Seven Hundred and Seventeenth Warm and Moving

Adam gradually became numb. He knew he had cancer, everything was so real, the pain of chemotherapy tormented his body all the time, the sensitivity of his bare head in the sea breeze in Seattle didn't help, he was no longer calm, no longer indifferent , No longer as if nothing happened, his world has been turned upside down, and he can no longer remain indifferent. However, he could not feel any emotion. He's trying, he's trying, and getting nothing. Kyle took advantage of his cancer to hook up with girls, he didn't feel it; mother's death-defying streak all the time, he didn't feel it; Rachel betrayed him and made out with other men, he didn't feel it; Rachel tried to sweetly excuse herself , Kyle condemned with indignation, the two quarreled, and he didn't feel it. He was alone in the face of chemotherapy and cancer, walking alone and lonely in the big city, he didn't feel it; while walking the dog, a girl showed interest in him, but he didn't feel it; Kyle took him with him Going to the bar to ask a girl, chatting, drinking, rolling/sheets, he still doesn't feel it. His weight was dropping, his body was protesting, his stomach was rejecting all food...he, didn't feel it. The world of cancer and the real world have merged, and cancer is turning his life upside down, bit by bit, but he doesn't feel anything. He was trying to be angry, he was trying to be sad, he was trying to care, he was trying to be a part of the world, he was trying to reawaken his senses, he was trying to reconnect with life, and he failed. He's going through it all, but he can't feel it, it's as if... it's as if all the changes brought about by cancer just came naturally into his life. All the mixed emotions slipped through his mind little by little, he clearly knew they existed, he knew that he should be angry, he should be lonely, he should be sad, he should be lonely, he should be in pain, he should be afraid, he should be afraid, but, No. He can't feel anything. numbness. This is how he feels. Watching Adam sit quietly in the bus stop, waiting for the bus. Without Rachel's pick-up and drop-off, Kyle still has his own job, and Adam can only take the bus to and from. Tessa tasted a faint sadness. With those thin shoulders, pale lips and confused eyes, cancer has become more real than ever before, there is no ups and downs of dog blood, there is no catharsis of howling, there is no self-pity sadness, and there is no strength to force a smile, just a numbness , like a hiker in the desolate autumn, walking alone in the mountains and mountains, the difficulties and obstacles extend under the feet, but the lonely and indifferent back outlines the grandeur and grandeur of the whole world. Gently sticking out the tip of her tongue, Tessa tasted the taste of tears, but this time, her eyes were dry and there were no tears. The taste on the tip of the tongue goes deep into the heart. Catherine saw Adam on the way home and forced Adam to get in the car and escort him home. Looking at the car that looked like a garbage dump, a trace of speechlessness and disgust slipped in Adam's cold eyes. Catherine seemed to sense what Adam meant, and twitched the corners of her mouth awkwardly, "Sorry for such a mess, I'm not very good at sorting this out. Something." "I can see it." Adam's head didn't move, but his eyes were slanted. Instead of rolling his eyes, he created the effect of rolling his eyes. The disgust was overflowing, and the corners of Tessa's mouth couldn't help but turn up again. warped. "If you need me to stop, or anything, let me know," Catherine said thoughtfully, "For example, chemotherapy..." Finally, Catherine simply stated her original intention, "If you feel nauseated, just say it. I'll stop." "Okay. Thank you." Adam said hoarsely, but his neck still didn't turn, and he stared straight ahead. The carriage was quiet again, and this strange silence had an absurd sense of joy. Adam's expressionless face and Catherine's rich expressions formed a sharp contrast. "So you don't have a car?" "No, I don't even have a driver's license.

""Oh? Why? "Because... um, it's too dangerous. This is probably the fifth leading cause of death? Adam blinked, blinked again, still expressionless, "I guess it's just a little bit behind cancer." There was still no expression. With such a cute contrast, there was a burst of laughter in the entire screening room. Tessa and Hope were no exception. But after the laughter, the faint sadness and bitterness surged again, and my heart was empty. Nowhere. In a trance, Tessa seemed to empathize with Adam's numbness. "But...what about the bus? "Catherine was still surprised." Taking the bus after chemotherapy? "That sounds so sad, what about family? What about friends?" Oh, yes. Adam seemed to react at this point in hindsight. "Usually it's Rachel who comes to pick me up." But..." Adam paused for a moment, there was a trace of thought in his eyes, as if he was thinking about what this meant, but he didn't think of a reason, so he quickly said, "But we broke up . She cheated. "The fact is just stating a fact. Catherine was stunned, and while driving, she kept looking back at Adam, her face was full of worry; but Adam was still calm, which made Catherine blink, full of The first question mark, "Adam, do you want to talk? Adam pursed the corners of his mouth and raised his eyebrows lightly, "Actually, there is no need. We have just left the hospital, there is no need to turn the carriage into a clinic as well. You now give me a ride like a friend. "Yes, Adam. "Catherine couldn't stop her worrying at all, "If..." Adam's voice rose slightly, "You know what we really need to talk about is that you have garbage on the ground!" "Maybe, he still cares. Deep down, those emotions and emotions are real, but he chose to forget and ignore them. It's just that he doesn't want to talk about it now. "It doesn't make sense! I mean, you can at least put a garbage bag in the back seat. "Adam, your girlfriend betrayed you. "Catherine interjected, but then she saw Adam's turning eyes. For the first time, Adam responded and made a move. Those calm eyes made her dodge away in panic, "We are not." There is no need to talk about this! Adam noticed Catherine's panic, and when he retracted his gaze, the corners of his mouth lifted up, and the numb and stiff brows gradually softened. Catherine was a little embarrassed and a little jerky, she tried to defuse it, so the words continued. , "I just broke up with someone myself. It feels really bad. ""real? Oh sorry. "Adam didn't anticipate this development line. "No, it's fine, it's fine. Because..." Katherine suddenly stopped and stood there for a long time, "We shouldn't be talking about this. ""why? "It is inappropriate to talk to you about my personal affairs. Because if you know my personal problems, the relationship between doctor and patient is tricky. Katherine's explanation made Adam understand, but she couldn't help but add, "But I have to admit, I still check his Facebook every day to see if he's dating someone, it's really cool." Sad. As she spoke, Catherine frowned and regretted, "I shouldn't have said it, I shouldn't have said it. The smile at the corner of Adam's mouth also rose high, and he nodded vigorously, "Yes. "Awkward." We should have listened to the radio. Katherine turned on the radio and let the sound buffer the awkward atmosphere between the two of them. Adam turned his head and looked at Katherine quietly. There was not much expression on his face, but the gentleness after the laughter just remained, sparsely. Precipitating between the eyebrows, the dark brown eyes have a little bit of light, but I can't tell whether it is the refraction of the light and shadow outside the car window, or other reasons. "Stop. Adam said without warning. "What's the matter, are you not feeling well?" Catherine panicked and immediately parked the car on the side of the road. "I just..." Adam opened the door, then picked up all the garbage under his feet, "I can't bear it any longer. "Then I got out of the car with the trash in my hand and walked towards the trash can next to it. "Are you serious?" "Catherine's voice was deformed, and she panicked, and then trotted all the way to catch up with Adam, "Adam, wait, wait, you don't have to do this, that's my dinner. That brown bag is my dinner. "The whole screening room burst into laughter in an instant, Tessa hugged her stomach, watching Adam holding a large pile of garbage, and then Catherine pulled out a brown box from it, indicating that this was her dinner. , all the audience couldn't stop laughing. Then the two started to clean up Catherine's car on the side of the road. The simple conversation seemed to have no special content, but it made people feel warm, faint warmth. The eye contact, the emotional exchange between words, watching, listening, and listening, smiles climbed the corners of every audience's mouth and brows, but they didn't notice it at all. However, Adam noticed it. Emotions seem to be back , life also seems to be back again. Rachel is back in embarrassment, her career setbacks and the abandonment of the artist have left her disfigured, she hopes to get back with Adam, he tells her to get out of his house; Rachel keeps one of her paintings At Adam's house, not taken away, it was given to him in the name of it, he and Kyle smashed eggs at the painting and burned them. He joined Alan and Mickey and sat in the courtyard, enjoying leisurely enjoyment Enjoying the fairy life brought by a stick of marijuana/marijuana in the afternoon, and then complaining about his work.

He bravely rejected his mother's excessive care and said that he could be strong; he opened his heart and tried to communicate with Katherine, and the psychological consultation finally began to bear fruit; he actively accepted chemotherapy and began to fight cancer. However, all of this stopped when Mickey died. Mitch passed away, a cancer patient passed away, his chemo patient passed away. TV News is reporting, “It is speculated that Mount Moa, in the Savai’i Heights, erupted early this morning, spewing a black plume of dust and smoke four miles high. Initial reports said the volcano’s activity was waning. But now, according to the analysis of our experts, its activity is actually strengthening." Adam sat on the spot, watching the news, and was stunned. () "Daxigu" only represents the views of the author Qiqijiad Maomao. If you find that its content is in violation of national laws, please delete it. The position is only committed to providing a healthy and green reading platform.

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