Chapter 246 245 Don't Become Someone Like Me
Chapter 246 245. Don’t become someone like me
When did you start to realize that you couldn’t be the person you dreamed of being as a child?
When did you start to forget your most ardent dream and choose to change your life?
Clarence looked at the scattered dolls hanging on the magic circle on the dome of the library, his eyes wandering, and his wrinkled face twitched slightly, as if he recalled something beautiful.
"In my time, magic was not as diverse as it is now, but magicians were already masters."
"I was still young at that time. I took my mother's hand and went to the Chamber of Commerce Street to sell grain. There was a big bag full of grain..." Clorance gestured in a circle, his dim eyes shone slightly, and this lifeless old man actually had something. A little angry.
"My mother told me that if I could sell it at a good price, I could save some money and pave the way for me to join the city lord's guard in the future... However, she was disappointed. I watched the businessman's white and fat hands rummaging around in the bag. , twisting the grain that we were afraid to eat, kneading it with his fingertips, and then knocked it to the ground with disdain and gave a heartbreakingly low price. When my mother asked why, the merchant only gave one reason, "Goods." not good'."
"Mother has no choice. The chamber of commerce behind the merchants monopolizes the price of food in the city-state. If they don't sell them, they will only be slaughtered even more severely the next time they come... I asked her why the group of slaves next to her wouldn't be priced down. She said that was The servants of the magician's family and merchants will not attack those who have status."
For some reason, Lu Yu remembered the history he had read in the book in the past. He did not speak and listened quietly with Sera.
"Since then, I have had a simple dream. When I become a magician with status, I will prevent the poor people in my city from being arbitrarily oppressed."
Lu Yu didn't want to hit Clorons, but in reality, he obviously couldn't do this.
"As you think, I failed to do it...becoming a magician is not enough. I am not strong enough to scare the surrounding city-states. I am not strong enough to make them listen to my ideas. After all, merchants can always run away. They don't The countryside, as long as it is profitable, can flock to it, so from then on, I longed for more power."
Sera sighed: "You haven't been able to become the top sixth-level magician, right?"
Clarence smiled bitterly, but no longer wanted to explain why he failed to realize his dream.
"How old were you then?" Lu Yu asked.
"Thirty exactly."
"Given the magic environment at that time, you were a genius." Sera lamented.
"I'm not as good as you. No matter the little one lying over there, Lu Yu who can quickly recover his magic power next to you, or you, they are all better than me..."
Clarence continued to recall: "Since that year, I have been traveling around the vast world aimlessly. I have met many people and many things, and I have had a very happy time. I have also often interacted with the people I met. When discussing things before and after life, when talking about death, everyone will often laugh and say that as long as you are happy, you will not regret it, and having fun in time is the most important thing.”
"This freedom and ease did not last long. When I found that my hands and feet became heavy, I was no longer young. My thoughts were chaotic and lifeless. I was gloomy all day long. Like every magician who was about to die, I was afraid. , so I established reincarnation... As you said, I was afraid of death, and the fear of death made me sleepless. I can’t bear to part with it…”
"Lu Yu." Clorance suddenly named him, "This is the decay of the soul..."
As Clarence's strength was fading, Sera sighed and took over.
"A person has the most possibilities at the moment he is born into the world. He can have countless futures, but as time goes by, he will gradually lose those possibilities. As he moves closer to death, those precious things in him will remain with him. The beauty is also annihilated with time.”
"Magicians have given so many meanings to the decay of the soul. It not only represents death but also because magicians fear it more than anyone else... They long for eternal life, but the body can be replaced by puppet making. How to repair the decaying soul? "
"The pedestrian rescued the villagers who were injured by the animal trap, but was falsely accused by the other party of placing the animal trap. The villagers did not go to the real 'criminal' but relied on good people."
"Good intentions cannot be exchanged for good intentions."
"It was learned that the child who had just come to work in the mansion was about to be kicked out by the unscrupulous housekeeper. The experienced servant told the child to be careful about the housekeeper's work and prepare for it in advance. However, the child snitched to the housekeeper, and he was criticized for being picky."
"Kindness is exchanged for ruthless betrayal."
"As a member of the knights, he devoted himself to protecting the city, but he was scolded and scolded for failing to recognize that one of them was the son of a noble lord who was directly affiliated with him when he was trying to stop a street fight."
"Being cautious about your work and adhering to principles is considered to be causing trouble to everyone."
"The more you see, the colder your heart becomes. Everything you see is just a cycle of what has happened before and is happening again now. Beautiful things are always being shattered, but cannot be cherished. Everything is imprinted on In your mind, your soul is decaying, becoming numb, becoming indifferent.”
Claurens lowered his head and smiled bitterly: "A young magician once told me that he envied me because I was a sixth-level magician with an extremely strong heart and would not be shaken by anything... In fact, I was just numb. The strength in their eyes is nothing more than a protective mechanism generated by the accumulation of countless pains, and a sign that the soul has decayed to the extreme and has become lifeless."
Lu Yu asked: "If so, how did the immortals escape decay? They have more time to see more things, and decay should be very serious."
Sera asked back: "What has Huogu been doing all these years?"
"Sleeping." Lu Yu answered immediately, and then reacted, "Is this also escaping decay..."
"Yes, the fog demon is one of his plans to escape decay. In the endless dream, there is no boundary between reality and illusion, and the decay of the body and soul can be stabilized. This is his wisdom."
"Some immortals rely on their desire for knowledge to resist decay, while others rely on their firm will to maintain their original intentions, and some..."
Claurens coughed violently and interrupted Sera's words.
Another soul fragment left Clorens' body and turned into countless light particles.
"I don't have much time left."
Clorens coughed up blood and said weakly: "You are here for Vanessa and Sayer, right... Are you their friends?"
"No... Actually Sayer and Vanessa have disappeared for more than 500 years. To be precise, we are the people who have indirectly received his favor." Lu Yu hurriedly replied.
"Favor?" Clorens laughed hoarsely, "It's indeed like their style, but he didn't give me this favor."
"You seem to have left the reincarnation and met them in the outside world."
"Yes, that was the beginning of the reincarnation when the soul was split. Just gathered together, the fragments representing all the good memories of my youth left the Yueke barrier and met them in a fishing village."
"Vanessa was fishing, but she only caught a siren after fishing for an afternoon. The siren kept pulling her fishing rod, hoping to be pulled up by her, and then pestered Vanessa like a child for dried fruits. Sayer was practicing magic on the side, completely ignoring Vanessa who needed to fish quietly... It's hard to imagine that these two people are actually lovers."
"Feeling their strength, I walked up to compete, but was rejected by Sayer. He told me to go home quickly..."
Sera thought: "See through at a glance You are a puppet, and a fragment of consciousness?"
"Yes, but I didn't realize it at the time. The imperfect me inherited the momentum of my youth, and was eager to learn from them, so I unknowingly agreed to let them enter the Moon Carving Boundary."
"At that time, the Moon Carving Boundary had been running steadily for more than a hundred years, and the fragments were well-behaved. Everything was normal at the beginning of the reincarnation. Therefore, their arrival did not cause any changes in Dusk City, but only left information about their visit. These are the two puppets you saw..."
"Sayer kept his promise and let me learn from Vanessa... My fragments and puppets could not resist the giant butterfly she threw out. In front of Vanessa, the puppet master, I, who had the advantage of the magic power of the Moon Carving Boundary for more than a hundred years, was like a joke... I still don't know what level of magicians they are to be so terrifying."
Lu Yu solved this doubt for him.
"According to the notes I found, during this period, Vanessa seemed to be at level eight, and Sayer was at level nine."
Clorence trembled: "Nine... Ninth level."
That was a concept that people in the highest level of level six could not imagine at all.
Sera said: "When you entered the Moonlight Boundary, the magic power of the outside world began to advance, and when you saw them, the advancement was almost over. You are in the Moonlight Boundary and enjoy a better environment than the outside world, have better perception, and can conceive magic that is impossible to use in the outside world. These are your advantages, but they are geniuses who have surpassed an era. To this day, no new ninth-level has appeared in any continent as far as we know. Sayer Lucamia, in front of him, we are not geniuses, and you are lucky enough to meet the two strongest people of that era. I envy you."
In fact, there is one thing Sera didn't say. The magic used by Clorens was explosive, and the conception, use, and perception were beyond imagination. Perhaps it was the power of the ninth level. In other words, if he could have a young and highly compatible body, he would be the strongest of this era.
"Didn't they leave anything behind?" Lu Yu was curious about the follow-up of the exchange.
"After watching Twilight City, Sayer praised it as 'exquisite workmanship and beyond the times', and Vanessa left some words when she left."
"What words?"
"One day, reincarnation will make me long for death." Clorens laughed, "I didn't understand it at all at that time, but now I understand... This may be the difference between me and her. We are both puppeteers, why can she see things that I can't see? Is this the difference in talent?"
At the end of his life, Clorens knew the cruel reality, and tears flowed.
Lu Yu couldn't tell Clorens that Vanessa was not a real puppeteer, and making puppets was just a matter of convenience, but even such casual puppets were terrifying.
The magic-breaking crystal giant can counter magicians and use magic to destroy warriors, and the two powers can be converted into each other.
Butterfly, the super-strong magic beam is estimated to leave countless scars on the earth in its heyday.
And these two puppets were left at home by Vanessa to look after the house.
Lu Yu really couldn't imagine what Vanessa and Sayer had experienced five hundred years ago, which led to their disappearance and possible death together.
"Maybe I can ask Segro after this is over?" Lu Yu thought.
The soul fragments of the dragon man and the demon-breaking knight left their bodies, and Clorens was visibly depressed, and his limbs could no longer be controlled.
He looked at Sera and said weakly: "Dusk City belongs to you, and the skills you have mastered are in the diary..."
"Book of Dusk!" Clorens shouted out his greatest masterpiece as a puppet master with all his strength.
The Book of Dusk flashed in the formation.
"All the puppet maps are in it. The traps and traps of Twilight City are arranged in great detail... Now, I have untied the connection between him and me..."
"I know I am stained with sin, and I also know that repentance is not enough to redeem my decaying soul... But I can at least make up for it. In the underground secret room of Twilight City, there are treasures that I have hoarded over the years. As time goes by, many of them may be worthless, but there are always things worth selling..."
"Sera... Lu Yu... Help me build a courtyard in Kolai to support the widows and orphans, and don't use my name... Give it a nice, hopeful name, so that children can remember their original dreams, so that the elderly don't have to greet their own death in the cold wind, and leave this world decently... Don't forget the best things step by step in decay..."
Clorence looked directly at Lu Yu, and a light ignited in his dim eyes. He warned with hope but pain.
"Level 3, just starting out, how great... You still have a long time to go, and there are good partners around you..."
"Lu Yu, don't become like me... Never..."
Clorence stood up with difficulty, refused the support of Lu Yu and Sera, and staggered to the desk in the center of the library step by step.
He looked around at the books, and scenes of memories flashed through his mind.
"It's time to welcome the night."
Murmuring in a low voice, resisting decay in reincarnation, perhaps the only existing ninth-level puppet master in the world has reached the end of his life.
The long dusk sank under the sea, and the long night invaded his thoughts.
Holding the most beautiful dream of childhood, as a person, Clorence ushered in his own death.