.

Now, I am like a leaf floating in the wind and rain, not knowing where to fall.

God, what should I do?

She asked me to leave here, but as long as I fly out, I will not be her.

I don't want to be a weirdo floating in the sky and wind and rain. I want more than just a human appearance and body. I also want an identity and everything that belongs to a human.

If I leave here, where will I belong?

When I write this letter to you, I am sitting under the cedar tree by the wall. I don't know why, the wall that I once thought was short has become unreachable at this moment.

By the way, let me tell you something happy.

Recently, I found that I can predict the weather very accurately.

When I say it will blow, it will blow.

When it will rain, it will rain.

This feeling seems to be engraved in my instinct. I look at the sky every day to predict the changes in the celestial phenomena. This may be a small pleasure for me here.

Unfortunately, this ability cannot be used in your place.

Because your place is full of clouds every day, and it is always quiet and peaceful.

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The fourth letter.

God Helfas, it has been seven years since I left your Cloud Sea God's Residence.

I left the Fengshen Temple in Wacheng, not because I mustered up the courage to escape, but because I grew up.

Although my appearance is forever frozen at the moment when I just saw her, in the human world, I have indeed grown into an adult. People always grow up, so they can't stay in one place forever.

I didn't fly away with her as she expected, but after leaving Fengshen Temple, I did see fewer terrible illusions. Perhaps a part of her has merged with me, or it may be that she no longer blames me.

Now, I live with my ability to predict the weather and work as a weather fortune teller in Wacheng.

The rumor that I could predict the weather gradually spread in the city, and many people would come to me to help predict the weather.

When will it be a bright sunny day, when will it drizzle, and when will it rain heavily.

In this way.

They can prepare when to go out, know when to gather, when to rush to harvest or let the caravan travel.

God!

I have grown up and learned to think about many things.

Last time, I wrote to you that I had no friends.

You may wonder, didn’t I say in the last letter that I have become friends with the sunny day?

You may think that because I have become the sunny day, we are no longer friends.

But it is not like that.

It was not until I became her that I realized that I had never been her friend. She just wanted to use my power to fly out of this city and leave here to go far away.

But I don’t blame her, because I am her now, I can understand everything about her, her sadness and sorrow, her loneliness and pain.

I understand it too.

No one will be friends with a weirdo.

During this period of time, I gradually understood why she jumped down. I clearly gave her a choice and hope, but pushed her back into the abyss.

I finally understood that giving others a choice is a responsibility. I gave her a choice and hope as a joke, but I didn't understand the weight of this responsibility. I pushed her fate to the other side without knowing it.

Recently, I often think of what you said to me before.

A long time ago, I asked you for a name, but you didn't give it to me.

At that time, I thought to myself, why don't you even want to give me a name? You are a great god, you own the whole world, but you are so stingy.

Because I didn't understand at that time how heavy it was to give a name and a choice.

Even higher than the mountains and sinking deeper than the sea.

Even as a god, you know how awe-inspiring fate is, and you know not to easily interfere with the fate and choices of others.

Finally, you gave me freedom.

I am not more generous than you, the god. I am just a guy who doesn't know the height of the sky and the depth of the earth. I gave Qingtian a choice, but I didn't take the responsibility of giving her the choice.

I was really mean, and even took everything from her.

Perhaps this is why she has always appeared in my hallucinations with a terrible face. She must be cursing me, living in my blood and body, and following me forever.

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The fifth letter.

God Helfas, I salute you again.

In fact, I pray in front of your statue every day now, just like those people in the temple that I thought was meaningless before. I thought at that time why should I pray to a stone statue when you were not there.

Now I finally understand why, I have too many things to tell you, but I can't write everything to you.

Because you are so busy, even if you can't hear, we are satisfied just praying to your statue.

Please forgive me for bothering you again, because I am really too sad at this moment.

Today, I fled from Wa.

I lost everything and was so embarrassed.

Qingtian's family came to Wacheng and found me. More importantly, someone in their family found out that I was not her because I had a strange smell.

I had to leave Wacheng. The people in the city called me a monster, including many people who used to be familiar with me, which made me very sad.

They cursed at me, drove and chased me with weapons, and everyone was afraid of me and even wanted to kill me.

And just yesterday, I was still Qingtian.

They all greeted me with a smile.

I finally understood that I could never really become her no matter what.

When I left, Wacheng was still raining, soaking my clothes and hair. The rain was wet. I used to like this feeling very much. I would happily let the rain wet myself, and then cheer like a bird.

But now, I don't know how to run happily in the rain.

I squatted on the ground in the rain and covered my face and cried, which was even sadder than the sunny day at the beginning, because the rainy day that I once loved so much, I can no longer have it.

At this time, I don't know why I thought of you.

I miss the warm sunshine coming in through your window, and the way you sit quietly at your desk.

Quiet and peaceful, without sadness or joy.

You don't care what I look like, whether I am beautiful or ugly, you look at me humbly and kindly.

You never care whether I am a freak or a person, in your eyes I am who I am, regardless of my name or identity.

Even if what I said was so ignorant and presumptuous, and even many times it could be called blasphemy, you never cared about my ignorance and offense, and answered my innocent questions in a soft voice.

I miss the thousands of miles of clouds outside the window.

I suddenly began to long for sunny days.

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The sixth letter.

It's been sixteen years, are you still in the shrine on the top of the sea of ​​clouds?

I left the city where I live again, this is several times.

I have been to the snail country and rode the endless snail car.

I have been to the Cocoon Forest, where I learned to sew clothes. The beautiful headscarf on my head now is made by me.

I have been to the Umbrella Kingdom and found an umbrella that can really let me fall from the sky. If I had this umbrella, could I have taken her away with me?

Will we become real good friends, and she will no longer resent me, but become my closest friend and partner.

Probably not, for her I am just a filthy monster.

I can't stay in any place for too long. I have never grown up or grown old. No one thinks I am a person, and the legends about me have long been spread in various countries and cities.

An immortal monster who occupies someone else's body walks on this land, and the places that can accommodate me are gradually becoming scarce.

I don't know where I should go.

I just want to be a person, but it is so difficult.

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The seventh letter.

God, I have completed part of your task well today.

I have found another part of the power of the sky path, and finally I can write to you without bothering you.

This afternoon.

I saw a primitive bird flying over the jungle, and suddenly it started to rain, so the primitive bird could only fall to the ground and walk awkwardly.

I looked at it for a long time, and I didn't even know why I kept looking at it like that, maybe because I thought we were very similar.

Finally, it actually walked in front of me and stared at me blankly.

I reached out and touched it, and its body actually merged with mine, as if we were originally one.

I mastered the energy of life and turned into a snow-white bird.

I no longer have to worry about turning into clouds and rising into the sky and having difficulty coming down from the sky. I can fly freely in the sky.

I flew towards the sky, hovering in the sea of ​​clouds, and the sky became clear.

The sun shone down from the top of my head and fell on my wings and body.

I felt it for the first time.

Even if I wasn't a human being, I would still be so happy.

Maybe I was wrong from the beginning. I wanted a name, a human body, a hometown, and many, many things.

But what I wanted was the very first moment when you opened the window.

When the sunlight shines on me from the window, it is my happiest time.

I don't need any human body, I don't need any special name, and I already have a spiritual homeland.

Window, light, hot warmth.

That is my happiness.

Of course, it would be better if you could sit by the window. You don't have to look at me, just quietly busy is enough.

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The last letter.

I have flown to many places, I even went to the kingdom of clouds, where your stories are circulating.

The illusions I see are getting more and more serious, and I can't tell who I am anymore. Sometimes I will become a sunny day and live in the city, and sometimes I will become a bird and fall in the forest, but recently I have become more and more like a bird.

Because the appearance of a bird can make me feel more happy, I feel very peaceful, especially when flying under the sunny sky.

By the way, what do I want to say?

I remembered.

Great God, I didn't know how to choose at that time. I didn't know what I wanted at all.

If I could choose again, you like sunny days, and I turned into a sunny bird.

If one day you walk in the world and see a white bird hovering in the sky, dispersing the dark clouds above your head, it must be me.

This may be my last letter, I want it.

Hey, who am I?

You should write your name!

By the way, I don't have a name.

What did I want to say just now?

Come to think of it, why did I forget it again, sunny day, what's wrong with you?

Is sunny day my name? No, I am a bird, who am I?

I am a sunny bird.

It doesn't matter.

What matters is, thank you.

The great god who lives high in the sea of ​​clouds in my memory, thank you for giving me wisdom, thank you for giving me the ability to feel happiness.

Finally, at the end.

Thank you.

Opened the window for me.

Let the sun shine on me, a monster who is hated, cursed, filthy and lonely.

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On the top of the sea of ​​clouds.

The mansion of the gods.

It took Helfas more than 20 years to build the civilization machine in the kingdom of the gods, but he didn't have much self-awareness.

Helfas returned to his study and pushed open the window to let the light in.

He had just finished reading the first letter, and didn't expect that there were so many letters sent to him.

He sat in the chair as usual, quietly reading the letters written to him one by one.

On the other side.

As the window was opened, the barrier of the god's residence on the sea of ​​clouds was also opened, announcing the return of the gods.

The sun shone through the sea of ​​clouds and fell to the world.

The light was like a pillar.

In the world, a bird's crisp cry penetrated the sea of ​​clouds, and soon a figure penetrated the layers of clouds and went up, following the towering cliffs to the top.

It was a white bird.

The color of a sunny day.

It hesitated for a moment and did not engrave its name on the pillar, so it gradually fell into the conflict and confusion between wisdom and life, and finally forgot most things.

However, it still remembered this place.

It remembered the vast sea of ​​clouds here, and also remembered the residence of the gods on this sea of ​​clouds.

It flew to the windowsill and looked at the person sitting at the desk reading the letter.

Outside the window, there were thousands of miles of clouds and light, and it was quiet and peaceful.