743. Chapter 743 I’m Sorry, I Shouldn’t Just Think About Myself
Su Rourou's heart suddenly hurt: she only remembered how sad and sad she was, but she never thought about how he got here all these years? Orphaned and widowed, helpless and displaced from his hometown...his life was probably as difficult as she could have imagined.
"I know, you have been blaming me, blaming me for leaving without saying goodbye, blaming me for not contacting you." Luo Yichen's Adam's apple rolled slightly, his voice was slightly choked, but his eyes were still closed, "But do you know You know, I forced myself to leave you and not contact you, but actually... I was in more pain than you were. You said that you were willing to endure hardships with me, and you didn't mind - but, I minded... I. I don’t want you to live a homeless life with me, and I don’t want you to be looked at strangely by others because of me.”
Su Rourou's eyes were a little wet, and a tear slid down the corner of her eye and fell on the pillow, leaving a mark of varying depths on it.
"When I first arrived in the United States, I had to go to school and work part-time to earn my own tuition and living expenses...I had to go to class during the day and work all night at night. Sometimes I didn't close my eyes for the whole day...No Not long after, my mother suddenly fell ill due to years of depression. At that time, I almost went crazy... I don’t know how I survived. Every time I was about to collapse, I will think of you."
"I want to make myself stronger and better, and be able to give you the happiness you want. At that time, I can return to your side... So, whenever I can't support it anymore, I will I keep telling myself in my heart that as long as I persist a little longer, I will be one step closer to the day I see you. Rourou, do you know how important you are to me? You are the only love in my life. The person is also the person I am willing to protect for the rest of my life..."
"Actually, that time at your house was not our first reunion. I have returned to China a long time ago. I want to see you, but I am also afraid of seeing you. Because I am afraid... I am afraid that you will not forgive me, and I am even more afraid. You already have someone else by your side, so I can only hide in a corner that you can't see and pay attention to you silently. When I saw you at your house that day, you knew that I was there. How happy are you? But...you still refuse to forgive me."
"I understand, please stop talking... In fact, I have forgiven you a long time ago." Su Rourou's tears couldn't stop flowing down again, "It's just... I'm just angry that you lied to me..."
Luo Yichen tentatively reached out his hand in the darkness and gently wiped away the tears on her face: "I admit that this matter is my fault. But... I'm just too scared and too uneasy. Ever since I was little, , I am confident about everything, but only about you... I have no confidence at all. "
"Seeing you getting so close to Ke Shaoze and He Yan, and thinking that they have been by your side for so many years, I feel nervous and scared for no reason. I'm afraid that in an inadvertent moment, you will follow them. ...When I think about you being with other men, I go crazy..."
"I said, Ke Shaoze and I are just good brothers, and He Yanzhi and I are just good sisters. We were before, we are now, and we will be in the future..." Su Rourou emphasized in a low voice.
Luo Yichen seemed to have not heard her words and said to himself: "Since I was a child, I always like to lie to you and tease you... But why do you only see the surface of things? Can't you Feel my love for you with your heart? Even if I cheat on you occasionally, it's just because I love you so much... I don't want to lose you... I really don't want to lose you..."
Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes again, and Su Rourou wrapped her arms around his waist unconsciously: "Luo Yichen, I'm sorry... I shouldn't just think about myself."