Chapter 2871 I Am a Madman

Jack had never so clearly realized that what he was afraid of was not Mu Yuan's death, but what Mu Yuan's death had brought to him. When they separated, there were still many misunderstandings.

If they never met again in this life, he would live with him under a blue sky. Knowing that he was well was his second best wish, but what death brought to him was the regret of their lives.

The last meeting between him and Mu Yuan was not so beautiful.

These thoughts have been pestering him and making him feel guilty, regretful, and disgusted. Gradually, they have reached a dead end. He thought that what he was afraid of was Mu Yuan's death.

Standing in front of the window last night, he suddenly figured it out.

He was afraid that it was not Mu Yuan's death.

Whether he or Mu Yuan, they are both soldiers. The moment they put on their military uniforms, they are ready to sacrifice for their country, especially since they are working on the front line. If they are not careful, they will be buried in horse leather.

He once thought that the best ending in his life would be to sacrifice himself brilliantly for the country.

He thought to himself, Mu Yuan must have the same wish.

Who doesn't want to be alive?

But if they die, they must have no regrets, look up to heaven and bow to the earth. This is their ending.

Their love had to be ranked behind many things, and he could no longer manage their love. He didn't want the only person he loved to die with regrets and misunderstandings.

Even if he is going to die, he still wants Mu Yuan to know that I love you the most in this life. We love each other and we once held hands. I don't regret loving you and I don't want to hurt you.

We did not come to this world in vain. If Mu Yuan died at the bottom of the sea, he would never be able to forgive himself in his life.

His illness originated from here.

Bud had been treating him for so long, and all the things that he had been asked to figure out, and things that he had not let go of, he actually figured out last night without a teacher.

"Jack, is it worth it?" Beson asked, "If you like men, there are many people around me who can introduce you to them. Of course... I'm not saying that Lieutenant Colonel Mu Yuan is not good. I think Lieutenant Colonel Mu Yuan is pretty good. The... is..."

"No matter how good he is, he is not one of ours!" Lehman said. "The colors of the military uniforms are different, how can we fall in love!"

Ruilin acted like a quail and didn't speak. He felt that...if feelings could be controlled, it wouldn't be love. It was a private matter and there was nothing to be advised. Unlike Lehman, who regarded Mu Yuan as his lifelong enemy.

"Whether it's worth it or not!" Jack smiled, "Even if the motherland turns into a puddle of mud, you will be willing to sacrifice to protect it. It doesn't matter whether it's worth it or not. I'm willing to do it."

Money can't buy me. I am willing.

"I don't think Lieutenant Colonel Mu Yuan loves you that much." Lehman said dissatisfiedly. "We broke up when we said we were going to break up. We won't look back if we don't look back. How many times have you made excuses to communicate with him, but he just can't hide." When we met, he didn’t take you seriously at all. He didn’t leave now because he wanted to cure you. When you get better, he will leave.”

"Lehman!" Bethan yelled angrily.

Jack is ill. Doesn't it irritate him to say this?

"It doesn't matter." Jack's footsteps never stopped, and he ran forward slowly, "I know, so some time ago, I was stubbornly unwilling to accept treatment, so I wanted to tie him up. To be honest, I have had more cruel things. I have had many crazy and vicious ideas, and every thought makes me eager to try and impatient, so that he will never be able to leave me."

"For example, he is sick and his internal organs are all injured. As long as he doesn't take good care of himself, cloudy days and rainy days and climate change will make him uncomfortable. As long as I move my hands and feet a little bit, Xiaoyuan will never think about being on the front line in this life. These old injuries are not fatal, and he will not doubt it. It is normal for him to be injured so badly. It is normal to have some sequelae, and it is normal to have some sequelae. It is not my fault. When I went to buy crabs and lobsters, I did it on purpose, I bought more..."

"I know Xiaoyuan can't stand the temptation. The doctor said that those things will inflame the wound and make him unable to recover from his internal injuries. If there is more wind, his body will be disabled. It doesn't matter if you eat a little, but it will be very serious if you eat too much. Trouble, he couldn't eat cold food at all, so I did that...watching him steal a crab, I was angry and a little secretly happy. "

"Just a little bit, I crippled him. That night he had a low fever at night and the wound was inflamed, but he didn't wake up. I applied medicine to him and listened to his nightmares and scolding James, and then... called me His name!" Jack's eyes turned red, and he was caught off guard by the crazy regret at that moment. "He said he wanted to see me before he died. At that moment, I wanted to kill myself."

The fifth update is exactly 6k, haha, I don’t owe more updates, I will update if I can, and we’ll talk about it the day after tomorrow! ! I work so hard, do you still want to hide your monthly tickets?