Chapter 842 We Are Not Strong Enough

It's not a walk, it's not playing in the snow, it's more like an extreme sport.

This rural village is sparsely populated, and the few footprints you can see are all from people who went up the mountain to catch pheasants. If there is no one in front to clear the way, you may step on the 20-centimeter snow from time to time. That feeling is quite sour and refreshing. If you are not careful, you will lose your balance and have a close contact with the snow on the ground.

Ye Qing was sweating all over, and she was looking at the low mountain of several hundred meters before. She walked for more than 30 minutes. The sweat in her clothes began to contact the cold air outside through the gap at the neck. Ye Qing didn't even need to speak to see the heat coming out of her head.

Gritting her teeth, the yoga and running she did on weekdays were not enough to support Ye Qing to thrive in such an environment. She just didn't want to speak. The stubbornness deep in her heart matched the current situation. Facing the future life that she could see through at a glance, her already cold state became even colder, and she looked like she was in a state of despair. Her body was cold. She didn't know how long she had been sleeping last night. She had one dream after another. When she woke up in the morning, she felt that her body was cold. When she touched it, her skin was cold.

For a moment, she felt that her emotions would not fluctuate too much in the future. Life was like this. She would go out with her friends when she had time. Maybe she could feel her existence by seeing the world.

What she thought in her heart, she herself didn't believe that it would coincide with Chen Hao. Walking on the snow, her sweat had penetrated her clothes. She felt her own temperature again. Her hand was held by him. The power transmitted made her feel at ease. She didn't have to worry about not being able to walk. He was there.

If...

Thinking of this if, Ye Qing's eyes dimmed again. There are no ifs in life. The first if is if Chen Hao can have something happen with her. No matter if it is a big star or a best friend, she doesn't mind sticking to love in the end.

If it is not love, there is no if. Perhaps, giving herself to him is the if that should exist. If you don't want to have regrets in this life, let yourself have him once, even if it is only once.

"Okay, we're here."

The destination is a few dozen meters above the foot of the low mountain. There is a col that blocks the wind and snow outside. Turning around, you can see a cave inside that doesn't look like it was formed naturally, but more like it was dug by humans.

Only when you get closer do you realize that it is really made by humans. There are shields on top to prevent rolling, and there are fixed supporting wooden stakes in the cave.

"This is our base when we were young. Nowadays, there are too many things for children to play with. There are fewer and fewer people who come here to play for a day. Even if they come, they will not choose to come in winter."

In the valley, in front of the cave, some branches have been piled up. From a distance, Chen Gang can be seen transporting branches here, while Kang Yanren has disappeared.

In the cave, Chen Hao easily set up a pile of fire, with a crackling sound of burning. The ice and snow on the branches made the flame always feel lacking in power.

"Come on, sit for a while, this is our homemade warm stone." A large bluestone, Chen Hao spread a piece of fur in his backpack on the bluestone, Ye Qing didn't care about the cold, he was exhausted and sat down directly, untied the scarf and hat, people always like to "reduce the burden" on their bodies, don't like to wear a lot of clothes, they will feel constrained and can't breathe.

Chen Hao filled the fire very well, and then he took out a worn-out iron bucket from the cave, no, it was an iron stove made of an iron bucket, and opened the backpacks that Chen Gang and Kang Yan threw in the cave. One of them was filled with a lot of charcoal.

Unable to feel the cool air under him, Ye Qing stood up and touched the bluestone. It was smooth and warm. He didn't know what was going on, so he got in front of the fire and suddenly realized that he didn't know how the bluestone was made. A deep ridge was dug out from the bottom. The fire was next to the bluestone. A certain amount of hot air rolled into the deep ridge. Although it wouldn't make the bluestone hot, it would dry it and conduct a little heat.

There was meat, fish, pots, outdoor tableware, and a wild chicken that Kang Yan touched. As a local household, as for whether to let them eat or not, Chen Hao and Chen Gang ate a lot when they were young, and never thought there was anything wrong with eating it. Whether it tasted good or not was one thing, and they enjoyed the feeling of the wild game.

After Chen Gang and Kang Yan brought enough branches to serve as firewood, they returned first. Ye Qing walked for more than 30 minutes, but it took them more than 10 minutes to walk.

"Let's not cook the fish. Let's stew a wild chicken, put some potatoes and mushrooms, and put a big beef skewer on it. Let's grill it for fun?"

Facing such an environment, Ye Qing became interested. After taking a rest, she also followed and bustled around. When Chen Hao took out a small wine pot and took a sip, she also grabbed it. After taking a sip of the spicy liquor, she felt like she was burning. The little coolness that remained before was completely dispelled by the liquor.

While handling all the ingredients in a familiar way, Chen Hao muttered and said some words that he didn't know whether others liked to hear or not. He was very excited and reminisced about the past. Anyone who talked about the past that he thought was interesting would talk endlessly.

"When we were little, Gangzi and I would sometimes leave our friends and bring Erzi here. We could get some game and some wine from home. After we were full, we could lie down on the warmed stone and take a nap. I wouldn't trade it for anything."

"Later, there were game arcades and Internet cafes, and fewer and fewer people came here, and I didn't want to come here anymore. My eldest sister just went to work to make some money, so she would secretly give me some every month, and my parents also I have always been tolerant enough. I am not rich but I am not short of money. Gangzi left, and Aunt Dongmei took her second son away. Many young people in the village left, and I spent all day in the Internet cafe. I thought about what would happen in the future. I ate instant noodles and sat cross-legged on a sofa chair to watch movies and play games. I didn’t feel very happy or miserable. I never knew what to do on the second, third, or even short term. I’ve thought about it, but occasionally an idea pops up—let’s have enough fun first.”

"Do you know? Before that incident, I would have the same dream every day when I was playing in an Internet cafe or going home and sleeping. At that time, I explained to myself that I watched too many movies and always thought that one day I could be a Being an actor is so enjoyable. You can experience different lives in different movies. From time to time, you can also go back to ancient times and go to the war years. At that time, I felt that being an actor was the most awesome profession in the world. Maybe from then on Now, I have a dream.”

"After the accident, my family was completely devastated. No one said anything about me. Some people praised me, saying that if I have a man in my family, I won't be bullied in eight villages. Then if I go to the Internet cafe to play, someone will give me a hand. When I stop smoking, some people still call me brother. Even the owner of the Internet cafe will call me brother from time to time during lunch and dinner. There are many days when I don’t want to go home and see my parents’ disguised sadness. I don’t want my eldest sister to go on a blind date for me with a man who everyone says is not good enough for her, and I don’t want to face my second sister’s sad eyes.”

"I went to Yanjing. It was called chasing my dream. In fact, I just wanted to escape and sleep peacefully. I don't think I did anything wrong. If I hadn't cut down those people If they were beaten away, they would bully our family in the future, but the price for cutting them down was compensation, leaving our family impoverished. I didn’t understand it for a long time. Even during the more than three years in Yanjing, I didn’t turn this corner until a certain day. One day I felt enlightened, and I realized what was going on. No one was at fault. It was just because I was not strong enough that I felt helpless when encountering things. "

Chen Hao started cooking the pheasants by boiling water, plucking the feathers, cutting them, cleaning them up, and putting them into a pot to stew.

From cutting the beef into pieces, putting it on big skewers, and handing it to Ye Qing to bake on the rack, this process lasted for half an hour. He was always talking, rambling and saying whatever he wanted. Ye Qing was always quiet. Listening quietly, after he took over the barbecue work, Ye Qing sat on the bluestone, resting his chin on his knees, looking at him intently from the side, listening to his fragmentary thoughts, without focusing on his cold eyes, Gradually there was some clarity.

Do I have no extravagant hopes for the future?

Am I afraid to face the situation?

Do I want to escape the future?

Yes, the reason is, he has already said, it is that we ourselves are not strong enough. He became an Internet celebrity anchor, a big star, and became more and more powerful. This power is reflected in the outside world. And me? As long as I strengthen my heart, the future will not be about firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar, tea, or a simple marriage without freedom, and the whole person will be unhappy. Maybe, I really should live for myself, and Ye Zi will not owe anything to my family anymore. I don’t owe anything anymore.

"I want to visit every corner of the world."

Ye Qing finally spoke.

"Then you need to have a healthy body and a certain ability to protect yourself. The rest is to learn how to become a senior tourist. Apart from that, all other problems are not a problem for you."

There is another sentence that Chen Hao feels he should say, but as a man, facing a girl who has a good impression of him and is even willing to let him kiss her, if he says that sentence, I am afraid he will feel like a bird. The beast is gone.

After eating and drinking, we sat side by side on the bluestone. Chen Hao told stories about his travels. Ye Qing listened and asked some questions that she didn't understand from time to time. The sky also darkened. Chen Gang and Kang Yan came over to pick them up after they left.

Chen Hao still spoke: "How do you know that in your future, the person who will definitely become a part of your future life will not give up everything and choose to travel around the world with you?"

Ye Qing was stunned. After a long time, he showed a bright smile. There was a bit of playfulness in the smile: "Do you know that if you become a saint, you will lose the opportunity tonight. This is my first time." , I think it’s not a loss if I give it to you, now, tsk, okay, 88, saint.”

Touching the cheek that had been kissed, Chen Hao gently slapped his cheek with his palm: "I told you to pretend."