Chapter 251 What Is Loneliness

Sending Yan Wuyue all the way back to her apartment, it was still the same one she had visited before.

After Yan Wuyue came out, she came back to renovate. The door that was broken by Gongsun Jiu before was repaired, and the house was also cleaned. The door was very tidy, but it was still the same as before, so simple and plain that it didn't look like a woman's residence.

Unlike Yin Xiaoru, who is pink and fragrant everywhere.

On the contrary, the guards in the villa area watched Deputy Marshal Yan bring a man into the house in the middle of the night, all with wonderful expressions.

Green, marshal green!

Yan Wuyue turned a blind eye and opened the door: "Come in and sit down."

It seems that there is no difference at all in the usual hospitality.

Xia Guixuan was not pretentious, and strolled in. In fact, neither of the two parties knew what to "send her home", and it was a bit like revisiting the old place.

When they arrived in the house, the two looked at each other for a while, and both remembered some small details of the past.

In fact, at that time, Xia Guixuan said a few nice words to cut his heart...Yan Wuyue once thought that he had "cut his heart".

Because at that time, she was trying to comfort her, you are a born spirit, you only need to live for yourself. In Yan Wuyue's heart at that time, it was like a clear spring flowing, it was really tempting.

Of course I now know that it is still God the Father habitually caring about the subordinate ethnic groups, so what is the topping.

The two looked at each other and couldn't help laughing, and there was a strange feeling of old lovers reunited under the moon, which was a bit ambiguous, but very natural.

Yan Wuyue no longer had the uneasy admiration and awe she always felt when seeing him, and Xia Guixuan no longer had that eagerness to play with fire all the time, it was the two hearts that were once in a chaotic period returned to peace together.

"Sit down." Yan Wuyue opened the freezer, took a dozen beers, and threw a bottle to him: "I haven't prepared any other ingredients here. After all, we don't have to eat like a certain fox. Only beer is habitually prepared. I usually drink some by myself. I used to invite my comrades to drink together... Later, when the god-born humans went to war, my identity was embarrassing, and gradually no one came. It was rumored that I was someone's mistress, let alone..."

Xia Guixuan heard her loneliness again.

Seeing Yan Wuyue tilting her head up and gurgling and drinking heavily, compared with the little fox leaning on the sofa with the drink in front of her chest, it is really a completely different style of painting.

But they are all beautiful.

Xia Guixuan weighed the beer in his hand, pulled off the bottle cap and took a sip, frowning slightly: "It's like horse urine, can this thing be drunk?"

"Pfft..." Yan Wuyue wiped the corners of her mouth, put the beer on the sofa, and said with a smile, "Yes, yes, it's not as good as fairy wine."

"No, this degree is too low. Your practice is so strong, no matter how you drink it, it's like a drink. What's the point?"

"Hmm... beer can be high-grade too... low-grade drinking is mainly to refresh the atmosphere." Yan Wuyue took another big gulp, puffed her cheeks and said vaguely: "It really makes me drunk, I dare not."

Xia Guixuan was taken aback.

Yan Wuyue had a half-smile, "You must have seen the demons dancing in Donglin City. I'm so confused, are you willing to reminisce with such a woman today?"

Xia Guixuan raised his head and thought for a while: "You shouldn't be harsh."

Yan Wuyue's eyes were strange: "You really think so?"

"Yeah. I also have my moments of indulgence. People are people after all." Xia Guixuan smiled: "But it's easy for you to get drunk. If you get drunk alone and have no fun, I have me today."

Yan Wuyue said: "Didn't you do something ulterior to get me drunk?"

Xia Guixuan said casually: "If I really want to do it, you would have accompanied me, so why get drunk."

"Ha... Really..." Yan Wuyue squeezed the can and opened another bottle: "You don't need to be drunk, actually I'm not used to being drunk."

"Inner fear?"

"...Maybe a little bit. The main reason is that it's unnecessary. What happened to me that I need to get drunk? It was about the same before Nirvana. Isn't it sick now, why so much self-pity."

"I heard what you said just now, but I'm quite lonely."

"It's just a feeling for a while." Yan Wuyue sighed: "I'm really afraid that the marshal will say, for the sake of the overall situation, to reconcile with Zelt, then I really don't know what I am doing in this life."

"Don't worry." Xia Guixuan held up the can and touched her: "If there is a day to live in peace with Zelt, it must be after we conquer them."

"According to Jun's words." Two soda cans collided together, and Yan Wuyue drank it all in one gulp.

Xia Guixuan also drank the "horse urine" that he didn't like to drink with him.

Yan Wuyue turned her head to look at him for a while, then said with a smile, "You think I'm depressed, so you come here to talk with me? Endure the beer you don't like."

"Yeah." Xia Guixuan said: "A lonely traveler needs someone to talk to when the time is right. I just stepped out of an emotionless machine, so don't learn from me."

"I'm so emotional! I won't be like you."

"Ha... That's good."

Yan Wuyue said: "Could you tell me about your past? I'm not referring to the past of the distant ancestors of human beings that the little fox said, but the past of your journey through life and death."

Xia Guixuan said: "Actually, you can just find a novel about killing and resolutely cultivating immortals to upgrade and read it. The kind without a heroine, killing women and rejecting women is commonplace."

"But what about friends? Comrades."

"It's about the same." Xia Guixuan said slowly: "In the beginning, there were some partners who went on expeditions together... But some died in battles, and some died in Shouyuan. Looking back all the way, I was the only one left... Is it similar to you?"

Yan Wuyue was silent.

"You have sent away a lot of batches for hundreds of years. I have lived for thousands of years. Isn't it just that my heart has no ripples... All friends are just passers-by." Xia Guixuan said indifferently: "When you find out that everything is just a passer-by and only you are alone, it is actually a kind of great happiness. At that time, the state is very good, the mentality is also very good, proud of the world, smashing the kingdom of God, but that's all."

"So you once thought that this is the best state and there should be no entanglement?"

"That was the detachment that came out of the world, seeing everything, without any restraint or shackles." Xia Guixuan drank beer, and suddenly smiled: "Even now, I miss that state very much... Although occasionally thinking about it will make me feel uncomfortable at first."

"Because you have tasted tenderness?"

"Yes. This kind of tenderness was originally a shackle, maybe because I was too invincible in Canglongxing, and I was so comfortable that I began to fall."

Yan Wuyue stared at him, always felt that this remark seemed to be a good deal, but in the end she had no choice but to admit that he really had no opponent.

After staring for a long time, she finally sighed: "So you started changing your status on Canglong Star?"

"Strictly speaking, it started even earlier in my own fairy world." Xia Guixuan said: "The fairy world provides me with resources and teaches me exercises, which is my backing. I have learned something, and I should be rewarded... Whenever foreign enemies invade and the immortal emperor Nirvana, I, as the immortal emperor, should bear the safety of the world. At that time, I was already bound."

"So after you fulfilled your responsibilities, you abandoned your position and left, just to let go of your bondage and restore your original state of detachment?"

"Um."

"You succeeded to the throne only to fulfill your responsibilities and to take care of the safety of the whole world. You are clearly a lover... It means that responsibilities and ties have always been in your heart. Even when you pretended to be the most detached, you just hid them in your heart and never lost them. You are not that kind of person at all."

Xia Guixuan's eyes were in a trance. "Tai Kang, you are not that kind of person at all."

Yan Wuyue in front of her eyes also had some tenderness in her eyes: "Sure enough, you and I have more things in common."

Because she is also for the responsibility of the family and the country, for the people who trust her.

Otherwise, after Nirvana, why bother to fight for mankind?

"Maybe that kind of state is indeed a kind of great freedom, but since it's not suitable for you, you don't need to force it." Yan Wuyue said in a low voice: "Thinking of the days when I didn't know what to fight, but just explored the way at a loss, I think that is a kind of great loneliness."

Xia Guixuan's eyes moved, but he didn't say anything.

Yan Wuyue said softly: "I didn't feel that our hearts are so close until today."