One Thousand Four Hundred and Twenty-Five Wave Goodbye
"you……"
"you……"
"You speak first."
"You speak first."
"I……"
"I……"
The two people spoke at the same time but paused at the same time, and at the same time stunned and laughed at the same time. The synchronized gesture perfectly interprets the daily action of "looking in the mirror". It was quiet, just staring at each other quietly, no one spoke, but no one left.
The pain of the splitting headache has all disappeared, leaving only a void, vaguely, the fingertips are trembling slightly, the toes are floating gently, the chaotic and trancey touch seems to be standing in the clouds, I can't find my center of gravity, and all my perceptions and thoughts become blurred.
Is this reality or fiction? Is this a dream or an idea?
He watched him.
He also watched him.
A faint sadness and bitterness spread slowly, neither of them said a word, but they couldn't help their heart palpitations. They couldn't tell whether it was panic or fear, or joy or anxiety. Time and space have completely lost their meaning at this moment, and there is black around the line of sight, endless black, with no end in sight.
"You should say goodbye."
As the silence slowly spread, a third voice appeared, as if it had passed through his ears and sounded directly in the back of his mind. He and he turned their heads in unison, and then they saw Heather Kee appearing out of thin air. Ross.
Why is Heather here?
Why did Heather and Chu Jiashu appear at the same time again?
Why did Heather choose to appear at this time?
The previous question had not been answered, and the latter question had sprung up, and Renly immediately realized his clumsiness: without the cover of gentleman etiquette, without the sophistication of two worlds, and without the calm and repressive restraint, all his Emotions can't seem to be concealed, just like a newborn baby, everything is exposed.
Heather in front of him, wearing a long white lace dress,
Bright smile, bright eyes and thin shoulders, everything seems to have never changed, the power of time has forgotten her existence, so she still retains that innocent and playful face, time is forever frozen in ten. seven years old.
Heather's footsteps stopped five steps away, she waved her hand with a smile, and said hello, "Hey."
"..." Ren Li tried to say hello, but the words were stuck in his throat, and he couldn't make a sound. He thought he could face it calmly, he thought he was used to it, but the dull pain in his heart came back again. Ripples started, and then his eyes turned red.
In the end, Renly could only show a big smile, a bitter but bright smile, and nodded lightly at Heather. That's all.
Heather seemed to sense Renly's gaze, and her smile widened, "Renly, I'm fine, I'm serious, I'm fine now, don't worry about me. The most important issue now is you, you're not good, You're not good at all."
"I'm fine." Renly's smile was stained with difficulty, trying to hide his true emotions, but he found that he couldn't do it at all, and all his thoughts were revealed like this. Even if Heather didn't speak any further, Renly became embarrassed, shook his head helplessly, and lowered his eyes.
Then, Heather said again, "You should say goodbye."
"I've said it before," Renly tried to justify reflexively.
Heather was not in a hurry, but stared at Renly quietly, after a long pause, "Renly, you know you don't, otherwise, you wouldn't be stuck in the same predicament, time and time again. , over and over again, like a nightmare, haunted countless times to this day. He is here, and I am here too."
Renly raised his head, looked at Chu Jiashu, who was directly opposite, and at Heather on his right, then closed his eyes in pain, "I said goodbye more than once; but I don't know what to do. Continue waving goodbye, I don't know. I can't." Renly shook his head gently, every movement seemed to consume all his strength, "I can't."
"Renly, the real goodbye is not farewell, but embrace and acceptance, remembrance and remembrance. What we need is reconciliation with ourselves." Heather said softly, "I am here, he is here, we are always In. Farewell, does not mean forgetting, but a new beginning."
No one can say goodbye to the past completely.
Because, it is thanks to the past experiences, good and bad, positive and negative, smooth twists and turns, happiness and misery, that all of them are put together, and this makes the present self; therefore, when a person When a person begins to say goodbye to himself, he is equivalent to denying his own existence value. Even if it is a complete makeover, those memories are deeply ingrained, and the past is entangled like a nightmare forever and ever.
Renly is no exception.
Those memories and experiences that belonged to Chu Jiashu have made Renly the current Renly, those pains, those setbacks, those tortures, those depressions and those darkness, all of them are all deeply hidden in the depths of memory, the change of appearance. But in the end, it was the same soul. He thought he was calm, he thought he was used to it, he thought he was honest, but... he didn't.
He just started a whole new life.
Carefully hide those memories in the back of my mind, like a huge and ugly back scar, the wound healed after the pain, and then refused to turn back again, and did my best to run barefoot in front of me, as if the scar would be gone as long as I didn't look back. Existing, you can turn a new page, as if the scars never appeared.
The same goes for Heather.
But he was wrong.
From "Anti-Cancer Me" to "Transcendence", from "Gravity" to "Drunk Town Folk Ballad", entangled and trapped again and again, saying goodbye and turning around again and again, those memories have never really calmed down. , Ignoring does not mean disappearing, ignoring does not mean healing, and running away does not mean getting rid of.
Now, it's "Breaking Drummer" again. This lingering nightmare has remained in the back of my mind from beginning to end, never disappeared or subsided, coming and going again and again. The real goodbye is never finished.
The so-called farewell is not to completely cut off the past, but to open up your arms, embrace those scars and pains, embrace those hardships and ups and downs, admit the truest and most complete self, embrace all the beauty and ugliness, accept those who frustrate those fears Torture, but also accept those who are happy, those who are cheerful, those who are sincere, brave and firm to embrace themselves.
When you accept everything calmly, the farewell can truly end, complete the transformation, incarnate into a new self, open a new world, and start a new life.
It's like LeVinn Davis of "Drunken Country Ballad."
At the end of the story, Levine returned to the kerosene lamp bar again, came to the stage, and played the melodious and moving song "Walking Goodbye", but this time, without Mike's company, he was alone; He no longer complained about the world, no longer was angry with the world, and no longer felt sorry for himself. He opened his heart and truly accepted the fact that he was alone:
"One morning in the future, not too far away, you will call my name, and I will say goodbye and go away."
Le Vern accepted the fact, and the wound began to heal slowly; but, what should the future be like, he lost his direction, and could only wait for his mood to calm down and re-plan to start again, maybe he could find his way, maybe not, but at least, he I will not continue to paralyze myself.
So is he.
He should learn to be grateful, thanks for the ten years of bedridden, let him settle all the irritability, and know how to be satisfied with a little happiness; he should learn to be grateful, be grateful for the pain that bound the body, let him understand the meaning of life, let go His hands and feet are running wildly; he should learn to embrace, embrace the torment of those hurts, so that he has strong nerves to face all difficulties.
In those ten years, not all memories were painful and dark; in the last life, not all memories were bleak and dull. Only by truly embracing Chu Jiashu can we insist on Renly-Hall's choice.
He doesn't know what will happen in the future, but he knows that he is eager to make breakthroughs, he is eager to continue to improve, he is eager to achieve greatness, he will never give up easily, and he will never surrender, this life is still very long, he is still far away Far from enjoying it.
He should learn to act alone, throw away the crutches—
No longer deliberately distinguish the difference between Chu Jiashu and Renly, but embrace all memories calmly; no longer deliberately demonize the time on the hospital bed, but honestly face all moments; no longer deliberately try my best Running wildly, like a flood of beasts chasing behind you, lest you slow down a little bit, this life is like a dream come to nothing.
So did Andrew.
He has talent, but he is too young; he has talent, but he lacks experience; he has ability, but he needs time; he has the potential to surpass greatness, but he has to believe in himself.
Everything is contradictory, and he needs to accept the positives and the negatives. No longer get caught up in Fletcher's strength and madness, no longer forget the essence of drumbeats because of the pursuit of the ultimate speed, no longer forget the original intention of the beginning because of fierce competition, and no longer worry about gains and losses because of the achievement of great dreams. .
If Andrew binds himself, if Andrew imprisons himself, if Andrew rejects himself, then he will never be able to go further and can only stay in place, like a short-lived flower, after it blooms proudly, it quickly withers and withers, fleeting.
Break and stand.
But the premise is that you first admit to yourself. Andrew was like that, and so was he.
"We need to reconcile with ourselves."
Unprepared, Renly's heart was hit with a punch, another punch, the scabbed wounds burst open again, the blood bloomed into a flower, and the pain that went deep into the bone marrow and imprinted the soul was like a grand event. The fireworks show exploded heartily, destroying all of Renly's lines of defense.