Chapter 61: Endless Fun Fighting Against Oneself

late at night,

The bloody moonlight quietly enveloped the bloody earth.

Yae Sakura walked and wandered aimlessly in a world of darkness and blood.

She appears to have no weapons on her body.

It seems that there is no distinction between day and night here, as if everything is full of unknowns and mysteries, and danger seems to be everywhere.

The "air" is filled with the smell of erosion and decay, which is suffocating.

The surroundings were very quiet, like the sound of footsteps behind her, but there was no sound, but Yae Sakura's walking was obviously silent.

In the shadows, countless "eyes" were greedily "gazing" at the beautiful cherry-colored figure. They were a group of strange, twisted and indescribable monsters, numerous and messy, crowded together like a colony of ants.

The darkness seemed to be made of them.

The appearance of the monsters looks roughly the same, but they are all different. They are made of all the flesh and blood of different individuals that can make humans feel uncomfortable. Their densely packed eyeballs are like lotus pods, and there are countless squirming and soft things. , slender organs like tentacles...

In short, no matter how disgusting it looks, if this kind of monster appears in real life, it will definitely make people who see it feel nauseated and want to vomit, because their unique little appearance looks... Bathing in the middle is even more disgusting.

The absent-minded Yae Sakura turned a blind eye to the sight in the darkness. She had long been accustomed to the eyes that wanted to "eat" and "get" her.

Yae Sakura often comes to this bloody world. This is her dream, or more accurately, it is the deepest part of her consciousness.

After wandering for an unknown amount of time, Xiaoba finally arrived at her destination again. This was the end point she would eventually reach no matter how she walked or which "road" she took.

Here, a figure who looks very similar to Yae Sakura is imprisoned. Her appearance is different from Hachi in only three ways. Her hair and pupils are blood red, and the whites of her eyes are black.

She is part of the Honkai Will, a believer in "Honkai", and the Herrscher Consciousness of Yae Sakura.

The Herrscher consciousness is not yet mature but already conscious.

She was named: Fei by Yae Sakura.

Fei was forced to kneel on the ground, her body restrained by "chains" similar to blood-colored vines, with small and sharp "spikes" on them.

"Keke~ Welcome home, my dear."

Fei, who seemed a little evil, smiled sinisterly: "You are becoming more and more beautiful! My lovely Yae Sakura, you are looking more and more delicious.

"It's a pity that our damn father is so 'blind' that he hasn't noticed your hints and intentions. We are really pitiful~

"You really failed, little fox.

"However, this is not a good thing for us, is it?

"Kekeke~"

The expressionless Yae Sakura stretched out two slender white fingers and poked Fei's eyes out.

She hated these eyes.

Xiaoba did not wipe the blood on his fingers.

Fei, who was shedding blood and tears, still had no change in her expression. Over the years, she had long been accustomed to this kind of pain, and even more accustomed to what Yae Sakura had done to her.

"Gurgling~ It hurts~ It's so dark~Gurgling~"

Fei looked a little nervous, and she continued to chatter and laugh: "Can't you be gentler to me? I am you! If you hate me, doesn't it mean you hate your truest self?

"This is not good. You should try to like me, like yourself, and love me as much as I love you.

"Besides, you are so fragile, and you are here to ask for help, right?! Is this the attitude of asking for help?

"Geez~ It makes no sense!

"Does a kind-hearted weakling like me deserve to be bullied? Haha~ Sure enough, human nature is exactly the same as that of animals that prey on the weak and the strong. They are extremely dirty. Even I am no exception~

"I guess you must be feeling uncomfortable again, right?

"After all, our stupid dad didn't notice your secret hints and pursuits during dinner.

"Pitiful.

"It's so sad.

"Keke~ You must be feeling sad right now, right?! Otherwise you wouldn't be able to get here.

"Actually, it's not necessary. It's really not necessary. Why should you feel sad? Isn't your life ridiculous enough?

"Giggle, giggle~ so funny~ giggle~"

As Fei's words fell, the monsters in the distance who dared not approach Xiao Hachi also made bursts of unpleasant and harsh sounds, breaking the dead silence of this conscious space. They seemed to be laughing at Yae Sakura.

Fei is different from Xiaoba, who doesn't like to talk. She may be a bit talkative.

Yae Sakura: "..."

"Giggle~ Why don't you speak? You seem to be more reticent today than before~"

Fei Yin Yang said angrily: "Oh~ I understand, because you can't refute what I said, what I said is the truth, haha~ You also think your life is ridiculous, right?

“It’s a ridiculous life, so ridiculous that you don’t even know who the person you really like is.

"You will only deceive your own feelings, the hypnotic self said, the person you like is our father.

“Use self-deception to establish an emotional sustenance for yourself to survive.

"You are as stupid as that bell, really stupid.

"You are so much like her, even more so than Ying's mother. You and Ling have the same feelings for your father.

Either way, they all hypnotize themselves and create love out of hatred.

"you……"

"No." Yae Sakura interrupted, "I like my father, from the first time I met him."

"Keke~ Do you like it? Stop being ridiculous."

Fei seemed to have heard the funniest joke, and the smile on her face became even more exaggerated: "Yae Sakura, if you really like dad, why doesn't he appear in this world?

"Do you think I don't know that those monsters in the darkness are the humans in your eyes?

Gu Zhe: "Presumably, our father is among them, right?"

"Do you like those disgusting monsters?"

"Don't change the concept secretly, that is the human being in your eyes." Yae Sakura said.

"Giggle~ Aren't I you?"

Feiyin smiled and said: "I am the most essential you, no need to quibble, you know, no one understands you better than me.

“You must hate our dad in your heart.

"You hate that he doesn't accept your love, you hate that he saved you, a useless waste, and didn't let you die and be free.

"Actually, you don't have to hate him because your heart is already dead.

"Oh~ No, no, no, that's not right! Sorry, I made a mistake just now. You should hate him because he was so incompetent that he didn't let you get relief.

"Your life has been dead since the day you were taken away by the mentally retarded Bai Wuchang.

“Your life ceased to be real from the moment you were abandoned by your stupid and disgusting biological father.

“Keke~ It’s so sad and unaware!

"You were harmed by the insulted humans, who destroyed your originally happy and real life, but you didn't take revenge on the humans, but instead used force to protect them. How cheap!

"Compared to a fox, you are more like a dog tamed by humans. They persecute you, but you are willing to look after their homes and protect them.

“Kekeke~ It’s so ridiculous~keke~

"I feel so sorry for you! Dear Yae Sakura, dear me."

Furui Muha's Yae Sakura said calmly: "You don't have to feel sorry for me, you should feel sorry for yourself.

"Compared to my life, your existence is more false and ridiculous.

"You don't even have parents, you can only unilaterally recognize my parents as your parents, and they don't even know you.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I made a mistake. You have a father, a 'father' named 'Hengkai', you just don't have a mother.

"I may be very mean, but you are meaner and more like a dog than me.

"I was hurt by humans several times when I was young, but think about yourself. You have been hurt by me since you were born, and I have never stopped persecuting you.

"And what I don't understand is that you can still love me from the bottom of your heart. Do you think you are cheap or not?"

Just as Fei knows Yae Sakura best, Hachi also knows her best.

Yae Sakura continued to say in a calm tone: "Your current fate is all caused by 'Honkai', but not only do you not hate Honkai, but you also 'work' for Him wholeheartedly. Do you think you are cheap?

"Ha~

"Honkai has not come to save you, nor has it abandoned you. Your existence seems to be a 'spare tire' for Him.

"How pitiful."

"..."

Xiaoba's words were very sharp. For a moment, Fei's thoughts were a little confused.

It seems that Yae Sakura is telling the truth? !

what happened? !

How to do it? !

Am I not advising her to betray humanity? Why did she make me a traitor to the Honkai Impact?

Suddenly, Fei felt that her life seemed more ridiculous and pitiful than Xiaoba's...

The bloody world fell into a brief silence.

Shao Yan,

Seeing that it was almost over, Yae Sakura said softly: "I'm sorry, what I did to you before I went too far was too much, and I know I was wrong.

“I am not here today to seek your help, nor am I here to deprive you of your power.

“I just came to apologize.

"I have always imposed negative emotions on you, making you bear burdens that you should not have, but you still love me, which makes me feel very ashamed.

"You should be able to feel my feelings.

"I promise that I will bear all the negative emotions with you in the future. Not only that, I will also share the happiness with you.

"I'll be good to you."

"..."

Fei fell into silence. After a while, her expression changed slightly for the first time and became ugly.

"You want to train me?!"

"Um."

Yae Sakura nodded and admitted this shamelessly: "If I can't even 'conquer' you, but I'm 'dominated' by you, how can I fight against my mother?"

"Giggle, ok, ok, conquer, right? Okay~" Fei said with a sinister smile, "Then you can untie my restraints now."

"I just said that I would share happiness with you. I didn't say that I would not restrain and torture you."

Yae Sakura paused and continued: "What's more, don't you also enjoy it?"

"..."

"Bad" people can often live better lives. Xiaoba's character may not be as good as Herrscher's consciousness.

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How to evaluate it?

It's all Wutong's fault.

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