Chapter 1843: 1 Wishes to Die

"What did you say!"

Lin Yi's body felt as if he had been electrocuted. The hairs all over his body exploded. Cold sweat soaked the back of his clothes in an instant, making his body cold.

"I didn't know about this until I got to the hospital." Qiu Yuluo said:

"I heard that on the day your body was bid farewell, she quietly returned to the car, took two bottles of sleeping pills and committed suicide."

"Suicide..."

Lin Yi's eyes were dull and his body was shaking. All that flashed through his mind were images of Li Chuhan.

That woman who doesn't like to talk but is gentle at heart...

A man alone, in the dark with heavy snowfall...

Lin Yi felt so distressed, as if he was being held tightly by a pair of big hands, and even breathing became difficult.

"Ahem, what are you doing!"

Ning Che was startled when she saw Lin Yi walking to the window and jumping down regardless.

It was discovered that he had gone down to the first floor with the help of the air-conditioned platform outside.

Ning Che didn't know what happened, but was afraid that something else beyond his control would happen, so he followed Lin Yi and jumped out of the window.

"Wait for me!"

Ning Che chased after him and sat on the passenger seat just as Lin Yi was about to start the car.

Pressing the accelerator, Lin Yi turned the power to maximum and drove the car out of the Zhongwei Brigade.

"What happened? Tell me quickly." Ning Che asked nervously.

"Li Chuhan committed suicide."

"Li Chuhan?"

Ning Che still had some impression of this woman.

She knew this person a long time ago and knew that she was related to Lin Yi and that he was a very powerful cardiac surgeon.

In addition, on the night of Lin Yi's accident, after she came over, she fainted immediately when she saw Lin Yi.

To have such huge mood swings, the relationship between them must be extraordinary.

And she actually chose this time to commit suicide. Her feelings for Lin Yi were beyond shame.

Lin Yi drove the car very fast, and drove to Union Medical College Hospital in more than half an hour.

In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, Ning Che asked Lin Yi to put on a mask and sunglasses before getting off the bus and went straight to the 22nd floor of the third inpatient department.

According to Li Chuhan's identity and Miao Guofeng's connections, Li Chuhan is not qualified to live here.

But because she had an unusual relationship with Lin Yi, the hospital arranged for her to be here.

When they came out of the elevator, they saw Qiu Yuluo standing at the door.

"how's it going!"

"The person is inside. He has been unconscious for several days. His condition is not very good." Qiu Yuluo said pitifully, "Let's go in and take a look."

Pushing open the emergency room door, Lin Yi rushed in without even changing his clothes.

"Ahem, stop, what do you think this is?"

The nurse in the emergency room stopped.

"do not move!"

Ning Che showed his ID and said, "Military action, don't worry about this, just go out."

Seeing the certificate, the little nurse was a little scared. She had never seen such a battle before, so she hurriedly walked out.

"You stay here and watch while I go handle the hospital affairs so that no one comes to disturb you." Qiu Yuluo said in a low voice.

"good."

Because the emergency room on the 22nd floor was originally prepared for special leaders and not many people were qualified to use it, there was only one patient here, Li Chuhan, and the person accompanying him was Qiao Xin.

"Who are you……"

Seeing a stranger coming into the rescue room, and not yet wearing an isolation suit, Qiao Xin stood up and asked carefully.

Over the course of a few days, Qiao Xin also lost weight, with thick dark circles under her eyes and red bloodshot eyes.

After enduring it for so many days, she was still holding on.

After passing Qiao Xin, Lin Yi stood in front of the window and saw Li Chuhan lying on the bed, receiving infusion and oxygen.

Tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.

Before this, Lin Yi felt that the person he was most sorry for was Ji Qingyan.

But at this moment, he realized that the person he felt most sorry for was Li Chuhan.

Although he is gone, Ji Qingyan and Liang Ruoxu still have their parents and families.

There was someone who could support them, but Li Chuhan didn't. She had nothing but herself.

He closed his eyes tightly, tears streaming down his face. He could think of Li Chuhan's despair.

I could have endured the darkness if I had never seen the sun.

In the past, Li Chuhan also lived a simple and fulfilling life without Lin Yi.

After meeting Lin Yi, her life turned upside down, and her silent heart became colorful.

It was bright that day, and Lin Yi supported all her desires and fantasies.

But with Lin Yi's death, all the good things she had longed for, fantasized about, and expected were all shattered at that moment.

She couldn't hold on anymore, and neither could her shattered spiritual world.

He chose to end his life in this way.

Whether it is the road ahead or the bridge of despair, I will walk with you.

Gently, Lin Yi stretched out his trembling hand and touched Li Chuhan's face.

Her frown and smile reappeared in Lin Yi's mind again.

Tears soaked the mask and fell on the sheets.

At this moment, a middle-aged man in his fifties walked in from outside, with Qiu Yuluo and Ning Che following him.

"This is Director Ma Xiaoyang of Xiehe. He is in charge of Director Li's affairs." Qiu Yuluo introduced.

"How is the situation now?" Lin Yi asked in a low voice, holding back tears.

"The situation is not very good. We can only try our best. It is very likely that..."

Ma Xiaoyang did not continue, believing that the other party would understand.

"The two bottles of sleeping pills are indeed not small, but they were delivered in a timely manner. With Concorde's level, it shouldn't be so difficult."

"Normally speaking, the patient's current condition should improve, but Director Li's situation is a bit strange. Not only does it not improve, but it worsens rapidly. Such clinical cases are not common."

"According to your experience, there may be some reasons."

"Why……"

Ma Xiaoyang sighed, looked at Li Chuhan on the hospital bed, and said sadly:

"Actually, I have seen such a clinical case before, and it was also a female. The situation was similar to Director Li's. When she was sent to the hospital, based on the level of our Union Medical College, there was a 90% certainty that she could be saved, but she still died in the end. ”

Ma Xiaoyang paused and sighed:

"Finally, we analyzed it and found that the reason for this result may be that the patient gave up on her own and was begging to die."

"Want to die?" Ning Che muttered.

"Actually, as long as a person is not brain dead, then the brain is conscious, but it cannot be expressed. Although Director Li is in a coma, her subconscious is still working, always reminding her to give up treatment." Ma Xiaoyang lamented:

"In other words, it was herself who caused this situation. She gave up her desire to survive. We really can't save a person who wants to die."

"Wish to die!"

Ma Xiaoyang's words made Lin Yi's heart skip a beat, making him feel unspeakably uncomfortable.

He looked at Li Chuhan silently, with a moved expression.

Ning Che, who was on the side, felt indescribably uncomfortable.

She sounded a line from the movie.

She is not the only one in Lin Yi's life, but there is only Lin Yi in her life.

Lin Yi may be everything to this woman, everything, her sun, moon and stars.

Ending her life in this way is the best destination for her.

Qiu Yuluo patted Ma Xiaoyang on the shoulder.

That’s enough. There’s no need to say more about what happens next.

After talking about the patient's condition, Ma Xiaoyang knew that nothing would happen to him, so he left the ward.

At the same time, Qiu Yuluo and Ning Che also left.

At this time, only Lin Yi, Li Chuhan and Qiao Xin were left in the rescue room.

Looking at the person in front of her who was blocking her tightly, Qiao Xin felt very familiar.

His speaking voice was exactly the same as Brother Lin's.

Testing, Qiao Xin turned her head to confirm Lin Yi's identity and see if he was Lin Yi.

Lin Yi did not do anything else but took off his mask and sunglasses.

"Brother Lin!"

Qiao Xin screamed and sat down on the ground in fright.

"Calm down, I'm not dead." Lin Yi said:

"What happened before was all a misunderstanding."

"But the hospital has already decided that you..."

"My condition at that time was almost like a real death. I recovered just before being sent for cremation."

Lin Yi's voice was calm and without any waves. When he spoke, he kept his eyes on Li Chuhan.

His thoughts were all focused on Li Chuhan, and he had no time to care about other people and things.

After a while, Qiao Xin stood up, hugged Lin Yi and cried loudly. Her crying could be heard in the entire ward.

"Brother Lin, Sister Li is like this, what should we do?"

She no longer wanted to know how Lin Yi survived.

She just wanted to know if Li Chuhan could survive.

Lin Yi patted her shoulder and said quietly:

"It's okay. I've been here for the past few days. Thank you for your hard work. I'll ask someone outside to help you arrange a place and take a rest. You can't keep up the consumption like this."

"But Sister Li is like this, and I have no intention of resting."

"It'll be fine as long as I'm here. She won't die. Just go back and wait for news from me."

"Is it really okay?"

Hearing Lin Yi's words, Qiao Xin's eyes bloomed with an unprecedented look.

In her eyes, Lin Yi was an omnipotent being. If he said such words, there would be no problem.

Lin Yi patted her shoulder again.

"Go ahead, it'll be fine."

"Then I'll go back first and come back later."

"Go back and have a good sleep, eat something and come back."

"I know, Brother Lin."

Qiao Xin left, leaving only Lin Yi and Li Chuhan in the ward.

Lin Yi sat next to her and held her hand tightly.

"Why are you so stupid?" Lin Yi said softly:

"Even if I die, you have to live well. It's not worth doing such a stupid thing for someone like me."

In this way, Lin Yi took the trouble to say this.

Although Li Chuhan didn't respond, he still wanted to express his feelings to the woman on the bed.

Hope she can hear it.

Because she didn't know whether Li Chuhan would wake up, she could only pray in her heart, hoping that she would be fine.

"Let me sing you a song. You don't have to speak. Just listen to me singing."

"I'm most afraid of the sudden silence in the air,

What I fear most is my friends’ sudden concern.

I'm most afraid of memories suddenly rolling over,

The cramping pain won't subside,

I'm most afraid of hearing news from you suddenly,

I miss if there was a sound,

I don’t want it to be a sad cry

Now that things have happened, I finally let myself belong to myself. I can’t deceive myself except tears.

Suddenly I miss you,

where will you be,

Happiness or grievance in life,

Suddenly I miss you,

sudden sharp memories,

Suddenly blurry eyes,

We are like the most beautiful song,

turned into two sad movies,

Why you,

Take me through the most unforgettable trip,

Then leave the most painful souvenir,

We are so sweet and beautiful,

So believe it,

A time that was so crazy and so passionate,

why we,

We still have to run towards our own happiness,

grow old with regret,

Suddenly I miss you,

where will you be,

Happiness or grievance in life,

Suddenly I miss you,

sudden sharp memories,

Suddenly blurry eyes..."

Lin Yi grabbed her hand and stroked it gently.

"I spend most of my time and energy on other people and other things. I have never spent much time on you, but why did you end up like this? , How can I treat you this way?"

Lin Yi tried hard to control his tears, but to no avail.

Tears wet the white sheets, as if telling the story of the two of them.

"I didn't have time to spend with you before, but you always had no regrets and told me not to waste my time on you, but I regretted it. Now I give you all my time and let me spend more time with you. Please give me more." I once..."

"call……"

Lin Yi wiped away his tears, "Okay, let's not talk about those sad things. Let me sing you another song. I never had the chance to sing to you before. I hope you can hear it."

"What do you mean, even though I know you're not here, I still ask,

Air cannot speak for you.

Habits are like stubborn scars that never heal

Thoughts tear apart the soul,

Take photos so you can save and wash one more book,

Sweater, I also prepare an extra layer for you,

However, your body temperature comforts you when you are alone

How can I save an extra portion for you?

I don't want you to be alone, floating in a sea of ​​people

I don’t want you to walk alone in the wind and rain,

I don’t want you to bear the cruelty of this world alone,

I don’t want tears to accompany you to eternity…”

Lin Yi's voice was endless. Although Li Chuhan couldn't hear anything, he kept singing. She didn't know what the meaning of this was.

I just want to talk to her more, because I owe her so much.

In the past, she didn't want anything. As long as she could see her occasionally and send her a few messages, it would be a great satisfaction.

But precisely, this is the biggest debt I owe her.

In those days, Lin Yi really thought that Li Chuhan had an important enough position in his heart, but he just didn't give her enough time.

But it wasn't until now that he really discovered it.

What he failed to give her was not enough time and companionship, but enough love.

Life is always like this. If you are not careful, you will fall into a cliché trap. Only after you lose something do you know how to cherish it.

But life is like this.

Some regrets can only be experienced by those who missed them.

Some misses can only be regretted by those who have experienced them.